Authors: Carol Townend
There had not been a precise moment when Gwenn had realised that her mother’s relationship with Sir Jean was unorthodox. Realisation had come in slow stages. Izabel had guarded her closely, almost jealously, not permitting her to mix with other girls in the town, and this, Gwenn now realised, had kept her unaware of the townfolk’s hostility for much longer than would otherwise have been the case. At the time, Gwenn had assumed that Izabel disapproved of the other girls, had thought them not worthy friends for her. Then had dawned the day when, like today, she had escaped for a couple of hours on her own. She had befriended Lucia. Lucia lived in the house opposite and they had played happily until Lucia’s mother had appeared and dragged her daughter away. And the next time Gwenn had seen her playmate, and had smiled at her, Lucia had looked at her with glassy eyes and turned her face aside. There had been other, similar, incidents, which Gwenn had never liked to examine too closely, but the violence that had flared up today and the consequent chase through the streets forced her to face it squarely. Gwenn had spoken to her mother, and Yolande had at last admitted that she was St Clair’s mistress. She had admitted that she and her family were outcasts. They were undesirable, and were reviled more than the lepers that begged for alms at the town gates, for the lepers were given pity at least. Gwenn had not seen much pity in the eyes of the mob that had hounded her and Raymond through the streets. The tears welled again.
Izabel thought her granddaughter was safely asleep. Hoisting herself out of bed, the old woman set the candle in the middle of the floor and crept to the stool in front of her mirror. A gigantic, misshapen shadow travelled with her across the limewashed plaster walls. The candle flame, nudged by draughts drifting in through chinks round window and door, made the shadow jerk and twitch as though it was palsied. Izabel cocked her head to one side and listened. All was silent, both inside the house and out.
On hearing Izabel rise from her pallet, Gwenn stayed quiet, unconsciously waiting for the familiar grating sound which would signify that the chamber pot was being pulled out from under Izabel’s bed. Moments later, when the scraping sound did not come, Gwenn peered across the room. What was her grandmother doing?
Izabel was quietly clearing her brush and hairpins from the top of her coffer. With both hands on the lid of the chest, she took a deep breath and heaved. The trunk opened reluctantly, for Izabel’s arms were losing their strength and the coffer had been hewn from solid oak. The old woman was short of wind by the time the lid was resting back against the wall. She fished about inside, and drew out some cloth. She began to hum softly, and then ceased abruptly, seeming to wink at the dusk-shrouded figure that was her reflection in the mirror. ‘I’m putting my house in order,’ Izabel murmured and smoothed out the cloth.
What
was
her grandmother doing?
The piece of cloth was sailcloth, which Izabel had obtained from a fisherman on one of the quays. Pushing stiffly to her feet, she hobbled to the alcove and picked up her icon.
Gwenn kept very still.
‘This,’ her grandmother muttered with a sidelong glance at Gwenn’s pallet, ‘will be my legacy to you, Gwenn. This will keep you safe. Raymond does not need it. Boys are tough. They look after themselves. It’s the girls who are defenceless, left to suffer...’ The old woman blinked away a tear. ‘If only I’d told your mother about the gemstone sooner. She need never have become St Clair’s mistress, need never have sold her soul. I failed her, but I shall put it right, I shall not fail
you
.’ She wrapped the statue in the sailcloth.
Miserable but burning with curiosity, Gwenn could contain herself no longer. She pushed back her covers and sat up. ‘Grandmama, what are you mumbling about?’
‘Gwenn! You’re awake!’
Gwenn rubbed eyes that were hot and puffy with too much crying. ‘Aye. What is it, Grandmama? Are you unwell?’
‘My thanks, Gwenn, but I am quite well.’ Dropping her burden in the coffer, Izabel closed the lid. She crossed the chamber and levered herself onto the edge of Gwenn’s mattress. Gwenn heard her joints creak. ‘It is you I’m concerned about. Do you feel better?’
Dipping her head, Gwenn lied. ‘Yes. I’m sorry I cried. I hope I didn’t upset you, Grandmama.’
Her grandmother patted her hand. ‘It was an unnerving experience.’
‘Grandmama, you don’t understand. I was frightened by the mob – actually, I was terrified out of my wits – but it was the hatred in their voices when they cursed Mama that shook me most. I had my suspicions we lived under some sort of a cloud, but I had no idea that most of Vannes disliked us so intensely. Father Mark has always been kind to us, and I know Mikael Brasher likes Raymond. Raymond is always talking about Duke’s Tavern.’
‘But you did have suspicions?’
