Trust Me, I'm a Vet (33 page)

‘We’ve heard the news.’ Fifi clutches a Louis Vuitton handbag to her chest, and it suddenly strikes me exactly how insulting it was of her to ask for a discount at Otter House when she’s swanning around in designer gear.

‘The most dreadful news,’ echoes Frances. ‘We just had to come.’

One of Izzy’s eyebrows disappears into her hair.

‘How dreadful. Poor Gloria.’ Fifi puts her bag down on the bench in a pool of fluid of questionable origin. Izzy rescues it, shifting it onto a piece of paper towel, yet Fifi scarcely notices.

‘I’ve confessed to PC Phillips,’ she goes on. ‘I’m entirely responsible for what’s happened.’

‘I don’t think so,’ I interrupt, but Fifi raises one hand to shut me up and keeps going.

‘After you called me, Maz, I went straight over to Gloria’s. I know you said not to, but I was so angry I just had to. I told her a few home truths. Someone had to do it.’ Fifi shakes her head slowly. ‘I didn’t think she’d do anything like this.’

‘It was an accident, one of the cats knocking a candle over, or a spark from the fire,’ I say, recalling the log Gloria had burning in the grate.

‘My son’s a firefighter,’ Fifi replies. ‘He says there were signs of an accelerant, paraffin, something like that. Gloria kept all kinds of chemicals in the old sheds. Tom, her husband, needed them for the tractor. That’s when the place was looked after, the lawns mown and the fields kept harrowed and tidy.’

‘I can’t believe that she’d dream of hurting those animals though. She adored them,’ Izzy says. ‘Have they found her?’

Fifi nods. ‘The roof came down on her – she didn’t stand a chance.’

‘Stupid, stupid woman! What did she have to go and do that for?’ Would I have gone in to try to save her if I’d known she’d set the fire deliberately? Would I have tried so hard?

‘Alex Fox-Gifford is in hospital,’ Fifi continues.

‘Have you heard how he is?’ I ask quickly, my heart pounding with a mixture of hope and apprehension.

Fifi shakes her head. ‘My son says he’s in Intensive Care. That’s it.’

‘I’ll take you up there, Maz,’ Izzy says.

‘Now?’ I glance towards the row of cages. I can’t leave them.

‘Raffles will be OK for an hour or two. We can go whenever you like.’

‘Now.’

‘Before you rush off,’ says Fifi, ‘I thought I’d let you know that I’ve called an emergency meeting of the Talyton Animal Rescue Society for tonight. You must come.’

‘Fifi, I can’t,’ I say, a little irritated by her bossy attitude. ‘I’m needed here.’

‘I’ve told the trustees that you’ll be there.’

‘Give them my apologies. They’ll understand.’ I know Fifi means well, but she’s trying to organise me and I will not be organised.

‘We’ll see,’ says Fifi. ‘Anyway, now that we’re here, you’d better make use of us. What can we do?’

‘You can do some drying up, Fifi,’ Nigel says from his post at the sink.

‘What’s happening up at the Manor?’ Izzy asks, handing Fifi a tea towel.

‘The surgery’s closed,’ Fifi says. ‘The hospital at Westleigh is taking Talyton Manor’s horsey clients, the farm animals are being looked after by the nearest large animal practice, and as far as I know, Otter House is going to look after their small animal side – if that’s all right with you, Maz.’

‘Of course,’ I say.

‘Are you sure you’re up to it?’ Izzy sighs. ‘Ask a silly question . . .’

‘How can I contribute?’ Frances asks. ‘Shall I take over in Reception?’

‘We can’t pay you,’ Nigel cuts in, rather ungraciously, I think.

‘I know that. I’m doing this out of the goodness of my heart.’ Frances touches her chest. ‘I just love a crisis.’ She corrects herself quickly. ‘Well, not the really bad bits, like dear Alex getting hurt.’

‘I do hope he’s going to get better,’ Fifi says, frowning pessimistically.

‘Old Mr Fox-Gifford was on death’s door for weeks when the bull got him, but he pulled through,’ Frances says.

‘I suppose he’s lucky he comes from good stock – his father has the constitution of an ox,’ Fifi goes on.

Listening to Fifi and Frances’s speculation about Alex’s condition, my hands ball up into tight and painful fists. Izzy hustles me away, her lips curving into a small smile.

