Authors: Courtney Milan
“Ash was telling me,” Mark said, “about how he got Lord Talton to agree to take his side in the upcoming battle in Parliament. You
do
know about the pending legislation, don't you?”
Her jaw set. Ash could not guess whether that was because of Mark's assumption that she might not know
what must have been basic household gossip, or because even now she still held some unfortunate loyalty to the Dalrymples. She gave a jerky nod, though, and Mark continued.
“Well, Talton had refused to even see him, andâ”
Ash held up his hand. “Miss Lowell doesn't want to hear about my r
uthlessness.
” He emphasized that last word.
Margaret looked down, her hands clasped together in a tight grip. “I suppose you found a way to charm him,” she said. There was a hint of bitterness as she spoke. Was she annoyed with him for leaving her without saying his goodbyes, or for disrupting their renewed acquaintance with Mark as a chaperone? He needed to speak with her alone to find out.
And no sooner had he thought that, than thoughts of what he would do with her when he found her alone intruded. Last time he'd had her here, he'd had her skirts to her waist, and his hand between her thighs.
God. He was a lustful idiot.
“You know,” Margaret said, cutting into his reverie, “I don't think you're ruthless at all. I think it's a sham. You pretend at it quite well, but what harsh thing have you ever done?”
“You've never seen me crossed,” Ash said softly.
Mark made a sour sound. “You've never seen
me
crossed,” he said. “Smite said onceâ”
But his brother shut his mouth and glanced across the table, as if thinking better of completing that sentence. That abrupt stop felt like a fist to Ash's throat. He'd never been able to read his other brother, and Smite was closemouthed on all things.
Ash sometimes suspected that Smite held him in acute dislike. He had every reason to do so.
“What did Smite say?” Ash choked those words out past the ache in his gut.
“Smite said you were our personal avenging angel.” Mark dropped his eyes guiltily.
Well. It could have been worse. It could have been a lot worse. “That's true.” He met Margaret's gaze and wagged a finger at her. “Cross my brothers, and I'll salt the earth under your feet. I'll raze your defenses and reduce everything you love to rubble. There. Now you've been warned.”
She smiled. There was a touch of unease to that tentative curl of her lips.
“Oh, you think he's joking?” Mark said. “You cannot have forgotten, Miss Lowell, the circumstances that brought us here. Thisâ” he waved his hands expansively at the room around them “âthis is Ash's revenge on the Dalrymples.”
Margaret's face shuttered. There was no other word for the pallor that crept across her skin, the sensation that she had just slammed the storm windows shut in preparation for a great gale. Her body drew subtly in on itself. “Oh?” That single word wasn't a query, but another line of defense.
But Mark didn't understand that. Likely, Mark hadn't spent time studying the moods that crept across her face. He didn't understand her vulnerabilities. He didn't understand that she was still a wild creature, a little hesitant to eat from his hand. Ash cast Margaret an apologetic glance, but she wasn't looking his way.
Mark leaned forwards. “He can't forget some small slight, delivered years ago. One that was met with more than sufficient punishment at the time. He saw the opportunity to bring the Dalrymples downâ”
She would think Ash was the most capricious fellow
ever if Mark continued to tell the story in that way. “You call that
some small slight?
Miss Lowell, judge the truth for yourself. My brother sent me a note when he was six months at Eton, begging me to take him home. Naturallyâ” Ash heard the scorn in his own voice “âI undertook to ride out to see him. Not to take him homeâI was determined that he would have the education that I did not.”
She nodded, understanding what Mark did not know.
“As I recall,” Mark put in, “you read me the most astonishing lecture on my duty to my name and my person. Afterwards, I was too frightened to even so much as suggest leaving.”
“You see,” Ash said, “he'd suffered a thousand indignities from the older boysâshoves when nobody was looking, little cruelties and taunts delivered in lonely halls. He was small for his age, then, and quiet.”
She watched him, her hands clasped in a white-knuckled grip.
“And he was a Turner,” Ash continued. “It wasn't enough that Parford let my sister die. Edmund wanted everyone to know that no matter what the bloodlines proclaimed, Mark counted as no kin of his.”
