Authors: Vicki Pettersson
“Do you see it?” he asked, eyes wide on Kit’s face and dazed.
“No. No blood.” Not like Schmidt, not like a red pool he could drown himself in. “Where are you hit?”
“Not that. The plasma is gone. I think I did it . . .” His eyelids fluttered.
“Please, Grif,” Kit begged, palming his stubbled cheeks. “Just hold on—”
But Grif’s gaze had no hold left in it, and it floated before fastening somewhere on the ceiling. There it sharpened again. “The
girl,
Kit. She’s in trouble . . .”
Kit looked up, and her eyes widened, too. Then she squinted. “Is that Bridget?”
And Charlotte, too. Both had seen what had happened below, but they hadn’t left. Why?
“Chambers,” Grif said, spotting him at the same time Kit did. “That’s the only exit. He has a car waiting. But he needs . . .”
He needed Charlotte, Kit realized. She was the only real person connecting him to this night, this place. The others could be silenced, blamed, or explained away. “But Grif—”
He knew what she was going to say and shook his head, forcing away his pained wince. “Someone has to stop him, Kit.”
She knew that. Else they’d never be safe. And all of it, including Grif’s death, would have been for nothing.
“You’re the only one left.”
“Oh, God.” Kit wanted to cry. Instead she bent foward and kissed his forehead, perhaps for the last time. Then, standing tall, the last one left, she bolted for Chambers.
G
ive me the tape.”
Chambers’s voice wafted down as Kit climbed the hidden ladder, finding her well before she’d hit the landing, though Chambers had no idea she was there. He was already squared off against his eldest daughter.
Daughters.
Because Charlotte was tucked close to Bridget’s left side, and while that side trembled, the knife glinting in her right hand remained steady.
“Drop dead,” Bridget said evenly.
“You first,” Chambers said and pulled out his gun.
Charlotte whimpered and covered her ears. “No, no, no . . .”
Bridget just shook her head. “You won’t get away this time. I have the tape.”
“I have the gun.” Chambers stepped closer.
“Stop,” Charlotte begged again. “Please.”
Kit inched onto the platform, and moved into the shadows directly below the overhead exit. But now what? Kit looked down, saw Grif still splayed below, still staring. Tears tipped over her cheeks. What did he want her to do? What
could
she do? If she showed herself now, Chambers might spook and shoot them both.
“Besides,” Chambers was saying, clearly feeling back in control. “You probably organized all this. You and Schmidt were running a prostitution ring out of the Wayfarer. You’ve been doing it for years.”
The knife in Bridget’s hand began to shake. “No one will believe that.”
“You’re a whore. Everyone will believe it.” He jerked his head. “Now come here, Charlotte.”
Charlotte automatically obeyed. Bridget gasped and reached for her, but only caught air, and Chambers straightened with a smile.
But Charlotte halted halfway between her sister and father. “Promise not to hurt her. No more killing. No more . . .” Her chin wobbled, then crumpled, and she couldn’t finish.
“Of course, dear.” He beckoned to her, and she took another step. Yet Kit knew that once he had Charlotte, there’d be no reason
not
to kill Bridget. She knew it, too, and without warning, she lunged for her sister. But Charlotte spooked and ran the opposite way, toward her father.
“Stop!” Kit revealed herself, with not a clue as to what she was doing, or would do next, only wanting to prevent the furied collision that had a child caught in the middle. Chambers half-turned, eyes widening when he spotted Kit blocking his exit, and he fired. Kit ducked, trying to make herself small, feeling her nakedness acutely as the bullet ricocheted off the catwalk, pinging like a deadly pinball.
Lashing out with the knife, Bridget screamed. Chambers whirled at the sound, but she struck him, managing to both avoid Charlotte and knock the gun from her father’s hand. It skittered on the metal catwalk, then flipped to drop twenty feet, and clattered on the ground below.
Growling, Chambers punched her square.
