Towering (2 page)

Suddenly, the little girl began to scream. “Mommy! Mommy!”

“Quiet!” the woman said.

“But I forgot my bunny! My bunny!”

“What? Then, it’s gone. The train’s leaving.”

The little girl was crying. The door was still open, and I was closer to it. I dropped my duffel bag on the ground and ran inside the train, not even knowing why I was doing it. The bunny, frayed and more gray than white, was in the middle of the floor. I grabbed it and ran out, nearly slipping on the icy platform. The mother and daughter had already started to leave, though the little girl was struggling and bridging up the way toddlers do when they’re angry. I ran after them. “Here.” I shoved it into the girl’s hands.

If I’d expected a thank-you, I got none. I said, “Hey, do you know if there’s a pay phone?”

Maybe the woman didn’t hear me, but I thought she did. In any case, she shielded her daughter’s face with her hands and kept walking to the stairs. Nice. I could have been stuck on the train if the door had closed, stuck and bound for someplace even farther north and colder than Slakkill. At least the little girl had stopped crying.

I returned to my duffel bag and checked my phone. No bars. No surprise. Once we got out of the Catskills, reception had been patchy from a combination of too many mountains and trees, too few cell phone towers. The Adirondacks were worse. What kind of animals were these people? Occasionally, you could send a text, but I hadn’t because there was no one I wanted to text. They’d all forgotten me, my friends. Maybe I hoped they would. Anyway, now, there were no bars at all.

But cell phones were a necessity of life, especially when someone was supposed to pick you up at the train station at midnight in the middle of nowhere. I had a name, Celeste Greenwood, the mother of my mom’s childhood friend, and a phone number. Without a phone to call from, though, those facts were useless. Tomorrow’s commuters (if there even were any) would be greeted by the pathetic sight of my preserved, frozen body when they arrived the next morning.

I tried the number anyway. Sure enough, the phone flashed, “No service.”

The sound of the train’s wheels echoed in my head, the lights getting smaller in the distance as it sped away, blending with the way too many stars, which would have been pretty if they hadn’t been so lonely. There was nothing here, no lights or people, only darkness and stars and one train platform in the wilderness.

I shivered and looked for a pay phone.

“You Wyatt?” a voice asked.

I started. The guy—if it was a guy under all the layers of coats and scarves—had sneaked up on me, making me once again consider my mortality in this place. It was a campfire story waiting to happen. . . .
And then, the claw-handed man grabbed the teenager and he was never heard from again
.

I looked down at the stranger’s hands. No claws. “What?” I said. Then, I didn’t know why. My name was, in fact, Wyatt, a name that my mom, who’d been nineteen when I was born, had gotten from a soap opera. It was a Long Island name, a name that didn’t belong to me anymore, as I didn’t belong to Long Island anymore. “Yeah, I’m Wyatt.”

The guy was tall, taller than me, even though I was six feet. He moved his scarf down a bit so I could see his face enough to tell he was about my age, about seventeen. “I’m Josh. That all you have?” He pointed to the duffel and the backpack that held what were now all my worldly possessions.

“I’ll be fine,” I said.

“Don’t be sure. It gets cold here, much colder than Long Island.” He said “Long Island” with the same kind of scorn people in Long Island used to talk about “the sticks.”

As if on cue, I shivered again. “There’s always online shopping.” I cursed my teeth for chattering. I looked like a wuss.

“If Old Lady Greenwood even has the internet.” He gestured for me to follow him. The platform was slippery, and I had to step carefully, so for a minute, we didn’t talk.

“How old is she?” I finally asked.

Josh shrugged. “A hundred or so. I didn’t know she even knew anyone. We live up the road from her, and my mom makes me check on her sometimes. She says it’s to be neighborly, but really, I think it’s to make sure she hasn’t dropped dead. Around here, they might not notice for months.” He laughed.

I laughed too, even though I didn’t really think it was funny. A chill wind whistled down the tracks.

