Authors: Alyson Noel
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ayla wandered around the hotel meeting room. With its beige-and-white-patterned carpet, beige movable walls, and the lineup of beige chairs along the stage where Madison and her fellow actors would sit, the room elevated the neutral look to a ridiculous level. Still, the blandness of her surroundings did nothing to dampen her excitement at having fudged her way into her first press conference. She just hoped no one questioned her credentials. It would be embarrassing to get kicked out in front of a crowd she admired.
She moved among the other journalists, not sure whether to be relieved or annoyed when no one took much notice of her. Well, at least there was a coffee setup in the corner. She never turned down a chance at caffeine, no matter how bad
the coffee might be.
“Late as always.”
She gazed up at the woman who'd said it, about to defend herself, point out that she was actually early, when she realized the woman was referring to the event.
“Typical celebrity bullshit.” She looked at Layla as though expecting her to agree.
“I know, right?” Layla said, immediately regretting it. It made her sound as young and inexperienced as she was. But the woman didn't seem to mind.
“Trena. Trena Moretti.” She offered a hand, and Layla juggled her coffee in order to take it. “
LA Times
digital division.” She shook her head, setting her wild bronze curls shimmering in a way that reminded Layla of fire season. “Still can't get used to saying that. I came over from the
Washington Post
.”
Layla nodded. “Layla Harrison.” She purposely omitted the name of her rag, mostly because it didn't exist. But when Trena leaned closer, eyes narrowed, trying to make out the name on her badge, she reluctantly said, “The
Independent
. Probably haven't heard of it, since we're new and . . . independent.” Oh yeah, that was super convincing.
Trena shot her a knowing look. “First time at one of these?”
Layla was about to deny it, claim she'd been to many, but Trena was onto her. “That obvious?”
“You're drinking the coffee.” Trena grinned. “Though it's good to see an excited new face. Reminds me why I was once drawn to this field.”
“Why'd you leave the
Post
?” Layla asked, wondering if it was too invasive of a question for someone she'd just met, but weren't journalists supposed to dig deep? And besides, Trena could always plead the Fifth.
“A major career shift brought on by a cheating fiancé. Guess Madison and I have more in common than I thought.” She laughed, prompting Layla to laugh too. With her smooth caramel complexion, and intense blue-green eyes, she was incredibly striking. “So, what's your interest in Madison?” Trena asked.
Layla shrugged. She didn't have a ready answer for that. “I guess I don't trust her,” she said, deciding to answer honestly. “And I'm waiting for her to slip up, show us who she really is.”
Trena tapped her water bottle against Layla's Styrofoam cup. “That makes two of us. You see that breakup video?”
Layla nodded vaguely. If there was ever a time to brag about her accomplishments, it was now. But her badge claimed she worked for a nonexistent rag.
Trena looked toward the stage. “Oh, finally,” she said. “Shall we?”
Layla glanced in that direction. She'd planned to stay put, stick to the fifty-foot radius she'd been warned about.
But just as quickly she decided against it. She was a member of the press, and the press wouldn't be silenced.
She followed Trena, thrilled to have met someone who could possibly become a mentor. The two of them watched as Madison's costars took the stage one by one, leaving the chair in the middle, the one reserved for the star, empty, as the moderator took the mike and said, “We apologize for the delay.”
“I'll bet.” Trena rolled her eyes and shook her head.
“We're now ready to begin, but there's one caveat.” He paused as though waiting for the situation to change within the next twenty seconds. When it didn't, he said, “It looks like Madison Brooks will not be joining us today.”
That simple announcement was enough to set off an explosion of shouting as the reporters jockeyed for attention, yelling their questions.
Where's Madison?
What explanation did she give?
Does this have something to do with the events at Night for Night?
The moderator held up his hands. “I don't have answers to any of your questions, but if you'll all quiet down, we can proceed.”
Trena glanced at Layla with an annoyed look on her face. “I don't know about you, but without Madison, I have no good reason to be here.” She made for the door as Layla
followed. “I'm not much for clubbing,” she said, glancing over her shoulder. “But I'd love to talk with someone who was there. Something about that breakup feels wrong.”
“I was there.” Layla stopped short of the door, reluctant to leave her first press conference. With or without Madison, it was still worth attending.
“You don't strike me as the nightclub type.” Trena studied her with renewed interest.
“I'm not.” Layla shrugged. “Which is why I suck at my job as a promoter.”
Trena fought to maintain a neutral face, but Layla caught the fleeting glimmer in her eye all the same.
“What do you say I buy you lunch, and in exchange, you tell me about your job as a promoter at Night for Night?”
