The Season (17 page)

"Indeed," said
Ella
, speculating aloud, "this
is
an odd turn of events. And
I
thought he was courting Penelope." The words were out of her mouth before she could stop them.

"You did?" Alex looked up in surprise.

"
Ella
!" Vivi admonished. "That is most certainly
not
what Alex needs to hear at this particular moment."

«Well,
it is clearly an incorrect conclusion," said
Ella
, defensively. "I mean, if he were, he wouldn't have kissed Alex!"

"Why did you think he was courting Penelope?" Alex cut straight to the point.

"No reason, real
l
y, except that at most gatherings we've
all
attended, Penelope has been ... in rather close proximity to him." Seeing the disappointment on Alex's face, she added
quickly, "But it's probably me imagining things. I do that, remember?"

Vivi jumped in quickly to agree, "Yes. You do. It is far more likely that Penelope has been close to him because she's like a creeping ivy
—
lovely, but damaging. Blackmoor kissed
you,
Alex, which clearly means that
you're
the person in whom he is interested. He wouldn't have done it if he were angling for Penelope Grayson. I'm certain he's of better stock than that."

"With the exception of his recent behavior toward you,"
Ella
added.

"
Ella
!" Vivi's tone was amazed. "It would do you
well
to stop speaking until you have something helpful to say. There are times when your inability to distinguish between what is appropriate and inappropriate astounds me."

«Well,
that would make his ignoring the whole event more understandable," Alex said with more calm than she felt. "After
all
, he had a particularly difficult evening and was most certainly on edge. He's always felt comfortable with me, so perhaps the kiss just ... happened."

"Alex"
—
- Vivi was matter-of-fact
—
"kisses don't just
happen"

"We don't know that. We've never been kissed."

"I think that's exactly her point, Alex,"
Ella
offered. Alex shook her head. "But how could we even speculate on this? We've only been out for two months!"

"We can speculate on this because we know that if we were caught kissing, we'd be forced into marriage,"
Ella
replied, "and, since most people we know have not been forced into marriage, we can assume they don't go around kissing everyone in the vicinity." She offered Vivi a smug look. "You see? I can be helpful."

"Oh, please," Alex pressed on. "I've been kissed once and almost kissed once in the span of three weeks, and I haven't been caught. It can't be
that
out of the ordinary. Maybe he's kissing Penelope, too."

"Ugh."
Ella
could not hide her disgust at this idea. "I do not want that picture in my head."

"You're the one who sent her down this path!" Vivi stood, Eliza having finished arranging her hair in long, gorgeous dark curls. "You deserve to be disgusted. I have no sympathy for you." Turning to Alex as
Ella
slid onto the bench in front of the dressing table for her turn, Vivi said earnestly, "I don't know much about kissing or about courting, Alex, but I do know that Blackmoor has always adored you. Always."

"Then why is he ignoring me? Why hasn't he mentioned it? Why hasn't he tried to kiss me again?" She gasped, covering her mouth. "What if I was
terrible
at it?"

"You weren't," Vivi said.

"Certainly not,"
Ella
agreed.

"Oh, how do you know?" Alex said, now enveloped in self-doubt. "Maybe I did it
all
wrong!"

"This might be a good time to discuss the kiss in question,"
Ella
offered. "What was it like?"

"I thought it was wonderful! I wanted to do it again, immediately! But what if it was awful and I just didn't know it?!"

"That simply cannot be the case!" Vivi shook her head in earnest.

"Indeed," Eliza broke her silence, "if it made you want to do it again, and soon, 'twas a good kiss."

"For me ... but what about for him?"

"He had to have enjoyed it, Alex,"
Ella
said.

Alex's frantic frustration bubbled over. "Then why isn't he interested in me? Why doesn't he want to do it again? Maybe he
does
want Penelope!" Her voice became
small
. "Why doesn't he want me?"

"Alex,"
Ella
asked curiously, "are you saying ... Do
you
want
him!"

Alex thought
carefully
about
Ella
's question. Did she want Gavin?
«Well
... the kiss was quite lovely."

"Of course, it was," Vivi said, "but ... what about the man himself? Could you love him?"

Love?
Gavin? She looked at the other three girls, each staring back at her as though she were about to reveal some history-altering secret. It was too much to think about, real
l
y. "I ... I don't know. I've always thought of him as a brother. But recently ... everything has changed. He kissed me and I
wanted
him to and it ... everything feels different. But I don't know what to think. Maybe nothing is different to him. Maybe it didn't mean anything to him."