‘Aye. I’ve read about liaisons like Mother’s and Sir Jean’s with Raymond. Our tutor explained–’
‘I knew Yolande was making a mistake to have you sit in on Raymond’s lessons!’ Izabel said, scandalised. ‘No good ever came of a girl learning to read and write! I shall have it stopped at once. I should have thought Father Mark of all people would know better than to corrupt a young girl. Holy Mother, what have you been reading?’
Gwenn smiled and took her grandmother’s hand. She loved Izabel deeply, but she could not resist teasing her. ‘The Bible, Grandmama.’
‘The
Bible
? You can read Latin?’
‘Father Mark says I’m a better student than Raymond.’
‘Is the Bible all you have read?’ Izabel demanded, frowning. In her mind it was neither necessary nor sensible to teach a girl to read. Few enough men had that skill, and she feared that outlandish ideas might warp her impressionable granddaughter’s mind. The scandal of Heloise and her teacher Abelard loomed like a dreadful warning in the old woman’s mind.
‘I’ve read other writings too, Grandmama,’ Gwenn said. Izabel made a clucking sound with her tongue. Swallowing down a giggle, Gwenn could not resist adding, ‘But it was the Bible that taught me about fornication and adultery.’
‘That’s enough, Gwenn!’ Izabel clapped her hands over her ears. ‘Enough!’
‘My apologies, Grandmama. What I’m trying to tell you is that I knew about mother being a concub–’
‘Don’t say that word.’ The old woman stopped Gwenn’s mouth with her palm. ‘We must pray that God in His infinite mercy will forgive your mother.’
‘You sound as though you doubt that, Grandmama.’
Silence.
‘Grandmama?’ Conscious of a disrespectful desire to shake her grandmother, Gwenn laced her fingers tightly together and lowered her voice to a whisper, for she did not want her mother disturbed. ‘Grandmama, I would like to understand something.’
‘Mmm?’
‘Why is it us they turn on?’
‘Us?’
‘The women of the family.’
‘They were after Raymond, too,’ Izabel pointed out.
‘Aye, but only because he came to my aid. It was me they were really after. I’ve noticed this before, Grandmama. People tolerate Raymond far more than they do you or me. And they seem to like Sir Jean. But when it’s you or me, or Mama...’
‘Your mother is a grievous sinner and will not repent.’
‘And she deserves to be reviled? Along with you and me, and no doubt Katarin too when she’s grown? No, Grandmama, I refuse to accept that. We’re all sinners. Mama hasn’t done more wrong than anyone else. She’s no more wicked than Sir Jean. All anyone has to do is look at the way she and my f...Sir Jean care about each other. They love each other. They are faithful to each other. I don’t see what difference there is between them and all the other married people in Vannes. It’s sheer hypocrisy.’
‘But, Gwenn–’
‘In fact, Grandmama,’ Gwenn ploughed on, ‘my parents are better than most. They are honest sinners. Did you know, for example, that Pierre, the herbalist down the street, is having a clandestine affair and his wife, poor love, knows nothing?’
‘I never pay any heed to the doings of the common townsfolk,’ Izabel said, loftily. ‘Honest sinners, indeed. What will you think of next? Clearly, this tutoring will have to stop.’
‘Pierre is an adulterer, Grandmama. Yet I can’t see
him
being lynched for his sins.’
‘It has been known,’ Izabel murmured.
‘Grandmama, I’m trying to understand. Why do they want us out of Vannes? Why do they hate us so? They condone Pierre’s adultery – can’t they see the good in Mama’s relationship with Sir Jean?’
Izabel pressed her granddaughter’s hand, but held to her litany. ‘She’s a sinner, a sinner in the eyes of Holy Church. And I am to blame.’
‘No, Grandmama.’
‘Do you mind what your mother has made you?’ Izabel asked.
Gwenn jerked her head aside and stared mutely at the flickering candle.
For Izabel that was response enough. ‘Do you care that every day Yolande stays with St Clair she puts her immortal soul at risk?’
‘I wish...’ Gwenn hesitated. ‘I wish you and Mama had trusted me enough to confide in me.’
‘Yolande wanted to tell you, but I thought you too young.’
Gwenn shoved a thick skein of hair from her face. ‘But not too young to lie to?’
‘Lie? I thought only to protect you, child.’
‘Too much protection can be dangerous,’ Gwenn said, astutely. ‘I wish you hadn’t protected me. I’d far rather have been trusted with the truth.’ She hung her head and plucked at her bedcover. ‘Grandmama?’
‘Mmm?’
