The Swede (2 page)

Flight SK901 from Arlanda, Stockholm

A
S THE AIRPLANE CLIMBED,
E
RNST
Grip gazed blankly at the dirty gray landscape out his window. A copy of
Expressen
, the Stockholm evening tabloid, lay on his lap; he stuffed it into the seat pocket in front of him. He tried to get comfortable—never enough room for his knees in the misery of economy class—and looked forward to his first drink and snacks. Needing something for his hands to fiddle with.

Eight hours to New York.

The American seated beside him grilled the flight attendant about the alcohol selection.

Grip said, “Whisky, any kind,” and got two small bottles without further comment. They slid down with the sad bag of nuts.

Flat chicken with bland red wine—even though he’d left at the last minute, someone had still managed to find him an economy-class ticket. He had the petty Swedish bureaucrats to thank for it. On the electronic map across the cabin, an airplane symbol crept along the coast of Norway. Then came coffee, and, rare for him, a cognac. Felt the liquor spread comfortably. He switched back and forth between movies on the seatback’s video screen. Fell asleep.

Grip was dark, with the easy, familiar sort of face you think you’ve seen before. Looked older in a suit, younger out of one. The passport he carried said thirty-seven. If pressed, he could have stretched ten years in either direction. Agreeably broad-shouldered, he got good treatment from flight attendants, both female and male, who’d stop their carts to exchange a few extra words.

The day before, the Boss had called to tell Grip he’d be going to New York. Now and then, his old chief at the security police still summoned him in. Tugged on the old leash—and his new boss would get a phone call: “Grip will be away.” Nothing he needed to worry about himself. His role was simply to execute: when Grip entered the room, he was handed a plane ticket and a credit card.

“Just keep a summary of your expenses” was the Boss’s only admonition. This was the shorthand of a hardened security officer, no mere bureaucrat but a shrewd old operator with his own accounts. Perfect, for those who preferred not to know the details.

“And . . . ,” said Grip, wondering about more than covering his eating and sleeping.

The Boss made a few notes on his pad. “The Foreign Ministry wants you to go see the Americans.”

“About?”

“The ministry doesn’t know. The Americans want to ask you some questions.”

“You mean all three hundred million of them?”

The Boss snorted. “No, just the Justice Department. Their people will meet you in Newark.”

“And they want me in particular.”

“I guess you’re one of the ‘knowns’ in the ministry offices. You were there when we turned over the Egyptians to the CIA at Bromma Airport. The Foreign Ministry’s mess, we did the job—they
remember—what do I know? They asked for you, and I said yes.”

“What a fucking setup.”

“Pack a comfortable suit.” The Boss smiled with sagging cheeks. “Answer a few questions, eat a few decent meals, come back home.”

“You have no idea what this is about?”

The Boss tore off a slip of paper from his notepad and extended it between two fingers.

Grip read it out loud. “Topeka.”

“The Americans want to know what we know about Topeka. City in the middle of nowhere.”

“No instructions from the Foreign Ministry?”

“‘Send Grip over’ is all they said. They just want this taken care of, whatever it is.”

“So I’m the Foreign Ministry’s errand boy.”

“But I’m the only one you talk to.” The shrewd silverback still ruled from his hilltop in the jungle.

“A week at most?” Grip prodded.

“Whatever it takes.”

“Visa?”

“Don’t bother. Enter as a tourist.”

G
rip woke up when his neighbor started fumbling for something down by his feet. He apologized, kept searching. Impossible for Grip to fall back to sleep. Then he squeezed salve from a tube and smeared it on his nostrils.

“Vaseline,” said the American, “for dry air. Want some?” Grip shook his head. The man beside him kept talking. He’d been visiting his newlywed daughter, who’d met a Swede on vacation. Now
they were living in Sundbyberg, a district within Stockholm. The man laughed as he said it—“Soond-bee-berg”—and launched into a full-blown description of the park next door. As if it were the most exotic place on earth, a place Grip could never imagine. Sure, he liked the birch trees, but he worried about the world his grandchildren would grow up in.

“You know,” he said, “given the way the situation looks now.” He was still upset that he’d had to surrender a full can of shaving cream and his nail scissors at the airport. “But you have to put up with it, don’t you?”

The man lived in lower Manhattan. He had stood on his balcony that morning and watched the Twin Towers collapse. He’d seen the clouds of dust and all the hollow-eyed people come running out.

“Then this,” he said, slapping the front page of the
New York Times
. It was something about Iraq, a picture of an incinerated car and people running. “It’s everywhere, it’s terrible.” He looked at Grip uncertainly, the thin ice Americans knew they were on, the please-don’t-hate-me-personally air they wore when abroad. “So many dead, I don’t know. It’s complicated.”

