Untold (7 page)

Jared did not look at Kami, and Lillian would not listen to her for the rest of the meeting. Kami could not face the idea of going home and confronting her mother about her lies after the Lillian Lynburn Sorcerer Appreciation Hour, so she figured she would go stay at Angela’s again tonight. She whispered the suggestion in Angela’s ear as they were getting up to go, and when Angela nodded Kami pulled her out of the room fast.

“What are you doing?” Angela complained. “Are you trying to make me jog? You know I think people who jog should be shot at midday.”

“Why at midday?” Kami asked absently.

“There’s no need to ever get up at dawn,” Angela told her. “Not even to shoot joggers. We’re going to leave my brother behind, Kami; he is one of life’s born saunterers.”

“He knows his way home,” Kami said callously. “Failing that, he’s a personable lad—some kind lady is bound to take him in and treat him well.” She was dragging Angela down the cobbled street, but she heard the door of the inn bang shut. She looked determinedly ahead, pretending she found the High Street fascinating.

“Miss Glass,” called out Lillian Lynburn. “A word?” Kami stopped and turned. She felt relieved—she was better equipped to deal with Lillian right now than either of the Lynburn boys—but she was also puzzled. “A word?” she repeated. “We were in the same room for two hours and you barely let me speak.”

“As I said, I have no interest in my fight against Rob being a team effort,” said Lillian. “I only came here because my boy asked me to—and he only asked because he knew it was what you wanted.”

“Yes,” Kami told her. “This evening was all my dreams come true. I can never get enough of people looking down their noses at me. You do it beautifully. I wish you had two noses, so that you could look at me down both.”

Lillian shut her eyes briefly, as if she hoped when she opened them she would behold a world in which people never said ridiculous things.

“I want to make a bargain with you,” she said. “You’re keen to be the intrepid girl reporter, aren’t you?”

“Golly gosh yes,” Kami replied. “Awfully keen!”

Lillian also refused to acknowledge sarcasm. “You want to do research and reconnaissance and have every little scrap of information you can dig up, as if poking your nose into things is bound to help matters. If what you want are the Aurimere records, you can have them. But they won’t do you any good.”

Kami realized that Angela was holding on to her hand, so they presented a united front.

“Why would you want to give me access to your records if you think I’ll be so useless?” Kami asked.

“I’ll give you what you want in exchange for what I want,” Lillian said. “Talk to my boy. Tell him to come home.”

“Jared?” Kami asked, disbelief making her voice come out almost soft. “You want Jared back?”

She was going to ask if that meant it had been Jared who asked Lillian to come here, and why he would do that. She was going to ask why Lillian thought Kami could persuade him. She was going to ask why Lillian wanted him back—if a person like Lillian really loved anyone, if Jared could have that much from his family.

But Lillian’s eyes narrowed as though she could read Kami’s mind and was preemptively finding all her questions offensive. “Do we have a bargain,” she asked, “or not?”

Kami did not even have to think about it. “Yes,” she said. “We do.”

Lillian needed to hear no more, and had no truck with common non-sorcerous habits like saying goodbye to people. She turned and walked up the street, toward her manor on the hill. There was still light rain falling and a wind blowing: there was a gust that blew all the raindrops aslant, and in that movement of night wind Lillian vanished.

A second later a light was shining in one of Aurimere’s windows.

* * *

Kami had always slept in Angela’s bed during sleepovers. She wondered if she was supposed to feel different now that she knew Angela liked girls. After all, she wouldn’t have shared a bed with Rusty.

It didn’t feel different. Kami wondered if she was being a bad friend even thinking about it. She certainly wasn’t worried that Angela fancied her at all, given that Angela was ridiculously good-looking and, examining the current Holly evidence, went for likewise ridiculously good-looking girls.

Still, Kami was restless, lying in the four-poster bed with the gauzy hangings. Angela thought the hangings were dumb, but Kami secretly coveted them in all their pretty, pretty princess glory. She levered herself up on one elbow and traced one of Angela’s red-flowered pillows with a finger. “Angela,” she whispered, “are you asleep?”

Angela, lying on her back with her eyes shut and her hands folded like Snow White in a glass coffin, said flatly, “Yes.”

“Because I’d like to talk about our feeeeeeeelings.”

“I wish I was dead.”

