Authors: John Boyne
âLondon,' I said. âLike we originally planned. You, me and Tomas. I have a little money saved. Do you?'
âYes,' she answered. âA little. Not much though.'
âWe can make things right,' I said, unsure whether even I believed this. Sir Alfred called to me again and I turned to see him growing ever more agitated.
âI don't know ...' she said, and again there was a shout. I released her and started to walk backwards towards Sir Alfred and the constable. âI'll come here tonight,' I said. âI'll speak to you then. I'll meet you after midnight, all right?'
She gave an almost imperceptible nod before turning and walking away, her head bowed in sorrow.
Sir Alfred Pepys was broadly built and overweight, his face an overripe pumpkin sitting atop a body of pure obesity. He found it increasingly difficult to walk owing to arthritis and we rarely saw him around the grounds of Cageley House as he generally preferred to sit indoors, reading his books, drinking his wine and eating his livestock.
âCome here, Matthieu,' he said to me when I was only a few steps away from him. He grabbed me roughly by the arm and pushed me towards the constable, who looked me up and down several times with distaste. âNow, sir,' he continued, looking at the younger man, âyou'd better ask him your questions.'
âWhat's your name, lad?' asked the constable, a middle-aged man with a heavy red beard and remarkable orange eyebrows. He took a pencil and pad from his pocket and licked the tip carefully before writing down my answers.
âMatthieu Zéla,' I said, spelling the name out for him immediately afterwards. He looked at me as if I was something he had recently spat up. He asked me what my position was at Cageley House and I told him that I was a stable lad.
âSo you work alongside this Jack Holby, do you?' he asked me and I nodded. âWhat sort of lad do you take him for then?'
âThe very best sort,' I said, standing erect before him, as if speaking Jack's name meant that I should offer some sign of respect. âA good friend, a hard worker, a peaceful fellow. Ambitious too.'
âPeaceful, eh?' said Sir Alfred. âHe weren't so peaceful when he broke my son's jaw and ribs, were he?'
âThat was provoked,' I said, and for a moment I thought he was going to swing for me himself before the constable intervened. He asked for my side of what had taken place the previous afternoon and naturally I lied, claiming that Nat had swung the first punch and that Jack had been merely defending himself. âThe fact that Nat wouldn't have a chance of taking Jack is his own fault,' I insisted. âHe should have thought of it before he started it.'
The constable nodded and I waited for Sir Alfred to tell me to get off his estate immediately and never show my face there again, but he didn't. Incredibly, he asked me whether I thought I could manage the horses on my own for the time being, even suggested that there'd be a little more money in it for me if I did, and I shrugged and said that it would be all right.
âI'll have to get someone else eventually of course,' said Sir Alfred, scratching his beard thoughtfully. âTo replace Holby, I mean. We won't see him back here again.' Although I already knew this, my heart sank a little at its confirmation. I decided to try to help Jack a little, even at this late stage.
âNo,' I said. âWe'll probably never see him again. He's probably halfway to Scotland by now.'
âScotland?' asked the constable, laughing. âWhy would he be in Scotland?'
âI don't know,' I shrugged. âI just imagine he'll go as far away from here as possible. Start again. You'll never catch him, you know.' They looked at each other and smirked. âWhat?' I asked. âWhat is it?'
âYour friend Jack Holby is nowhere near Scotland,' said the constable, leaning towards me so that I could smell the foul stench of his breath. âWe captured him late last night. He's in a cell in the village awaiting trial for grievous bodily harm. He'll be spending the next few years of his life in prison, my friend.'
Dominique and I met as arranged late that night. âEveryone's talking about Jack,' she told me. âSir Alfred says he's going to be spending at least five years in jail for what he did.'
âFive years?' I asked, appalled. âYou can't be serious.'
âThey say it could be six months before Nat can speak again. And they'll have to wait until his jaw heals to start fitting him for false teeth. The doctors are afraid the lower half of his face will collapse in upon itself in the meantime.'
I felt a rush of sickness inside me. Even Nat Pepys hadn't deserved such a fate. It looked as if everyone had lost out â Jack had lost his liberty, Nat had lost his health, I had lost a friend. I was still blaming myself, and hated to think what Jack himself must think of me as he sat stewing in his prison cell.
âSo have you thought about it?' I asked her eventually. âAbout leaving?'
âYes,' she said firmly. âYes, I'll leave with you. But we can't leave Jack like this, can we?'
âI'm working on it,' I said, shaking my head. âI'll think of something.'
âWhat about Tomas?'
âWhat about him?'
âWell, is he coming with us too?'
I stared at her in surprise. âOf course he is,' I said. âYou don't think I'd leave him here, do you?'