“Did you vote for Bush?”

“Me?” A feeble shake of the head. “Not the second time.”

The flight attendant went by, holding a catalog and chanting a monotonous “Duty-free . . . duty-free.”

“My neighbor lost his grandson,” the man said as she passed. “In Iraq. Just an ordinary driver in the army. Awful.”

Grip said nothing.

“Well, everyone does his part,” the man continued. “My old man fought against the Germans in the Ardennes, the Battle of the Bulge. ‘Fucking cold,’ that was the only thing he ever said about the war—‘fucking cold.’” The man looked straight ahead
and laughed in the same expressionless way as when he’d said “Sundbyberg.”

He fell silent. Perhaps a minute passed.

“But that was a different kind of war,” he said.

A
re you an American citizen?” asked the flight attendant.

Grip shook his head. Soon he’d written his passport number so many times in the forms she handed him that he knew it by heart. Checked no in all the boxes, swore that he was not entering the United States to engage in prostitution or terrorism and had not engaged in exterminating Jews during World War II. Last, he checked himself off as a tourist and gave a Hilton near Central Park as his address. He’d found the hotel in an ad in the airline magazine.

Sorting through his wallet, he found the slip of paper the Boss had given him.

“Topeka,” he said to his neighbor. “What state is that in?”

“Kansas,” the man answered. “Are you going there?”

“No.” He had already crumpled up the paper and put it in the seatback pocket.

“So where are you going then?”

“New York, just for a few days.”

“Is this your first time?”

Grip shrugged.

“You’re going to love it.”

E
rnst Grip waited for the aisle to clear, then put his unread
Expressen
in his shoulder bag and exited the airplane. What stopped him next was the labyrinthine line in front of immigration. Passengers from distant
flights waited red-eyed, their half-asleep children sitting on luggage or right on the floor. A few women patrolled the winding queues, yelling out the forms all foreigners were supposed to have in hand. They wore simple uniforms, a spike of keys in one hand, a big communication radio in the other hand. Swaying gait, tough expression.

Grip had observed them over the years. Doing a job that used to be one step up from flipping burgers at McDonald’s. Since the fall of the towers, they acted as if they had the whole Marine Corps at their backs. Raised their voices as soon as someone hesitated, or—God forbid—talked back. At the front of the line, near a passport stamp booth, he heard a commotion in several languages. Grip couldn’t see, but thought someone was being led away.

Finally he was waved up to a booth. Two men sat behind the chest-high counter in bleached shirts and crew cuts. One glanced at Grip’s form and flipped through his passport. He stopped, with an impassive expression, on a page.

“What were you doing in Egypt last year?” he asked.

The other one studied Grip. The interrogation gaze.

“Diving in the Red Sea,” Grip answered. “Sharm el-Sheikh.”

The officer leafed further, found another stamp of interest. “And South Africa?”

“A week of winter sun, down in Cape.” That too a lie. He was not unaccustomed.

And then new stamps on a page and Mr. Grip, dark-haired but blue-eyed, just thirty-seven, was wished a nice day. He took his passport and said thank you.

A
t Newark arrivals, two men in suits held a small sign, looking more bored than hopeful. E
RNEST
G
RIP
, it said, in plain red letters. Even
in a crowd of sign holders, the men seemed strangely out of place, as if they were wondering themselves what they were doing there.

“
Ernst
Grip,” Grip corrected.

“Welcome,” said the man with the sign. He didn’t get the hint, seemed simply relieved. The other took charge of Grip’s bag.

Two sunburned crew cuts—typical Feds. They offered him coffee in the car; otherwise they didn’t say much. Grip had no reason to talk to them either as they rolled over the whining concrete expressway and dove into an orange-lit tunnel, surfacing in the middle of Manhattan.

“Is this the hotel?” Grip asked when they stopped in an underground garage.

“No, the office.”

“I need to get something out of my suitcase.”

The driver opened the trunk for him. Grip pulled out his suit jacket, buttoned his shirt at the top, and made a knot in the tie stashed in a side pocket.

“Got a gun on you?” asked the driver.

“A gun?” said Grip. “You just picked me up at the airport.”

The man shrugged his shoulders.

They took an escalator up to a marble grotto; office palms stood in obligatory islands. The entryway echoed with their steps as they walked through arches of metal detectors. Grip’s escorts showed their IDs, uncovered their weapons, and pointed to a note on a chart, which permitted Grip to enter.

