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Authors: Carol Berg

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“. . . and so I thought it wasn't fair. Imprisoned so horribly for ten years, and then trapped with D'Natheil for the rest of it. A slave in Zhev'Na for over a year. He had so much life left in him, and I thought it was because only one of them was supposed to be dead, and it had to be D'Natheil because D'Natheil couldn't come back. I guess I was wrong, and that's why it didn't work.”
“He made his choice,” I said. “He did exactly what he wanted—set you free. And Avonar. And all of us.”
“He was free, too,” said Gerick. “By the end, there was no more D'Natheil.”
“I'm glad to hear it.”
“But I wanted him to live.”
We sat together at Karon's side. I was too wrung out to say much of anything. Yet the passions of a sixteen-year-old are not easily dulled. Gerick kept his hand on Karon's unmoving chest. “He's close, Mother. He wants so much to be here with us.”
It must have been near midnight when we finally persuaded Gerick, half sick with exhaustion, to go back to my apartments with Paulo to eat and sleep for a while. I promised that Karon would not be left alone and that one of us would continue talking to him. Paulo laid Ven'Dar's hooded cloak over Gerick's shoulders to protect my son from curious eyes. Gerick was still condemned and feared, and it would take a while for the Dar'Nethi—and all of us—to understand what had really taken place that day.
As soon as the boys had gone, Ven'Dar summoned Bareil to prepare Karon's body for his funeral rites. “The people will need to see him laid out. You understand. So they can believe and accept.”
“Of course I understand.”
“You should go with your sons, lady. I'll wait here, keep our promise to Gerick, until Bareil arrives to take care of the Prince. You've had a day such as no one should ever have, and tomorrow will have its own burdens. We have a number of decisions to make, and perhaps some journeying to do.”
“And what of you, Ven'Dar? Tomorrow you will be anointed Heir of D'Arnath, and face the task of rebuilding a world. Perhaps you're the one who needs to take a few hours of sleep.”
“Another hour of peace here would probably benefit me more. I have a great deal to consider.” He looked at me quizzically. “Will your son have regrets, do you think, when he looks back to know he might have been the Heir of D'Arnath?”
“No. I don't think he'd ever feel like he belonged here. Karon knew exactly what he was doing, and Gerick has so much as told you the same. Even if he still had any legitimate claim, he wouldn't press it. You are the only living Heir.”
“And if so, I certainly need to meditate for a little longer. I've summoned a guide who awaits you in the first guardroom. Good night, dear lady. I promise you, the Prince will not be left alone tonight.” He smiled and touched my hand. “I've a few things more I need to tell him.”
And so I left him in the prison block and found Aimee waiting in the guardroom to guide me back to my apartments. Gerick and Paulo were sprawled out on the carpets when I arrived, and Roxanne curled up on the couch, all of them sound asleep. I smiled through my tears at the sweetness of life and youth, and fell into my own bed. Karon's rose still bloomed beside me.
Neither dreams nor true sleep came to me that night. Rather I drifted in some half waking, at peace save for the ponderous grief that wrapped heart and body in a blanket of lead. My long farewell continued through the dark, quiet hours.
But for one more night, my rest was destined for interruption. “Madam, please . . . wake up. My lady, come quickly.” Two almond-shaped eyes shone in the gray light. It was Bareil.
“What is it?” I whispered, instantly afraid for Gerick, for Roxanne, for Paulo. The Lords were back. The world ending . . .
But he just shook his head and urged me up.
I threw on a gown over my shift. Avonar, exhausted with its emotions, lay quiet in the faint light outside my window. Even the birds were hushed as if in respect for the weary populace. Paulo and Roxanne still lay wrapped in their dreams and Aimee's blankets, and Aimee herself dozed in the chair by the door, waiting until her charges might awake. Morning lay over them like a soft gray mantle. But Gerick wasn't with them.
Once Bareil and I were in the passage, I tried again. “What is it?” But he only shook his head and hurried me through the wide galleries and down a graceful curved staircase, through the formal public rooms of the palace. “Where's Gerick?”
Two huge doors of carved walnut swung open at our approach, and we entered a long room with high arched ceilings. The dawn light tinged with rose angled sharply through the tall windows, making an enchanted mist of the dust motes floating in the air. Halfway down the length of the vast, empty room sat a simple bier of polished walnut, surrounded by hundreds of candles in crystal bowls. That's where they would lay him.
Bareil didn't pause by the empty bier, but led me to a side door, a very plain door. “This is the preparation room, my lady.”
Where they took their dead princes to enchant their wounds away, I thought, to bathe them and array them in whatever attire was deemed suitable for burial—to hide the terrible truths of death. Oh, gods, why had he brought me here?
