Authors: Catrin Collier
I am sorry for all the pain and trouble I have caused you. Please don’t spare me another thought. I am well and as happy as I can be in this life. I will be sailing out of Argentina for a new country very soon, and although I now no longer use the name, I will send you what love I can and all sincere good wishes for your future, this last time as Peter Slater.
‘Sincere good wishes for your future’ – the future – her future as a single woman. She opened the bottom drawer in her desk where she kept the old bills that she had paid. She lifted them out, set them aside and dumped the papers and the envelope into the bottom before replacing the bills on top.
She was free. The moment she and Micah had been waiting for had actually happened. There was nothing to prevent them from marrying – nothing at all except her own reluctance to move into the mission and take second place to his life and profession.
She closed the drawer, turned, and looked in the mirror she had hung on the back of the door. She patted her hair into place, forced a smile and went out to finish her breakfast with Moody and Bobby.
Edyth was just putting a final dab of powder on her nose when she heard a knock on the door that led directly from the street to her rooms above the shop. As everyone on the Bay used the back door of her baker’s shop as an entrance, even to her private rooms, she went into her living room, opened the window and looked down. Harry was standing on the pavement beneath her in his evening suit.
‘Harry, what on earth are you doing here?’ she called down.
‘I thought I’d attend the grand opening of the Tiger Ragtime. It is tonight, isn’t it?’ he checked.
‘Yes,’ she confirmed.
‘I saw it advertised last week in the
South Wales Echo
but I didn’t make a note of the date. Do you know if it’s invitation only?’
‘I’m not sure, but my invitation said “and guest” so you can come with me if you haven’t your own. Hang on a minute and I’ll come down. Or better still, why don’t you walk around to the yard and come in through the shop’s kitchen?’
‘Will do.’
Edyth returned to her bedroom, sprayed herself with lily of the valley scent, and picked up her stole. She walked into her small upstairs hall just as Harry was climbing the stairs.
‘Where are Mary and the children?’ she asked.
‘Safe and sound at the farm, or at least they were when I telephoned there from Gwilym James this afternoon.’ Edyth opened the door to her sitting room. Harry walked in, stripped off his jacket, unbuttoned his waistcoat, loosened his bow tie and sank down on the sofa. ‘It’s hot out there. Talk about Indian summers and heatwaves. I’ve never known anything like it so late in the day or the year. It’s September next week and there’s no sign of the weather breaking.’
‘So it would appear, for all of Micah’s predictions of rain. I’ve never known summers like this one and last.’
‘Next year it will probably tip down with rain all through June, July and August to make up for it.’
‘Can I get you something?’ Edyth asked. ‘I only have beer, sherry, and brandy, but I could make you a meal or a sandwich …’
‘I’ve only just eaten, but a glass of water would be good. I don’t want to start drinking alcohol this early. If I do, I’ll fall asleep before we even get to the club.’ Edyth went into her small upstairs kitchen and poured Harry a glass of water from the pitcher Judy filled every morning. She carried it into the sitting room and gave it to him.
‘Thank you. I’m parched. I thought a stroll down Bute Street would be pleasant after working in the office all day, but the street has doubled in length since the last time I walked it.’
‘It seems to grow when you’re tired.’ Edyth arranged the skirt of her long black silk frock so it wouldn’t crease and sat opposite her brother. ‘I thought you knew that I always left the back door of the shop open.’
‘I assumed that with the club opening and half of the people of Cardiff heading into Tiger Bay tonight, you’d have the sense to lock it.’
‘I probably should have.’ Edyth remembered Micah saying the same thing to her on the day of the carnival.
Harry finished his water, set his glass down and smiled at her. ‘You look very glamorous, sis.’ He sniffed. ‘You smell nice too.’
‘You say anything about it not being my usual eau de tennis and I’ll clock you.’
‘Ever wondered what “clock you” means?’
‘No.’
‘Neither have I until now. And that joke wore thin a long time ago.’
‘What possessed you to come to the opening of the Tiger Ragtime? I thought after the conversation you had with Aled James you wouldn’t want to go near him or his club.’
‘I was working in the Cardiff store. The meeting I had with the manager overran and I thought, why not stay overnight with my loving sister in Tiger Bay, who keeps reminding me that she has two spare bedrooms that I can use anytime? And incidentally see Judy’s debut.’