“I promote Jewel. Another of Ira Redman's clubs.”
“That works too.” Trena pushed her way outside, assuming Layla would follow.
She gazed back at the stage, a bunch of
blah-blah
about how much fun they all had working together, when the truth was, they probably all hated one another. More Hollywood bullshit. The PR wheel never stopped spinning.
“Wait up!” she called, pausing long enough to toss her coffee in the trash before following Trena into the sun.
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Was It Murder?
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Following a very public breakup from former boyfriend Ryan Hawthorne after discovering his indiscretion with Aster Amirpour (a promoter for Ira Redman's Night for Night nightclub), America's Darling and tabloid staple Madison Brooks has seemingly fallen off the face of the earth.
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Ms. Brooks is one of the world's most photographed celebrities, so the lack of sightings, along with the failure of the star to show up for scheduled appearances on
Ellen
,
Conan
, the
Today
show, and the press conference where she was first discovered missing, is troubling those closest to her, though the LAPD doesn't seem to share their concern.
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“There are a variety of reasons why a person voluntarily disappears,” claims Detective Sean Larsen. “Not all missing
persons are victims of foul play. And being a voluntary missing person is not a crime in itself. We ask the press to keep that in mind. All of this wild speculation is probably only serving to drive her farther away. After all she's been through, the poor girl is probably just looking for some privacy.”
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Maybe so. But according to Madison's longtime assistant, Emily Shields, there's one thing Madison Brooks would never abandon. “Was Madison upset about what happened between her and Ryan? Of course, who wouldn't be? But even if she did decide to hide out for a while, she never would've left without Blue. That dog is her best friend in the world. He cries all day without her, like he senses something's wrong, and it's breaking my heart. If anyone out there knows what happened to Madison, please, please speak up. We need your help, since the police don't seem to care.”
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At what point will the LAPD wake up and realize what the dog knows?
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Something's gone terribly wrong with Madison Brooks.
Trena Moretti skimmed the article she'd written, then adjusted the font until the screaming headline filled up the screen.
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Was It Murder?
Inflammatory? No doubt.
Attention-getting? Definitely.
But then, wasn't that the point?
It'd been days since anyone last saw Madison, and the usual rumors tossed around by the press had failed to satisfy her reporter's quest for the truth.
Madison's on the set of a top secret project,
they'd said
.
Highly unlikely given that Madison herself had declared a hiatus, and from what Trena had gathered, Madison had done nothing to make her think otherwise.
Madison's holed up at the Golden Door, overcoming “exhaustion.”
The usual overused euphemism (along with
dehydration
) churned out by the Hollywood PR machine, which usually meant the star in question was suffering some sort of addiction, depressive episode, or maybe even an overdoseânone of which applied to Madison. Not only had Trena contacted the Golden Door, but also Miraval, Mii amo, even the Ashramâa decidedly luxury-lacking starvation retreat inexplicably adored by A-list celebrities. Only the truly rich and spoiled would think nothing of spending thousands of dollars for a week of rigorous exercise, minuscule food portions, and austere rooms with shared bathrooms. And though Madison was undisputedly one of the most spoiled of all, according to Trena's sources, she hadn't checked into any of those places.
Madison and Ryan are reconciling on a remote island
paradise.
Another unlikely scenario, considering Ryan had become more visible than everâthere wasn't an interview he wasn't willing to grant. He basically repeated the same unbelievable refrain, claiming he'd felt Madison pulling away and so he'd hooked up with Aster Amirpour in an attempt to make Madison jealous. It was undoubtedly immatureâan act he deeply regretted. According to
People
,
US Weekly
,
and
OK!
magazines, not a day went by when he didn't wish he'd handled it differently. More than anything, he wanted Madison to return so he could offer the apology she deserved. Though he entertained no illusions about her taking him back, he was sure she was off somewhere licking her wounds, wounds he'd undoubtedly caused, but she'd show up eventually. In the meantime, after all she'd gone through, she deserved a little space and privacy. He even went so far as to plead with the press to back off the story and show some respect.
Trena had dutifully slogged through the interviews, and as far as she was concerned, Ryan Hawthorne was giving the performance of a lifetime.
There was something far darker at stake.
Madison wasn't quite the girl she pretended to be. She worked hard to maintain her party imageâyet she clearly preferred her sobriety. She seemed to spend a lot of time shoppingâyet she spent very little of her own money, since most of the clothes she wore were given to her by
the designers themselves. A single photograph of the right celebrity wearing the right dress was enough to boost a designer's profile, not to mention their profits, as it usually amounted to thousands of fans spending their hard-earned money to own the same thing. The result was an enormous return for a meager investment, and Madison was a willing participant in the game.
