Tracker’s Sin (7 page)

She swal owed hard and lifted her chin. Tears trembled on her lashes. “Whatever you want.”

He slid his palm up her arm, trailing his fingers up the side of her neck before working them through her hair, to anchor them beneath the

bun. It would take so little to tug her hair free of the constraint. So little to break her. He let his thumb skim down until he found the hol ow of her throat.

Take her up on her offer,
the devil that sat on his shoulder urged. Tracker was tempted. Her pulse throbbed against his thumb in silent

reprimand.
She offered,
the voice continued.

Yes, she had. It wouldn’t be the first time he’d traded services for sex. It likely wouldn’t be the last. That didn’t mean he had to like it.

Her big blue eyes widened and locked on his. Tears spil ed down her cheeks. Her lips trembled. “Please.”

He caught a tear with the edge of his thumb, halting the downward spiral. Son of a bitch. He needed a kick in the ass. A man didn’t pass

up opportunities like that.

“You loved Miguel’s father very much.”

“Vincente and Josefina are my family.”

Interesting way of skirting the statement.

“They’re not mine,” he retorted.

She grabbed his wrist. Her short nails stung as they dug deeply. “I’m begging you for your help.”

“And you just natural y went for my base nature. Because a man like me wouldn’t have a higher one.”

“No!”

“That’s okay, sweets. I’m wil ing to be as low as you want me to be.”

“I don’t want you to be anything! I just want you to help my family.”

“Then why don’t you just ask for my help?”

She pushed at his hand. “I did.”

He tipped her chin up so she had to look at him. Had to know with whom she was dealing.

“You tried to hire me. You begged me, but you never asked me with any expectation that I would agree.”

“Why would you?”

Christ, she’d just got done hauling out his reputation, but when it came to seeing him, she didn’t see a decent human being. “Yeah. Why

would I?” He let her go. She stepped back immediately, rubbing her hands up and down her arms.

“Are you going to help us?”

There was a smudge on the pristine white of her shirtsleeve where he’d held her.

“I’l help you.” The jury was stil out on whether he’d help the Moraleses. Something about their story struck a sour note.

He grabbed his hat off the bed.

Ari stood in the doorway, blocking his way. “What are you going to do?”

“Go to town.”

Her eyes grew big again. “But you don’t have any help.”

Grasping her shoulders, he turned her around and nudged her ahead of him. “I’m not going to solve your problem today.”

“You’re not?”

“No.” He grabbed Buster’s tack. The bridle jangled as he dragged it off the rack and carried it over to the stal . “I’m going to get a drink.”

4

T
racker was a drinking man. Ari didn’t know why she was surprised. Men like him who wore that aura of death around them played hard and drank hard.

At least that’s what she’d heard from Josefina. It was why Ari never went to town. Because drinking men couldn’t be trusted. But even though she stood

there watching Tracker prepare to saddle his horse, she didn’t believe it. It didn’t mesh with what her instincts said were the truth. It didn’t mesh with her

own experience.

She touched her cheek where she could stil feel the warmth of Tracker’s hand. He’d been angry with her and hurt, but his touch had been

anything but angry. If she didn’t know better, she would have cal ed it seductive, maybe even tender. He was a very strange and confusing man. And he

was her only hope.

Tracker hefted the saddle onto his horse’s back. Despite the anger and frustration she could feel coming from him, he was gentle with the

animal, too. She admired the maturity that al owed him to control his emotions. She admired his physique. He was truly beautiful from behind. His broad

shoulders tapered to lean hips and tight buttocks that flexed as he turned. A mature man in his prime, he was beautiful in a very masculine way. Her gaze

dropped to his buttocks again.
Very
beautiful.

“Don’t you have a baby to attend to?”

Dear heavens. How had he known she was looking? Heat flooded her cheeks.

Ari had two choices: apologize or brazen it out. She chose the latter. Tracker wasn’t the type to admire cowardice. And there was

something about him that made her want his admiration. Of course, the fact that she’d lapsed into an episode likely would always color how he saw her,

but she could try. She was more than that scared woman she couldn’t control. She lifted her chin. A perceptive man would figure that out. “Josefina wil cal

me when he wakes from his nap.”

