Three Thousand Miles - Forever, (book #3 of Three Thousand Miles, Series) (15 page)

“What’s wrong, Alanna?” He asks firmly, I smile at him again.
“Nothing, I am fine.”

“You’re not fine and I am not stupid. Now tell me what’s wrong!” My heart is
racing and I can’t speak. I can see Adrian’s rage building in his eyes and I don’t
want him to flip out. So I need to lie to him.

“I guess I just feel drained. I had a long day and I’m tired.”

 

“I don’t believe you!” Adrian gestures. I frown at him as I pull my arm away
from him.

“I don’t care what you believe!” I march over to the kitchen and I begin to load
to the dishwasher, I throw the dishes in and they clink and bang from my force.
Once it’s fully loaded, I bang the door shut and then I begin to wipe the
counters. My face is burning hot and I feel like Icould burst out crying. I try not
to make eye contact with Adrian, as I know that he is mad at me for my
behaviour. I don’t know what’s wrong with me and I can’t understand why I
am so sure that Adrian is lying to me. However, something inside of me knows
that he is keeping something back from me and I am upset because I don’t
know what it is. I feel like a failure because he isn’t confiding in me and I am so
emotional right now, that I could literally crawl up into a ball and lie there
forever. My heart races as Adrian glides over to the kitchen.

“Why were you giving me an attitude back there? Have I done something to
upset you?” Yes you have, you are lying to me and I won’t be made a fool of –
that’s what I want to say, but I hold back.

“I am just drained. I need to go bed.” I say as I throw the dishcloth into the
sink. I make my way out of the kitchen and I begin to climb the stairs. I stop
halfway as Adrian is calling after me.

“Wait, you never answered my question. Come back here Alanna, I need to
talk to you. You need to explain what I have done to make you so angry.” I look
down at him.

“If you want answers then follow me up stairs. I am exhausted and I am not
coming back down there.” I begin to the climb the stairs again and I sigh as I
hear Adrian coming behind me. I march into our bedroom and I instantly run
into the closet and change into my pyjamas. I scrunch my hair into a loose bun
and then I make my way over to our large bed. I sink into the covers as I gently
slip myself down onto the bed. I smile at the comfort and then I quickly
straighten my face, as Adrian enters the room. He looks angry as he pushes his
hair back from his face. He begins to pace around the room as he loosens the
buttons on his shirt. I stare at him as I await his anger filled words.

“I’m waiting, Alanna.” He says as he pulls his shirt off his body and throws it
onto the seat by the bed. I frown at him. “Oh please this is about more than
me leaving my clothes around!” He shouts. I pull myself up into the bed and I
smile at him.

“Adrian, I’m not mad at you. I just feel that you are being a little … secretive.”
Adrian marches over to the bed and he flops himself down onto the surface.
His eyes are bolting as he speaks.

“I see and what have I done that’s so secretive?” I stare deeply at him and I am
finding him irresistible right now. His full lips are gently parted and all I want to
do is leap forward and kiss them. I wonder if Adrian would forget about my
odd behaviour if I did. I smile at him as I reach over to him. He looks surprised
as I reach out and pull him closer to me. I gently grip his bare chest as I position
my lips onto his. I kiss him gently and then my kisses become firmer as I clutch
onto him - harder. His lips are soft and tender and my fingers are now making
their way into Adrian’s hair. I pull back from him as I gasp for air.

“I am sorry I was such a bitch.” I confess as I kiss him again. Adrian doesn’t
respond with words instead he grips me firmly as he pushes me down onto the
bed. My head hits the pillow and I pull him closer to me. Adrian kisses me
again on my lips and then he slides his lips onto my neck. He gently kisses
along my collarbone as I slip off my pyjamas. Adrian rips off his trousers as he
climbs under the sheets. I gently sigh as our bodies connect and then I melt
into my husband’s body.

Once our passion over, I slide over to Adrian and Ihuddle into his chest. He
lightly kisses me on my head as he wishes me goodnight. I gently run my
fingers along his chest until I fall into a deep sleep.

