Trailerpark (27 page)

Merle said nothing.

“It's a lot of money. Fifty thousand dollars. You have a good chance to win it, you know.” He didn't respond, so she went on, chattering nervously now. “Think of what that would mean. Fifty thousand dollars! You could have a wonderful old age. I mean, retirement. Retirement, I mean. You could go to Florida in the winter months. You could go deep-sea fishing in Florida … maybe buy one of those condominiums, and play shuffleboard, and have lots of friends…” She trailed off. “God, I sound like my mother.” She stood up and moved toward the door. Tenderly, she said, “I'm sorry I bothered you, Mr. Ring. My mother … my mother wanted you to know about the drawing, that's why I came out here. She thought you'd be … excited, I guess.”

“I haven't won yet.”

“But you have a good chance of winning.”

“Good chance of dying, too. Better.”

“Not by January fifteenth, Mr. Ring.”

“About the same. I'm old. Not much left to do but think, and then, in the middle of a thought, die.”

“Oh, no,” she said heartily. “There's
lots
left for you to do.”

“Like what?”

“Well … fishing, for instance. And spending all that lottery money you're going to win.”

“Yes,” he said. “Yes, I suppose there's that.” Then he lapsed back into silence again.

The girl opened the door and slipped out, and the bobhouse was filled again with darkness and solitude.

 

The door to the bobhouse was flung open, and a blinding light entered, bringing with it a blast of cold air and the hulking shape of a man in a hooded parka. The man splashed the light from his flashlight around the chamber, located Merle stretched out in his blanket roll on the bunk and then let the beam droop deferentially to the floor. The man closed the door behind him.

“Mr. Ring?”

“Yep.”

“I'm… I'm Leon LaRoche. You know, from the trailerpark?”

Merle swung his body into a sitting position. “You can shut out that light.”

Leon apologized and snapped off the flashlight. “May I sit down and get warm? It's mighty cold out there tonight.” He chuckled. “Yes, sir, mighty cold.”

“Suit yourself.”

They were silent for a moment. Merle opened the stove front, throwing sudden shadows and sheets of dancing red and yellow light into the room; then he tossed a chunk of wood onto the crimson coals and closed the firedoor again.

The young man nervously cleared his throat. “Well, Mr. Ring, how's the fishing?”

“Slow.”

“I've been hearing a lot about you lately, from folks at the park, I mean … how you stay out here night and day, only coming in now and then for supplies…”

“Whiskey,” Merle said, and he went under the bench with one hand and drew out his bottle. “Drink?”

“No. No, thank you.”

Merle took a slow pull from the bottle.

“Anyhow, it's all very interesting to me. Yes, maybe I will have a drink,” he said, and Merle fetched the bottle again and passed it over. “So tell me, Mr. Ring, what do you eat out here? How do you cook and all?”

“Fish, mostly. A man can live a long time in this climate on fish and whiskey.”

“Very interesting. And you use lake water for washing, I suppose?”

Merle grunted.

“How long do you plan on staying out here, Mr. Ring?” Leon took another drink from the bottle and passed it back.

Merle said nothing.

As if his question had been answered, Leon went on. “And do you do this every winter, Mr. Ring? I mean, stay out on the ice, isolated like this, living off fish and whiskey and solitude?” He chuckled again. “I'm relatively new to the park,” he explained.

“I know.”

“Yes, of course. Well.” He wrestled himself free of his parka and flexed his shoulders and hands. “Say, it's really comfortable in here, isn't it? Smells a bit of whiskey and fried fish, though,” he said with a light laugh. “You wouldn't mind if I had another sip of that, would you? What
is
it, by the way? It's quite good! Really warms a man's insides, doesn't it?”

Merle handed him the bottle. “Canadian Club.”

Leon unscrewed the cap and took a long swallow, then slowly screwed the cap back on. “Yes. So, yes, I was saying, do you do this every year?”

“Man and boy.”

“But
why?
”

“It makes the rest of the year more interesting,” Merle said wearily.

Leon was silent for a moment. “I wonder. Yes, I'll bet it does. I couldn't stand it, though. The isolation. And the cold, and the darkness.”

“It's a good idea to get used to the idea. Like I said, it makes the rest of the year more interesting.”

Leon's voice was tight and frightened. “Are you talking about dying?”

“I'm talking about living,” Merle said with quiet emphasis.

“Speaking of living,” Leon said, suddenly hearty again, “you are probably wondering why I came all the way out here this evening.”

“Not particularly.”

“Yes. Well, anyhow, it has to do with the Grand Prize Drawing next week. You know, the state lottery?”

“Yep.”

“Folks in the park have been wondering, Mr. Ring, if you plan on attending that drawing over in Concord, and if not, assuming you win, for you just might win, you know, folks are wondering how you plan to pick up the prize money. You have to be there in person to pick up the prize money, you see…” He trailed off, as if waiting to be interrupted.

Merle said nothing.

“Well. It occurred to some of us that you might not care to take the time off from your fishing to go all the way in to Concord and deal with all those state officials and the reporters and so forth, seeing as how you enjoy your privacy and like to spend your winters alone out here on the lake, and we thought you might be able to empower someone else to do that chore for you. So I did a little checking around at the bank, and sure enough, you
can
empower someone else to pick up your prize money for you!” He waited a few seconds, but nothing more than the crackle and spit of the fire came out of the darkness, so he went on. “Anticipating your reluctance to leave your fishing at this time of year, I went ahead and took the liberty of having the necessary document drawn up by the bank attorney.” He went into his shirt pocket and brought forth a crisp, white envelope. “This document empowers me to act as your agent, should you win the Grand Prize Drawing,” he said, handing the envelope to Merle.