‘And talk to David,’ Edyth added quietly. She had sent the letter telling Harry of his brother-in-law’s exploits in a plain brown business envelope that she had asked Judy to address, lest Mary get suspicious.
‘If I can find him.’
‘That shouldn’t be difficult. David went to Aiden Collins’ “gambling school” every day last week. After training bookie’s runners Aiden moved on to instructing the unemployed in the finer points of card-dealing, roulette, and rolling dice.’
‘So Micah told me.’
‘You’ve spoken to Micah about David?’ she asked in suspense.
‘Yes.’
‘When?’ she asked.
‘On the telephone every day this week,’ he confessed.
‘And he told you that we couldn’t do anything to dissuade David from working for Aled James.’
‘Yes.’
‘We have tried, Harry,’ she said apologetically, ‘but you know how stubborn David can be.’
‘I do,’ he said in a resigned voice.
‘Yet, you had to come because you thought you’d have more success than us?’
‘I know I won’t.’ Harry ran his fingers through his thick blond hair. ‘But I have to try, although I know it’s useless. I also happen to know that you’ve been writing to Mary, and thank you for not telling her exactly what her beloved brother’s been up to.’
‘Does David write to Mary?’
‘A once-a-week duty letter to her and the others, which is full of stories about the Bay, the people he’s met, and the variety of shops and ships and anything and everything that isn’t personal. I wish he wouldn’t. He’s got Matthew and Luke so excited about the glamorous life they think he’s leading that they’re both talking about leaving the farm and coming down here to join him as soon as they’re old enough.’
‘Matthew’s – what? – eleven, and Luke is only six,’ Edyth said. ‘It will be a while yet before they’ll be able to leave the farm.’
‘That doesn’t stop them talking about it, and it upsets Mary. David mentioned in his letter that he has a job in the nightclub but he said he’s working as a barman. Micah told me that he’s working on the roulette wheel.’
‘As Micah seems to know everything that’s going on around here, I’d be more inclined to believe him than David. You do know that even if you see David in the club tonight, he may not want to talk to you.’
‘Yes, but as I said I have to try. I owe it to Mary – and to David, in the absence of any closer family – to try to steer him into a legal occupation.’
‘Given the shortage of jobs, there’s nothing wrong with working in a nightclub that’s licensed for gambling,’ Edyth said in David’s defence.
‘There’s a lot wrong with being a bookie’s runner. All Mary can talk about is what they’ll do when David returns to the farm.’
‘I hate to dash your and Mary’s hopes, Harry, but I’ve talked to David a few times since he’s come down here and the one thing he is adamant about is that he won’t return to the farm.’
‘I know.’
‘And that’s all Mary writes about in her letters.’
‘I know that too.’ Harry picked up his empty glass and looked at it. Edyth took it from him, went into the kitchen and refilled it with water.
‘You sure I can’t get you anything to eat?’ she asked.
‘I’m sure, thank you.’ He took the glass from her. ‘I knew that David was intent on leaving the farm for some time before he finally went. And before you say anything, it wasn’t just that he thought he was in love with you, Edyth. He was restless. Every glimpse I gave him of the world – the pictures in Pontardawe, the beaches on the Gower, shopping trips to Swansea, the visits to Pontypridd – made him hungrier for even more new experiences.’
‘So what happens when Mary realises that he isn’t coming back?’
‘I don’t know.’ Harry cradled his glass of water. ‘When I married Mary I thought we would live on her family farm for a few years, six or seven at most, until David was old enough to take over the running of the Ellis Estate. Then Mary and I and our children and her younger brothers and sister would move to the house the trustees built for me in Pontypridd. But I’ve had to face facts.’ He took a deep breath. ‘Mary would wither away if she left that farm. She belongs there – she’s rooted there,’ he added slowly. ‘She fought and struggled to keep it in the family for so long when she should have allowed the bailiffs to take it, she’s unable to let it go. She insists she only did it to keep the farm in the family, and it was all for David and her brothers and sister, but it wasn’t. She did it for herself and I love her too much to take her away from there now.’
‘But where does that leave you, Harry?’ Edyth asked in concern.
‘Where I am now. I’ll continue to run my businesses from the farm as much as I can so I can spend every spare moment with Mary and the children. And it’s not as if Mary isn’t prepared to travel. She’s happy enough to spend a few days in Pontypridd from time to time.’ He smiled deprecatingly. ‘I even managed to get her there for a whole week last month when I had urgent business with the board and my solicitor, but by the end of it she was pining for the Beacons.’