The air is so warm when Adrian and I step off the Airplane in Monte Carlo. The
sun is beaming as I link into my husband’s arm. Heleads me down the steps of
the jet and into a white Bentley which is parked a few feet away. Adrian opens
the back door of the car and he gently pushes me inside. I slide over and make
room for him and when he enters the car, he alerts the driver to take us to our
hotel. We are staying at the ‘Hotel de Paris’ and when Adrian told me that’s
where we going for our honeymoon, I couldn’t believe it. I was so excited that I
actually cried. Adrian has promised me that our time here in Monte Carlo will
be unforgettable and I can’t wait for his promise to be fulfilled.

We arrive at the hotel to a spectacular reception. The hotel staff greets us like
royalty as we walk in through the doors. I can’t help but smile from ear to ear
as I take in the beauty of the entrance and I am stunned by what I see. The
entrance is massive with huge ceilings and white marble floors. As I walk
further into the hotel I can really appreciated its design. The furniture is classic
French style and is very sophisticated. Long white chesterfield sofas and small
round tables with velvet chairs line the walls of the hallway and there is large
round table in the middle of the room which has a huge display of pink and
purple flowers. We reach the reception and I am still beaming from the view. I
take in the tall white pillars that dominate the building and I look up at the
amazing ceiling to take in the appearance of the massive, crystal chandeliers
which light up the room. The guy behind the desk alerts Adrian that we have
now checked in and that we are free to go up to our room. In a flash there is
bell- boy waiting to escort us up to our suite. Adrian firmly shakes hands with
the guy behind the desk and then he slides his hand onto my back as we begin
to follow the bell-boy to our room. He leads us up the stairs and along the
hallway, until we come to a white, oak carved door. The guy opens the door
and Adrian pushes me inside. I gasp as I can’t believe that this is where we are
staying. The view of the ocean is stunning as I make my way over to the glass
windows. Our suite has two bedrooms and is furnished in white and brown. The
bed is massive and I can’t wait to try it out. I smile at Adrian as he hands the
bell-boy a tip. I thank the guy for showing us to our room and then I begin to
explore the suite further. I make my way into the large bathroom and I smile as
I take in the size of the bathtub. When I say bathtub, I really mean Jacuzzi as
it’s large enough to sit six people, comfortably. We have matching bathrobes
and white marble his and hers sinks.
“Alanna,” I hear Adrian shout. I quickly rush out of the bathroom and back into
the lounge area of the suite. I see Adrian standing by the glass windows and I
make my way over to him. He sees me as he turns around and I can’t breathe
as I look at his beauty. He smiles at me as he wraps his strong arms around my
waist. He jerks me forward and his lips meet mine. I giggle from his affection
and then he pulls back from me to whisper.

“Welcome to our – forever.”

My heart is racing as I wake with a jolt. I sit up straight in the bed, as I begin to
wipe away the cool sweat that has formed across my forehead. I scan the bed
and I see Adrian lying next to me. He is wide awakeand he is staring at me. I
glance quickly at our alarm clock and I see that it’s 4.30am I turn to face Adrian
as I lie back down onto the bed.

“Alanna are you, okay?” He says as he reaches out and cups my face with his
hand.

 

“Yes, I am fine,” I try reassure him but he doesn’t look convinced.

“You were tossing and turning a lot, were you having a bad dream?” I sigh as I
remember my dream. It wasn’t bad in fact it was one of the best dreams that I
have ever had.

“No, I was dreaming about our honeymoon, actually.” Adrian smiles at me.
“I see, and what were we doing?” He says wickedly.

“I was dreaming about when we first arrived in our suite. We were standing by
the glass windows and you were griped onto me, whispering that it was our
forever.” Adrian smirks at my confession.

“If you were dreaming happily then why did you wake in such a state?”

“Because the people in my dream were so happy and I guess I realised that we
aren’t as happy as they were. I am scared that what we have is beginning to
slip away from us.” Adrian moves closer to me as he gently holds onto my face
with his two hands.

“What makes you say that? You are happy, aren’t you?” Adrian looks confused
as he waits for my answer.

 

“I don’t know if I am anymore.” Adrian looks furious with me now.

 

“What exactly are you saying?”

“I don’t know what I am saying. I am sorry let’s just forget about this, okay?”
Adrian loosens his hands from my face and I can tell that he isn’t going to let
this go. He lunges out of the bed and he begins to pace around the room. I sit
up in daze, as I reach over and switch on the night- light. Adrian doesn’t look
happy and he quickly makes his feelings clear.