The old man took out the paper folded inside, and at the sound, Leon snapped on his flashlight. “Where do I sign it?” Merle asked. His voice was suddenly, strangely woeful and riddled with fatigue.

Leon directed him to a line at the bottom of the paper and handed him a pen.

Slowly, the old man placed the paper against his knee and scrawled his name on it. “There,” he said, and he handed the paper, envelope and pen back to the bank clerk, who doused the light. “It's your problem, now,” the old man said.

“No problem at all, Mr. Ring. None at all,” he said, as he stood and pulled his parka on. “I assume,” he went on, “that if you win, you'll want your check deposited in a savings account down at the bank.”

“No.”

“No?”

“Bring the money here.”

“Here?”

“In cash.”

“Cash?”

“Cash. No point letting some bank make money off my money. The government owns all the money anyhow. They just let us use it for a while. It's the banks that foul everything up by getting in the middle. You bring me anything I win in hundred dollars bills. You might use one of them to buy me a case of Canadian Club. I've always wanted a case of Canadian Club,” he said wistfully.

Leon seemed to have been struck dumb. He moved toward the door in the darkness, groping for the latch and finally finding it. Then he let himself out.

 

From here on out, it was as if everyone who knew Merle knew that he was going to win the lottery. Consequently, his solitude rarely went a day without its being broken by a visit from someone wanting to congratulate him and talk about the money. Also, the weather broke into what's called the January Thaw and people found the half-mile walk over ice and long floes of crusted snow less formidable than before. The wind died, the skies cleared to a deep blue, and daytime temperatures nudged the freezing mark, so at one time or another during the week following the visit from the bank teller, practically everyone else in the park found an occasion to visit the old man. Even Claudel Bing (though he had not lived at the trailerpark for several years, he was still paying for a trailer there and, in his fashion, was courting Doreen Tiede, and as a result had kept up his links with the park) came out to Merle's bobhouse early one sunny afternoon.

He was already drunk when he arrived, a not uncommon occurrence that year, and therefore he wanted to talk about luck. In particular, his own bad luck, as compared to Merle's good luck. Luck was Claudel's obsession that year. It was the only way he could understand or even think about his life.

“You, you sonofabitch, you got
all
the luck,” he told Merle, who silently arranged his lines in the tip-ups and scooped ice chips away from the holes. “And that means there's none left over for people like me! That's the trouble with this goddamn country.” Claudel had brought his own bottle of whiskey, which he held between his legs and every now and then swigged at. “Now you take them fucking Commie bastards, like that Castro and them Russians, their idea is to get rid of luck completely, so
nobody
gets any. That's as bad as what we got here. Worse, actually. What I'd like to see is a system that lets everybody have a little luck. That's what this country needs. Nobody gets a lot, and nobody gets none. Everybody gets a little.”

“How about the bad luck?” Merle asked him. “Everybody get a little bit of that, too?” His beard and face and hands were pale green in the light from the holes, and as he moved slowly, smoothly over his traps and lines, checking bait and making sure the lines were laid precisely in the spools, he resembled a ghost.

“Sure! Why the hell not? When you got a little good luck, you can handle a little bad luck. It won't break you. If I had money, for instance, it wouldn't bother me that Ginnie run off with that goddamn sonofabitchin' Howie Leeke. It's
like
that, Merle,” he said earnestly. “But you wouldn't understand. Not with your kind of luck. Shit,” he said, and took a long drink from his bottle. “You ever lose a woman you loved, Merle?” he asked suddenly. “No, of course not. You've had all them wives, got wives and kids scattered all over the country, but none of them ever left
you
. No, you left
them
. Right? Am I right?”

“Can't say exactly that I intended to leave them, though,” Merle said. “I guess I just willed it. You can will what you actually do, but what you intend is all you accomplish in the end.”

“You preaching to me, Merle, goddammit?”

“Nope. Just thinking out loud. Not used to company, I guess.”

“Hey, that's all right, I understand. Shit, it must get awful lonely out here. I'd go nuts. It's good for thinking, though. Probably. Is that the kinda stuff you think about out here, Merle, all that stuff about will and intending?”

“Yep.” A red flag on one of the tip-ups suddenly sprung free, and in a single, swift motion Merle was off the bench and huddled over the line, watching it run off the spool and then stop, when he jerked it, set the hook and started retrieving the fish. “Black bass,” he said to no one in particular. It was a small one, not two pounds. Merle drew it through the hole, removed the hook from its lip and deposited the fish in the bucket of ice chips scooped from the holes.

“If I was you, I'd be thinking all the time about how I was going to spend all that money,” Claudel went on. “You talk about will and intentions!” he laughed. “How do you intend to spend the money, Merle? Fifty thousand bucks! Jesus H. Christ.”

“Can't say.” He had rebaited the hook and was winding the line back onto the spool.

“You mean you don't know?”

“What d'you think my intentions toward that much money ought to be? Can't spend it, not the way I live. 'Course, I haven't got it yet, so it ain't like we're talking about reality.”

“No, we're talking about money!” Claudel said, leering.

“All I know is death and taxes. That's reality. I intend to pay my taxes, and I intend to die.”

“Merle, you are fucking crazy,” Claudel said. “Crazy. But smart. You're smart, all right. You coulda been a lot of things if you'd wanted to. Big. A businessman.”

“I always did what I wanted to do,” Merle said gloomily. Then, as if writing a letter, he said, “I was a carpenter, and I was married, and I fathered some children. Then I got old. Everyone gets old, though, whether he wants to or not.”