Twenty One (Love by Numbers Book 2) (11 page)

I clear my throat, my nerves increasing as I get to the part where I offer him his out.

“Whatever this is between us Jake, it can only go forward and be built upon if we are honest with each other. Lie to me now and this whole thing crumbles down around us. I hope you care for me enough to see that I deserve the truth.’”

H
e takes what feels like forever to reply and I start to think his lies are contained in the silence, waiting to be set free.

I’m about to speak when he finally responds.

“It’s all bullshit Emmy, I swear to you. I swear on everything that has happened between us so far, that everything printed in those papers is complete and utter bollocks.”

M
y breathe catches on his use of the nickname Emmy, it’s the name my brother James called me. No-one except him has ever used it. My mother calls me Emma, my father Pud, Liv calls me Em, Liam calls me Jules and just hearing the name Emmy sets my pulse skittering and a pain envelopes my chest.

The pain soon morphs into warmth; Emmy is a bittersweet name for me. Attached to both joyful and devastating feelings but when Jake says it, it just feels
right.

“I believe you.”

Three simple words that obliterate the shit storm around us.

“I believe you Jake.”

“Fuck Emmy, you don’t know what hearing you say that does to me. I fucking need you here with me. I
need
you Emmy.”

Nine long days later in Tokyo Japan….

S
he’s here, today is the day I finally get to hold her in my arms again.

W
aiting for the day Emma could fly out to meet me has been hard.

Hard because knowing she actually believes me, believes in us but not being able to show her physically, how much her trust means to me, has me frustrated both sexually and mentally.

Every night we speak on the phone for hours, every night things get a little more heated between us and every night I end up with balls so blue I have to wank off in the shower just to relieve the ache.

She’s got me fawning all over her like a teenager and we haven’t done anything more than kiss yet.

This is the longest relationship of my life so far and we’ve not even had sex. I know; I find it hard to believe sometimes too.

Temptation lies in my path every, single, day.

Not a day has gone by where I haven’t had at least one woman offer herself up on a plate and some of those offering have been seriously fucking hot. Yet not one has even made my dick twitch, not a single one.

I was starting to worry about contracting ‘limp dick syndrome’ but I know I have no problem there because every, single, minute I spend on the phone with her in the evenings, I’m as hard as rock.

Last night things went a little further between us. I never thought phone sex was my thing before; never saw the need in it when I could easily find someone to physically quench my desire but last night with Emma was hot with a capital fucking H. I get hard today if I think about for even a second.

Our conversation started off innocent enough.

“S
o tomorrow is almost here, I’m nervous Jake. Tell me something; tell me anything to chase my nerves away.” I love how breathy her voice is over the phone; even chit chat with her is a turn on.

I’m thinking with my dick that is already at full mast and not with my head, when my reply slips out “I’m naked right now and as hard as a rock.”

Fuck. Where did that come from?

She giggles in shock “Bloody hell Jake now I’m not nervous anymore.”

“S..sorry Emma, it just popped out, what I mean is …” she interrupts my pathetic rambling.

“Jake stop, I’m not nervous anymore because that was hot.” I hear her take a shaky breath before her voice gets softer, “The vision I now have in my head of you, It’s … wow, yeah like I said hot.”

My dick twitches at her confession becoming even harder than it was before.

“Fuck Emmy, just hearing you speak makes me hard but when you get all breathy like you are now and then tell me I’m making you hot by picturing me naked….. I feel like I’m ready to blow my fucking load.”

I hear her breath hitch and my pulsing cock pushes me to take this further, “I know it makes you hot Emmy but does it make you wet too?”

Silence.

The only reason I know she is still on the phone is because I can still hear her shaky breaths.

“God Jake, I’ve never done this before. I don’t know how to answer you.” I can hear her embarrassment but also her desire.

“Just answer my question Emmy, or do you need me to repeat it?” I can’t help myself; my words come out like a demand. I need her to say it, I crave the words to confirm that her lust for me is as consuming as mine is for her.

“Yes….. so wet Jake. I can’t, I can’t explain what you do to me….. I ache for you Jake.”

Her admission is my undoing.

Pushing the covers off my hips, I look down at my stiff, throbbing, cock that is pointing up at me, begging to be stroked. I grip it so hard I have to hold back an orgasm and I unconsciously let out a moan that sounds completely animalistic and out of control.

“You’re driving me crazy Emmy, I’ve got my hand wrapped tightly around my dick and I’m wishing it was your hand. Jesus Em, you’d better be prepared for me tomorrow. I don’t want to scare you away but I don’t think I’ll be able to control myself. I’ve wanted you for so long.”

Her small moan hits my senses and ignites an inferno in my balls, my hand pumping my dick for all its worth. “Are you touching yourself Emmy?”

Please say yes, please say yes.

“Oh my God yes.” Her voice is as smooth as silk and thick with desire.

“I’m going to fuck you all night long, until your legs shake and you scream my name so loud and so often, that every, single, person in this hotel will know who I am. Do you want that Emmy?”

