Unfinished (Historical Fiction) (4 page)

Much more.

The erection faded as they walked, yet the flushed feeling remained. Miss Stone was unfinished business for him, an untamed heiress with whom he had no right to converse. As lingering as the ink stains on his hands and clothes. He hoped she wouldn't fade over time, yet he knew he had no chance. What could a billionaire's daughter want with a Southie bootstrapper? In society, he was no better than the horse dung he and Reed avoided.

A few more months and that would change. If his plan worked.

Deep in his own thoughts, James missed part of a sentence that Reed muttered. “What's that?” he asked.

“I said,” Reed cleared his throat, irritation and condescension quite clear, “that you need to understand that the wealthy aren't like you. Or even me.” He looked James up and down, unimpressed by the shabby woolen suit and the too-worn shoes that no shining ever helped.

“John Stone is different. He's not quite human. None of the families who own mansions up there,” he nodded back toward Boston Common as they approached Newbury Street, “really are. They think they are better than anyone else, and frankly, they are. They own the world. You'd better get used to it. And if you want to keep your job, you'll document only the professional parts of that conversation and forget the rest ever happened.” His eyes hardened and he stared straight ahead. “I will.”

“Yes, sir,” James said archly, standing straight and slowing his gait. When he spoke with his boss he typically bent his knees slightly and hunched over, helping to close the half-head gap. It seemed to make Reed more comfortable. Reed's comfort wasn't James' priority right now.

“I'll see you back at the office, James. I have another appointment, and I won’t need a scribe.” Reed ran, long, loping strides carrying the slim man to the retreating trolley car. He hopped on just in time and faded into the throng of riders. James knew he was going to find a quiet spot to have a drink. Or nine.

Alone now, James steeped himself in the memory of the morning meeting. Lilith's dress had been conservative, a high-necked white cotton Gibson Girl shirt and v-cut jacket made to emphasize broad shoulders she lacked. The gray heather jacket, made of a fine cloth James couldn't afford even if he spent a year's salary, nipped in tight at the waist, her ribs narrowing to a point so simple in diameter that he wondered if he'd even need both hands to close the space. The three-quarters sleeves showed she was a modernite, not afraid to show wrist, and James wondered how free thinking she was in bed.

Her skirt dropped off from under the tight waist, made of a fine white material that he thought was linen, as it was an off-white color and slightly wrinkled. Three horizontal stripes along the hem of the skirt, perfectly matching the heather tone of her jacket, finished the look. She was a fashion plate, but an odd mixture of old-fashioned Boston style and progressive dress.

The woman was as tiny as he was big. He was close to triple her weight, he assumed, and would just as well be able to eat her entire head as plant a passionate kiss on those poison lips. He wondered what she looked like without the armor, or wearing a simple, flowing silk dress. Again, arousal plagued him, and he cursed his lack of undergarments. The morning had been a blur of hangover and prying last night's woman from his bed, and in the rush to smooth his hair and find a presentable business suit, he'd found himself without anything clean. The thick wool of his buttoned suit pants scratched against his hard bulge and he willed thoughts of Lilith Stone away, thinking instead of the night's lecture before him. Dr. David Burnham was in town, talking about Ellis Havelock's findings on the sexual invert and its importance in human development and society.

The erection lingered; attempting to preoccupy himself only brought him to the edge of an enormous hole in the middle of the road, nearly pitching down a good twenty feet into an open sewer pit. That did the trick. Construction on the Charles River Dam had been ongoing for months now, and his bosses bemoaned the interference in the roads, making the commute to the office damn near impossible.

The water table rose, and runoff from Beacon Hill filled some of the lower parts of the Back Bay, leading to flooding. Getting from South Central Station to the common was hard enough. Avoiding these unmanned pits was harder. What wasn't hard, anymore, was the other brain James' body used for the wrong thoughts at the wrong times. He thanked God he hadn't absentmindedly fallen down that enormous hole, for he'd surely have broken a leg. Or worse. Such an ignominious way to harm oneself while being distracted by Lilith Stone.

Fury and flush fought each other within her. The morning meeting whipped through her mind at breakneck speed, repeating over and over. Her father's attempt – yet again! – to declare her incompetent. That stupid lawyer. The bear in the room. An attractive bear, who lit her skin and blood on fire in a different way, all flush and flesh where her father simply made her pride burn.

Why was she comparing her father to this James Hillman? What was wrong with her?

Ah, her father had been trying to figure that out for years.

In truth, nothing was wrong.

Everything
was wrong.

He had told her once that she had every quality he could possibly hope for in a child. Perseverance, innate intelligence, keen analytical ability, a good judge of character, and a steel-filled spine. But she was the wrong gender.

Oh, how he'd pounded that into her from day one.

“Then why didn't you have a son, father?” she'd screamed in response. They'd fought the day before he sent her to McLean, and she remembered the day in sharp relief, her life bisected in two by her committal.

His reply, so steady and low, chilled her. “Because your mother seems capable of only providing me with females and idiots.” Julia had been twelve at the time, nonverbal, and recently toilet trained. Her mother had taken up residence at the house in Toronto then, leaving Lilith in Boston to attend Dana Hall School in Wellesley. She'd been in her final year there, ready to move on to Radcliffe.