‘There’s something I’ve never been clear about. And I’m curious. I...I’d like you to explain it.’
‘I’ll try.’
‘How is it that a woman of your...er...strong religious principles elected to remain with Mother after...after...she had become St Clair’s mistress? I would have thought you’d have left her, perhaps have become a nun. Didn’t you want to become a nun?’
An ominous silence fell, giving Gwenn time to regret her curiosity. ‘I’m sorry, Grandmama. Forget I ever asked. It was impertinent of me.’
‘It was,’ her grandmother agreed. ‘But since you have asked, I’ll try and answer you. Naturally, I never approved of your mother’s relations with St Clair. And she so young when it started. She was your age, you know.’
‘She was thirteen?’ Girls were often wed at that age, but Gwenn let that pass.
Her grandmother nodded sadly. Gwenn’s hair had flopped forwards again and tenderly her grandmother looped it behind her ear. ‘Thirteen. We had taken refuge in St Anne’s convent, but when Yolande was thirteen, we were cast out into the world. Yolande thought we’d not a clipped penny between us.’
‘A convent cast you out? Why, Grandmama? Why were you cast out into the world? What about your husband?’
‘He died before Yolande was born.’
Something in her grandmother’s voice warned Gwenn not to pursue that line of questioning. In the past, whenever Gwenn had asked about Yolande’s childhood, she had come up against a wall of silence. But tonight, Izabel seemed disposed to talk. Greedy for anything which would reveal more about her mother and her grandmother’s background, Gwenn felt her way step by tentative step. ‘What about your parents?’
No answer. Her grandmother was as motionless as a menhir. Gwenn tried again. ‘Where were they? Were they dead that you were lodged in a convent?’
‘I never think of those times, Gwenn.’
Gwenn grimaced; that solid wall again.
‘It’s too painful,’ Izabel went on. ‘Besides, I was ill. I...I had a fever as I recall, and was out of my mind. Yolande went to beg for food. She met St Clair, and the rest you know.’
‘They fell in love.’ Gwenn sighed, wondering how to wheedle more out of her grandmother. ‘He lifted her out of the gutter. It must have been very romantic!’
‘Romantic?’ Izabel laughed harshly. ‘It was nothing of the kind. Your mother sacrificed herself so she could look after me. And when I had recovered and realised what she had done, it was too late. She was a fallen woman.’ If only I had told Yolande about the jewel, if only...’
‘You said Mama did it for you,’ Gwenn reminded her.
‘Aye. She did it for me. She’s immoral, but she
is
my daughter, and that’s a strong bond, as you might discover if you ever have a daughter of your own. I love her, whatever I might think of her morals. Sometimes I can see my Gwionn shining through her expression. She’s all I have of him, and...’ Izabel gave her shoulders a little shake and smiled through the darkness. ‘And I confess she’s been lucky with her chevalier. Jean St Clair may not be the wealthiest of men, but he does care for us in his way. He bought us this house. Yolande did what she could when she thought us destitute, but the price was high – her immortal soul.’
‘Grandmama, you can’t believe that.’ Gwenn brought her brows together.
‘I love Yolande.’
It did not escape Gwenn that Izabel had avoided her question. ‘I know. Grandmama–’
The latch clicked, and a tall, slight figure squeezed past the door and crept towards Gwenn’s pallet.
‘Raymond?’
The figure, cloaked in shadows, went down on its haunches. ‘The same,’ her brother’s voice confirmed. ‘I could hear you from the landing. What are you two whispering about?’
‘We haven’t woken Yolande, have we?’ Izabel asked.
‘She’s not asleep,’ Raymond said. ‘St Clair’s with her. They’re talking.’
Izabel held out an arm to her grandson. ‘Help me up, Raymond.’ She heaved herself upright. ‘My thanks. I’m glad you’ve come in, because I’ve an errand you can run in the morning.’
‘Oh, aye?’ Raymond answered equably, seating himself on the bed in the space recently vacated by Izabel. ‘Alright, little Gwenn?’ he asked, tweaking a lock of his sister’s hair.
‘Aye.’
Izabel reached her coffer. The hinges creaked as she grasped the lid.
‘Here,
Grandmère
, let me help you.’ Belatedly, Raymond sprang to his feet.
The lid fell back with a crack. ‘I’ve done it.’ Izabel was panting but triumphant, and holding a package.
‘You should have let me.’
‘Never mind, never mind. Raymond, listen. I’m going to give Our Lady to Gwenn. It’s for her and Katarin – for the girls. You don’t mind, do you?’
‘Why in heaven’s name should I mind?’