‘If those two old pantomime dames can’t help themselves, they can make themselves useful and help us. And if that sounds disrespectful, it is. Separately they’re not too bad, but together they’re a right double act. I’m sorry, Maz. I can see that all their talk of Alex has upset you.’

Nevertheless I’m beginning to see the good side of Talyton gossip. As soon as they heard the news, Frances and Fifi rallied round to help and, looking at the state of Kennels, we need all the help we can get.

As soon as we arrive at the hospital, I leave Izzy sorting out the payment for the car park and head straight for the Intensive Care unit. There’s a nurse at the desk on the way in. She’s older than me, in her forties, I’d guess, and she’s wearing a uniform that’s a couple of sizes too big for her as if she’s lost weight recently. Her hair is short, dark at the roots and blonde at the tips.

‘I’m looking for’ – I can hardly keep my voice steady enough to say his name – ‘Alex Fox-Gifford.’

‘Are you next of kin?’ she asks kindly, assessing me with calm grey eyes. When I don’t respond, she goes on as if I’m one instrument short of a full set. ‘Are you a relative?’

I say the first thing that comes into my head. ‘I’m his fiancée.’

‘I’m Debbie,’ she says, apparently satisfied with my answer. ‘Go on through then,’ she continues, once she’s warned me what to expect when I see Alex. ‘He’s second on the left.’

I hesitate a couple of feet from the bed, thinking that this person can’t be Alex. He looks like Alex, but he’s lying so still. I step closer. His lips are the same deathly pallor as his cheeks, his chin is pricked with dark stubble and there’s a bruise on his temple. His hands lie limp across the sheets.

‘Oh, Alex . . .’ I whisper. I reach out and run the tips of my fingers down the side of his face. His skin is cool. There’s no response, not even a flutter of the eyelids. He isn’t even breathing for himself – a machine is doing it for him.

‘You lazy sod,’ I accuse him lightly, my teeth aching with the effort of not breaking down and crying. ‘Can’t you try a bit harder?’ My hands tighten with a desire to thump him, to slap him across the face and dig him in the ribs to make him open his eyes and answer me back with some sarcastic remark. ‘Why didn’t you listen? I would have been all right.’ I glance away at the series of images of Alex’s skull which are up on a monitor on the wall. They blur and fuse. I wouldn’t have been all right. It would have been me lying there, hovering somewhere between life and death. It
should
have been me.

I pull up a chair to the side of the bed and sit down, and I don’t know how long I stay there, staring at his face, before I sense someone standing behind me. I turn to find Izzy, her expression grave.

‘We should go,’ she says quietly.

‘Give me a minute.’

‘We really should go now. We can come back later.’

I strain forwards, studying Alex’s face again. Is that the tiniest flicker of those long dark lashes? I’m so tired I can’t trust my eyes.

I take his hand, tangling with the cannula and drip tubing taped across the back, where the veins snake small and blue. There are freckles of silver nitrate stain on his thumb and dried blood outlines one fingernail. I squeeze his fingers tight until the skin loses its mottled pattern.

‘Alex!’ His name catches in my throat. ‘Alex. Wake up!’

‘Maz, stop. He can’t hear you.’ Izzy places her hand over mine. ‘I’ve been talking to the nurse – they’ve put him to sleep.’

‘Put him to sleep?’ I gasp. It is as if the ceiling and the whole world is falling in around me, and I can smell the smoke and feel the fierce heat of the flames.

‘Maz?’ Izzy’s voice breaks through to me. ‘They’re planning to let him wake up later. They’ll know more then.’

Tears streaming down my face, I glance out of the window at the sky, where the wind is teasing white strands from candyfloss clouds and spinning them away. ‘They’ll know more then.’ What exactly will ‘they’ know?

What would have happened if I’d followed my head, not my heart? What if I’d done the right thing and called the RSPCA in straight away? What if I hadn’t tried to deal with everything myself, to make up for what happened to Cadbury?

All these thoughts and more flash through my brain as Izzy drives me back.

‘I want to stop off at Buttercross Cottage on the way,’ I say.

‘What on earth for?’

‘I need to check. I want to be certain. I mean, Ginge might come back and find no one there.’