The room was small and businesslike, with a marble table at its center, clearly the resting place for the honored dead, though it, too, remained vacant. Waiting. At one side of the room was a rack with silk robes of various colors, and on the other, rows of glass shelves containing vials of oils and perfumes, boxes of candles, scrolls, small velvet-lined boxes of leather and wood that contained jewelry and gemstones. Across the room were several cushioned mourners' benches, flanking an open doorway. The room had no windows, but opened onto a small garden, a gentle reminder of life in a room devoted to the service of death. A very Dar'Nethi arrangement.
Gerick sat on the mourner's bench, his head resting in his hands.
I crossed the room and laid a hand on his hair. “Are you all right, dear one?”
“I couldn't sleep,” he said, without looking up. “I'll be all right.”
Ven'Dar appeared in the arched doorway from the garden. “Good morning, my lady,” he said, somberly. “My apologies for waking you so early, but a matter of some urgency has arisen with regard to the Prince's funeral rites. Your son and I believe that only you can resolve it.”
“But I know very little of your customs . . .” I began.
“The one who is concerned will explain the difficulty. It is very complicated, but I believe your knowledge will be sufficient. If you would step into the garden . . .”
Exasperated with the Dar'Nethi and their incessant ritual, I hurried through the door into the garden. In a corner that the early sun had not yet touched, someone in silk robes of dark blue was bending over a bed of miniature roses.
“Excuse me, sir,” I said. “I understand you've discovered a problem with the Prince's funeral arrangements. Please explain what is so urgent that it must be settled before the birds leave their nests. Funeral rites rarely require such haste.”
The man's back was toward me, and the sun was in my eyes, and even when he straightened up, I thought, for a long moment, that he wasn't going to say anything. The dawn breeze wafted a hundred scents about my head until I felt almost giddy. Was that what made the hairs on my arms prickle—or was it the breadth of his shoulders or the color of his hair bound with a clip that glinted silver in the sunbeams . . .
“The problem, my lady, is with the subject of these rites. He just doesn't seem to be dead.”
And so in the gentle dawn did my love turn and greet me in such fashion as to leave no mistake as to his condition of life or death. In his unshadowed blue eyes was reflected the soul of my Karon, and in his smile was all the joy of the universe.
EPILOGUE
I had given up too soon in my waiting, back in the prison block at the palace. Karon had so much farther to come back than Gerick, and it was so much more difficult, for he believed himself properly dead. Yet Gerick's plea had held him at the Verges, and he could not dismiss our son's belief that only one life need be forfeit—that of the incapable D'Natheil.
Gerick claims to have felt a “stirring” in his mind as he fell asleep. Perhaps. For whatever reason, he went back to sit with his father through the night and found Bareil bathing Karon in preparation for his funeral. Gerick has never told me what he did as Bareil went about his work. The Dulcé says Gerick sat in the shadows and went to sleep. But I've surmised that Gerick entered the dark, cold shell of his father's body and kept it living, allowing Karon time to use our lifeline and find his way back. Perhaps the bathing water was a bit cool, the Dulcé confessed sheepishly, but he never thought it cold enough to wake the dead.
Together Karon and Ven'Dar decided that the Dar'-Nethi would not be told that the man they knew as Prince D'Natheil had survived his last battle with the Lords. Though his body yet housed Karon's soul, in truth, the sad and angry D'Natheil was dead. His passions no longer influenced Karon, and Karon no longer held any of the Heir's power. Likewise, D'Natheil's corrupted son would remain dead, executed by his father's hand. Gerick had no interest in helping Ven'Dar explain how the Fourth Lord of Zhev'Na had been willing to give his life to defeat his corruptors and protect the poorest of worlds. The people of Gondai had been confused for too long. They needed to move forward and to heal.
And so later that day, as soon as the newly anointed Ven'Dar could shake off his aides and well-wishers to take us across D'Arnath's Bridge, we slipped quietly out of Gondai with only Aimee and Bareil to bid us farewell. The Prince deposited us in a place I selected—a quiet lane in Montevial—with a promise to visit us at Verdillion as soon as he could find the time.
We returned Roxanne to her home that same evening, using the opal brooch her mother had given me to gain unnoted access to the palace. As we suspected, Radele had silenced Evard with the same enchantment used on me. We could only speculate as to reasons. Karon maintained that Radele had merely thought to scare us back to Verdillon where he could control Gerick more easily. Ever more cynical than my husband, I believed that Radele wanted to provoke chaos in the mundane world to further justify his family's contention that we were unworthy of Dar'Nethi concern. When we pressed Gerick for his opinion, he surmised that Radele was beginning to enjoy the power the Lords had given him with the oculus, toying with the most powerful of mundane rulers as a child torments ants and beetles.