On the twenty-third floor, they wound past cell blocks of conference rooms occupied by men with rolled-up shirtsleeves and baggy trousers, and signs with odd prohibitions. Plastic takeout boxes, greasy cartons, half-filled bottles—there seemed to be constant eating going on. People said hello while drinking or wiping
their fingers on a handful of napkins. One of the men offered Grip coffee. He declined.

They led him through a glass door past a secretary, who looked up and nodded, and into a large office.

“Here. She’ll be with you in a moment,” whispered one of the men behind him, and then they disappeared.

Grip stood alone. She sat behind a desk, facing the window, talking on the phone—or rather listening. She was aware of his presence but hadn’t given him a glance. The room was very quiet. Grip saw her in profile and evaluated the fact that she was a woman. Given the warren of little offices he’d seen on the way, the presence of a secretary outside, and the thick wall-to-wall carpeting indicated that he was with a boss. It was harder to determine her level. On his way in, he’d seen enough caps with FBI and DEA to understand the landscape. She looked about his age, something Asian about her features—her eyes, the delicate tone of her skin. She had smooth dark hair. No portraits, diplomas, or self-glorifying photographs on the walls. Only a huge tropical landscape, a reproduction, hanging behind her. A watercolor with sea-bleached wooden bungalows, a few figures lounging in shadows.

She said something inaudible, put down the receiver, and turned around. Hands on her armrests, she looked at him with interest, raised her eyebrows slightly, and said, “The Swede.”

“Yes, the Swede,” Grip answered. “Or Ernst Grip—as perhaps it says somewhere.”

She glanced down at her desk. “Ernst, of course,” she said, standing up to greet him. “From the Foreign Ministry?”

“From the security police.”

“I see.” She paused. And then, delicately: “Have you ever witnessed an execution?” Without waiting for a reply, she continued, “My name is Shauna, by the way. Shauna Friedman.”

Thailand, Boxing Day, 2004

F
ISH SWIMMING PAST A CAR
, that was his first memory. He was standing in water up to his waist before the Wave began to recede. Fish, their brilliant colors, that was the first thing he remembered.

N. wasn’t sure where he was going. He walked around slowly after the sea finally withdrew. He didn’t see many other people; the few he encountered were wandering as aimlessly as himself. At one point, he heard screams. It could have been a human being, or an animal in trouble.

Then came the itching. Not that it was overwhelming in any way, but it was there, vaguely annoying. He waved his hands over his arms and legs, shooing away the flies that were drawn to his wounds. His mouth was dry, but he couldn’t bring himself to drink from any of the hundreds of water bottles that had spilled from their crates, in the mess outside a shop.

Some villagers found N. and pulled him up onto a flatbed truck that took him away from the sea. Packed in close to other people, he sensed their fear. In the back of the truck, people talked too fast, calming down only after the tractor pulling them began to struggle
into the hills beyond the village. Up there by the trees, lots of people had gathered. Someone gave him water; he drank and returned the bottle empty. A man, seeing his bloody arms and knees, led him to a paved spot where the wounded were being treated. Most were lying on the ground. A nurse came up to him. She looked concerned, but couldn’t do much beyond wash out the deepest wounds with water. She apologized several times for not having brought more supplies from the infirmary in the village. Then N. sat down. Stayed put. Someone tried to make small talk, but he didn’t answer. Another held up a pot of rice—he waved it away.

In the evening they heard the sound of a helicopter. People got excited and started shouting, but the noise faded. An evening breeze stirred the trees. The rumors died away.

Night fell among the groves on the mountain. N. moved from the pavement onto the bare ground, which felt less cold. He curled up but soon froze anyway, and the cuts on his knees began to ache. It was impossible to find a comfortable position, and in the end he sat leaning against a tree. There, he managed to nod off a few times, but in half-sleep he began to think of the fish again, their bright colors. Other images rose up as well. He saw the little girls, their faces, and a woman. Heard their voices. A woman and two children. He wasn’t at all sure that they were his, but it had been morning and they had sat and eaten something. They had eaten together. . . . Then there was once again only the memory of the fish.

Someone crouched down next to N., he felt an arm hold him. He did not hear the sounds of his own moaning. People near him thought he was crying.

The sun went up and then down again. Yet another night spent on the mountain. The next morning he was seized with such thirst that he grabbed and emptied the bottle of water that stood near
the little boy who slept next to him. On the third day, a group of soldiers in a jeep said that everyone could return to the village, the danger was past. N.’s wounds were swollen and festering, and the nurse washed them one last time and said that he must get to a hospital. Said he had a fever, he needed help. And so he joined the thin line of people returning down from the mountain.

