To Fight For (32 page)

I stood and turned away from her and started to leave. But then I stopped, turned back.

‘There's one thing I want,' I said.

‘Anything, Joe.'

‘I want a picture of Brenda. As a girl. On her first day of school. Anything. I don't have one. I want something, a memory, her memory.'

She walked slowly to a tall, narrow chest of drawers, opened the top drawer.

She handed me a photo. I looked at it, saw Brenda on the beach. She was smiling.

So there it was. I'd finished, closed the circle. Everything at the end had started at the beginning, and I'd had to crawl my way back there, back through mud and blood and fog and madness, back through death and fury and memories of death and fury, back through pain and betrayal and the dullness and greed of powerful men, back through the fear and agony of women and children. Back. Back.

But I'd made it, back to the start, and I'd closed the circle.

Everyone had now paid for Brenda's death. Paget and Marriot had died at my hand. Glazer at the hands of Buck, who'd died at mine. Bradley had paid for it, and Compton too. Even Eddie and Dunham; they'd had nothing to do with Brenda's death, but they'd tried to profit from it. Even they would pay, Cole would make them.

And the man in the DVD. Cole would use him first to get back at Dunham, or get peace, at least. Then Cole would make the man suffer, somehow. I trusted him to do that and if he didn't … well, I'd make Cole pay too.

And Tina. She'd paid, perhaps more than anyone because she'd loved Brenda and had betrayed her. She'd paid every day since, and would pay every day now, forever.

But how did I feel about it?

In truth, I felt nothing. I was hollow, bloodless, finally. I kept thinking that I'd failed in the one thing I was on this earth for: Brenda had died, and I'd not stopped it, and for that I hadn't paid.

When I got back to Browne's, he was up, and sober. I trudged in, shrugged out of my wet coat, pulled my boots off.

‘Well?' he said.

‘Well,' I said.

‘Cuppa?'

I nodded.

He disappeared and came back with two mugs of tea. He handed me one. It was hot and strong.

His place was boarded up at the front. We'd taken the boards from the back and nailed them over the door and front window. He preferred it like that, he said. It meant he didn't have to look at the groups of people who gathered to stare at a crime scene.

The law had come round. I'd made myself scarce. Browne swore blind that it had been a burglary. They laughed at that, but we hadn't heard anything more from them. I reckoned the word had come down from up high. Compton's bosses must've shat themselves over the whole thing and now all they wanted was for it to disappear.

So, we settled into some kind of routine. He'd prod and poke me now and then, stare into my eyes, ask me questions. Who was I? Where was I?

I'd ask myself the same questions. Neither of us got a good answer.

When I told him I hadn't killed Glazer, he nodded. When I told him I hadn't killed Tina, he smiled.

He started gardening. He liked it, read up on it. He dug up the violet he'd found in the garden, put it in a pot, brought it indoors.

He got some colour to his face, seemed fitter, brighter. All that outdoor work, he told me. I didn't buy that.

He still got pissed, of course, but not as much and not as often.

‘What are you going to do now?' he asked me one evening as we sat and watched a Bogart film.

It was a good question.

‘Grow old,' I said.

He smiled at that. Well, I think it was a smile.

‘Hate to dampen the party mood, but I don't think you'll get there.'

‘Probably not. But I'll try.'

‘Yes,' he said. ‘Fight the dying of the light. Knowing you, you might actually make it.'

Fight, I thought. Yes, I'll fight.

‘Growing old's not such a bad thing,' he said. ‘It's what Brenda would've wanted.'

Maybe he was right. Maybe I had paid after all, simply by not dying. Maybe I was still paying.

Later, as we sat in front of the TV and watched a programme about people sitting in front of the TV, I tried to think what life might've been like, if Brenda had lived.

It didn't work. I couldn't make it into a picture.

But I had that photo, at least. Photos are the cycle completed, the past now.

Yes, I'll fight. What else could I do?

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Before he became an assassin in London's underworld, Joe was a soldierin the British army. He knows what it feelslike to fight enemies on foreign soil – but nothing prepared him for this.

Outside his home in East London, a turf war is raging. And Joe has nochoice but to join the fight. It's the onlyway he can find out what happened tothe woman he loved – the only way hecan bring her killers to justice.

Revenge drives him forward.
Either they die, or he does.
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A BROKEN MAN
Joe was a British soldier, then a bare-knuckle boxer.
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Once, long ago, he fell in love.
But people like him don't have happy endings.

A BROKEN CITY
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All he knows is that until he kills them,
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Life has made Joe a machine.
Can this little girl make him human again?

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Ex-boxer, ex-paratrooper, Joe once had meaning in his life. People who cared for him, people who needed him. Then he lost everything, and now he is a hitman for London's most vicious criminals.

Brenda was the only woman who ever loved him. The only woman who believed he could escape the underworld. She died protecting others: now Joe wants revenge on her killers. With nothing left to lose, Joe prepares for the fight of his life…

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Before he became an assassin in London's underworld, Joe was a soldierin the British army. He knows what it feelslike to fight enemies on foreign soil – but nothing prepared him for this.

Outside his home in East London, a turf war is raging. And Joe has nochoice but to join the fight. It's the onlyway he can find out what happened tothe woman he loved - the only way hecan bring her killers to justice.

Revenge drives him forward.
Either they die, or he does.
There's one way to find out…

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