Three Jack McClure Missions Box Set (28 page)

His eyes slowly drew into themselves and he focused on Jack. “The truth is, I’m afraid to go home. I’m afraid of what Candy would do if she found out, afraid of the disgrace I’d come under in my church. I can tell you there are friends of mine who’d never talk to me again.”

Jack waited a moment to gather his thoughts. He was mildly surprised to learn that whatever anger he’d felt toward Egon had burned itself out with the bourbon they’d thrown down their throats. The truth was, he felt sad.

“I wish I could help you with all that,” Jack said.

Schiltz put up a hand. “My sin, my burden.”

“What I can offer is another perspective. What’s happened tonight is a living, breathing test of your iron-bound faith. You live within certain religious and moral lines, Egon. They allow for no deviation or justification. But you can’t fall back on any religious fiction. God didn’t tell you to have an affair with Ami, and neither did the devil. It was you, Egon. You made the conscious choice, you crossed a line you’re forbidden to cross.”

Schiltz shook his head wearily. “Would Candy forgive me? I just don’t know.”

“When I saw her earlier tonight, she told me in no uncertain terms just how strong your love is for each other. You’ve been through bad patches before, Egon, and you’ve managed to work through them.”

“This is so big, though.”

“Candy’s got a big heart.”

Schiltz peered at Jack through the low light, the beery haze. “Have you forgiven Sharon?”

“Yes,” Jack said, “I have.” And that was the moment he realized that he was telling the truth, the moment he understood why her unreasoning outburst had cut him so deeply.

Jack cocked his head. “So who are you now, Egon? You see, I can forgive what you’ve done, I can look past the part you play, the lies you’ve maintained, and still love the man beneath, despite your betrayal of Candy and Molly—and of me, for that matter. You’re my friend, Egon.
That’s
what’s important in life. Friends fuck up, occasionally they do the wrong thing, they’re forgiven. The religious thing—well, in my view, it’s not relevant here. It’s what you do now as a man, Egon, as a human being, that will determine whether you live the rest of your life as a lie, or whether you begin to change. Whether or not that includes telling Candy is entirely up to you.”

The Everly Brothers were singing “All I Have to Do Is Dream.” The two listless women on the dance floor seemed to have fallen asleep in each other’s arms.

“This is a chance to get to know yourself, Egon, the real you that’s been hidden away for years beneath the Bible. I’ve seen bits of him out in the woods with our daughters, fishing, looking up at the stars, telling ghost stories.”

Schiltz downed the last of his bourbon, stared down at the table with its empty glasses, damp rings, crumpled napkins. “I don’t believe I fully understood you, until tonight.”

He turned away, but not before Jack caught the glimmer of a tear at the corner of his eye.

“I don’t …” Schiltz tried to clear the emotion out of his throat. “I don’t know whether I have the strength to get to know myself, Jack.”

“Well, I don’t know either, Egon.” Jack threw some money on the table. “But I’d lay odds that you’re going to try.”

30

The Spanish Steps, running on Twenty-second Street, between Decatur Place and S Street NW, was part of the luxe, lushly treed Dupont Circle area of Washington. Its formal name was the rather dull Decatur Terrace Steps, but no one, especially the residents of the Circle, called it that. They preferred the infinitely more romantic name that conjured up the real Spanish Steps in Rome. By any name, however, it was a delightful stone-and-concrete staircase guarded on either side by ornamental lampposts and crowned at its summit by a leonine fountain. By day, children could be seen running and squealing around the mouth of the great beast from whose mouth water spewed in a constant stream. At night, it gathered to itself a certain Old World charm that made it a favorite assignation spot of young lovers and adulterers alike.

Calla stood waiting for Ronnie Kray at the top of the steps. She had arrived a few minutes before midnight so that she could drink in the nighttime glow that illuminated the steps in a sepia tint. One of the lamppost lights on the right was out, and the resulting pool of shadows spilled across the stairs in a most pleasing manner. Couples
strolled arm in arm, perhaps kissed chastely, then ran across the street laughing or stood on the corner, waiting for their radio-dispatched taxis to arrive.

Though she worked long and hard for the First American Secular Revivalists, and was as rational as the members who sat on either side of her, she was, at heart, a true romantic. Perhaps this was why she was drawn to Ronnie. Though she knew he was in his mid-fifties, he looked a decade younger. Perhaps that was because he was possessed of a romantic streak with which she could identify. Besides, he treated her like a lady, not like a kid, the way many at FASR did, especially Chris and Peter. She hated that they never took her suggestions seriously. Ronnie did. Ronnie got her, and she loved him for that.

