Authors: D Jordan Redhawk
"But why'm I gettin' all cleaned up then?"
"Kathleen," her mother started, "he's a lonely man. His wife passed away two years ago and he's out there on that farm by himself with no sons to help out."
The teenager's brow furrowed as she considered this statement. For some reason, she wasn't understanding what her mum was trying to tell her.
When there was no response, Rachel continued. "And yer not goin' ta find many other choices out here in the wilderness for a husband, Kathleen."
Blue eyes flew open as the full weight of her mother's comment hit her.
Marry him! She wants me ta marry him!
"But.... But, mum," she sputtered, pulling away and turning to peer in horror over her shoulder. "He's an old man!"
Rachel's mouth pinched together in irritation. "He's not
that
old, lass. He's only twenty-eight." To forestall further comment from her eldest child, she held up her soapy hands in warning. "
And
a good provider. Why, he's got a good ten acres of land in seed now, and it's growin' every year!"
"I don't care how much land he has!" the teenager yelled. "I'll not marry him!"
The older woman sighed explosively and rose to her feet. She picked up a nearby towel and wiped off her hands, speaking all the while. "It's
not
like we're tryin' to marry ye off today, Kathleen! We're only invitin' him to break bread with us, give the two of ye a chance to get to know one another. Yer too young to be married yet."
The blonde brushed soapy bangs from her eyes. "I am?"
"Aye, lass. Do ye think we're
that
barbaric? To wed our oldest child to a stranger at fourteen?" Rachel sighed again and shook her head sadly. "It's just that there's not many options fer a pretty young lass out here. We can only do the best we can."
"Aye, mum." Kathleen ducked her head in shame.
"Promise me ye'll give him a chance, Kathleen." When her daughter raised her eyes to look back, Rachel returned to kneel by the tub. "Promise me. It's not Widower Stevens' fault, either. Don't be takin' things out on him."
The slumped shoulders were far more eloquent than the words murmured from the teenager's mouth. "Aye, mum. I promise."
"Good!" Rachel rose to her feet, a smile on her face. "Now, rinse yer hair, love, and I'll help ye dry off and get dressed." She moved away to check on the cookies, humming under her breath.
The teenager heaved a heavy sigh and did as she was bade.
Dinner had been a strained affair from Kathleen's point of view.
Her mother had dressed her in her finest and helped put her hair up. All the while, she was regaled with hints of how to carry herself in the presence of their dinner guest. When the men came back from the field, the responses were mixed. McGlashan and O'Neill were properly awed at the beautiful young woman blushing by the fireplace.
But when Stewart giggled at her, Kathleen lost her decorum and chased after him as he bolted out the door. Despite the stern commands from their da to return, she caught the little brat and knuckled his head for his disrespect.
Widower Stevens arrived on a horse at the required time, a tall, thin man dressed in dark clothing. The men immediately gathered together and began discussing the weather, the crops, and the animals. Stewart kept himself underfoot, trying to entice the visitor to the barn to see Caleb.
Kathleen watched surreptitiously from a window.
He's not a bad looking man
, she finally allowed.
If we 'twere to be married, our children would be blond. And he appears to be gentle and kind.
The teenager sighed and turned away, catching her mother watching her, a smile on her face. With a grimace, she returned to stirring the pot of stew.
Everyone sat at the table for the evening meal, though the women stayed more on their feet while they served the men and boy. Conversation ranged through various topics from the standard day-to-day existence to the rumblings from the colonies to the east.
"Ye know, there's talk of revolution in the colonies," Stevens commented. He smiled up at his neighbor's daughter who refilled his cup of water. "We get news so late here, though, I doubt we'd hear of anything 'til years after the fact."
"Aye," McGlashan nodded. He pushed back from the table. "Stewart, get my pipe. There's a good lad." As the man opened the tobacco pouch and began packing the bowl, he continued. "I'd heard that a British ship ran aground last year at Rhode Island. 'Tweren't long before the colonists themselves burnt it out."
"Things are gettin' volatile, and that's fer certain," Stevens said. "Out here, though.... Not much call to get involved. Don't reckon that the British will get this far into the wilds."
"Probably not," McGlashan agreed.