Rarely shocked into silence, Lilith stood stunned and wordless. Stone had grimaced and reached toward her, an apology in his eyes that would never make it past his lips.

“I...I speak the truth,” he sighed, tucking what little emotion he'd revealed away.

“Then may I speak freely?”

“When do you not, Lilith?” The sarcasm hung in the air like mid-summer's humidity in the Back Bay.

“You are a monster. That's why mother moved away. You don't love Julia. You want to shunt her off to an institution, but she's not – she just needs more than you're willing to give. Mother wants to give it. So she's taken Julia away where you won't see her every day, and she takes her to doctors to try to make her talk and be normal. You're our father and you don't love us. If I were a boy I think it would be even worse. Any son of yours would be tortured by you. Nothing is ever good enough.”

Stone had stared at her, head cocked to the left as if soaking in her words.

And the next phrase out of her mouth had been what likely landed her in McLean Hospital, on the mental ward, for the final four months of her senior year at Dana Hall and the first semester of what should have been her first year at Radcliffe.

She was wholly unprepared for the education she received, instead, at McLean.

The Unitarian church in Cambridge hosted lectures on intellectual curiosities deemed too prurient or controversial for its neighbor across the road. While Harvard College might sponsor a talk by William James on psychology, a medical doctor with a focus on a more prurient aspect of the human psyche would have to settle for the congregational hall. Lilith quite liked the church, though she was not a member. Joining a church meant choosing a creed or covenant that would not be flexible enough to adapt and reform with new knowledge. She maintained a rigid, no-doctrine stance when it came to religion, refusing to yield.

“On the Understanding of Sexual Inversion” drew a broad crowd, far larger than the last lecture's crowd; “Variations in Mammalian Arousal” had been a cold, unyielding discussion about primates in Africa. Lilith had not been amused, nor particularly enlightened. Dr. Burnham's reputation, however, preceded him. The young Boston sexologist was not only known for his genius, he was also known for his rugged good looks. Still a bachelor in his mid-30s, the rumor mill swirled with tales of sexual deviance. As she studied his slick, sandy hair and warm brown eyes she wondered whether the handful of light brown hairs that peeked out under his cuffs dotted his chest. He carried himself like sporting man, but she had seen his hands. Soft, like her father's. Like a man unaccustomed to using them to better himself.

A large shadow caught her eye across the room and Lilith's mind erased all traces of consideration for Dr. Burnham. James Hillman. A passing circus had once caught Lilith's eye as her family made its way to the wharf for a European voyage, back in her early adolescent years. A freak labeled “The Bear Man” stood by, as tall as a small house and wide as a thick carriage. Hair covered his face, hands, and every exposed piece of skin. She'd found him fascinating but had dared not say a word to her parents.

James reminded her of the bear man, though he was less hirsute and considerably more human like, with keen, alert eyes.

That now gazed directly into hers.

She smiled involuntarily and then swallowed, holding his look. He returned the smile and doffed an imaginary hat; he clutched his hat in his hand and started, then realized his fumble. Widening the smile, he gestured with a small shrug, enough to acknowledge his silliness and yet with no implied apology.

A soundless chuckle escaped her. Quickly, she turned her attention to the lectern, where Dr. Burnham now stood, clearing his throat fruitlessly. No one would quiet down; the rowdy Cambridge crowd was never easily cowed. Manners were not prized here, among indecent company.

And Lilith wondered just how indecent as Maria Escola appeared, red whore's dress and painted face an intended insult to the plain house of worship. Though an open group, the Unitarians were, nonetheless, modest in dress and appearance. As tall and regal as Lilith was diminutive and boyish, the Peruvian beauty was a bit of a mystery in Boston. Her father was a wealthy Andes miner and had sent his daughter to Boston for finishing, yet no one could name the school she had attended. Marco Escola had followed his daughter, establishing residence on a sprawling estate just west of Cambridge, managing affairs for his mining company and shipping issues to funnel raw materials to the steel mills in Pittsburgh. The only metal Maria seemed to care for was precious, her ears, wrists and neck adorned in more jewelry than the Pope.

Bright red lips stood out, overshadowing Maria's lively eyes and painted lids. With a dress that looked like it had been poured on her, and a laugh that filled the room with a promise of debauchery, Maria Escola had taken Boston society by surprise. She was little more than an unpaid courtesan, and according to whispers she performed sexual delicacies on groups of men.

And liked it.

Lilith hadn't made up her mind about the woman. Firmly setting aside her own reaction, she returned her gaze to James Hillman who, she discovered, was now staring openly at Maria.

Lilith's mind made itself up right quickly.
Whore
.

“Thank you all for attending this lecture, titled 'On the Understanding of Sexual Inversion.' Before I begin, let me set clear expectations. 'Sexual Inversion' refers, specifically, to human beings who are attracted, sexually, to their own sex. That is, women who are aroused by and who have sexual relations with other women, and men who are aroused by and who have sexual relations with other men.” A wave of titters passed through the crowd. Burnham produced a tight smile, and continued. “There. Just so we're all clear. Does anyone need to leave the room? We have positioned smelling salts at all exit points, should the need arise.”