“No, no!” Charlotte was screaming and covering her ears again, but Chambers reached out and jerked her by the arm, leaving Bridget knocked out, before turning to Kit. He looked like a bulldozer. “You can’t stop this,” he said, already walking, head lowered, eyes narrowed.
Kit whimpered, but held her ground. “Just give me the girl. You can go . . .”
“That’s right,” he said sharply. “I can go wherever I want, when I want, and with whom I want.” And he was suddenly there, on her, hands around her neck, fingers squeezing. Kit groped for his hair, his eyes, his ears, wherever she could get a grip, and was pleased to hear his grunts and curses, yet the gray was moving in, her eyesight growing speckled, and somewhere far off, Charlotte was screaming again.
Then Chambers’s head rocketed back with a sudden crack, his grip loosening as a foot flashed forward. A second blow from above had his entire body whipping away, and Kit shook her head, spotting him again just as he tried to right himself. The man always lands on his feet, she had time to think, but he was also tall, and top-heavy, and that was enough to cause his headlong flip over the low catwalk’s side.
Covering her eyes, Charlotte screamed, but Kit watched him fall, his mouth open in shock, though for once he was silent. Even Caleb Chambers had no comeback for this one.
The bedpost missed his spine, but sank through his soft middle to thrust from his chest like a spear. He hung inches above the silky covers, his back slightly arched, his mouth gone slack. Kit reached for Charlotte and tucked the girl’s head into her side so she wouldn’t be tempted to look. However, Kit scanned the entire room below, eyes moving from Chambers and Schmidt, though not to Grif.
No need, with him standing beside her.
“How?” was all she managed as he put his arm around her and squeezed.
“Flesh wound. I’m wearing . . . something,” he said, and Kit looked up into his face. He spoke calmly enough, but looked as dazed as she felt. “It was . . . a gift, I think. In my back.”
He meant
on
his back. “Like Kevlar?”
“Like . . .” His voice trailed off, and he slid away, looking below. “Oh, no.”
Kit peered over the short railing to where he was staring and felt her eyes go wide. “That’s the woman from—”
“I know,” Grif said, face drained of color, suddenly shaking. “I know.”
And he raced to the ladder, and to the tall, black woman who was staggering, bleeding, and finally falling to her knees below.
A
nne was still breathing when Grif returned, but the air rattled in her chest, liquid and low. Gently, he placed the powerful angel’s head on his lap. “Oh, Anne. What happened?”
She laughed so that blood slipped from one corner of her mouth. “I was in the rafters. Wrong place, wrong time. Isn’t that what you people always say?”
Grif looked up. He’d been outside, back on the building’s rooftop when he’d heard the ricocheting gunshot. He’d thought then only of Kit’s safety . . . but he hadn’t known Anne was inside. The gunshot he’d heard go off from outside. It’d missed Kit . . . but found Anne.
“But I don’t understand. You’re a Pure. And your wings, the feathers protected me . . .”
“Of course. You can’t kill what is Pure. But I am wearing flesh . . . and I obviously didn’t catch this bullet with my wings.”
No, her stomach was gaping wide.
Grif bowed his head. “Forgive me, Anne.”
She surprised him by placing her fingertips to his lips, and though they played there, there was nothing sexual in the touch this time. “But this is amazing, don’t you see? It’s the ultimate human experience. This pain is divine . . .”
But death was awful, Grif thought, eyes racing over her face. It meant the demise of all those senses she craved. It meant separation, loneliness, and losing those you most loved.
A corner of Anne’s mouth lifted as she read his mind. “Death is not the enemy, Griffin.”
“It’s the end,” he blurted, even though he knew better, even though he had wings.
“Wrong again. Death,” she said, as her hand dropped away, “is how you know you were alive in the first place.”
Grif sat back on his heels, dumbfounded because it made sense. Anne had been so greedy for every single life experience—taste, touch, sound, sight and scent, even love and hate. Even the negative ones like jealousy and rejection. Yet death, perhaps because of its finality, trumped them all.
“I’m glad to go,” she whispered, seeing he finally understood. “Mortality is too exquisite for me.”