Tracker’s response to that was a grunt. He tied off the girth strap. His hands were large yet deft, going through the process with a certain

grace that held her gaze. He handled a horse wel . How would he be with a woman?

“Then why don’t you find something else to do besides stare at me?”

Because staring at him made her feel alive for the first time since she’d awoken after her husband’s murder. Vital. More than just a crazy

woman with no past. “This suits me fine.”

The truth was, she liked having his hands against her skin. That brief touch stil lingered in her senses like a brand. It had been…arousing

in a way she couldn’t remember ever feeling before. She frowned, closed her eyes and studied the sensation, trying to fol ow it back into the black void

that used to be her past. As she had every other time she tried to remember, she hit a wal of nothing. She sighed and opened her eyes. Her gaze col ided

with Tracker’s.

“Anybody ever tel you that staring at a strange man wil get you into trouble?”

“But I’m not staring at you.”

The look he shot her was hot enough to make her toes curl. Hate her or resent her, Tracker Ochoa desired her. That was an exciting

thought. She was a widow, but she was almost at the end of her mourning. And he was a very virile individual.

“I warn you, sweets, I’m not a nice man.”

She tried to remember al that she’d ever heard of him, and he was right, no one had ever said he was nice. She nodded. “I understand.”

He flipped the stirrup down off the saddle horn. The light of the barn slashed across his face, highlighting the set of his chin, the ful ness of

his lower lip, the hint of muscle she could see through the open neck of his shirt. His skin, the color of cinnamon coffee with just a touch of cream,

stretched tight over his col arbone. There was a scar just to the right of his throat. Rather than detracting, it emphasized the sheer virility of the man.

Beneath the brim of his hat, his eyes watched her admire him. Narrowed as they were, he should have looked scary, but beneath the hooded lids, she

could see heat simmering. Desire. For her.

“Do you?”

She nodded again.

“What do you think you understand?”

There was something so…alive about flirting with Tracker. Even when it was a bluff. It made her feel so far away from that void, so far

away from her troubles. It was stimulating. “That you want me.”

The swear word he uttered was vile and not one she was used to hearing. But instead of being repulsed, she was intrigued. It was the first

break in Tracker’s control, and she’d caused it. She couldn’t help a smal , proud smile.

“You’re playing with fire.” He gathered up the reins and hooked them over the saddle horn. “I’m a dangerous man.”

She’d be more afraid if his voice wasn’t so softly enticing, with dark notes that stroked along her nerves in a provocative lure. “I’m a crazy

woman.”

“You’re a mother.”

What did that have to do with anything? “You’re a lawman.”

“I was an outlaw before that.”

Interesting. But not as scary as it should be. Excitement hummed in her veins. She should be afraid. She wasn’t. She was actual y a bit

exhilarated. “You couldn’t have been much of one if you ended up a Ranger.”

“I was a damn good outlaw.”

He stopped fussing with the saddle and turned his ful attention on her. His mouth quirked up in a smile that, twisted by the scar, seemed

to give his expression a cruel edge. Until she looked into his eyes, and then she saw the sensuality waiting to be unleashed.

A shiver went down her spine. “And now you’re a damn good Ranger.”

“Don’t curse.”

She didn’t recognize the woman who retorted, “Then don’t talk nonsense,” but she liked her.

So did Tracker, if the softening of his lips was to be believed.

“I told you I’d help you.” He gave the saddle a tug, testing the girth. “You don’t need to seal the deal with your body.”

Al right, that was embarrassing. She took a breath as heat seared her cheeks. But she didn’t retreat and didn’t back down. She’d sworn

when she’d woken up to nothing that she’d face her new life with courage. Courageous people didn’t run from the truth.

“I’m sorry about that.”

Tracker swung up into the saddle. “It doesn’t matter.”

