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Oddly enough it was Chance who had experienced a number of recurring nightmares together with intrusive memories and vivid recollections of the photographs he’d been asked to look at and these accompanied by the purely mental image of this shy and diminutive creature, alone in those still dark hours, inquiring of the now speechless effigy at her side. Off this, he would move to imagining her out there in the apartment in Palo Alto, alone in some no doubt terminally banal setting, attempting to “distract herself by watching television.” What would she watch? He wondered. What could she possibly find in that barren land that would not lead to the gouging out of one’s own eyes? The image suggested Lear and unaccommodated man, the thing itself. Job at least had God in the whirlwind. Mariella got police procedurals and vampire bloodletting. And that was just the news. He seemed to recall that she worked full time as a packager for Granny Goose potato chips in San Jose and that prior to the accident her interests had included painting, drawing, and collecting small statues of frogs.

There came a night, alone in his new apartment, half in the bag, he had actually gone so far as to imagine his driving the forty-five minutes it might take to reach her. She was not unattractive. In his report, he had described her as follows:

A petite 39-year-old woman of Italian descent with black hair that is pulled back tightly into a bun. She has straight, almost classical, features and large brown eyes. Her fingers are well manicured and she wears no nail polish. She wears a leather coat over a tan pin-striped suit and brown leather high-heeled lace-up boots. Her general manner, while pleasant, is marked by an absence of spontaneity. The interview proceeded in a series of questions followed by unelaborated answers.

What he had thought but not recorded, what set her apart from so many of the others, was that she had about her some aspect of the caged bird, of a life un-lived. And it was just that, he thought, the horror of the life un-lived that had found him out, in the midst of his own decline, wherein each day seemed at risk of being even more dimly lit than the one before it.

He held to the belief, possibly illusory, that there are times in a person’s life, moments really, when the right word or motion, when a single touch might wound or heal. It was to this end that he imagined the drive. It was not about some sexual conquest. He might just as easily have enlisted the aid of another had another arrived. It was the
striking through
that he envisioned, the freeing of the caged heart, and he went so far as to imagine the flowers he would carry, the bottle of wine . . . He knew better, of course. He could see all of this for what it was, the half-mad quixotic gesture better dreamt than executed because well . . . because that was what life was like in the end. It was an image in a glass darkly. It was all just half lived. There would be no drives and no interventions. The workings of the world would not permit them. In lieu of these he opted for additional wine. But my God, he thought a moment later, refilling a glass, imagining for the simple sake of imagining it his arrival at her doorstep, what
would
she think? He heard the night made horrible with her screams.

He dozed thinking of Blake:
“Every night and every morn / some to misery are born. . . . Every morn and every night / some are born to sweet delight. / Some are born to sweet delight, / some are born to endless night.”
He woke later in the still dark to the waves of Ocean Beach pounding through the walls of his room. Rising, he was treated to a strange orange light through the tiny window of his bathroom facing east, where in the hills around Richmond the fires continued to burn.

ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

I am grateful to many people, on both sides of the border. I would especially like to thank Greg Abbott, Bill Spencer, Gene Muldany, and Brian Bonesteel of the Tijuana River Valley, Serge Dedina of Wildcoast, Mike “Duck” Richardson, Big Tony McCormick, Jeff Knox, Carla Garcia and the courageous women of Factor X. I would also like to thank Colin Harrison for his thoughtful readings.

Photograph by Jessica Nunn

KEM NUNN
is a third-generation Californian whose novels include
The Dogs of Winter
,
Pomona Queen
,
Unassigned Territory
, and
Tapping the Source
, a National Book Award Nominee.
Tijuana Straits
won a L.A. Times Book Award. He lives in Southern California, where he also writes screenplays. His credits include episodes of Deadwood, Sons of Anarchy, and John from Cincinnati, which he co-created with David Milch.

A
LSO BY
K
EM
N
UNN

Tapping the Source

Unassigned Territory

Pomona Queen

The Dogs of Winter

Tijuana Straits

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Library of Congress Control Number: 2004041622

ISBN-13: 978-0-684-84305-6

ISBN-10: 0-684-84305-6

ISBN-13: 978-0-7432-7982-6 (Pbk)

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CONTENTS

Epigraph

Part One

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Chapter 3

Chapter 4

Chapter 5

Chapter 6

Chapter 7

Part Two

Chapter 8

Chapter 9

Chapter 10

Chapter 11

Chapter 12

Chapter 13

Chapter 14

Chapter 15

Chapter 16

Chapter 17

Chapter 18

Chapter 19

Chapter 20

Chapter 21

Chapter 22

Chapter 23

Chapter 24

Chapter 25

Part Three

Chapter 26

Chapter 27

Chapter 28

Chapter 29

Chapter 30

Chapter 31

Chapter 32

Chapter 33

Chapter 34

Chapter 35

Chapter 36

Chapter 37

Chance
Excerpt

Acknowledgments

About Kem Nunn

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