Tie Me Down: A Loveswept Contemporary Erotic Romance (19 page)

“Finding their killers is all I can give them and their families!”

“Well, that’s just too little too late, isn’t it?” His hands tightened on her shoulders, and for one fleeting moment she was afraid. There was such intensity in him, such darkness, that she could almost be afraid of him. Almost think him capable of anything.

“Yes, I write documentaries. Yes, I make movies. But I dare you to find one movie that I’ve been a part of that treats death as callously as you do.

“Oh, you talk a good game, Genevieve, but that’s all it is. Justice? You call spending three years chasing a killer justice? Or plea bargains that let him walk free in three or five or ten years. Is that justice? You call him sitting on death row for twenty years justice? Fuck that; that’s not justice. That’s a mockery of justice and an insult to the dead.”

His grip loosened and then he was thrusting her away from him with enough strength to make her stumble, throwing an arm out to catch herself.

“And then you come here, into my house, into my kitchen, where we have just been as intimate as two people can be, and accuse me of not having the proper amount of respect for the dead? I find that pretty goddamned offensive—not to mention completely beneath you.”

When he was finished, the only sound in the house was his harsh breathing as he stared her down. His eyes were fiery, livid. They reached inside of her, set her on fire as his words echoed in her head.

She wanted to defend herself, to tell him that he was wrong. To tell him to go to hell. But he hadn’t said anything she hadn’t been thinking for years, hadn’t accused her of anything she didn’t think about regularly.

So what was she supposed to say to him? How was she supposed to defend herself against accusations that were far from baseless? She couldn’t believe she’d ever doubted him, couldn’t believe she’d ever thought him capable of committing crimes as evil as those she was investigating.

Genevieve reached out a hand and laid it gently on his arm. “I’m sorry. I was out of line. I don’t want to have another fight.”

His eyes were blacker than night as they met her blue ones. But they were calmer than they had been. “You
were
out of line.”

Annoyance danced through her at the snap in his tone, but she pushed it down. She’d accused him of not caring for the victims or their families. For a man like Cole, that was tantamount to a full frontal attack. He had a God-given, constitutional right to be pissed at her.

For a while. Her eyes narrowed as his mouth thinned into an even narrower line. For a very little while.

“Do you see where I’m coming from at all?” The question slipped out before she could censor herself, but once it was asked, she wouldn’t have taken it back. “You’re not exactly the most forthcoming guy on the block, you know.”

“There’s a huge leap between not being forthcoming and being completely cold and closed off.”

“I know that.”

“Do you?” He smirked, an obnoxious twist of his lips that set her blood on simmer.

“You can stop being a sanctimonious prick right about now,” she answered. “It doesn’t become you nearly as well as the dominant asshole does.”

She froze almost before she was done speaking. Had those words actually come from her mouth? Had she tossed such a blatant fuck-you in Cole’s face when she’d been sure she just wanted to apologize?

She closed her eyes for a second, prayed that she’d only thought the words. But when she opened her eyes again, Cole had shed any pretense of making dinner. Instead, he was prowling toward her, the predator she’d seen from the very beginning very much in evidence.

She opened her mouth to attempt some damage control, but she couldn’t get the words out. Not when he was looking at her like he wanted to throttle her and fuck her all at the same time. But she wouldn’t back down. She had a right to her opinions, even if he—

Any and all thoughts she had fled the second his hands made contact with her upper arms. The pressure wasn’t hard, just enough to let her know he meant business. As
if the gleaming onyx of his eyes and the grim set of his mouth weren’t evidence enough.

“You like the dominant asshole, do you?” he asked as he backed her out of the room.

“I didn’t say that.” She tried to dig in her heels, but he was unyielding as he used his body to keep her moving backward.

“Sure you did, sweetheart.” He lifted one hand to her face, stroked it softly down her cheek. “Interesting, isn’t it, how the big, bad cop gets off on someone else being in control?”

His hand slipped around to cup her neck. Once again his grip wasn’t hard, but the unmistakable dominance of the gesture was obvious—and infuriating. She tried to shrug him off, but his fingers bit into her tender flesh.

