The Weight of Rain (30 page)

“You okay?” Allie asks, her light eyes moving between the bead she’s replacing and my face.

“I’m fine.”

“Want to hang out Sunday? Maybe go see a movie at the discount theater? We haven’t done that in months.”

“You and Charleigh aren’t doing your Sunday DVR marathon?”

She shakes her head, and I notice the edges of her lips press into a frown as she completes another knot in the tiny thread. “She has plans with that guy again—Brandon.”

“That’s his name?” Allie nods, her focus moving to the dress. “She must really like him.” I watch as she processes my words. I’m sure my face has looked similar to hers now since earlier when Isabelle showed up. Tight lips and eyes: it’s envy, tinged with loneliness.

“He’s not at all what I expected him to look like.”

“What does he look like?” I ask, straightening my shoulders as I catch the glare of her professor once again.

“Short and kind of scrawny,” Allie explains. “He’s got great hair and dresses well, but he kind of looks like he’s sixteen.”

My laughter makes her smile before she disappears behind me to inspect any additional missing beads or flaws. “Apparently he’s not so scrawny in bed though, if you know what I mean. Apparently he was a virgin and is a very quick learner.”

“A virgin?” My eyes are wide with disbelief.

“I know, right?”

“He isn’t sixteen, right?”

“I went to a club with them, and the bouncer like quadruple-checked his ID, but apparently it was legit.”

“Well, it’s good that she’s happy.” I scan the room as I try to remind both of us of this fact.

“Yeah, but she dropped out of the show because of him.”

“What?” The shock in my voice has several people turning to look at us. I think even my arms are flushing as I try to smile an apology to everyone.

“Yeah, she said she’d rather spend her time with him than doing this right now.”

“But we’re seniors. This is her last chance.”

“She can try to get other internships, but it will definitely eliminate several opportunities.” Allie’s voice is forlorn, much like her expression, as she comes back around to my front.

“I can’t believe she’s willing to give up all of this after only knowing the guy for a couple of weeks.”

“I know. But don’t tell her that. If you do, she’ll pretend you don’t exist. I know from experience.”

“Lame.”

Allie looks back to me, her eyes crinkled with a smile. “You’re so good with words, Lo.” The air seems to lighten as we quietly laugh, adding another plank to our bridge of friendship.

When our dress rehearsal is over, Allie drags me to pick out two pairs of heels that, even with my many objections, she insists on paying for with the reasoning that I’m only getting them for the show. Before we leave, she lays on a thick layer of guilt that has me agreeing to wear one of the pairs home and promising to continue wearing them for the next two weeks.

My objections are drowned as we share a late dinner of enchiladas and margaritas, and then Allie watches as I paint until hours after the restaurant closes. Unlike many others, she barely speaks while I work, and when she does, it’s never in reference to what I’m making, simply discussing plans, or stories about school, friends, and at times her family.

It’s two in the morning when we say good-bye and I close the door to my apartment, noticing Kenzie alone in her bed sleeping. I peel off the heels that are already making my toes cramp and ache, and the rest of my clothes, replacing them with my skiing candy piece pajamas and an old sweatshirt. Neither my muscles nor mind is tired. I want to sit at my easel and sketch to see if I can capture the look on King’s face from Monday before he kissed me.

A flashing light in my messenger bag distracts me, and I fish out my phone and take a seat on my bed as I swipe it on. Twenty texts and seven missed calls. My eyes widen, and I find seven messages and two calls are from King.

I roll onto my back, feeling the stretch of my cheeks as I open my missed messages.

King: I’m sorry I missed U. I didn’t realize that call would take so damn long.

King: I know UR at model practice, but call me when UR done.

King: What do U do at model practice? Will U show me?

King: I’m not being a perv.

King: Okay … maybe a little.

King: R U okay? It’s late.

King: Sorry to sound like a stalker, but where in the hell R U? R U OK?

I thumb through messages from Mercedes, Kash, one from Kenzie even, asking me if I’m okay, that end shortly after ten, around the time we got to the restaurant.

I hit reply to King and quickly type out an apology.

I’m surprised when my phone indicates a new message within less than a minute.

King: Do you always go off the grid when you work?

Me: Usually, sorry again.

King: Don’t apologize. Just something for me to be aware of.

King: Can you stay up for ten more minutes?

Me: Yes … why?

King: I’m coming over.

Me: It’s 2 AM!

King: Yup

Me: You’re supposed to leave for Seattle in 4 hours!

I impatiently wait for a response, hoping he’s fallen asleep, and even more so that he’s ignoring my protests because he’s driving. I quickly change back into my clothes on the off chance he’s really coming and sit at my easel, only illuminating the space with my small but bright lamp that’s clamped to the top. I’m too excited to draw, but I sift through several pages, looking for the ones that most closely resemble the passion I saw on King’s face before he kissed me.

A soft knock against my apartment door sets my heart into overdrive. It’s been fifteen minutes, just long enough for me to confirm that it’s him.

He’s smiling as the door swings open, bringing a gust of chilled air and the scent of rain and King into the apartment.