Vivi walked over to Alex, then took her shoulders in hand and spoke with firm conviction, "I may not know much about this kissing business, Alex, but I do know that Gavin would never do anything to hurt you. Including kissing you if he didn't mean it at least a little."

Alex offered Vivi a half smile. "You're right, but what if that's the problem? What if he means it only a little?"

Vivi went quiet for a long time before her face brightened in a conspiratorial smile.
«Well,
then, we
’ll
just have to make sure he ends up meaning it a great deal."

I don't think I've ever seen so many people in one room! My God! The entire
ton
must be here!" Vivi exclaimed, unable to tear her gaze from the sea of people below.

Vivi,
Ella
, and Alex stood on the upper level of Worthington House, looking down on the
ball
room. They were shielded in an alcove on the second floor as they considered the mass of people who were here for the Worthington
ball
. Each year, the duke and duchess hosted the grandest and most legendary
ball
of the season. No one who received an invitation missed the opportunity to attend.

Alex commented acerbicall
y, "I think my mother may very
well
have invited the entire
ton."

She was watching the lady in question as she greeted the never-ending stream of guests pouring into the enormous
ball
room. The room sat empty much of the year until mid-April, when its curtains were opened and the dustcloths were removed from its furniture for a thorough inspection in preparation for this night. Then, for weeks, servants shined the dozens of crystal chandeliers, polished the expansive oak and mahogany floor with beeswax, and washed the floor-to-ceiling windows to ensure that everything would be perfect for this evening.

And perfect it was. Thousands of candles were lit in the enormous candelabras hanging from the ceiling and standing around the room, giving the entire space a magical, golden glow. The orchestra was placed at the top of the room, farthest away from the entrance, obscured by shrubbery that had been brought into the room
specifically
to create the
ill
usion of invisibility. Off the main chamber, directly underneath the girls, were multiple antechambers, each outfitted for a different purpose: a refreshment room complete with a spread of lemonade, wine, biscuits, and coffee; a supper room that would be opened midway through the
ball
; a card room for elderly guests to rest and play whist while keeping out a watchful eye for any juicy gossip; a men's smoking room; and a ladies' salon, offering a space to which ladies could escape in the case of damage to their elaborate gowns. Her mother had thought of everything, and that attention to detail was what set this event apart from the others of the season.

"It is quite a stunning sight,"
Ella
pointed out. "How many people do you think are here?"

Alex replied distractedly, "Between five and six hundred, I think." She took a deep breath, as if preparing for battle, and turned to her friends. "Although there are three less than there should be, I venture to say. While I'd much rather stay up here and watch the whole event from afar, I have a feeling that someone
will
come looking for us if we don't make an appearance soon."

"Agreed." Vivi looked at her friends and added, "And what a stunning appearance we
shall
make!"

She was right, of course. With the help of the remarkable Eliza, the three had dressed and applied their cosmetics to perfection. They were attired in gowns that had been made by Madame Fernaud for this particular event. Alex imagined they made a stunning trio. Vivi wore a gorgeous gold damask silk with a high Empire waist and fitted sleeves that accentuated her dark features and her already long, reedlike form. The color was certain to be the envy of every woman present, because it was such a difficult color to wear and yet it seemed as if it were created
specifically
for Vivian.

Ella
, in contrast, was wearing a pale pink georgette with a wide, plunging neckline that both highlighted her lovely hourglass figure and underscored Madame Fernaud's distinct nod to her own French heritage. The pink fabric, the color of the palest of seashel
l
s, moved like gossamer and perfectly complemented
Ella
's fair coloring
—
which was already the envy of every female member of the peerage.

Alex's gown rounded out the trio, an ice-blue satin shot through with silver thread that shimmered in the light as though it were made of droplets of water just on the verge of freezing. It was a dress to be marveled at
—
her mother had ensured as much, claiming that the Worthington
ball
was precisely where she expected Alex to ensnare her future husband. At the time, Alex had been too deeply engrossed in her third reading of
Pride and
Prejudice
to care at
all
about the dress, but now, as she was thinking about impressing Blackmoor, she wanted to kiss her mother for making such remarkable decisions regarding the construction of the beautiful garment.

As they descended the center stairway of Worthington House, noticing clusters of guests turning to watch their entrance, Vivi turned to her friends with a
brilliant
smile and spoke through her teeth, "I simply do not understand the appeal of the turban. Lady Barrington looks as if a feather
pillow
has attached itself to her head."

