Through Darkest America-Extended Version (18 page)

"And I told you I ain't got anything. If you want me to stop coming, just say so, Aimie!"

He wondered what he'd do if she said just that. She didn't, though, and he kept seeing her, as often as he could. And when he wasn't with her he thought about dark, tousled hair and cream-colored breasts and the way her lips parted lazily. And then he itched all over until he could see her again.

Aimie had opened doors more wondrous than he'd ever imagined, even in his wildest daydreams. Why, you could lie awake hot summer nights for a hundred years, thinking about what a
girl'd
be like—but it wasn't anything like that at all!

"What you’re
goin
' to do," Cory warned him, "is wear it out the first year you use it. I heard of that happening."

Howie turned away and buried his face in his meal, so Cory couldn't see the color in his cheeks.

Cory laughed. "Well, it's so. Way
you're
going . . . He shook his head and grinned at Howie's back. "Kind of like that stuff, don't you?"

Howie didn't answer.

"I'm serious. You watch it, Burt. First thing you know . . .”

"Cory." Howie turned on him. "It ain't
nothin
' I want to talk about. You hear?"

Cory read his look, but ignored it. "She give you that pretty red neckerchief?"

"No, she didn't!" Howie snapped.

"
Uhuh
."

"Well, she didn't!"

Cory looked at him with mock astonishment. "
Lordee
, you mean you got
more'n
one going? You
goin
' to kill yourself for sure, boy."

Howie dropped his clay plate.. "That ain't so."

"What ain't?"

"About Aimie."

"Where'd you
git
it, then?"

"I said it wasn't Aimie or no one else."

"
Uhuh
."

"Damn you Cory, Pardo gave it to me!" he blurted out. "It's for
learnin
' to shoot good an' I reckon I earned it. I bet I'm
better'n
you are, too!" He was immediately sorry he'd opened his mouth, but it was too late to stop.

Cory sat down his plate. For a moment his eyes went hard, then the lazy grin bent the corners of his mouth again. "Yeah. Okay, kid . . .”

Howie didn't know what to say. "Listen. I didn't mean nothing by that."

"Didn't figure you did."

Howie made an effort to finish his meat and beans.

"I was riding you some," said Cory. "And I didn't mean nothing, either. Only . . . I don't get it about the 'kerchief. How come Pardo did that?"

Howie didn't much want to talk about it anymore, but he explained what Pardo had told him.

Cory made a face. "I never heard of
wearin
' no red hankie 'round your arm just 'cause you done a little shooting."

"Pardo said they do it all the time, so I reckon they do."

"
Uhuh
." Cory chewed over that. He scratched his chin and squinted into the low hills. "If he give me something, I'd likely check it over real close to figure why. That don't sound like the same Pardo to me."

Howie didn't know how to answer that. "I reckon he ain't hardly ever the same," he said lamely.

Which was likely right, Howie decided. After the next shooting ride into the hills, he and Pardo were flanking the herd back to camp when the man suddenly pulled up hard and leaned forward on his mount.

"
Lordee
!" Pardo made a low noise in his throat. "Now that's a fine
lookin
' animal, if I do say so." He nodded toward a long-bodied mare with high breasts at the edge of the pack. "Bet them
legs'd
fair squeeze the guts out of a man, you think?"

He looked and caught Howie's expression. A big grin spread his beard. "Now, don't tell me you ain't never rooted meat? An' I thought you was a farm boy."

Howie's mind flashed back to green fern and a high oak. And men hanging stiffly from a stout branch. Pardo read his eyes. "Well don't you
git
uppity now," he growled. "The one you been
studdin
' ain't a whole lot better . . . ."

He truly hated Pardo then, more than ever.

That night he sought out Aimie and stayed with her until it was nearly dawn. If Seth or anyone else had interfered, he was certain he would have killed them on the spot. It was a strange, savage kind of lovemaking; much like their first night together. Howie didn't pretend to understand his feelings. He was bewildered and fiercely excited by the things that happened between them. He knew he both loved and hated Aimie, and didn't see how that could be. Aimie's eyes told him she knew a great deal more about what was going through his mind than he did. Howie didn't ask, though—he was afraid to really know what was there.

When he made his way wearily back to the drivers' camp, the sky was gray with the first somber hints of morning. The herd was nearly through Arkansas Territory. Tomorrow, or the next day, they'd likely meet scouts from the army. Even Pardo said the worst was over. Maybe, thought Howie. Or maybe for him it was just beginning. What would he do when he found himself in the middle of government troopers again? Did they know about him in Badlands? Had word gotten that far? He was too tired, now, to worry. He pulled his blankets about him, and was asleep nearly as soon as he hit the ground.

A half hour later the sun tipped the edge of the low hills, and
Lathan's
raiders hit the herd.

Chapter Nineteen

A
heavy mist still clung to the ground, and the sun was dull copper behind it. The raiders moved in shadow browns and greens, the color of morning. Their horses, trained in war, picked their steps carefully over damp earth. Death rode quietly through the camp, but there was little time to think of dying. Men simply sighed back into darkness with sleep in their eyes, as if they'd come awake too soon…

Howie sat up straight, wondering if he was truly awake or still dreaming. Figures moved about him like silent wraiths, dark ghosts in a gray sea. Branches scraped behind him and a horse blew air. He turned, saw the tall rider loom over him, the big pistol swinging down to cover him. To his right, a driver kicked blankets aside and brought his weapon up fast. The rider's gun roared and the driver's eyes went suddenly empty. The tall man turned in his saddle and looked down at Howie for a long moment, then jerked his mount aside and trotted quickly past the draw.

Howie didn't look at the dead man. He set his teeth and found his rifle, snapped a cartridge in the chamber and brought the gun to his shoulder. The rider's back covered his sights and he squeezed the trigger gently.