“Angela, you don’t mean that.”

“Kami, I do. And do you know why? Because then you might let me rest in peace.”

“I really wouldn’t count on that. The thing is,” Kami said, “you used to mention guys. I mean, you used to say things like you’d only date college guys. Wait, is it guys too? Because that’s fine. I mean, anything’s fine. I just want to know. I want us to be able to talk about it.”

Angela opened her eyes and looked up at Kami, her gaze dark and clear. “No,” she answered, quietly. “No, it isn’t guys. Not ever.”

“Well . . . ,” Kami said. “That’s good.”

Angela’s eyes narrowed, not sleepy now but almost angry. “Is it? Why is that good?”

“Why wouldn’t it be good? I love you,” said Kami. “And this is who you are. It would be a shame if you were any different.”

Angela turned her face away. Kami saw her throat move but could not tell if Angela was upset, angry, or something else.

“If you don’t mind my asking,” said Kami, “why pretend? With me, I mean.”

Angela kept her face turned away. “I can’t talk about stuff like that.”

Kami knew that much. Angela and Rusty’s parents, when they were there at all, talked a lot but never about anything that mattered. Rusty was able to replicate their superficial chatter and charm, and Angela rebelled against it by being spectacularly rude to almost everyone she met. But neither of them ever talked about anything that really mattered.

“You never used to either,” Angela continued after a pause, sounding accusing.

“I always had someone else to talk to,” Kami said in a low voice. “But I’m sorry if I haven’t been open with you—if I’ve made you think you can’t be open with me. . . .”

“That’s not it,” Angela said. She sat up, grabbing one of Kami’s pillows and shoving it under her own head. “I knew I could tell you. I knew you’d be supportive. I knew you’d be proactive about it and try to drag me off to gay clubs.”

“Oh, we could totally go—” Kami began, and Angela looked appalled.

“Let me make myself clear,” Angela said. “I’m a lesbian who hates people. I don’t want to go anywhere hoping to meet someone, because the idea of mixing with a bunch of strangers makes me want to be sick. We live in a small town. My parents are awful. I just didn’t want to deal with the hassle of any of it. I thought, once I left Sorry-in-the-Vale and went to college, I’d meet someone and then I’d tell you. When it was worth telling you. I didn’t expect to meet anyone I’d like here.”

Only she had.

“I won’t tell anyone,” Kami promised. “I won’t push you into anything.”

Angela raised an eyebrow.

“I’ll try not to,” Kami amended. “I’ll try to be less pushy. I’ll just be kind of nudge-y instead.”

“Then I’ll try to talk about my feelings,” Angela said. “Maybe I will indicate that I have one feeling. Once a year.”

“Deal,” said Kami, and hesitated. “Do you mind that I’m still friends with Holly?”

“No.
I’m
still friends with Holly. I just—it just hurts, because I was stupid, and I ruined things, and now everything is awkward. I wish we were all still comfortable. I want to put everything back the way it was.” Angela paused. “Is that what you want?”

To put everything back the way it was, when Jared still seemed to care about her.

She’d always thought the truth was important. If he’d only cared because of the link, it was better to know.

“No,” said Kami slowly. “I don’t know what I want.” She paused. “I thought Jared kissed me tonight.”

“You thought?” Angela repeated. “Like, you had a kissing hallucination?”

“It was in the corridor,” Kami said. “It was dark. I thought it was Jared but it might—it might have been Ash.”

Angela blinked. “Excuse me? Might?”

“One of those mistaken-identity makeouts,” Kami said defensively. “They happen.”

“Oh, sure,” Angela replied. “In Shakespearean comedies, all the time.”

“You are full of cruelty and mockery,” Kami said. “My heart breaks to think of the day I entrusted you with the fragile flower of my girlish friendship.”

Angela obviously wanted to laugh, and was holding back. Kami appreciated it.

“Ash, huh,” said Angela.

“I know what he almost did to you,” Kami said. “I’m sorry. I would never have done it on purpose.”

“It happens,” said Angela. “So I hear. Look, he almost did something really bad, but he didn’t. He helped me escape instead. I don’t like him, but I barely like anyone. You can make out with him if you want. I mean, you seem as if you could use some cheering up. Didn’t you like him before?”