“You’re going to regret staying up so late in a few hours.” His eyes are easier to see with his hat missing. The fact his flannel shirt is buttoned confirms he’s been dressed all night. King’s lips part, and the look I was just seconds ago searching for in my work makes my entire body swim with a desire and excitement that builds as his hand hooks around my hip and pulls me closer to him.

“Not even a little.” His words are spoken with my eyes closed and chin tilted upward in anticipation, his bottom lip grazing mine with the slight movement, sending a chill through me. I wish I could capture this feeling with my drawing. The anticipation that makes me feel like I am going to separate into a million tiny pieces and float adrift because King breaks all rules about rational thoughts and convention.

My bottom lip is pulled between his as the hand behind my back pulls me farther forward. And just like that, I am a million floating pieces, wrapping around this kiss that is so unbearably perfect, it doesn’t seem possible. My lips press more firmly against his, my hands digging into the fabric of his T-shirt after bypassing his outer layer of flannel. My chest is firmly planted against King’s and I’m not even sure if it was me pulling or him tugging that brought us this close. All I do know is it isn’t close enough.

My fingers braid themselves into the short wavy curls at the back of his head in an attempt to draw him nearer. I swallow his groan and feel the doorjamb against my back as his body settles more firmly against mine, his hips aligning with mine, making me wish there weren’t two layers of denim between us.

His lips slow, the hunger receding. King plants a soft kiss to my upper and then lower lip, and pulls back.

“I’m going to be thinking about nothing but that kiss in a few hours.”

I want to plead with him to ignore my roommate and come in. Strip off his clothes and properly study every single detail and nuance that makes up King, and then verify that sex with him is like nothing else because there’s something about him that just fits every single part of me.

His nose skims mine and then he softly drops a kiss there as well. “I don’t want to annoy the hell out of you or think something has happened, so just shoot me a text tomorrow when you start working so I know to leave you alone. I won’t be home until late Sunday, but I’ll call.”

I nod, gripping his loose hand with mine while his other presses firmly into the skin above my hip. “I’d like to hear from you.” The words are nearly casual, but the plea behind my tone makes it sound like a supplication.

King smiles, and squeezes more firmly against my flesh, making the thoughts of asking him to come in to return.

“Don’t worry about Isabelle. Nothing will happen, I swear.”

I’m grateful for the dim lighting on the landing because I know without a doubt how red my cheeks are stained as I nod and try to act confident.

“Lo, look at me.”

My eyes take the long way to meet his, searching over our tangled fingers, his shirt, the night air, and then him.

“I need you to trust me. I travel a ton, and if you are going to be second-guessing my intentions, we aren’t going to see what this really is.”

“She likes you.”

“It doesn’t matter, Lo. Nothing matters but how I feel about you, and what you feel for me.” His eyes bore into mine. “The rest is inconsequential. She knows I don’t like her, and I’ve already told her I’m seeing you. She won’t press things.”

“It’s just weird.”

King nods, his lips pursing with understanding. “I shouldn’t have agreed without speaking to you first. I’ve just known her forever. I swear, nothing has ever happened between us, and it never will. I don’t have any feelings for Isabelle. I haven’t felt anything toward anyone else since September when you finally stopped ignoring my stare and shook your head with that tiny smile that told me I had a chance.”

“It’s only because I had been drinking. If I had been sober, I would have looked away so fast I would have had whiplash.”

“I specifically recall you saying you were going to struggle being able to see another person after that night.”

“I did. I do. I think I have four notebooks filled with you. I would have looked away because you’re … gorgeous.”

“Don’t hate me, but I’m going to have to remind you of this in the future. I want you to be prepared.”

“I’m serious.”

“So am I,” King says, releasing my hand and gripping my other hip as he laughs. “Lo, you’re beyond beautiful, and the more I see you, the deeper that beauty grows because it’s not just your face, it’s you. We have something, and I am blissed out to see where it leads. Just trust me, okay?”

“Alright.”

His lips press against mine in a brief kiss that he breaks with a smile. “You really filled four notebooks with me? I must be hot.”

“Go home!” I cry, shoving his shoulder and taking a step backward.

He catches my hand before it falls to my side and tugs me forward, his playful smile growing. “We’re going to have really hot make-up sex one day when I get your panties all tied up in a knot like this.”

“Don’t count on it. Plan to make up for it with gummy bears and new charcoals.”

“I can do that too.” He kisses me again, the edge of the hunger returning in a much smaller degree that poses as a challenge, one I want to meet. Before I can, he pulls away. “I don’t want to wake her up,” King says, looking over my shoulder at Kenzie’s bed. “Get some sleep and text me tomorrow.”

“I thought you were calling me.”

“I am.” King moves his left hand from my hip and coasts it along my jaw. “Don’t look at me like that. For six months I’ve wanted to see your name light up across my screen multiple times a day. Granted, there are many other things I’ve been wishing to see as well … but we’ll address those hopefully in the near future.” His eyebrows do one quick dance to ensure I catch his intent that has me laughing.

“Thanks for coming.”

“If you need anything while I’m gone—”

“I won’t. I swear I’m capable.”

His eyes tell me he wants to argue with me, but he obliges and gives me one last lingering kiss. “I’ll talk to you tomorrow.”