She couldn’t help furtively watching a young couple sitting on the steps, perhaps halfway down, necking. Calla imagined herself in the girl’s place, her lover’s hands on her warm flesh, and envied her. She’d come to Washington three years ago from Grand Rapids in search of a husband with a good job and solid family values. But finding that kind of man proved more difficult than she had imagined. She’d dated men who were either windbags or hopeless narcissists. And she’d deflected a number of married men who wanted to bed her, sometimes desperately. Switching to plan B, she’d thrown herself body and soul into FASR, a cause she believed in—fine for her sense of justice, bad for her love life.

As if from an invisible vibration, her head swung around and she saw him coming, stepping off the street onto the rectangular plaza at the top of the stairs where she waited for him.

“Hello, Ronnie,” she said softly as he bent, his lips brushing her cheek.

“You came.”

“Of course I came!” She looked deep into his dark eyes. “Why wouldn’t I?”

“You could have changed your mind,” Kray said. “People do, at the last minute.”

“Well, I don’t,” Calla said firmly. He had taught her to stand up for what she believed, even with Chris and Peter. Terrifying and exhilarating all at once, like being on a roller coaster.

She shivered in the gusts of wind swirling around the fountain. The lovers on the steps had left, no doubt for a warm bed somewhere. The steps were clearing of people.

He put his arm around her. “Are you cold?”

“A little.”

“Then let’s get some hot coffee into you. Would you like that?”

Calla nodded, rested her head on his chest. She liked the bulk of him, the heft. She often thought of him as a sheltering cove.

He began to lead her down the steps.

She tugged against him gently, almost playfully. “Don’t you want to go to Cafe Luna?”

“This is a special night.” He continued to steer her down. “I’ve got a special place in mind.”

They entered that area of the Spanish Steps where, because of the burned-out bulb, shadows billowed out across the stone and concrete like ink from an overturned bottle.

“Where are you taking me?” Calla asked. “Have we been there before?”

“It’s a surprise,” was all he said to her. “I promise you’ll like it.”

Huge trees rose far above their heads, the skeletal branches scratching the sky, as if trying to dig the diamond-hard stars out of a setting made milky by the District’s million lights. In among this winter bower Calla shivered again, and Kray held her tighter, one arm around her waist.

All of a sudden, he lurched against her, as if his left ankle had turned over on a stone. She stumbled against the trunk of one of the trees and, as she did so, Kray stabbed her once in the back. So precise
was the thrust, so practiced the hand, so unwavering the intent, the wickedly sharpened paletta did the rest.

Kray held her lifeless body and glanced around. Had anyone been looking, they’d have seen a man holding his drunk or ill wife, but as luck would have it, no one was about. Kray slowly laid Calla’s body at the bole of the tree. With quick, practiced movements, he snapped on surgeon’s gloves, pulled out the cell phone he’d taken from one of Alli’s Secret Service guards, put it into her hand, pressed her fingers around it, then threw it into a nearby evergreen bush. Then he picked up the paletta. It was such a superb implement; it had penetrated through cloth, skin, and viscera with such ease, there was hardly any blood on it. He pocketed the weapon and, his mission accomplished, vanished into the shadowy forest of swaying trees.

31

It’s a universal law of teenhood that the bully always returns for more. Maybe he’s drawn to what he perceives as weakness, because other people’s weakness makes him stronger. Maybe he’s a sadist and can’t help himself. Or maybe he just can’t leave well enough alone. In any event, Andre returns to Jack’s life, stronger, meaner, more determined than ever.

It’s as if he’s been biding his time, accumulating power, calculating his return like a general who’s been forced to make a strategic retreat from the field of battle. The source of his newfound power isn’t only his patron, Cyril Tolkan, but a supplier he’s found on his own—a man named Ian Brady.

“One thing fo’ sho,” Gus says with a fair amount of scorn, “Ian Brady ain’t no black man. Shit, Ian Brady ain’t no American name, no way, no how. But, shee-it, he a ghost, that man, ’cause none a my snitches know shit ’bout him. I mean, who the fuck is he? Where he come from? Who’s his contacts? He got so much fuckin’ juice, he could light up alla D.C.”