She cast her eyes down to the carpet. Her jaw set.
Ash smiled grimly. “My brother begged me to let him come home. I refused and told him that under no circumstances would I allow him to do so. I walked away from him.”
“As you should have,” Mark commented.
“A few weeks later, I had this notion I should go back.” It had been another one of his
instincts,
and it had practically screamed for him to return. “When I got there⦠I have never been so furious in my life.” He
could feel his fury returning, just thinking of it. “They broke his nose. They blacked his eyes. Three fingers on his right handâ”
“But,” Mark put in quietly, “you didn't see the other boys.”
“Ah, yes. The other boys. Edmund Dalrymple and four of his friends had taken him on together.”
Margaret looked at him in shocked dismay. She shook her head. “It couldn't have been. Together? Butâ”
“Don't tell me what could have been. It was, in violation of all gentlemanly conduct. Apparently, they had been trying to bully him. And apparently, he hadn't given in.”
“This happened years ago,” Mark put in. “I see no reason to think of it. But has Ash forgotten?”
“Have they let me forget? There've been no physical attacks since then. But tell us truly, Mark. Has Edmund ever forgotten you? And SmiteâRichard was never so uncouth as to attack, but I know why Smite moved to Bristol, instead of taking articles in London as we had once discussed.”
Mark shook his head earnestly. “Really, Ash. It doesn't bother meâwhy must you take it so seriously? I try not to spare either of them my attention. I've better things to spend my time worrying about.”
Ash looked up. “They have spread rumors. Innuendo. Edmund once hired a caricaturist to portray Mark as aâ”
“Ash, really.”
But his brother's admonition only heightened Ash's resolve. “For years, they used their station and their place in society as a way to humiliate my brothers. So, yes. I'll take their station. I'll take their place in society.
And I'll have no mercy whatsoever for the Dalrymples. If I can make their lives miserable in response, I will. And⦔ Ash felt a wolfish smile play across his face. “I can.”
Margaret stared at him, white-faced.
“Don't tell me you agree with Mark,” he said in surprise. “Turn the other cheek, and all that nonsense. If someone threatens me and my own, I won't rest until he's been taught to leave well enough alone.”
“But what⦔ She stopped, looking down, and then looked up at him, her eyes filled with inexplicable entreaty. “What about the innocents who are hurt by your actions?”
“What innocents?” He spat the word.
Her eyes fluttered down again. “The duchess.”
“Thatâ¦that was unfortunate. In truth, if it had come to it, if she'd survived⦠I don't want true innocents to suffer. Hell, I'd make some provision for the Dalrymples. I would certainly have done something for her.”
“If you had thought about it,” Mark put in gently.
Margaret's lips were almost white. “And what about Parford's daughter?”
“Parford's daughter.” Ash shook his head in confusion. Then he realized she must have known the woman, conversed with her during the course of the duchess's illness. “Wasn't she married off earlier? I seem to recall hearing about an engagement, years ago. I don't keep abreast of such matters. I suppose she must have suffered some embarrassment, then. But I also suppose she was used to the feeling. Wasn't she the girl who fainted in the fountain, her first year out?”
A flush touched Margaret's cheeks. “I find it quite odd that you can be so kind to mere servants, and yet so
cavalier to everyone else. Had you simply not thought of how your actions would affect everyone connected with the Dalrymples?”
“What does it matter?” he asked in bewilderment. “She married some other fellow. She's well and truly out of it.”
“No. I don't believe she married.”
Ash snorted. “Let me guess. She fainted before she said âI do.'”
Margaret didn't smile. Ash had the feeling that he'd fallen into a world where down had become up and right had turned into left. “Oh, come now. That was at least a little clever. Whatever her name might beâ Anna, is it?”
He should have known, but then, how was he to discover such things? Consult Debrett's?
He took a deep breath. “I'm sure she is a perfectly acceptable specimen of a lady, if you like such things. But you must admit, she must be a poor creature to topple over so easily.
If
she did not do it to draw attention to herself.”