âNot by choice,' she replied. âBut have you spoken to him about it? Have you asked him what he wants to do?' I shook my head. âWell, maybe you should,' she continued. âHe seems happy here. He's going to school. The Ambertons practically think of him as their own. And, anyway, things will be difficult enough for us in London without having to worry about a -'
âI can't leave him here!' I said, amazed that she would even suggest it. âHe's my responsibility.'
âYes,' she said doubtfully.
âI'm the only family he's got and he needs me. I can't just desert him.'
âEven if this is the best place for him? Think about it, Matthieu. Where are we going to go when we leave here?'
âLondon. All the way this time.'
âAll right then. Well, London doesn't come cheap. We have a little money, sure. But how long will it last us? What if we don't find work? What if we end up in the same position we were back in Dover? Do you really want Tomas roaming the streets of London getting into who knows what kind of trouble?'
I thought about it. What she said made sense, I knew it did, but I wasn't comfortable with the idea. âI don't know,' I said. âI can't imagine not having him there. He's
always
been there. Like I said, I'm the only family he's got.'
âDon't you mean he's the only family
you've
got?' she asked quietly and I looked across at her in the dark. No, I thought. There's you too.
âI'll speak to him as soon as I can,' I said. âWe'll make our plans then. I've got something to do tomorrow though.' Dominique looked at me quizzically and I shrugged. âI'm going to the jail to visit Jack,' I said. âI'm going to work out a way to solve this problem or I won't leave. I can't be responsible for destroying the next five years of his life.'
She sighed and shook her head. âSometimes I wonder about you,' she said after a long silence. âYou can't see that the answers to all our problems are staring you right in the face, can you?'
I shrugged. âWhat?' I asked.
âAll these things we're discussing. Getting out of Cageley. Getting to London. Starting afresh. You and I.
And
Tomas. The solution is there, only you don't want to open your eyes and see it.' I stared at her, waiting for this magical answer, unsure what she could mean, although somewhere at the back of my mind I suspected that I already did.
âJack,'
she said eventually, a fingertip trailing down my skin from my throat to the point halfway down my chest where my shirt was buttoned. The touch of her hand upon my cool skin distracted me, and I glanced downwards, surprised by what she was doing, so long had it been since I had received any kind of human contact from anyone, let alone her. âHe was leaving, wasn't he?' she asked.
âYes,' I said, the word catching in my throat. She leaned closer towards me and her whispered words filled my ear.
âAnd how was he going to survive up there, Matthieu?' I said nothing and eventually she removed her hand and took a step backwards. I stood quietly, rooted to the spot, unable to move a muscle until she was gone. As she disappeared back into the darkness of the night, her final words rang in my ears and I couldn't help but be seduced by them. âFive years is a long time to be in jail,' she said.
My first foray into the world of television entertainment came not in the 1990s with the opening of our satellite broadcasting station, but in the late 1940s when I was living in Hollywood, not far from the house where I had first met Constance earlier in the century. I had moved to Hawaii after the stock market crash of 1929 and lived there quite comfortably until just after the war, when I grew weary of the life of a sloth and felt in need of a fresh challenge. To whit, I returned to California with my young wife Stina, whom I had met on the islands, and set up home in a pleasant, south-facing bungalow near the hills.
It wasn't just for my sake that I decided to leave Hawaii; Stina's three brothers had been killed in the closing months of the war and their loss had devastated her. We lived in the same village where they had grown up and she began to hallucinate, imagining them at every street corner or public bar, convinced that their ghosts had returned to say aloha. I consulted a doctor who suggested that a change of scenery might be appropriate, and I decided to take her to the very antithesis of the quiet, tranquil world which she had always known and introduce her to a town whose glamour and pretension were second to none.
We had met in 1940 at a public meeting to denounce F.D.R.'s apparent plans to bring the United States into the war. I was present as an interested observer; having been through several wars myself, not to mention having seen a couple of my nephews lose their lives in the fighting, I knew the devastation that they could inflict on people. At the time I was opposed to the United States becoming involved with what I perceived to be a little local difficulty on the European front; naturally, with the benefit of hindsight one can see that the only correct action was to take part, but my opinions at the time were echoed by the willowy girl on the platform who was speaking as I entered the hall. She appeared to me to be no more than fifteen years of age. Her skin was of a smooth caramelised brown and her long dark hair hung down thickly on either side of her head. My first thought was that she would be an extraordinarily beautiful woman if her looks did not change too much when the ravages of adolescence had their way. Then, of course, I wondered how a child could hold the audience in such thrall and I realised that I had underestimated her. In truth, she was almost twenty years old, a good deal younger than I â even if my age had mirrored my appearance â but I was mesmerised by her, despite my tendency to be attracted to ladies who have passed out of their immediate youth and into the flush of early middle age.