This tirade occurs one evening when Jack and Gus are at home,
listening to James Brown. Jack has made a couple of purchases at the local record store and is eager to both hear them and share them with Gus. In the wake of Gus’s rant, he wonders whether he should keep the LPs under wraps, but having brought up the subject during dinner, he has no choice.

“Huh! I mighta known!” Gus says, holding the cardboard sleeves in his massive hand. “Elvis Presley an’ the Rolling Stones. White boys, jus’ like you. And some of ’em look like they ain’t eaten in weeks!”

“Just listen, will you? You’re such a hard-ass!”

“Well, I heard Elvis, an’ he ain’t half-bad. So play this here other, so’s I can see whut yo’ taste in music’s like.”

Jack carefully slides the James Brown disc back in its sleeve, then rolls out the black vinyl disc of
Out of Our Heads,
puts the needle down, and out blasts “Mercy, Mercy.” After the last jangling bars of “One More Try” fade into the walls, Gus turns to Jack, says, “Play dat again, son.”

Jack puts the needle back on the first cut, and Mick Jagger starts it up.

Gus shakes his head in wonder. “Shee-it, fo’ skinny little white boys, they sho-nuff do shout.”

Jack now goes regularly to the library on G Street NW. At first, he went because Reverend Taske urged him to, but lately he’s realized that he likes going. Because of Taske’s training, he’s tamed his fright of reading new texts; it’s become more of a challenge, a way out of the strange little world his dyslexia shoved him into.

He loves the dusty air, golden with motes of history. He loves opening books at random, finding himself engrossed, so that he goes back, starts at page one and doesn’t stop until he’s devoured the last word. Unlike movies and TV that show him everything, even if he doesn’t like it, books transport him into the world of his own imagination. As long as he can create pictures from the words he reads—scenes filled with characters, conflict, good and evil—he can build a world
that’s in many ways closer to the one other people inhabit. And this makes him feel less like an outsider. He feels he is that much closer to rubbing shoulders with the passersby on the street. This is the atmosphere that draws him day after day into the dusty quietude, calm as a still lake. But in those depths something waits for him, as it does almost every teenager: the fear that recurs, the fear that needs to be faced.

Jack comes face-to-face with his one Monday afternoon. He’s back in the stacks, pulling down massive treatises on his latest passion: criminal psychology. A head in the book precludes vigilance. But who would think to be vigilant in a District public library? That’s how Andre thinks, anyway. He’s been following Jack to G Street every day for a week, until he’s familiar with the schedule. It says something about just how deep his feelings of vengeance run that he’s been on surveillance for five straight days when he could be negotiating his next shipment of smack from Ian Brady.

But some things are more important than H, more important than greenbacks, because they cry out to be resolved. And, frankly, Andre can’t rest easy until this particular matter is resolved to his satisfaction.

Jack doesn’t hear him as Andre creeps up from behind. Andre, in crepe-soled shoes he’s bought for the occasion, approaches slowly, relishing the end to the ache that’s been inside him ever since Cyril Tolkan delivered his punishment.

At the very end, he makes his rush, silent, filled with the power of righteous rage. He grabs Jack by his collar, lifts him bodily into the air, slams him against the rear wall. Shelves tremble; books spill onto the floor. Andre, his eyes alight with bloodlust, jams a forearm across Jack’s windpipe both to silence him and to subdue him as quickly as possible. Though he’s filled with a desire for vengeance, Andre is nothing if not pragmatic. He doesn’t want to get caught in here with a dead or dying body. He has no intention of going into whitey’s slammer, either now or ever.

With a tiny
snik!
he flicks open his switchblade. His victim seems so stunned, his hands aren’t even up, trying to pry his forearm away. Maybe he doesn’t have enough oxygen to act. Either way, it doesn’t matter to Andre, who jabs the point of the blade in toward Jack’s diaphragm. He’s aiming for the soft spot just below the sternum, to drive the long, slender blade upward into Jack’s heart.

Jack’s hands, down by his sides, have not, however, been idle. His left hand has kept its grip on the thick hardcover book he’s been reading, and now, as he hears the telltale
snik!
of the switchblade, he reflexively presses the tome to his chest. The point of the knife encounters cotton, pasteboard, and paper instead of flesh. Andre’s eyes widen in surprise, then squeeze shut as Jack’s knee plows hard into his testicles.