Lifting his head, Grif gazed at the bodies of the two men lying in small lakes of their own blood, then up at the two women, Bridget and Charlotte, huddled above him, trying to salvage what remained of their world. There were wings, too, he saw, making out three pairs waiting in the steel rafters, including Courtney, who leaned forward ever so slightly and winked at him before returning to the shadows. Grif looked back at Anne.
“So . . . Kit?”
She was by the door now, hands folded, watching them. Watching
him.
The Pure let her head fall to the side. Looking at Kit, she sucked in a deep breath, searching for the plasma that would mark Kit as doomed, before giving her head a small shake. “I’m afraid that one . . . is as pure as they come.”
Slumping, Grif dropped his head to Anne’s shoulder, and she patted it, briefly letting her fingertips play in his hair. “There’s one more thing. Your wife . . .”
Grif lifted his head.
“She never entered the Gates,” Anne whispered, eyes shining too bright. “I know the name of every soul who passes there. Evelyn Shaw was never one of them.”
Grif swallowed hard, feeling tears well. “Incubation, then.”
So Evie had anguished over her death, too. Too early, too young, too soon. And all his fault.
“I’m . . . sorry.”
He just nodded. “Thank you, Anne.”
“Anas,” she corrected, and with the last of her breath, added, “Centurion.”
Grif slid his hand over her smooth face, cupped her neck, and pressed a soft kiss to her cheek. “Thank you,
Anas
.”
Anas smiled slightly . . . and, a moment later, was gone.
Y
ou knew her.”
Kit had been totally silent after they’d left the clustered trailers. Bridget took Charlotte to her car to warm her and call the police. But Kit had chosen to stay outside, shivering in Grif’s jacket, watching him carefully. She’d seen the sadness on his face as the black woman passed away. She could mourn a needless death, too . . . but she still wanted to know why.
“Who was she to you?”
“Her name is Anas. She was . . . is . . .” He looked at her.
Kit gave a humorless laugh. “Just finish the sentence.”
“An angel. A Pure.”
Kit closed her eyes and blew out a long breath. More silence, and then, “Walk with me?” she asked, causing Grif’s brows to rise in surprise. “Before the police and everyone arrive?”
He hesitated, but finally nodded. They wandered from the makeshift trailers, past the white elephant looming like a scar across the earth, and further into the night. Grif held her arm now and then, seeming to know when a stone or errant rubble lay in wait, but beyond that their contact was minimal, the conversation nonexistent.
When they reached a large tract of open dirt, just behind a small mountain of discarded rock, Kit stopped and turned to him. “Show me where.”
“Where what?”
“The bungalows. Where Evie died.”
“You believe me?”
“I could lie and say I do. But . . . come on, Grif. Angels? Wings? Centurions?” She shook her head. “But Evelyn Shaw was real. I saw a clipping about her, and I saw . . . a photo of you. My mind keeps telling me there has to be an explanation, but . . .”
“But?”
She folded her arms more tightly around herself, careful of her aching ribs. “But I want to hear yours.”
Grif looked around, studying the dark like it was a map, but finally shook his head. “I can’t tell where the bungalows were. I have a hard time—”
“With directions.” She smiled tightly. “I know.”
“Just so we’re straight.” Grif frowned, studying her face. “Are you mad at me or not?”
She softened a bit at that. “You just saved my life again, Grif. How could I be mad?”
“Then what are we doing here?” he asked, holding out his arms. “You want to hear me go on and on about something you don’t believe? Something I know makes me sound crazy? Because it’s kinda been a hard night.”
Laughter bubbled from Kit, surprising them both. She felt like she hadn’t laughed in forever. “I guess I just want to understand. To know something of the man who . . . Well, we made a good team, right?”
His jaw tensed, noting her use of the past tense, but he nodded once. “All right. You want to know about me? The truth?”
Not the easy answer, no matter how much she might want it, but the truth. “It would be nice, yes.”
“My name is Griffin Shaw. My wife was murdered while I stood right next to her, and I couldn’t stop it. I never even saw it coming.”