“Let it go; are you a nut-job? How am I supposed tolet it go when you have
just told me that you aren’t happy with me anymore?” My heart is racing as
Adrian has misunderstood my words. I need to explain and fast.

“That’s not what I meant and you know it.” I say smoothly, but Adrian isn’t
accepting what I am saying.

“Alanna, my patience is wearing thin and you need to explain, right now!” He
shouts. I jump slightly from the loudness of his tone and he notices my anxiety.
“Baby I didn’t mean to shout at you, but you are messing with my head. You
know how I feel about your happiness, so why would you toy with my
emotions like this?” I slowly climb out of the bed and now I am by Adrian’s
side. I reach out to him and I grab his hot, shaking hand. He tries to resist my
touch, but I insist on holding him. He wrinkles his nose when I place my hand
onto his chest. His eyes have deepened and I can see the sadness behind their
glowing green shade. I hate to see him so vulnerable and I need to explain to
Adrian how I am feeling. I need to alert him that there is nothing for him to
worry about.

“I am not trying to mess with your head. What I wastrying to say was that
when we were on our honeymoon, it was just you andme. We had no one to
answer to and we did whatever we wanted. Now thingshave changed. We
have gotten ourselves into this routine and I feelthat it’s not… us. We are
acting safe and boring and that’s not what our relationship is about. We used
to be about having fun and being together. Remember, when you took me out
on your yacht in Monte Carlo, we had such a blast.Remember, how we swam
in the ocean and slept on the beach? We needed no one and nothing but each
other and I just feel that right now we are not those people.” Adrian stares at
me and I watch as his eyes melt into my words.

“I remember that you were wearing a green dress. That day was the best day
of my life even more so than our wedding. I loved that we were alone and that
you were finally mine. You’re right, we have become boring and things need to
change. Alanna you must promise me that you will never keep your feelings
from me. I need to know exactly how you are feeling, all of the time. I won’t
stand for you trying to hide things from me and I can’t cope with you being
unhappy. Do you understand?” I sigh as I move back from him. If he wants to
know how I am feeling, then he needs to know that I know about Zara.

“Adrian I know that you have been in contact with Zara.” He looks surprised by
my outburst and my heart is pounding as I await his reaction.

 

“I see, and how do you know that?” I swallow hard as I choke out my next
words.

“I checked your phone when you were in the shower. I know that it was a
childish thing for me to do, but I needed to know what you were hiding from
me.” Adrian considers my words as he runs his hands up my arms. I start to
tingle from his touch and then I bring myself to look up into his green eyes. His
lips begin to curve and my heart melts from his smile.

“Baby I am not mad at you for checking my phone, but I am annoyed that you
didn’t tell me about this sooner. If you would have just asked me, then I would
have been happy to fill you in.” His tone has my blood boiling. Why isn’t he
trying to explain why he was talking in secret with his ex? Why isn’t he
bothered that I checked his phone and why did he keep this information from
me in the first place?

“Adrian don’t patronise me. Why have you been keeping Zara a secret and why
didn’t you just tell me that she called you? Is there something going on
between you two?” Adrian looks furious by my allegation and I begin to feel
my face heat up. I wish that I could take back what I said as I know that Adrian
would never hurt me in that way. I try to grab hishand, but he pulls it away
from me. I scramble to his side and he doesn’t evenlook at me. I feel tears
begin to form in my eyes.
“I can’t believe you went there, Alanna. Of all the things that you could have
said to me that’s what you chose to say. Do you really believe that I would
cheat on you?” I grab him again, but this time he lunges forward and grabs my
shoulders firmly in his hands. He begins to gently squeeze them and as I look
into his eyes and I can almost see a tear trickle from his right eye. My heart is
breaking and my emotions are high and I don’t know what’s wrong with me,
but I can’t control my moods or my emotions. I hate that I have caused friction
between Adrian and I and I hate that I have let my mouth run away with me. I
wish that I hadn’t said anything, now.

“I am sorry I didn’t mean it. I know that you would never cheat on me, please
forgive me.” I plead. Adrian rolls his eyes as he looks at me.