“Don’t push me, Cole.” Again she tried to stand her ground. Again he moved her with nothing but the pressure of his body against hers.

“How can I not, when I know how much you like it?”

They were moving down the hallway now, heading—she was sure—for his bedroom. Panic flitted through her, along with an excitement that nearly shamed her.

How could she get off on his controlling behavior when, before him she’d always been the one in control? For a brief moment, trepidation turned to fear and she pressed her hands firmly to his chest as she said, “Stop!”

It wasn’t the firmest command she’d ever uttered, but it checked Cole instantly. Had him stopping on a dime even as his eyes narrowed dangerously. “You sure that’s what you want to say, Genevieve?” He pulled his hand from her neck, and she immediately felt bereft. “Because you don’t get a second chance to change your mind.”

“Give it a rest! This isn’t the world according to Cole, you know.”

His grin was wolfish. “My house, my bed, my rules.” He stepped aside. “But you’re free to leave any time, Genevieve. You know where the door is.”

Shit. He’d called her bluff. Called it? Hell, he’d trumped her. Left her with only two choices: leave, which he seemed more than willing to let her do, or surrender herself to him totally. Let him call all the shots.

Could she do that? Could she, who had always prided herself on her icy control, give herself completely to someone else? Could she give herself to Cole, even knowing
there were parts of him she was unable to reach?

Glancing behind her, she eyed the hallway that led to the front door. Should she leave? She knew deep down that if she chose to stop things, Cole would walk her to the door like a perfect gentleman. But he’d never touch her again. She would spend the rest of her life without the incredible pleasure he gave her so unstintingly.

The pleasure was insidious, addicting. Even now her body was crying out for his touch, for the sharp bite of his teeth, the slow stroke of his tongue. Could she live the rest of her life without it?

Frustration welled up in her, frustration and need and an overwhelming confusion that was as unfamiliar as it was unwelcome. “Do you have to push me all the time? Can’t we ever just be normal?”

She glanced up at Cole’s face, saw the softening in his eyes before he steeled himself again. “I’d never force you, sweetheart. You know that as well as I do. But I can’t be some guy you sleep with and forget about either. If you give yourself to me, you give all of yourself. You have to trust me that much, at least. Have to trust me to keep you safe.”

“And if I can’t?” It was a whisper, a cry from her battered, frightened soul.

“Then you can’t. And you’re better off without me. Without this.” He cupped her breast, smoothed his thumb over her hard nipple.

“This isn’t fair.” She hated the desperation in her tone, hated more that she’d been reduced to a child’s argument.

He tilted his head, watched her with those black-magic eyes that had somehow wound themselves into her soul. “No, it isn’t. But I can’t change that.”

“You mean, you
won’t
change it.”

“Maybe.”

She sagged in defeat, knew her decision had been made before she’d ever tried to argue. Reaching a hand out, she placed her palm on his. “Damn you, Cole, don’t you hurt me.”

He yanked her to him, held her against his chest as he stroked a soothing hand down her hair. “I could never hurt you. Don’t you know that yet?”

She merely shook her head, burying her face in his chest. Because she knew the
truth, even if he didn’t. Cole could do so much more than merely hurt her. He could break her into so many pieces she would never recover.

It took every ounce of self-control Cole had to keep from showing his relief. For a minute there he was sure she’d call his bluff, tell him that he and his high-handed tendencies didn’t have a chance with her. And that would have killed him. He was beginning to think that there was no way he’d be able to let Genevieve go when this was all over.

But he didn’t want to think about that now, didn’t dare think about it when she was here in his arms. Offering him everything he could ever want from her, more than he’d ever expected she’d give him.

Moving slowly, he propelled her through the doorway to his bedroom before walking her across the carpet and settling her gently on the bed. Then, because he couldn’t do anything else, he stepped back and looked at her for a few long moments.

“You are so beautiful.” He reached a hand out, stroked it gently down her cheek. “So damn beautiful it blows my mind.”

She blushed, nibbled on her lip, and he was shocked at the nervousness of his normally intrepid cop. “I won’t hurt you, sweetheart.” He crouched down next to her.