From what Trena could determine, Madison's house was her one major extravagance. Though the number of gates and security measures she'd taken made it seem more like a fortress.
Who was Madison so desperate to keep out?
Who was she afraid of?
For someone as famous as Madison, it was like hiding in plain sight.
Until now.
Trena tipped her stool forward, reached for the chai tea that'd grown cold, and read the headline again. She couldn't remember the last time she'd gotten so immersed in a story she'd lost track of time.
She was onto something goodâshe felt that deep stir of knowing that had never betrayed her. The story was so much bigger than it seemed on the surface, and she was sure that with a little more digging, she'd discover it went even deeper than anyone had yet to presume.
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Was It Murder?
Someone, somewhere, knew the answer. Though Trena sincerely hoped that it wasn't. As someone who'd grown up impoverished, forced to work for everything she'd ever achieved, she had little tolerance for privileged princesses like Madison. Yet the more Trena dug, the more Madison continued to surprise her. And though Trena was nowhere close to calling herself a fan, there was something strangely vulnerable about the girl that made Trena long to protect her. And yet, that wasn't her job. Her only responsibility was to report the facts. It was up to the police to safeguard the citizens. Though so far they'd hardly done much at all.
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Was It Murder?
If that didn't get the police moving, nothing would.
She pushed Publish, carried her mug to the sink, and tossed the contents.
Outside, the sun was starting to set, and when the sun disappeared, her most interesting subjects came out.
Trena had no plans to miss them.
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Was It Murder?
The headline alone was enough to give Aster chills, but that didn't stop her from reading the corresponding article. Whoever this Trena Moretti person wasâwell, she seemed convinced that it was indeed murder. Or, if not murder, then something far darker than the
Madison is in rehab
rumor that had recently circulated.
But what was even worse than the thought of Madison being murderedâwell, maybe not worse in a big picture sort of way, and certainly not worse for Madison, but definitely worse for Asterâwas the implication that Ryan and Aster's now well-publicized tryst had somehow played a part in an A-list celebrity's disappearance.
An implication that was never brought to any real conclusion, but then that was never the intent. The seed had been planted. The worst-case scenario declared in bold headlines. The idea of an unthinkable tragedy released into the ether for anyone and everyone to speculate on and come to their own sordid conclusions.
Aster's phone buzzed with an incoming text, and she didn't so much as flinch, wasn't even tempted to glance at the screen. Her phone hadn't stopped buzzing since the day Layla Harrison's blog broke the story. The video, the stills from the videoâthey'd all been forwarded to her by “friends” who somehow thought she needed not only to know about all the horrible things being said about her, but also to read them firsthand.
Why they thought she needed access to the thousands of anonymous commenters calling her a whore, a bitch, and a slutâa few of them even threatening to kill herâwas beyond her. What exactly did they expect her to do in return?
Aster had responded the only way she knew howâshe'd obeyed her parents' orders and stayed sequestered in her room, musing on the slim divide between fame and infamy.
She'd wanted oneâshe'd gotten the otherâand as luck would have it, they were inextricably linked.
Then again, from the moment she'd woken up alone at Ryan's apartment, nothing in her life had gone as planned.
The press had portrayed her as a slutty, conniving boyfriend stealer, only to fall for the lie Ryan had told them about trying to make Madison jealous. And yet, despite the numerous interviews he'd given, not once had he mentioned that Madison wasn't the only one who'd gone missing that night.
Her phone stopped chiming, allowing for a brief moment of peace, before it started again. Aster sighed, rolled her eyes, and thought about shutting it off. The calls and texts were relentless. A quick glance at the screen showed a caller ID reading
Blocked.
She knew better than to answer itâwilled it to go into voice mail. But after catching a glimpse of herself in the full-length mirror, something irreversible shifted inside her.
It'd been days since she'd last looked at herself. She was too ashamed, too afraid of what she might see. But after getting a glimpse, she found it nearly impossible to look away.
She moved toward the mirror and studied her face. Her hair hung loose and limp by her cheeks, her complexion was ashy and pale, and her eyes bore deep shadows, making her appear as bruised, hunted, and haunted as she felt.
What was it Ryan had said? Something like,
You just took your first step toward making a name for yourself
.
He'd also promised to remain right by her side.
You have no idea how good it's about to get
, he'd told her.
Will you trust me?
She had, only to never hear from him again.
The phone continued to ring.