At first he had trouble orienting himself in the village because of all the destruction and debris. The sun was torture. But then he recognized the car he’d been standing beside when he saw the fish, and the mess of water bottles in the street outside the shop. He opened one and drank. In the distance he saw the gable of a house he thought he recognized. Then he approached and wasn’t sure. White walls stood without a roof, most of the building had collapsed. All signs of the small hotel were gone. There was no trace of the inner courtyard he remembered, only rubble: planks, piles of plaster, palm leaves. Pool chairs lay like wrecked boats on top of the mess. They had steel frames, with slats made of thick plastic strips in black and white. N. remembered how they always stuck to your skin, he remembered that not too long ago he had been sitting right there. Suddenly his heart began to pound and he felt that something terrible was at stake. He grabbed at whatever he could reach and threw the broken planks to the side. But the power flowed out of him almost immediately, and he grew clumsy when he tried to push himself farther. Unsteady on his legs, and seeing all the sharp pieces around him, he sat down. The sun burned intensely, his head throbbed. It wouldn’t get better. He looked around, stood up with a moan, and tried again.

What he first thought was a branch turned out to be a blue arm sticking out of the mess. A hunk of fallen wall covered the body, but he saw a ruined face: too swollen to reveal anything. Gently,
he covered it with a piece of foam. Then he looked again, this time with new eyes, and realized that he was surrounded by sticking-out limbs and bulging, half-naked bodies. He sank down exhausted and overcome, crying in despair.

N
. wasn’t quite clear on how he got there, but at the hospital, he was assigned to a bed. By that time the fever had overtaken him, and for a few days he mostly slept. The staff was very friendly, but they called him by a name he did not recognize and asked him about things he couldn’t remember. Wounds were washed, scraped out, and sutured. It took a week before the fever went down.

One morning when N. returned from the bathroom, he discovered a cloth bag hanging at the foot of his bed. Green, with a worn-out shoulder strap, the kind tourists get from an army surplus store. He took it off the bed and looked around. The three people who shared the small room took no notice—apparently the bag did not belong to any of them. He opened the zipper and examined the interior. Sure enough, he found a few guidebooks, a dive log, and various travel receipts. In an inside pocket he found a fat envelope of dollars, and in an outside pocket he found a passport.

That must have been where the nurses got the name. There was some kind of mix-up, right? Could . . . He didn’t know. Looking at the passport picture, N. paused at finding familiar features: the same irregular bangs he saw in the mirror, the same crease between forehead and nose. Most of all, the same gaze. He turned the bag over and found a jagged arc of salt stain. He couldn’t tell if it had been left there by the sea, or by a sweaty back. He flipped through the passport stamps and returned to the picture. He could only sit there on the bed.

During the rounds, they called that name again.

“Yes,” said N.

“The fever has broken,” said a short doctor with beads of sweat on his forehead, “and the wounds seemed to heal fine.” He cast an anxious glance toward the corridor.

“I understand,” said N.

The doctor excused himself: “We need the bed. People keep pouring in.”

“Of course.” He looked down at his short hospital gown.

“We had to throw out your clothes,” said the nurse. “Take this.” She held out a plastic bag. N. saw a pair of faded but clean jeans, a short-sleeved shirt, and a pair of sandals.

“You’ll have to look for someone who can remove the stitches,” the doctor said, “in about a week or so. That shouldn’t be a problem.”

“No.”

“Where will you go now?”

“I need to look for someone.”

The doctor nodded. Left the room to continue his rounds.

N. got dressed, slung the bag over his shoulder, and left.

T
he buses had begun to run again. The roads were clogged with trucks, bulldozers, and groups of men in every imaginable uniform. It took time, but he could still make it back to the village.

By the sea, all the old signs of devastation were still there, along with some new ones. The village was plastered with bad photocopies of missing people, taped up wherever there was space. Utility poles fluttered with white paper as high as a man could reach. In another world, they’d be for a political race with hundreds of candidates. Near a temple on the outskirts of the village, people wore
thick gloves and masks over their noses and mouths. In other spots the authorities had set up small offices—often just a large tent—where people cried or barked senselessly at one another. N. was constantly harassed by people wanting to know if he had seen this one or that one. Disgusted, he withdrew.

He felt a strange sense of distance. The village he saw was not his, never had been. Only a few weeks before, he hadn’t known a thing about it. He’d come there as a visitor—a tourist’s random choice. He could have ended up on any beach, on any day, in any village, anywhere. It was just a roll of the dice.