“I know.” She didn’t look him in the eye when she said it.

“Do you?” He toyed with a crazy blond curl, let it wrap itself around his finger for a moment. “Will you do something for me?”

“Yes.” For the first time since entering the bedroom, her eyes met his.

“No hesitation?” he murmured, reaching into his nightstand and pulling out one of the things he’d bought last night when he’d been thinking about Genevieve.

“I already agreed to do this, didn’t I?” She flicked her hair over her shoulder in a gesture he was already beginning to recognize meant she was annoyed, ready for the action to start. “I don’t change my mind halfway through.”

“No, you’re not a quitter, are you, sweetheart?”

“I wouldn’t know how to be.” She raised a challenging eyebrow, reached out and stroked her fingers down his chest. He felt his heart beat a little faster at the contact.

“Put this on for me.” He slid the silky length of material into her hands.

Genevieve paused, stared at the length of black silk. “Why don’t you put it on for me?” The eyes she raised to his were a fuck-you dare. “I thought that was the point of this little game.”

“The point is for you to trust me.” He leaned forward, nuzzled her cheek before sliding his lips to her ear. “Do it, sweetheart. Give yourself to me.”

For a long moment, she didn’t move, just let her body rest against his. He could feel her heart beating wildly, feel the increase in her breathing that she didn’t even try to hide. And then she was doing it, lifting the black silk to her face with hands that trembled so badly he wasn’t sure she’d be able to knot the fabric.

But she managed it, covering her eyes with the fabric and tying it so that the long ends trailed down her back. Her tongue darted out to wet lips that had gone dry with nerves. But her voice was unshaken when she said, “Now what?”

Fuck, the contradictions were going to kill him. So brazen and yet so untried, so hardheaded yet so vulnerable. It made him want to hold her gently, to fuck her uncontrollably. To be everything and anything to her that she needed. To make her do the same for him.

He stood up, moved back from the bed. Made sure his voice was as tough as hers when he said, “Take off your clothes.”

“Cole?” She turned her head to follow his voice, reached out a hand to where he’d been and whimpered when it came away empty. “What are you doing?”

“Anything I want. And right now, I want to see you take your clothes off for me.”

“I—”

“Don’t argue with me.” His voice was a whip that flayed at her insecurities. It had her standing and reaching for the buttons on the shirt before she was even aware of moving.

Taking a deep breath, Genevieve slid the first button free. Then the second and the third. Paused when she got to the fourth. It was disconcerting to stand here, completely blind, as she stripped herself for Cole’s visual pleasure.

“Don’t stop.” His voice was harsh—its rasp skated along her nerve endings.

“Why don’t you undress?” she asked, her voice trembling as she was.

“Because I’ll be inside you five seconds after I drop my zipper.”

“Mmm.” She moved her fingers, made quick work of the last three buttons. “I like the sound of that.”

“I thought you might. But we’re not going there yet.”

The air-conditioning kicked in and she felt the chill scoot between the open lapels of her shirt. It made her shiver, made her already turgid nipples even harder.

Taking a deep breath, she allowed the shirt to slip off her shoulders, down her arms. Then stood there shivering as the cool air slipped over her body like a caress.

“Take off the panties too.”

Amazing how losing her sense of sight had her other senses straining. Would she have noticed how stressed his voice was if she’d been able to see him? Or would she have picked up on other, visual clues—clenched fists, tight shoulders, the wicked gleam he got in his eyes when he wanted to fuck her?

A whisper of movement had her listening intently. Cole had moved, and it was disconcerting, strange, not to know how far away he was from her. Or how close.

“Genevieve?”

The seductive smoothness of his voice drew her back to the task at hand and she slipped her thumbs into the thin straps of her underwear. Shimmied her hips and let the lace fall down her legs. When she felt the panties around her ankles, she kicked them away.

“Do you know how gorgeous you are?” His voice was close, closer than she’d expected. Turning toward it, she held out a hand. She wanted to feel him, needed the reassurance of his strong, hot body next to hers.

Her fingers met nothing but air. “Cole?”