She might look haunted, hunted, and bruised, but she was tired of hiding.
She dove for her cell. Clutching it with a shaky hand, she whispered a tentative greeting.
“Aster Amirpour?” The voice on the other end was deep, throaty, and rang with authority. “This is Detective Larsen with the Los Angeles Police Department. I was wondering if you might come down to the station to speak with us at your convenience. We have a few questions regarding the disappearance of Madison Brooks. Shouldn't take more than a few minutes.”
She shifted her gaze to her laptop.
Score one for Trena Moretti.
She shouldn't have answered, but now that she had, there was no turning back.
“Give me an hour,” she said. “Two at the most.” Tossing her phone on the bed, she made for her large walk-in closet. It was time to pack a bag.
She'd seen enough detective shows on TV to know better than to talk to a cop without a lawyer in tow. But all the lawyers she knew were either relatives or friends of her parents, and since she couldn't ask them, and since she
had no money of her own, she really had no choice but to go it alone. Besides, it wasn't like she actually knew anything about what happened to Madison. The only thing she was guilty of was letting her ambition get in the way of her common sense by choosing to believe Ryan Hawthorne when he told her he cared about her. It might be embarrassing, but it wasn't illegal, and it was her truth to keep.
While everyone knew she'd played a part in the death of RyMad, she had nothing to do with the disappearance of Madison. Outside of Ryan, no one knew what had really happened between them, and since he'd yet to divulge that to the press, she figured her secret was safe.
She tossed some clothes in a bag, pulled her unwashed hair into a ponytail, swiped a little makeup on her face, took one last look around the room, and headed downstairs in search of her mother. Pausing in the kitchen doorway, Aster watched as her mother clipped the leaves off a dozen roses plucked from their garden before arranging them into a round, cut-crystal vase.
“I'm sorry I've upset you and Daddy.” The words came out shakier than intended. “I'm sorry my actions disappointed and shamed you. But I refuse to be punished for making the kind of mistakes that aren't all that uncommon for someone my age. You may not agree with my choices, but I'm eighteen now, which means you no longer get a say
in how I make my decisions.” She pressed a hand to her fluttering belly, willing it to settle. All the while studying her mother's immaculately made-up face for even a trace of emotion, but her mother remained as cool and imperious as ever.
“And how do you plan to support yourself, Aster?” She set the curved, pink-handled pruning shears on the granite countertop and pulled nervously at her diamond-encrusted wedding band with perfectly manicured fingers. “You won't be able to access your trust for another seven years.”
Aster closed her eyes. She'd been foolish enough to hope for a different reaction, maybe even a hug, but it was time to face the truth. Her mother had never been the warm and nurturing type. She was detached, wooden, regal, and cold, but Aster had loved her in spite of it. Her father was the dispenser of hugs and kind wordsâthe one she ran to in moments of crisis. But her dad was no longer speaking to her, Javen wasn't home, and Nanny Mitra was the one who'd gotten her into this mess, by alerting her parents to trouble and encouraging them to return. It was hard not to feel bitter toward the woman who'd practically raised her. Still, this was her only chance at good-bye. It was time to speak her piece and move on.
“You can't hold me hostage.” Aster pressed her hand to her cheek, about to wipe away the tears that had gathered,
then decided against it. She refused to run from her emotions like her mother. She would allow them to surfaceâallow herself to feel themâno matter how much pain they might cause. “You can't turn this into some kind of tug-of-war over money. You can't control me that way anymore. If I don't want to live like this, I don't have to. And if you don't have it in your heart to release some of that money so I can adequately support myself, then I'll find another way.”
“And what about school?” Her mother had gone from pulling at her wedding ring to fluffing the ends of her perfectly coiffed and colored shoulder-length hairâthe only visible signs she might not feel as serene as she pretended.
“What about it?” Her mother's insistent focus on the practical was the single biggest tragedy of her family. Theirs was a house of repression, marred by the lies that resulted from living that way. Aster couldn't wait to break free. “I still plan on getting my degree, if that's what you're worried about.” She shrugged, eager to wrap it up and be on her way. “I'll be back at some point for the rest of my stuff. So . . .” She moved to hug her mother good-bye, but it was like embracing a wall, so she quickly pulled away. Stealing a moment to send a quick text to Javen, promising she was only a phone call away. She felt guilty leaving him there on his own. There was no telling what her parents might do if they ever discovered he liked boys more than girls. And yet,
how could she possibly protect him when she'd so epically failed to protect herself?
Without a single look back, she tossed her bag in the trunk of her car, settled inside, and headed down the driveway toward a new life.