The big fist came out of nowhere and sent him sprawling. Howie's shot snapped wood overhead. He sat up, shook his head. A shadow touched the ground and he stared up at the dark, scowling face.

"Jigger!" Howie's mouth opened in surprise. "Jigger, what—"

Jigger jerked the weapon out of his hand and reached for him with a big paw. Howie rolled away. Jigger took one quick step and pulled him roughly to his feet, tore the pistol from his belt and tossed him aside.

Howie got to his feet in time to see Jigger's broad back disappear in the brush. He stared after the man, bewildered. Now what in hell was all
that
about? Had Jigger gone crazy?

A shot nearby turned him around. Another weapon answered, further away. The sharp smell of powder stung his nostrils. Down the draw, a man cried out.

Then—nothing. A terrible silence fell over the camp, and there was only the harsh round ball of the sun blazing up to burn the mist away.

Howie stood where he was for a long moment, uncertain, which way to turn, what to do next. The silence was a fearsome thing. You could almost see it, rising on the morning heat. Where was everybody? Lord, were they all dead— raiders and drivers alike—except him and Jigger?

A few steps past the trail he came to a break in the trees and saw the dead scattered up and down the draw. He stood a while and looked at them curiously. Funny, they didn't seem dead at all. It was more like they'd just fallen down drunk or something, and didn't care to get up for a while. It wasn't at all like Pa or his mother had—

Remembrance hit him hard, grabbing his belly and bringing bile to his throat. He turned away quickly and shut his eyes to the dead men.

Not anymore. He wouldn't let it happen like that again!

The idea of just walking up and seeing one of the dead faces, knowing right then it was somebody he'd talked to. It was something he couldn't do right now. Maybe not ever. What if it was old Jess, or Cory. He shook his head violently and moved back down the draw. He didn't want to think about that. Anyway, it wouldn't
be
Cory. Cory was all right. They were going to do things together, like finding treasure.

A man called out somewhere to his right. Another answered, closer by. Howie dropped to cover, listened a moment, then moved quietly through the grove, away from the voices. Finally, he went to ground and made a wide circle back past the trees, bringing him up behind where he figured the first man ought to be.

A dozen rebel riders were bunched up by the end of the draw, where the trail twisted into the woods past the main camp. They sat their mounts easy, tall men in earth colors squinting against the sudden brightness of morning. One looked off to the east, where the herd was bedded, and pointed. Another man nodded and rode away.

Howie's heart leaped.
Lordee
, he hadn't even thought about Aimie! What had happened to her? Was she dead, too, like the others? He decided she was probably all right. It didn't make sense killing girls as pretty and willing as Aimie. The gamblers, now, and the merchants who'd followed them all the way from Big River—that was something else again.

A thought struck him. Maybe he could work his way around the herd, find Aimie, and get her away. And if Cory was still alive—he was ready, now, to admit there was a chance that he wasn't, but if he was, though.. ..

Howie liked the idea. Pardo was likely dead and wouldn't bother him. And Jigger would be hightailing it out, looking after himself. Maybe that's what Jigger had been trying to tell him—in the only way
Jigger'd
be able to—that fighting back now wouldn't do any
more'n
get him killed. That the best thing to do was just lie low and wait for a chance to get away.

Only one man who mattered, then, knew he was still alive—the raider who'd had the chance to kill him, and hadn't. Howie was more than a little curious about that, but there wasn't time to let it bother him. Maybe he looked like someone the man knew, a son, or a boy back home where he came from. It didn't much matter. He was alive, and that's what counted. He'd just keep quiet and easy, and wait for the right time to make his move.

The riders laughed about something and Howie raised up cautiously to look. Sun filled the clearing, now, and he could put faces on the rebel horsemen. A dark, bearded man joked with another. The second man drank hastily from his water jug and passed it back to his friend. Howie stared. He nearly came up out of the bushes.
Pardo!
By God, it was! And Jigger, behind him, and Klu—and a handful of other drivers sitting big as you please right square in the middle of the rebels. Laughing and kidding around like nothing had happened!

Howie shook his head. It didn't make sense. Why, if
Lathan
had taken the herd…

Something cold as winter reached inside and held him. Breath stuck in his throat and faces in the clearing blurred behind hot tears. All he could see were the bright red 'kerchiefs Pardo and Klu and Jigger and the rebel soldiers wore 'round their sleeves. Blood-red, just like his own. Suddenly, he knew why Cory was dead and he was alive, and the understanding filled him with a shame and horror he couldn't bear. The pain carried him into the clearing and brought the awful cry from his throat and the bone-handled knife to his hand. Riders turned to stare. A rebel soldier clawed for his pistol; another yelled something he didn't hear.

It happened so quickly, Pardo could do no more than jerk his mount aside. Howie's blade flashed—the horse screamed and pawed air as steel tore its flesh. Howie stabbed out again and Pardo's boot met his face.

He went down hard, spitting blood and dirt, and came up clawing blindly for his knife. But Pardo was off his mount and all over him. He dragged Howie through the riders and tossed him back in deep brush outside the clearing.

Pardo stood back and looked at him a long time. His face screwed up in a tight wrinkle, like he was trying to decide what smelled bad.

"I
jest
can't figure . . .” he started. "I jest . . . aw,
shit
," he finished, "
godamn
you anyway!"

His eyes flashed dark fury at Howie. His fists trembled at his sides, like he was holding them there by sheer willpower.

"To think I was wondering where you was off to and if you was all right and everything. An' you come on
pullin
' a stunt like that." He shook his head in disgust. "What I
ought
to do is put a
godanm
bullet 'tween your eyes and put you out of your—"