Stina was heartily opposed to everything to do with the war. She called Churchill a despot and Roosevelt an incompetent. She claimed that, even as she spoke, a war cabinet was being assembled in the White House to drag the country into a needless struggle with a third-rate power â Germany â who were simply seeking retribution for the ills of the Versailles treaty twenty years before. She spoke passionately but her words focused more on her conviction to her anti-war principles than a clear understanding of why this particular war was in any way different from others. Still, she impressed me and I made sure to speak to her afterwards and congratulate her on the effectiveness of her public speaking.
âYour accent?' she asked me. âI don't recognise it. Where are you from?'
âI was born in France,' I explained. âBut I've been travelling around most of my life. I dare say it has become a hotch-potch of dialects by now.'
âYou consider yourself French though?'
I thought about it; it was not something I had ever really considered at all, as if after all these years my nationality had become incidental to the very fact of my existence. âI expect so,' I said. âI mean, I was born there and spent most of my childhood and youth there. But I've only been back a few times since.'
âYou don't like France, then?' she asked, looking surprised. I have noticed throughout my life the romantic view that many people have of the French and their homeland; the decision to live away from it is one which confuses some. Usually those who have never actually lived there themselves.
âLet's just say that every time I go back there I seem to land myself in trouble,' I said, anxious to change the subject. âAnd you? You have always lived in Hawaii?'
She nodded. âAlways,' she said. âMy parents are dead but my brothers and I ... we cannot imagine leaving here. It is home.'
I sighed. âI've never really found one of those,' I said. âI'm not sure that I'd recognise one even if I did.'
âYou're still young,' she said, laughing, which was an ironic statement on several levels. âThere's still time.'
Stina's brothers were gentlemen and, as I got to know her, I became fond of their company as well and spent many happy evenings in their home playing cards, listening to Macal, her eldest brother, play the guitar at which he was quite expert, or simply sitting on the porch drinking fruit juices or local wines into the night. Although they were initially put off by the age gap between us, or at least their perception of the age gap between us, we became friends quite quickly as they were intelligent young men and could see that I had no malicious intent or unpleasant designs upon their sister. On the contrary, our romance blossomed naturally and when we eventually decided to marry they were happy for us and fought for the privilege of giving her away.
Our wedding night was our first night together for Stina would never have consented to anything else, and out of respect for her and her brothers I never broached the question after the first refusal. We chose to honeymoon on the islands, for we were happy there, taking a kayak with us to tour the cluster of paradises which were scattered around the ocean. It was a glorious time, the closest thing I have ever known to an unspoilt Eden on this earth.
Then the war did come to America, and more particularly to Hawaii with the attack on Pearl Harbor and, despite the familial opposition to the war, each of Stina's three brothers enlisted themselves as privates within the United States Army. Stina was devastated, but more than that she was furious with them, believing that they were betraying every principle which they had ever held close. On the contrary, they explained individually, they still believed that the war was wrong and that Americans should not have to become involved, but since they
were
involved and since Japan had already struck inside their borders, and so close to their own home at that, the only right thing to do was to join the army. Oppose the principle, but answer the call to arms anyway. Nothing could make them change their minds; Stina begged me to make them stay but I barely tried, knowing that they were men of principle and that once they had made up their minds to do something â particularly something which caused them so much inner conflict â there would be no turning them around. And so they went, and so they were killed one by one before the war itself came to a close. Stina did not lose her mind entirely. The hallucinations, while troubling and upsetting to her, were not symbols of a crumbling intellect or diseased brain. Rather, they were images of her grief and she knew that even as she saw them standing there before her, they were not real and were simply painful reminders of a happier time with which she had to find a way to come to terms. And so it was decided. We would take a break from Hawaii and settle in California, where I would return to work and she would maintain a house; there was some talk of children but this came to nothing; we would live the opposite life to the only one she had ever known and the one with which I had become happy over the previous twenty years, and we would see whether this did not return us to the previous state of happiness in which we had once revelled.
I had not lost the art of discovering the right circles within which to move and before long I became friends with Rusty Wilson, a vice-president at NBC. We met on the golf course and began to play regularly as we were neither one of us any better than the other and the outcome of our matches was always in question, right down to the eighteenth hole. I told him of my desire to find gainful employment once again and at first he was a little nervous about discussing the matter with me, no doubt concerned that I had only befriended him in order to find a job.