"But, da," the boy piped up. "Didn't the British get this far up north? They were fightin' with the French up by the lakes."
Their guest nodded. "True, lad. But, now they've got all the land b'tween here and there full of colonists who aren't happy with the way things're goin'. At least up north they had the support of the colonies."
The talk continued on as the women gathered up the remains of the meal. The men eventually wandered outside into the night to smoke and chat some more of politics and the like. Rachel used the time wisely to speak with her daughter.
"See, Kathleen? That wasn't so bad now, was it?" She scraped the remains of the meal onto a single plate.
Reluctantly, the teenager nodded. "Aye. 'Twas all right."
"And ye see what I meant? Ye could do worse out here for a future husband, ye know."
"I know, mum. I know."
1775
"Dinner was wonderful this evening, Kathleen."
"Thank ye, Mr. Stevens. I'm happy ye enjoyed it."
The pair were seated on the newly added front porch of the McGlashan homestead, enjoying the evening. Inside the cabin could be heard the sounds of the teenager's family cleaning up from the meal, settling in for an evening before the fire. Tonight, Rachel had made sure that their visitor was aware of her daughter's contribution to the meal.
Stevens' weekly visits were a regular occurrence, as were the after dinner discussions between the couple. More and more as time progressed, they were gently pushed together by Kathleen's parents. Neither of them were ignorant of the reasons.
The man inhaled deeply of the night air and looked at his companion.
She's a beautiful lass. Young and healthy. And her parent's are willin'.
Coming to a decision, he leaned forward in his chair and took the teenager's hand.
Kathleen eyed him carefully. There'd been many a time that they'd held hands, but his blue eyes seemed more...
intense
than usual.
"Kathleen," he began, "I would like to ask yer father fer yer hand in marriage." When there was no immediate response, Stevens continued. "It seems the right thing to do. Neither of us have many other options out here. And I'm not gettin' any younger. I can't promise you that it'll be an easy life, but it can be a rewardin' one."
The blonde swallowed, her heart in her throat.
Well, it's finally come.
She dropped her gaze to her lap, her brow furrowed in thought.
Stevens squeezed her hand tenderly. "I'll not expect an answer this trip, Kathleen. I know it's an important decision fer ye. I don't want ye to feel pressured inta somethin' ye don't want."
"Thank ye, Mr. Stevens," the teenager murmured in a low voice.
Releasing her hand, he brought his fingers up to her chin and raised her head to look at him. He'd never touched her in this manner before and her blue eyes were wide as she peered into his own.
"Please, Kathleen. My name is Adam."
There was a long pause. Slowly, the girl nodded. "Aye, then. Adam."
Stevens' smile widened and he rose to his feet. "'Tis time fer me ta be headin' home. Ye'll confer my thanks ta yer family?" He settled his wide brimmed hat on his head.
"Certainly... Adam," Kathleen responded, blushing at the use of his first name. She stood as well, and stepped off the porch with him towards his horse. Once there, she was astonished to find him kissing the back of her knuckles.
"'Til next week then, my Kathleen." And then he was on his horse. With a tip of his hat, he grinned at her before wheeling the horse around and trotting away.
Kathleen crossed her arms in front of her and watched him go.
It had been a long week of soul searching for the teenager. She tossed out feed for the chickens with only half a mind. The voices of others filled her head with praise, making it hard to think, to decide.
Her mum.
"He'd be a wonderful husband, Kathleen. A good provider and father."
Her da.
"Ye know, Rach, that Stevens is a right smart feller. He's figured a way of rotatin' the crops that puts out a higher yield all 'round!"
Even bratty Stewart.
"Da! Mr. Stevens wants to use Caleb as a stud fer his cows! Says he's the biggest bull this side of the big lakes!"
"I wish ye'd all just shut up!" she mumbled in exasperation.
"I've not
said
anythin'," was the argued response.
Kathleen turned to see her little brother watching her curiously. She sighed and rolled her eyes. "I was talkin' ta myself, Stew." She returned to her chore, clucking at the hens and hoping her sibling would drop it and leave.
But such was not the case. The youth set the empty pails down and moved to sit on a nearby stump. "What's up, Kath? Ye've been actin' daft all week."
"It's none of yer concern."