Fuck say yes.

Her breathing increases and I can hear a slight rustling in the background. Pre-come glistens on the tip of my cock just from the image I have of her in my head.

Her naked, spread out before me, every inch of flawless skin there for me to take. There for me to worship and devour.

“Do you want that Emmy? Use your words to tell me how much you want me to relieve that throbbing between your legs.”

“Fuck Yes. I want you so bad Jake. Oh God, Jake…. I’m…”

I hear her phone fall to the floor just as my dick shoots it’s load all over my stomach, in a seemingly never ending release.

I
stare down at the mess I’ve made all over myself, my dick still hard and needing more than just my hand. It longs to be buried balls deep inside this girl. My girl.

“Emmy you still with me?” I can hear her fumbling with the phone on the other end.

“I’m here Jake. I can’t believe we just did that, I mean …. I” She trails off and I can picture the blush that most probably paints her cheeks and so can my growing cock.

“Don’t Em, don’t be ashamed of what just happened. It was one of the hottest things I’ve ever experienced and I know when I get to make love to you, when I get to fuck you and make you mine, it will eclipse every single encounter I’ve ever had in my entire life.”

I can hear her smile when she replies “I’m going to hold you to that promise but I need to be honest with you Jake…. I’m not experienced like you are. Shit, that didn’t come out like I meant it to, what I mean is… you will only be my second.” Her words disappear towards the end of the sentence like she’s mortified she had to share that with me.

Now fully erect again, I groan audibly knowing how sweet her innocence will taste and the possessive side of me, a side I’ve never seen before, positively roars in appreciation.

“You’re killing me Emmy. My dick is like steel again knowing I will get to lick, tease and taste what hardly anyone else has ever touched.”

She huffs out a noise that is half sigh, half sexually frustrated groan, “I just don’t want to be a disappointment Jake. I want to do to you everything you are doing to me.”

“Emmy, trust me when I say that nothing that happens between us, will ever leave me disappointed. I just came literally five minutes ago and with only your words, you have got me as hard as hell.”

Her embarrassment evaporates on a light laugh “Well I guess you won’t need me to tell you that what you just said you want to do to me, has never been done to me before.”

Have I heard her right? She’s just said she had a lover before me and now she’s saying she hasn’t.

“Emmy, you just said I will be your second lover, I don’t understand.” The confusion in my voice is obvious and she gleefully uses it against me. It almost causes me to shoot my second load, without even touching my dick, when she replies, “I was referring to the licking and tasting Jake. You said that’s what you wanted to do to me and I’ve …”

I cut her off with a loud groan filled with frustration “Arghhh, don’t tell me anymore Emmy, not while you are still hundreds of miles away. When you get off that plane in a few hours, you can tell me then and I want every little detail.”

S
o here I sit hidden away, well as ‘hidden’ as sitting in a stretch limo, directly outside the arrivals lounge of Tokyo’s Haneda airport can be, while waiting for my girl to come through baggage claim.

The frenzy surrounding VB and how crazy the Japanese fans are means I’ve been forbidden from waiting for Emma inside. I’ve had to send Nina, my PA, to collect her and that just pisses me off.

I should be the first person she sees when she comes through those doors, not one of my many employees.

I catch myself running my palms up and down my thighs with anticipation and I quickly sit on my hands.

I feel like a little fucking kid on Christmas day, eagerly waiting for Santa, unable to sleep with excitement.

Only this is better than Christmas day, today I’ve cleared my schedule because I plan on unwrapping the most delicious, most anticipated, present I’ve ever got my hands on.

M
y left foot keeps a frantic beat on the car floor, the dull ‘duh duh duh’ each time it makes contact, echoing through the metal shell, increasing my heart rate and setting my pulse on fire.

I look at my watch for the umpteenth time before my phone buzzes on the seat next to me, catching my attention. It’s Emma.

I’m here, just found Nina, on our way xx

I
dart out of my seat and fling open the car door. Both the driver and my burly minder instantly open their car doors and flank me, obstructing my view of the glass entryway.

I feel her before I see her, the air changes, becoming denser and even more humid, and a slight crackle charges the molecules around me.

The doors slide open and I see Nina first. She’s instructing a porter who is pulling a trolley containing suitcases, then a few steps behind her, is Emma.

J
esus Christ, how can she have become even more breathtakingly beautiful than she was just a few weeks ago?

She peers around the side of the porter and her steps falter. A heart stopping smile overtakes her face and that’s when I dart away from the protection of the two men on either side of me. I launch myself at full speed, vault over the trolley the porter is pulling, ignoring the look of surprise on his face, and head straight towards her.

She throws her head back and laughs at my over the top acrobatics and not a moment later, I have picked her up in my arms, crashing my lips to hers in a brutal and all consuming kiss.

Our teeth clash and nip, our tongues dual for control and every shit thing that has happened over the last few weeks, crumbles away, turning into dust and floating off into the breeze.

This moment right here is
everything
I’ve never had and
everything
I never knew I was missing.