‘You’re rambling,’ Izzy says gently. ‘Are you sure you’re all right?’

‘Will you stop asking me that?’ I say irritably. ‘Yes, I’ve had a drink and something to eat.’ Two black coffees, half a cheese roll and a double dose of painkillers. ‘Yes, I’m . . .’ I give in. Delayed shock is kicking in. ‘No, I feel like crap.’

‘I’ve been wondering if we should contact Emma. I know you tried the other day, but I think we should try again. You’re going to need some help – you won’t be able to scrub up for a while.’

It’s true. My toes curl at the thought of taking a nailbrush to my hands and arms.

‘I know she won’t like it, but I’d like to ask her if we can take on a locum.’

‘A locum to cover for the locum,’ I say dryly as Izzy hands me her mobile.

I leave a message on Emma’s voicemail.

‘You could try phoning Westleigh too – find out how Liberty is,’ Izzy says.

John the vet is tied up, but he rings me back five minutes later.

‘I thought Alex would be in touch first thing,’ he says. ‘Talk about fussy clients, he was completely OTT and now . . .’ he goes on lightly.

‘Alex hasn’t been in touch because he’s been in an accident,’ I say. ‘There was a fire. He’s unconscious. That’s why I’m calling, not him.’

‘I’m sorry,’ says John, sounding contrite. ‘How bloody awful.’

‘How is the horse?’ I ask, although it almost seems irrelevant now. Who knows if Alex will wake up, let alone ride again?

‘She’s doing well so far,’ John says. ‘She needs to stay with us for a while, so tell Alex not to worry about her.’ He pauses. ‘He is going to be OK, isn’t he?’

‘I don’t know,’ I say, my voice sounding distant, as if it’s coming out of someone else’s mouth. I cut the call and stare at the mobile and then at the blood-tinged fluid seeping through the paw-print bandages on my arms. I just don’t know.

Liberty isn’t out of the woods yet, and neither is Ginge if he managed to flee the fire and hole up somewhere in Longdogs Copse.

Izzy parks just inside the paddock, not being as concerned about the paintwork of the practice car as I am about mine. We set out across the grass towards the remains of the cottage, which remind me of the wreck of the
Mary Rose
when I visited it once with Emma and Ben: vapour rising from her glistening timbers, the atmosphere incredibly peaceful. And sad.

‘Ginge,’ I call. ‘Ginge!’

‘I don’t think he’ll come rushing over to greet us – we aren’t exactly his favourite people,’ Izzy says.

‘He can’t live wild out here, not in his condition. I’ll come back later and set up a trap. One of the crush cages back at the practice will do.’

Izzy puts her arm on mine. I tear it away, acutely aware of the pain and unable to bear any contact. ‘Maz, he’s probably dead.’

‘He’s alive,’ I say, and I think of Alex again, his face pale against the pillow, and I can’t speak any more. If Alex dies, nothing will ever be the same again.

Chapter Eighteen

Vet Rescue

‘I’m a pretty birdie, yes, I am.’ An insufferably cheery cockatiel – a bird bigger than a budgie and smaller than a parrot, with grey and white plumage, a tuft of yellow feathers on the top of its head and an orange circle behind its eye – greets me with a whistle as I walk through into Kennels the following morning. ‘I’m a pretty birdie, yes, I am.’

‘Hi, Izzy.’ I check the inpatient card on its cage. ‘Jude? What kind of name is that?’

‘One of the firemen found him in the back of Gloria’s barn,’ says Izzy. ‘I chose the name. He and Jude Law are both such pretty things.’ She smiles. ‘Oh, and the same chap brought the Siamese cat in.’ She points towards one of the high-rise cages where a cross-eyed Siamese cat peers out from beneath a piece of Vetbed.

‘I’m a pretty birdie, yes, I am.’ The cockatiel pipes up again. ‘I’m a pretty birdie, yes, I am.’

‘I’m beginning to understand why Gloria didn’t keep him in the house. Like certain other men I know, he has far too high an opinion of himself,’ Izzy says. ‘I’ll cover him up for a while.’ Izzy picks up an old towel and drops it over the cage. Jude falls silent. ‘Result.’

‘What are all those cages doing on the bench?’ I ask, trying to concentrate on the animals and the practice instead of going frantic with worry about Alex, although I can hardly think about anything else.