Swallowing hard, Kit flashed on an image of her father dying years earlier, and understood a little better how something like that could cause this man’s mental break. She nodded for him to continue, but Grif was staring blindly into the dark. She doubted he even knew he’d gone silent.
“For years,” he began slowly, “I’ve allowed guilt and sorrow and regret to eat at me, and not just at me, but at my humanity. I couldn’t get past everything I’d never change, I
wouldn’t
move on. So I walked around dead inside instead.” He frowned at that. “Funny how everyone knew that but me.”
Kit didn’t think it was funny at all.
“But then something happened that showed me I had it all wrong.” Looking at her, Grif turned his back on the scarred terrain where his wife had died. “I thought I was alive in order to right old wrongs and get justice—or at least find out what had happened and why. But then a very wise woman told me that we’re not supposed to just find the easy answers . . .”
Kit gave a half-smile, and finished for him. “We find the truth.”
“And the truth, Kit? Is that there’s really only one reason to be alive.” He took her hands in his.
Shaking her head, she stopped him. She didn’t need to hear it. She knew all about love. Lowering her head, she said, “You still love her.”
Grif bent, forced her to catch his gaze, and wouldn’t let her look away. “You told me you understood about loving someone. You said there’s no getting over it, that no one can replace a spouse in your heart.”
Kit nodded, because she
had
said that. Right now, though, she wished she hadn’t been quite so understanding.
“But,” Grif said, lifting her chin with his fingers, “you also said a person can carve out a new place in their hearts. For new people.” His fingers splayed, gentled, and slid to cup the back of her neck.
“What are you saying?” she whispered.
“I didn’t save you, Kit. You saved me.”
He drew her close, and she closed her eyes as his arms encircled her, his scent—body soap and a hint of licorice and
Grif—
washed over her. And it felt so good that she let herself be carried away, just for a moment, in the strength of those arms.
She could remember again later that he was crazy.
“You saved me,” he repeated, kissing the top of her head. “You said I needed to move on from Evie’s death. That I was afraid—”
“I’m sorry.” She pulled back. “I shouldn’t have said those things.”
“But you were right,” he said, holding her at arm’s length, but still holding tight. “And you made me feel things I haven’t felt in so long.” He shook his head. “My wife is gone. I guess I’ve known that for a long time, but it was a catastrophe for me to admit it. Yet the line between a miracle and a catastrophe . . .”
Was a damned fine one.
She looked at him.
“What I’m trying to say is . . . I love you, Kit Craig.” He said the words loudly, then said them again, even though she had fallen dead still. “I love you with all that’s left of my heart, and with whatever time I have left on this earth. I love your twenty-first-century mind. I love the way you fight for what’s right. I almost even love how much you talk.”
She blinked at that, but he gripped her arms and carried on. “I think I love you for all the things that Chambers despised. You’re flighty and contradictory. You’re too cheerful. You’re stubborn and, yeah, cavalier, and you never stop moving . . .”
“Are these still compliments?”
But he didn’t hear her. “That woman you were asking about? Anas? She died desperate to feel what I feel for you now. This passion is a gift. It’s a miracle. And it’d be a sin to throw it away.”
“But Grif . . .”
“This is the only reason worth living at all. She died for this.”
And gripping her arms hard, he poured himself into the kiss like his life really depended on it, like hers did, too. Kit dizzied immediately, a buzzing rising to claim her hearing, before whipping like an entire hive to short out her nerve endings.
She tasted dust and thunderbolts.
Fire flashed before turning to lava behind her closed lids.
Her blood pulsed with ozone and she scented rose petals on the air.
Swallowing hard, swaying, Kit pulled away. Not because she wanted to, but because she had to catch her breath. Her lashes fluttered exquisitely against her cheeks, and it took a moment to focus.
When she did, she gasped.
“Good God, Grif. You have wings.”
“I know,” Grif said. And his long-suffering sigh was the last thing she heard before the buzzing rose again, and Kit passed out.