‘You’re sacrificing a great deal to keep your wife and children happy.’ She had a sudden stab of guilt. If she loved Micah so much, how could she allow him to carry on thinking that she wasn’t free to marry him? Wasn’t that tantamount to lying? And wasn’t a lie doubly bad when it was told to the one person you loved above all others?
Harry smiled. ‘No, I’m not. I’ve got what I wanted most out of life: the person I love, and the bonus of two adorable babies. I really am blissfully happy.’
‘Doing all that travelling?’
‘I get to see the country and when I get fed up of my car breaking down on country roads I can always take the train. I’ve no idea if it’s true that the railway line was put into Craig-y-Nos for Madam Patti on the express order of the late king, but if so, I take my hat off to him. It’s certainly made my life a lot easier.’
Edyth jumped up as a door closed downstairs. ‘That will be Micah.’
‘Does he have his own invitation to the opening?’
‘Yes, so you could be his guest or mine,’ she reassured him. ‘We arranged to meet Judy’s family and Micah’s sister and Moody at the club.’ She glanced at her watch. ‘It’s only a ten-minute walk down the road, and we’re not due to meet them for another hour. Are you sure you don’t want a sandwich before we go?’
‘I had a huge tea in the store, but thank you for asking. I’m not cramping you and Micah’s style by coming here, am I?’ he asked when he heard Micah’s step on the stairs.
‘Far from it. And I’d like you two to get to know one another better.’
‘He’s a good bloke.’
‘You never said that about Peter.’
‘I never thought Peter was a good bloke.’
‘He wasn’t a bad one, either,’ she said seriously. ‘But he was no good for you, Sis.’
‘I hope that’s not me you’re talking about,’ Micah said as he walked in.
‘Who was it that said, “Eavesdroppers never hear any good about themselves”?’ Edyth left her chair and kissed Micah lightly on the lips. ‘Hungry, thirsty?’
‘I could murder a glass of beer and a smoked pork sausage.’
‘The beer I can manage, the sausage I can’t.’
‘But I can.’ Micah pulled a packet from the pocket of his evening jacket. ‘One of the sailors brought it in this afternoon. His mother made it and it tastes like heaven. Hello, Harry, good to see you.’ Micah shook Harry’s hand.
‘It’s good to see you too. I take it this sausage is already cooked?’
‘No, we Norwegians like our food raw and bloody, didn’t Edyth tell you?’
‘Enough teasing! Beer and sausage, Harry?’ Edyth asked.
‘It will make an honorary Norwegian of you, and give you special Scandinavian powers,’ Micah joked.
‘If it will help me to persuade David to be sensible, give me the smallest of small portions please, Edyth,’ Harry answered.
‘This dressing room is fabulous, the best I’ve ever seen.’ Mandy laid out sticks of greasepaint on a marble slab. ‘And I’ve played the London theatres. Not that I ever had a dressing room of my own, ever, and none of the shared ones were a patch on this. But I visited the star quarters for cast parties. And no matter how big the name they were never given a sitting room, a walk-in wardrobe for their costumes, or a bedroom – and as for a bathroom with plumbed-in hot and cold water – that is real luxury.’
‘This suite is identical to Mr James’s office suite next door. Perhaps it was just as cheap to put in two as one.’
‘I can’t see that. The bath, toilet, and washbasin alone must have cost a pretty penny without all those fancy tiles.’ Mandy tied a silk kimono over Judy’s dress to protect it. ‘Sit down and I’ll start on your make-up.’
Mandy picked up a stick of base foundation just as there was a knock on the door.
‘You girls decent?’ Aled called.
‘I can’t imagine what you think we’re doing, Mr James,’ Mandy answered.
Aled opened the door. He looked at the few inches of white silk showing beneath the black kimono. ‘You decided on the white Grecian classical dress, Judy?’
‘It was the one you suggested I wear on opening night,’ Judy reminded him.
‘You don’t have to do everything I say. Keep your robe on over your dress, there’s something I’d like you to see in my office. Mandy, fetch some more vases from the storeroom, will you? I’ve a feeling the ones here aren’t going to be enough to take all of Judy’s bouquets.’