On that night Karon and Gerick together released the King of Leire from his months of silence, and we saw our old enemy embraced with love and relief by his clear-eyed wife and daughter. We did not linger to answer his befuddled questions or hear his thanks. Even for Karon, there were limits to compassion.
Roxanne sent us on our way with money, horses, promises, and every gift we would accept. She kissed an astonished Paulo on the forehead with an offer of her friendship if ever he required it, and then she clasped Gerick's hands, studying him as if to press his image into her memory. “You're going back, aren't you?”
Gerick nodded, flicking his eyes our way. “I'll see them to our friend's house in Valleor first.”
Roxanne nodded, as if she expected nothing else. “You'll miss my help.”
Gerick laughed a bit. “Indeed I will.”
Roxanne didn't laugh, but squeezed his hands until her knuckles went white. “You'll find many people willing to help you. But sometimes you need to ask. Don't forget that.” Then she released him and shoved him toward his horse. As Gerick mounted up, she strode back under the torchlit gate tower, and the portcullis clanged shut behind her.
 
Mere days after reestablishing the reign so tenaciously and skillfully perserved by his queen, King Evard promulgated two decrees that would have been unheard of a few years earlier. Sorcery, in and of itself, was no longer a crime, for sorcerers had worked closely with the king to end the strange disturbances of the previous year. The second decree, that women could own property and inherit the titles of their fathers, needed no explanation.
Of less interest to the people of Leire, but of some significance to Karon and me, was an envelope that followed us to Verdillon, where Karon and I planned to stay with Tennice awhile. In it were the deeds to Windham and the Gault titles that had been vacant for sixteen years. Though sorely tempted by the opportunity to care for Martin's home, we were inclined to refuse anything from Evard's hand. What decided the question was the simple note that accompanied the documents. It said only,
From a grateful father and mother.
In that spirit we accepted.
Gerick remained with us only long enough to make sure we understood how his life was changed, so we shouldn't worry about him too much when he and Paulo headed off to northern Valleor, where rumor had it that a tribe of barbarians had invaded the Four Realms. If the portal still existed, he told us, he would take the Singlars back to the Bounded and stay as long as they seemed to need him. He promised to send word as soon as he knew anything to tell.
Long anxious weeks passed until a weary rider showed up at the door with a crumpled paper, saying it had been left at a tavern in northern Valleor with the promise of a gold coin for the man who would deliver it to us. I paid the man and tore open the letter.
Dearest Mother and Father,
This is the first moment I've had to write. I found the Singlars in good health, thanks to the preparation Paulo gave them before we left the Bounded. The Vallorean villagers had not welcomed them, but had not harmed them, either, as there were so many, and some of them so fierce in appearance. We've left a tale for many an inn's common room, I think. But now I've taken them home, and they've set to work rebuilding their fastnesses and starting up their markets and trades again. Few of our fastnesses survived, including very little of my own residence, so things are very hard right now. We have to work long hours just to get everyone fed. But no firestorms assault them and no terrified Valloreans growl at them or chase them away, so no one complains about the price. We don't know as yet whether the wild folk we left here survived. We have reinstated our watch until we are sure there is no need for it.
The biggest news of this week is that one of the Singlar girls is with child—a first. Paulo may have to find a midwife on his next journey to Valleor, I suppose, and persuade her to come back with him. This is a great mystery to the Singlars, and I'm not exactly experienced with it either. They think I know everything!
The Source has maintained throughout all. I understand now that she knows no more than I, but she helps me think clearly, and question myself, so that I believe I come up with decent judgments and reasonable rules.
Paulo will be going back and forth a good deal, I think. He says he needs a touch of sun and a taste of jack fairly often or he'll get testy. Though we use the portal to Valleor frequently, the portal to Avonar has completely vanished; I suppose because I am no long the son of D'Arnath's Heir. Paulo thinks it's too bad, but I can't say I'm sorry. I've no wish to set foot in Gondai ever again.
When we get a little more settled, I hope you will come visit here. I know you each could give me lots of good advice. I'm not fool enough to think I know all I need to be a good ruler, but I can't quit and apprentice for ten years to learn it. They have no one else. Luckily, they have no expectations, so we suit very well. This is where I belong.
Know that you are both in my thoughts every day. It makes no difference what worlds we walk, I feel your presence and your faith in me, and it gives me strength to do whatever needs to be done. It will take me a while to come to terms with what I am and what I have been. To know how close I was to going back leaves me wary.
But no oculus hangs in the cave of the Source any longer. A wall of solid rock stands where it was. And from a crevice in the rock has sprouted a tree, little more than a stick as yet, too small to reveal its variety. I like to think it is a sign of the life you've given me. I promise I'll do my best to nurture it.
Your loving son,
Gerick

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