He kept going. There was a place he had to get to. Then he saw that they’d cleaned up the shop where all the bottles had been scattered on the street. And N. remembered the fish again. And then the breakfast. That they had eaten fruit, and that the little girls had worn new bathing suits and squinted at the sun. So they were, they were his children. And that woman, who must have been his wife, she had smeared their arms with sunscreen while they ate. The silent memory, how they let her do it but whined between mouthfuls.

Then they stopped, the pictures.

Again, N. found the hotel’s gable, but the garden and surroundings were gone. The few walls that remained formed a kind of whitewashed monument; the rest was only brownish-red sand and soil. The bulldozer had left no trace, not even a plant.

N. stopped, squatted down, and felt the damp earth with his hand. Smooth earth and deserted white walls. No trace. He felt that he ought to cry, but nothing came. He got up and walked away.

H
e took the white envelope filled with dollars from the bag, though he wasn’t exactly sure the money was his, and paid for transport
into town. They had told N. he must register; he had to go register at the consulate. To have something to do, that was the only reason he left. He arrived just as the sun went down, found a simple room for the night, and then went out on the streets again. It was strange to see all the lights, to see people relaxed and strolling, even to hear someone let out a laugh. The smell of food in the evening was overwhelming. No longer did he have to endure the silence of the beach village, with its paper faces staring down from billboards and utility poles. Here there were no hopeless pilgrims clutching at straws. For a time he was released from the torment of his own survival.

He bought small skewers with chicken and mango and headed late in the day toward the consulate—someone had said they were open all the time now. He found his way with the help of a guidebook from the bag. The row of consulates would be, according to the map, a little outside the town center. The crowds thinned out around him, and the lights as well. He had to stop beneath them, to read the map. A half-dozen police officers came walking toward him in a narrow street. They walked slowly, talking in pairs or smoking. All of them wore helmets with visors and carried long, thin sticks that swayed casually. The sticks drew his gaze, their worn ends suggesting that someone had just had a taste of them.

The police passed without noticing N. He reached the park where, at the far end, the consulates were supposed to be. The asphalt was wet; leaflets were floating in the puddles. He kept walking.

“Filthy pigs!” someone shouted from far away. The cry’s echo died away between the houses. N. didn’t see a soul. The park next door was dark and uninviting. He stayed on the sidewalk, but moved nearer to the street and the lights from the few windows on the other side. A block farther down, he passed a couple who looked Western. They were walking quickly.

“Wishing that even more people had died,” the woman said indignantly as they passed.

“Idiots,” replied the man. Their steps faded away.

N. heard someone yell: “Death to America!” It came from the direction he was heading.

He stopped for a moment, feeling watched. The park was quiet. When he heard a car, he started walking again, trying to figure out what was happening down the street. He saw lights and made out a group of figures on the move. The loud voices came from a demonstration outside one of the consulates, now over. He thought back to the police he’d passed in riot gear, and then a car came up the street. As it sped up, someone rolled down a window. An arm stuck out, and as the car passed N., out flew masses of leaflets. The car swerved across the wet pavement and disappeared up a side street. A leaflet fluttered past him, and N., sensing something vaguely familiar about it, followed a few steps. He caught it just as it landed upside down in a puddle. He shook off the drops, holding it by a corner, and then turned it over.

It was the photograph of a dead man that he’d seen before, without really looking. Now he looked. A corpse, surrounded by dirt and grass, a gaping mouth and sunken eyes. Arms twisted unnaturally along the body. There were several similar images along the leaflet’s edge. “Thank God!” he read. The text that followed looked like a press release. He stumbled to grasp the context, but after a few lines, he understood. The leaflet was a copy of an Internet posting from the United States, reprinted by protesters. A group of religious fanatics in America had hailed the tsunami, seeing God’s punishment in the sea’s wrath. They found divine justice in the fact that thousands of people were rotting in unmarked graves. They described in rich detail how all the missing people would float away
with bloated bellies and never be found. Their biblical quotes were carefully chosen. A picture of the minister they called “Beloved Father” smiled out at N. All the dead children particularly pleased him. God was sweeping the earth clean, punishing all sinners.

N. looked out at the street again, toward the lights, the figures. His gaze returned to the flyer, the pastor’s world seen through his words: sodomites, bastards, and rapists. Everyone tainted by the devil’s sex. The world crawled and swarmed with sinners.

The only memory N. had of anything was of his two girls. It was the only image he’d ever see, even if someone held a gun to his head. They were dead, and people were rejoicing?

N. stood looking at the minister’s smile, trying to see something more than lips and teeth. Then he slowly crushed the flyer, as if he had lost all feeling in his hands.