She had. It seemed like so long ago, when Ash had come into her headquarters and she’d thought he was the most beautiful boy she’d ever seen in her life. He still was.

“Is he a terrible kisser?” Angela asked in a practical way.

“No,” Kami said disconsolately. “He’s a good kisser. He kisses like a minx. Like a minx on fire.”

“That doesn’t sound good.” Angela looked at her, half amused and half concerned.

Kami lay back on her one remaining pillow. “I really thought it was Jared,” she said to the shadowed ceiling. She’d wanted it to be, but she didn’t know if she’d wanted it because she wanted him—or if she’d wanted to feel like he cared about her, in any way at all.

It was the most ridiculous situation in the world. She couldn’t blame Angela for not being able to take it seriously. It was just that she missed Jared so much, and couldn’t seem to stop. She missed who she used to be when she had the link. She missed being sure of herself. She missed the whole world, the way it used to be. She didn’t know what she wanted, except to stop feeling like this.

“College, I’m telling you,” said Angela.

Kami laughed softly. “If you want to get out of this town so badly, why are you willing to face down sorcerers to defend it?”

“Basically because sorcerers are jerks,” said Angela. “And because they tried to hurt you, and they tried to hurt me, and I will not let anyone do either.”

“Thanks,” Kami whispered.

They lay side by side, staring up at the ceiling where the gauzy fabric that Angela despised cast shadows flirting with moonlight. They were silent so long that Kami thought Angela had fallen asleep.

“Maybe I was a little scared to tell you about me,” Angela said at last. “But even while I was scared, I knew I was being dumb.” She rolled on her side away from Kami, decisively ending the conversation. Kami smiled at her best friend’s back.

* * *

Aurimere, Kami thought, was extremely chilly in the morning and extremely intimidating all the time. This room in Aurimere House was one of the oldest parts of the building, something like a feasting room or a great hall with a fireplace big enough to roast a wild boar in, a curved ceiling like a church but with painted rafters, and rough stone walls. Part of one wall had been taken out to put in a window that stretched from floor to ceiling in hundreds of small yellow panes, the kind of glass that had always been clouded because that was how glass was made hundreds of years ago. The glass transformed the winter garden of Aurimere: turning dead grass into a bright carpet, dipping every bare branch in gold.

Lillian called it the Counting Room.

Kami had been afraid that Lillian would shut the door of Aurimere in her face, especially since it was so early that she had left both Angela and Rusty still catatonic. But Lillian had answered the door in her robe and then had, albeit with an air of weary resignation, led Kami into this room. Here she had shown her a large table, dark wood in the shape of a half-moon.

“Uh,” Kami said, “very nice. Antique?”

Lillian, possibly the only person in the history of the world to pull off being condescending while in a faded pink wrap, began to open up sections of the tabletop, sliding compartments with swift, silent efficiency. “All of Sorry-in-the-Vale used to come pay tribute to us,” she said. “These are records from four hundred years ago until thirty-two years ago, when our power was broken.”

Because Lillian’s parents, the Lynburns of Aurimere, had gone to stop the Lynburns who lived across the valley in Monkshood Abbey from killing people. They had succeeded, but Lillian’s father had died and Lillian’s mother had remained an invalid the rest of her life. Lillian’s mother had taken the Monkshood son, Rob, into her home. And now there was the same battle to fight again.

“So it’s like a rent roll, in a way,” Kami said, hand hovering over compartments, curious but aware she had to be careful.

“Except the sorcerous families never gave us money,” said Lillian. “We traded in favors and rituals, blood and marriage. So many sorcerers intermarried, it is hard to keep track. But it is a place to start, if you must insist on making a list of those who might be potential sorcerers. I think the list will be too long to make any material difference. But you are free to waste your own time.” She gave Kami a nod and left the room.

“Well,” Kami said into the echoing silence, her voice small, as if pressed flat by heavy stones. “Splendid.” She dragged up a chair, its back topped by carved hands on either side. She sat down, despite the feeling that those two hands might fasten on her shoulders at any moment, holding her captive there. She pulled her trusty notebook out of her bra, took a folded yellow slip of paper out of one compartment, and read the words written on it in a crabbed black hand:
Gytha Prescott: bought protection for her children by offering herself as a sacrifice.
The date on the top of the page was 21 December, 1821.