But it did. She’d insulted him. He was a lawman. He lived his life doing right, and she’d taken in his size, the vicious scar cutting his

cheek, the darkness of his skin, and judged him to be amoral. “It does.”

She took a step forward. He watched. She took another. His eyes narrowed. She took a third. She couldn’t take the fourth. The sleeping

demon coiled behind the blank wal of her memory stirred. There was something wrong with the way he sat the horse. Something familiar and horrible in

his long hair, flowing from beneath the hat. Something wrong with the il usion of power when she had none. She took a breath, desperate for the memory

to continue, but terrified that it would. The horse shifted, leaving Tracker backlit by the sun pouring in the doorway. The sense of danger increased. Dear

God, she didn’t want to know. “Please.”
Please make it go away. Please make it go away. Make it go away.

She blinked and Tracker was there, studying her with that intentness she didn’t like. As if he could see what she couldn’t. As if he knew

what she didn’t. Suddenly, flirting with him wasn’t fun anymore.

“You real y don’t remember anything, do you?”

“No.”

“And you’ve asked?”

“Yes.”

“Are you sure you got the right answers?”

No.
“Yes.” She motioned with her hand, hurrying him along. “I thought you were going to get a drink?”

“I thought you were trying to seduce me.”

She blinked, the last of the darkness fleeing before the outrageousness of the statement. Al she had to defend herself with was a bluff.

She wasn’t a confident woman. She didn’t think she ever had been, but she wanted to be, and with the birth of her son, she’d decided she would be.

Vincente and Josefina were wonderful, but they were old and they had lives of their own to live. She’d heard them talking at night about wanting to move

back to Mexico and live with Josefina’s sister and her family. They just couldn’t take her with them. She was too white to be safe, and they were too old to

protect her. They’d saved her life, and never made her think they begrudged her, but she was their son’s responsibility, not theirs. She had to learn to

make her own way and find a place where she and her own son would be safe.

“Was I?” she asked.

“Might have been my mistake.”

No, the mistake had been al hers. “I’m sorry. I’m not usual y so…” She waved her hand. “It’s just been so long.”

“Since you’ve been with a man?”

She blinked at the bluntness. She hadn’t even thought of that. “No.” She looked at him and answered with dawning comprehension, “I

think it’s just been a long time since I felt alive.”

“Son of a bitch.” He walked his horse forward the two steps it took to tower over her. “Screwing me won’t keep you alive. In case you

haven’t noticed, you’re white and I’m Indian.”

He was doing it on purpose, trying to intimidate her. Using crudity to push her away. Was this the real man? Did it even matter? He was

right: she was a mother. She was right: she was crazy. Whatever she did to feel alive, it couldn’t involve using this man. He wore the pain of his life on his

person and in his eyes. It wasn’t her place to add to it.

“I’m sorry,” Ari said, hearing Josefina cal to her from the house. “Miguel is awake. I have to go.”

Tracker backed up the horse. “So do I.”

Her stomach dropped to her toes. Was he leaving? Panic must have shown in her face because he swore and the horse shifted.

“Don’t worry. I’l be back. I haven’t forgotten what I promised.”

She felt guilty at the relief that flooded her. Helping her meant putting his life on the line. It was wrong to ask someone to do that, but she

had no choice. She needed him. Without him she had no way to protect those she loved. And to save those she loved, she needed this man to risk his life.

It wasn’t right. It just wasn’t. She pushed back the curl that fel over her eye. With an annoying stubbornness, it bounced back. She inhaled a breath.

Tracker’s anger struck her like a blow.

She took a step forward. His hands tightened on the reins. If he turned away now he’d never know how she felt, because she’d never get

the courage to say it and he would always think her a coward. Formless memories howled behind the wal as she took that step. He scared her and he

drew her.

But she owed him. That was al that mattered.

The horse tossed his head as she placed her hand on his rider’s thigh. Tracker control ed the nervous prancing with tension on the reins

and the pressure of his knees. Muscle flexed against her palm. He was a very strong man with a reputation that made the worst outlaws cower. They said