Stewart shook his head. "Yer my sister, Kath. 'Tis my concern. Ye've been this way since Mr. Stevens' last visit." He brushed the hair from his eyes as he studied her. "Did he hurt you somehow? Take advantage?"
The older sibling heard the muted anger in his voice and stopped to stare at him in surprise.
What's this?
"No," she said. "No, he didn't." The look of caring on Stewart's face was so alien to her, she began wondering if he'd become a changeling. Unable to help herself, Kathleen asked, "And what if he did, Stew?"
The blond brow, so like hers, furrowed. "Then I'd have ta get da's musket and set Mr. Stevens straight." He sat up a little straighter and puffed out his chest in manly resolve.
Kathleen tilted her head as she studied this strange youth. She stopped feeding the chickens entirely and stepped closer. "Why?" she whispered, trying to comprehend.
"
Why
?" Stewart asked, confused. "Because yer my sis,
that's
why! He might be the only man out here fer miles, but that doesn't mean he can have sport with ye." He shrugged. "I mean, I like him and all, but I'd still defend yer honor."
A small smile crossed the girl's face. "Even if he'd make me a good husband? A wonderful provider and father?"
"Aye. Even then. If ye'd none of him, than none of him ye'll have, if
I
have any say over it." Stewart scooted to one side, his sister sitting on the stump beside him.
"But, he's smart and friendly and kind and generous," Kathleen added, bringing up all the things she'd been told by their parents.
"And so's Caleb," the youth responded sarcastically. "But that's neither here nor there." He peered closely at his sister, placing a hand on her knee. "What's wrong, Kath?"
Kathleen debated with herself, chewing on her lip and staring at the chickens scratching at the ground without seeing them. "Mr. Stevens...
Adam
has asked me ta marry him."
Blue eyes blinked at her. "Have ye made a decision?"
Shaking her head, she said, "No. I haven't. But he'll be expectin' an answer tonight after dinner."
"Well, da always says two heads are better 'n one. Maybe I can help ye?"
The blonde snorted a bit. "I don't think so, Stew. 'Tis not like I'm tryin' to find different solutions to a problem. A simple yes or no will do him fine."
"Aye, Kath, but yer obviously unsure. Maybe talkin' it over with me'll help set things straight in yer mind." He looked at her with an open face, nodding gently.
P'rhaps he's right. What can it hurt? Ye need to give Mr. Ste... Adam an answer.
She finally nodded and her sibling sighed in relief. "All right then. What do ye wanna know?"
Stewart pursed his lips in thought and scratched idly at his neck. "Do ye love him?"
Another snort and Kathleen shook her head. "I don't know, Stew. I don't think so. I
like
him well enough and all, but I don't think I love him."
"Well, then. Does he love ye?"
The blonde's wry grin quirked her lips. "I'm sure enough of that to say no. Adam feels the same way I do, I b'lieve."
Stewart frowned. "Maybe we're goin' 'bout this the wrong way." He picked up a twig from the ground and began peeling the bark from it. "Kath, what do ye want ta do with yer life?"
"I've never given it much thought," the elder sibling said with a shrug. "I've always known I'd find a man, get married, have babies. I've always wanted ta have lots of babies." Her blue eyes grew distant, searching her memories and dreams. "'Tis funny, ye know? I can remember dreaming of havin' lots of children and raisin' them up in my own home. But, fer the life of me, I can't remember of ever thinkin' of a husband ta share my life with."
"Well, ye can't have one without t'other," Stewart smirked.
"Hush!" the blonde said with a smile, bumping her shoulder against his.
"So, ye like him. And he likes ye. But havin' a husband 'tisn't all that important ta ye," the youth summed up.
"Aye, that about covers it."
Stewart nodded in contemplation. "Then I'd say yer best option would be ta marry him. At least there's a basis for friendship - 'tisn't like ye hate each other. And then ye can have all those babies ye've wanted."
"'Tis true," the girl agreed, though deep in her heart she felt the wrongness of the decision.
But, logically speakin' 'tis the truth all 'round.
Somehow Kathleen knew, however, that this was not the path her life would take. She could feel it to her bones.
And until my life goes another way? Sit here at my parents' home? Become an old maid?