“Anyway, I’ve never seen anyone around there.”

We reached the staircase. It was even icier than the platform, and I struggled to pull the duffel bag down it. I slid and grabbed the railing. Stupid. Josh could see I obviously didn’t have much experience with the elements. He just waited, watching me, beside a beat-up red pickup. Walking to that was no easier, so we didn’t speak again until I’d reached it—Josh had left it running—and until my teeth had stopped chattering.

“My mom was friends with her daughter,” I said.

Silence. We pulled onto a road that was nothing but pine trees, no gas stations, nothing else in sight. Finally, Josh said, “I heard she had a daughter who disappeared.”

My mother had said something similar, that Danielle had gone wild, apparently, after my mother’s family had moved to Long Island. Then, she disappeared, probably ran away. “Yeah, my mother told me something about that. She didn’t really know what happened.”

Josh didn’t answer, and the wind whipped through the trees. The night was moonless, black. Finally, he said, “Dunno. It happened a while ago. My dad says he doesn’t remember much, except he said the police didn’t look very hard when she disappeared. He figures the girl ran away. Lots of people do.”

“That’s understandable.”

“How so?”

Awkward. “Well, I mean, it doesn’t seem real exciting here. Maybe she wanted to go to the city or something.”

“So you think all we do around here is hang out at Stewart’s all weekend?”

I knew Stewart’s was like a 7-Eleven, and if I’d thought about it, that would have been what I’d thought. But I said, “No, of course not.”

He grinned. Now that it was warm, I could see his face, a sort of goofy face that suited the jock he obviously was. He looked like the type of guy I’d have hung with at home.

Home
.

“Actually, that sort of is what we do on weekends. I was just messing with you.”

I laughed. Nervously. “Oh, okay.”

“You should come sometime. It might not be much, but it’s all we’ve got.”

I nodded. “Maybe so.” I thought about what he’d said,
Lots of people do
. Do what? Run away? Or disappear? How many people was
lots
?

“Are you starting school here after vacation?” Josh asked.

“No. I’m taking these online classes, so I guess she’ll have to get internet.”

The questions hung between us. Why had I moved? Why here? Why wasn’t I going to school? I huddled in my coat, willing my teeth to chatter, letting the cold serve as an excuse for why I wasn’t volunteering the information. But Josh wasn’t asking, and for that, I was glad. I wasn’t sure whether I wanted to get involved with people here. New people I’d only disappoint. The creepy old lady and her missing daughter, who my mom said had probably ended up in a ditch—they sounded more my speed.

We drove in silence another mile or so. At one point, I checked Josh’s speedometer. He was going ninety. No one noticed or cared. That seemed to describe a lot of things around here. Finally, he slowed at a mailbox with no name on it, just the number 18. He turned and drove down a private drive that was maybe another quarter mile long. At the end of it was a house, two stories high with dark windows. Even with just the porch light, I could see it was in disrepair, a shade of gray that was more neglect than paint. Josh took a key from the cup holder. “She said let yourself in.”

I stumbled from the car. The frigid wind hit me worse than before, and inside my gloves, my fingers felt like stiff wires, making it almost impossible to pull my bag from the bed of Josh’s pickup. Finally, I wrested it out. I started to wave good-bye to Josh.

He rolled down the window. “Wyatt?”

“Yeah?” I stopped. The wind rolled under my hat and through my ears. I could only see his outline in the shadowy truck.

“Good luck, man.”

I heard the roar of Josh’s motor long after it would have disappeared at home. Then, nothing. I dragged the duffel bag up the path. Snow soaked through the tops of my sneakers. Above my head, something—a bird of prey or maybe a bat—shrieked. I looked for it but saw nothing. The trees did a skeleton dance in the December wind. I stumbled forward. The key, forgotten in my haste to climb the slippery path, slid from my frozen fingers, falling soundlessly into the snow. I knelt to fumble for it and felt the distinct sensation of being watched. I glanced up and saw a small, dark movement in the upstairs window. My imagination. I heard a rustling in the trees. Just squirrels. I returned to my fumbling and finally found the key, which had nearly turned to ice.

