Authors: Ellen Hopkins
“Sorry about you and Em,” I say.
“I never thought you’d break up.”
He turns onto his side, leans up
slightly over me.
Like they say, shit
happens. Anyway, you can’t keep
someone who doesn’t want to stay.
I Consider That
Disagree. I’d fight to keep Dylan.
But I probably shouldn’t say so.
“I guess not. So, how are you
and Caitlin doing?” I suspect
his answer before he tells me,
There is no me and Caitlin.
I’m flying solo for now. How
about you and Dylan? Last time
I saw him he was griping about
you being so unavailable.
I sit up. “Really? When did you
see him?” Ty sits up, too, looks me
in the eye.
A couple of nights
ago, at Kristy Lopez’s party.
Kristy Lopez is Dylan’s old girl-
friend. And wait just one damn
second. “Dylan went to a party
without me?” No way. He wouldn’t.
That was my very first question
when I saw him—where’s Mikki?
He said you were on house arrest.
Again. And that he wasn’t going
to sit at home alone anymore,
waiting for your tight-ass parents
to let you off restriction while
the summer kept ticking away.
Of course, he was pretty buzzed
by then. All worked up, really.
Of course he was. I can’t believe
he’d go out without me. That’s bad.
What’s really bad is partying
at Kristy’s. That is unforgivable.
I’m Not Really the Jealous Type
But right this second, the evil
buzz inside my brain is a hive
of tiny green-eyed monsters
hissing
Kristy, Kristy, Kristy.
Stop it, Mikayla. Dylan would
never cheat on you. Not with
Kristy, or anyone else. But
why did he go to that party?
Tyler must have noticed how
my face flushed, even though
I’m solidly in the shade.
Sorry.
Maybe I shouldn’t have told you.
“No. It’s okay. Dylan should
have told me, is all.” Why hadn’t
he? The answer is ridiculously
obvious. He didn’t want me to know.
Which makes me wonder what
else he’s hiding. Before I can consider
it more, the guy in question squeals
into a parking space right in front of us.
Dylan
What the fuck is Tyler doing
here, sitting so close to Mikki?
A big ol’ switchblade of
jealousy
takes a stab at me. He doesn’t
think I see the way he looks
at her, but I don’t miss a thing,
and
there is always a blink of longing
in his eyes, friend of mine or no.
Then again, it’s possible
guilt
is at play here. The other night,
Kristy flirted mercilessly and I
didn’t exactly chase her away. What
could
that mean? Nothing. That’s what.
One glimpse of my Mik, and
I know my heart could never
be linked
with anyone’s but hers. But now I see
the look on her face. What did he tell
her? How much does she know?
Shane
Is not what I need right now.
Alex is letting me drive his car.
I need to practice parallel parking.
Once I get this down, all I have
to do is talk Dad into going to the
DMV with me. “All” I have to do.
“Stop talking to me for a minute,
okay? You’re distracting me, and—”
Bump!
The back tire finds the curb.
Alex laughs.
Sorry. Try again,
and cut the wheel a little harder.
Then I want to hear about the concert.
I pull forward and even with
the Prius parked in front of
the space I’m aiming for. And just
as I start to turn the steering wheel,
Alex says,
By the way. Have I told
you that little scar on your lip is hot?
“If you don’t stop talking, I’ll
never get this right. Do I have
to make you get out of the car?”
Ooh. Survive one little fight,
and now you’re a tough guy?
Cool. I kind of like tough guys.
That cracks me up completely.
But somehow I manage to slide
in next to the curb, pretty much
spot on. “Let me try a couple
more times. In silence, okay?”
I kind of get the hang of it before
putting the Honda in drive and
aiming it toward the freeway.
I want to practice merging, too.
And once I do, Alex reminds me,
Now can I hear about Bob Dylan?
He’s kinda getting up there, isn’t he?
So Is His Audience
At least, some of them. “The concert
was pretty great, really. More for
entertainment value than the music.
There were, like, hundreds of old hippies. . . .”
Including my gram and gramps, but he
already knows that. “I mean, like, guys
with long, gray hair and beards, smoking
weed. It was weird.” I’m pretty sure Gramps
took a hit or two off a blunt going
around, although he tried to hide it
from Harley and me. I don’t share that,
either. “And then Dylan comes onstage,
and his voice is all scratchy and everything.
This one obnoxious drunk dude sitting in
front of me kept yelling, ‘That’s not Bob