Margaret met his gaze for the first time that evening. It was then he realized what lay behind her uneaseâa cold, inexplicable fury. “Let me guess,” she said. “You have never worn a corset and a ball gown for seven hours.”
He grinned casually. “Now
there's
a daring wager. Even if I did, I shouldn't lace them so tightly as to squeeze out my breath, no matter what the occasion. If someone is such a slave to fashionâ”
“It's not merely the lacing. Ball gowns aren't laced as tightly as some other dresses; you need to allow more room for movement. It's the heat. And the layers. Do you know how a ball gown is assembled?”
This was what happened when he used his brother as a shield. He ought to have met her alone and convinced her to take port with him. Now, instead of getting pleasantly drunk and snuggly, Miss Lowell was lecturing him on the construction of ball gowns. He must have lost his mind. He'd certainly lost his touch.
“Yes,” he said in a dry tone of voice. “I know how ball gowns are made. They are made of fabric.”
She snorted. “And?”
“Thread? Ribbons? Buttons?”
She simply looked at him, one eyebrow raised.
“Whalebone? Metal? No, waitânow I see. They are composed of lead, and are purposely made heavy, to force women to walk in a slow and elegant fashion.”
She still didn't laugh. “They are sewn in place. That means there is no way to remove one once the ball has begun. Once it is on, it stays on for the entire evening. Think about what that means. One cannot simply relieve oneself at the drop of one's breeches. One cannot, in fact, use the necessary at all. So before a ball, ladies do not drink or eat anything. Not for hours. During a ball, one can only wet one's lips.”
He glanced at her. “Really?”
Somehow, that tone of disbelief made her blush, too. “Indeed. I've heard the maids talk about it. Eight hours on an empty stomach, whirling about, clad in seven petticoats. You would topple over, too.”
“I had no idea society ballrooms were so barbarous.” He said it with a smile, but still Margaret didn't return the expression.
“No doubt,” she said with a lift of her chin, “you would think
me
a poor creature, too, if you swathed me up in layers of silk and withheld all water, just to see what would happen. I daresay I wouldn't last the
evening. Think, Mr. Turner, before you speak. If you rely on rumor, you will never understand.”
“You wouldn't collapse.”
“You can't possibly know that.”
He stood up, taking a step towards her. “You don't comprehend what I mean, Margaret. You're stronger than that. You'd reach deep down into yourselfâjust as you're doing nowâand you would look the possibility in the face and tell it to go to the devil. Yes, just as you're doing with me, at this moment. Some people crumble when they're dealt a blow. You might stagger a bit, I suppose. But you? You would never collapse.”
“I wish I could hate you,” she said passionately.
“Yes,” he remarked. “It would be more convenient for you. Sadly, you've found it quite impossible.”
She stared at him. The corner of her lip twitchedânot quite a smile, but the shadow of one.
“When he's like this, Miss Lowell,” Mark offered from his seat on the sofa, “I usually take it upon myself to stamp out in a rage. It's impossible to argue with him, once he starts asserting his correctness as a matter of unarguable certainty. And if you stay, he'll turn your thoughts around until you don't know right from wrong. Take it from me. Ash is both perfectly right, and horridly wrong. And he will never, ever understand what he's said to upset you.”
“What
did
I say?” he inquired.
She gave him that lookâthat one that said,
If you don't know, I shan't be telling you.
Ash hated that look.
And then she stood. “Must I stamp? Or can I sweep out gracefully?”
“By all means, sweep.” Mark stood for her, and Margaret gave him a swift curtsy. She didn't even
glance at Ash on her way out. Not quite what Ash had intended for the eveningâsending her from the room in a confused flurry. It wasn't precisely
bad
that they had arguedâthe more pleasant it would be to make it up to her later. But it wasn't what he'd hoped for.
And it just went to prove: one might think one knew a great deal about a woman. One might tell her one's darkest secrets. And she was still going to make one's head spin about, by caring about things that made absolutely no sense. He heaved a sigh. He wasn't quite sure when or where the conversation had gone wrong, or what precisely he'd said to make it veer off course with such vehemence.