âThe thing is, Rusty,' I explained, eager to disavow him of this notion, âit's not that I need the money. In truth, I'm extremely wealthy and wouldn't have to work another day in my life if I chose not to. It's just that I'm
bored,
that's all. I need to be doing something. I've taken the last -' I was about to say âtwenty or thirty' but changed it necessarily â âtwo or three years off and I'm itching to get involved again.'
âWhat experience do you have?' he asked, relieved now that I wasn't simply looking for a meal ticket. âHave you worked in the entertainment industry before?'
âOh, yes,' I replied, laughing. âI've been in the arts, you might say, all my life. I've run various different projects, usually from an administrative viewpoint. Mostly in Europe though. In Rome I was entrusted with the building of an opera house to rival those in Vienna and Florence.'
âI hate opera,' said Rusty with disdain. âGimme a little Tommy Dorsey any day.'
âI worked on an exhibition in London which attracted six million visitors.'
âI hate London,' he said, spitting on the ground. âIt's cold and it's damp. What else?'
âThe Olympic Games, the opening of several major museums, I had some involvement with the Met -'
âOK, OK,' he said, holding up a hand to get me to stop. âI get the picture. You've been around. And now you want to try TV, is that it?'
âIt's something I've never done before,' I explained. âAnd I like to try different things. Look, I know what it is to have to put on entertainments of any sort and be constricted by budgets while doing so. I'm good at that sort of thing. And I learn quickly. I'm telling you, Rusty, you don't know
anyone
who has been in this industry as long as I have.'
It didn't take too much persuading; we enjoyed each other's company and fortunately he took my list of previous employments on word, not asking for references or phone numbers to contact those who had worked with me before. Just as well, as they were all dead and buried anyway. He brought me out to NBC and gave me a tour of the lot, and I was amazed by what I saw. There were several programmes in production while I was there and soundproof stage led into soundproof stage with audiences of every type gathered before them, watching the cue-card boy for directions on when they should laugh, clap or stamp their feet in appreciation. We saw the editing suites and I met a couple of directors who barely acknowledged me; they were mostly sweaty, balding middle-aged men with cigarettes sticking out of their mouths and horn-rimmed glasses above their noses. I noticed that the walls were filled mostly with pictures of movie stars â Joan Crawford, Jimmy Stewart, Ronald Colman â rather than their televisual equivalents, and inquired why that was.
âIt feels more like Hollywood this way,' explained Rusty. âGives the actors something to dream about. There's two types of TV star: those who are looking to break into movies, or those who can't get a job in movies any more. You're either on the way up or on the way down. It's not really a career for anyone.'
We ended our tour in his suite of offices, which were palatial in their design and overlooked the NBC lot where actors, technicians, secretaries and would-be stars were running around at a tremendous pace. We sat on a couple of heavily filled sofas around a glass-topped table by the fireplace, a good twenty feet away from his mahogany desk, and I could tell that he was enjoying displaying his wealth and position to me with such pride.
âTwo days ago I was sitting right where I'm sitting now,' he told me. âAnd you know who was sitting where you are, begging for a TV show of her own?'
I shook my head. âWho?' I asked.
âGladys George,' he said triumphantly.
âWho?' I asked again, for the name meant nothing to me.
âGladys George!' he repeated.
âGladys George!'
he shouted now, as if this would lift the veil for me.
âI'm sorry, I don't know who she is,' I said. âI've never -'
âGladys George was a movie star a few years back,' he told me. âShe got nominated for the Academy Award in the mid-thirties for
Valiant Is The Word For Carrie.'
Again, I shook my head. âSorry,' I explained. âI haven't seen it. I don't get to the movies as much as I should.'
âThe Three Stooges did a pastiche of it a couple of years later. You must have seen it.
Violent Is The Word For Curly7
Boy, was that a howl!'
I laughed gently. âOh, yes,' I said quietly, although it actually meant nothing to me whatsoever; still, I considered it was a bad idea to display such ignorance of the industry if I was looking for a position within it. âThat was a screamer.
Violent is the
... eh
âGladys George was going to be a big star,' he continued, ignoring my attempts to recover the name of the movie. âBut she got on the wrong side of Louis B. Mayer. She went around telling everyone who would listen â and, believe me, that was
lots
- that he was having an affair with Luise Rainer behind her husband's back. Everyone knew that there was no love lost between Mayer and Clifford Odets â he'd called him a miserable commie a few years earlier â but there was no truth in the rumour. Gladys was just sore because Mayer kept giving all the best parts to Luise or Norma Shearer or Carole Lombard or some floozie he was screwing around with. Anyway, it all got back to Mayer who gave her no more work after that but he kept her on contract just to get his own back. She's only just got released from it but no other studio will touch her. That's when she came to me.'