I rose and climbed the steps to the door. The key fought against the lock, as if it was not much used to working. Finally, it turned. I tugged the door open.

A scent met my nose, not one I associated with the elderly. I had expected mothballs or powdery perfume, but this was something different, some rare spice. The room was pitch black. I felt for the light switch, but when I flipped it, the bulb flashed bright then died instantly. In the moment it was on, I saw the staircase ahead of me. With still-frozen hands, I pulled my bag up and climbed the stairs, feeling along the wall as I walked, looking for another light. Finally, I found one as I reached the upstairs landing.

The hallway before me looked from another time. Old photos of long-dead people lined the walls of the staircase. A couple posed formally, the woman wearing a 1920s wedding dress; a little boy by a boat. The spicy scent strengthened. I didn’t know which room was mine, but all the doors but one were closed. One was open barely a crack. I chose that one. The light there worked, and as I entered, I saw there were photos there too, all of a young girl with long, dark hair and an impish grin. Was this Danielle? My question was answered as I studied the room, finding more photos of the same girl. In a Girl Scout uniform. Dressed in an old-fashioned gown in a school play. And, finally, arm in arm with a blonde girl whose face I knew well. My mother. In the photo, my mother was laughing. Danielle stared at something in the distance. I had dozed on the train, and now I felt too awake to sleep, so I examined the books on the shelves. Mostly, they were romance novels with open-shirted guys staring at heaving-breasted women in Victorian dresses. But finally, I found something interesting. A yearbook. It had
The Centurion
emblazoned in gold letters on a black cover. I drew it out and turned to the index, searching for my mother’s name, Emily Hill. The first page number led me to the student photos, black-and-white faces, all with the same stick-up bangs that had been in style back then, the same dopey smiles. Danielle was on the same page, her long, straight hair a darker shade of gray than the others. I wondered what had happened to her. Then, I remembered she was probably dead.

Without thinking, I turned the pages. The book was thinner than my yearbook at home. It looked like there had only been a few hundred students in the whole school. I found another photo of Danielle, a candid shot of her in a winter coat, about to throw a snowball. Danielle hadn’t collected friends’ signatures in the yearbook. Only one page had an inscription, and that inscription was from my mother, a long block of text about “weird Mr. Oglesby” and “that day in chemistry class.” Instead of the usual “Stay sweet” or “Have a good summer” before her signature, Mom had written, “Don’t worry. It will be okay.”

The date was eighteen years ago. Weird thought that, only a year later, my mother had been pregnant with me. And Danielle, she’d disappeared.

I flipped through the other pages. Finding no more inscriptions, I returned the book to the shelf.

But when I tried to push it in, it wouldn’t go. Something behind it blocked its way. With my almost-thawed fingers, I pried the books apart. Suddenly, I wondered if maybe I should put everything back the way it had been.
Exactly
the way it had been. Maybe the old lady was keeping the room as a shrine to Danielle. Maybe I shouldn’t even be in here.

But when I reached between the books, I found the obstruction, an old, green notebook with crooked spirals. Was it a diary? No, I had no idea why I’d thought that. It was a notebook for school. Still, I wondered why it was hidden. Probably, Danielle had shoved it on to the shelf when her mother had told her to clean her room. I did that all the time. Probably, the first thing Mom would do now that I was gone was clean out my stuff. But Danielle’s mother hadn’t cleaned out, and that was understandable. The mess was all she had.

The notebook smelled the way old books do, like dust and unrealized potential. I opened it, expecting algebraic formulas or American history notes, and I wasn’t disappointed. Or maybe I was. On the first page, neatly copied, was the periodic table of elements.

I was about to close it and move on. I was tired again. A glance at the clock told me it was nearly two, and the cold air didn’t help. I wanted to curl under the too-thin blanket on the bed and go to sleep. But then, I noticed the second page.