Unable to miss the headwear in question, Alex adopted the same method of conversation and replied, "Indeed. Although considering the enormous peacock feather protruding from the thing, it appears as though there may be some kind of exotic bird trapped under there."

"Should we attempt a rescue?"
Ella
asked casual
l
y, sending
all
three girls into bright laughter.

As they reached the ground floor, Alex leaned toward
Ella
and spoke just loudly enough for her friend to hear, "Do try not to let your overactive imagination whisk you into the gardens tonight."

Ella
flashed a bright smile and replied teasingly, "Certainly not! Although I was thinking that the strange conversation I overheard the other night might
well
have had something to
do with the excitement with Blackmoor." She paused, then continued with a laugh,
«Well
... the
earlier
excitement with Blackmoor, at least."

Alex laughed again. "No such thing as a coincidence in your mind, is there?"

"Never. Coincidence eliminates the entertainment of speculation!"

"Indeed."

And, with that, they were caught up in the swirl of the evening. They entered the
ball
room just minutes before the first dance, a minuet, began and they were enveloped by a crowd of young aristocrats
all
angling for a place on their dance cards. Alex found herself in the dance with Lord St. Marks, a sweet but
small
marquess whom she'd always quite liked. She was finding the dance quite enjoyable, until she noticed Blackmoor over the top of her partner's head. He was having a wonderful time, smiling and laughing with the lady in his arms
—
who happened to be Penelope Grayson. Alex was overcome by a flash of jealousy.
How could he be dancing with her after he kissed me?

"She's got the nature of an asp," Alex muttered to herself.

"I beg your pardon, my lady?"

She looked down at St. Marks with a smile and said, "Uh ... I am reading Shakespeare's
Antony and Cleopatra,
my lord, and I cannot seem to shake the horrid vision of the queen's death. Death by asp. Quite dreadful, you know."

From the look of obvious confusion on St. Marks's face, she was certain he'd never had such an odd conversation during a
ball
before and, had she been in any other frame of mind, she would have found a great deal of humor in his drawn-out "Rather," clearly the only response he could conjure.

They had turned in such a manner that Alex was no longer able to see Penelope and Blackmoor without craning her neck indelicately, so, instead, she simply counted steps until the dance was over. Two hundred and forty-three steps, to be exact. St. Marks promenaded her the customary halfway around the perimeter of the room and bowed his
farewell —
a
farewell
she rather thought he was looking forward to
—
and Alex went searching for someone to entertain her and distract her from her own preoccupations.

In less than a half a minute, she came face-to-face with Blackmoor himself,
all
crisp cravat and broad shoulders and bright smile, and Alex's mood grew darker.
How could he be enjoying himself to such an impressive degree?

"Lady Alexandra," he said, offering her a devastating smile and a short bow.

"Lord Blackmoor," she said, unable to keep a tinge of churlishness from her tone, "I thought you were with Penelope."

"I was," he answered amiably, "but she met up with some friends and I decided to make my rounds. Are your brothers here?" He looked out at the crowd, searching for the Stafford boys.

Irrational
l
y, she wanted to stomp on his foot
. Instead, she said sarcasticall
y, "I'm certain they are, considering this is their ancestral home."

"Ah,
well
, I expect they
’ll
turn up." He lifted her gloved hand and took the ribboned pencil there in hand. Looking down at her dance card, a lock of blond hair
fell
across his forehead as he observed, "I see you have the next waltz free. May I?"

Distracted by his hair, her overwhelming desire to push it back from his forehead, and his clear, questioning gaze, she forgot to remain aloof. "Yes, of course." She watched as he slashed
Blackmoor
across the card, noticing the strength of his script before shaking herself and silently admonishing her inner lunatic.

"Shal
l
we?" He offered her an arm and escorted her to the center of the crowded
ball
room just in time for the waltz to begin. When it did, she felt immediately and unexplainably disoriented, uncertain of whether the feeling sprang from the spinning steps of the dance or the fact that she was keenly aware of the heat of his palm even through the twin fabrics of their gloves. She couldn't stop herself from focusing on that heat, on the weight of his other hand on the
small
of her back, on the way his hair curled over the edge of his formal jacket, on the space where the angle of his jaw met the sleek line of his neck. She wondered if that skin was as soft as it looked. Shaking her head in a desperate attempt to ignore the feelings she was having, she closed her eyes and let him guide her in
swaying circles,
willing
herself to think of him not as the man who had kissed her a week ago, but as the man who had infuriated her more often than not of late. She inhaled deeply.
He smells simply wonderful.

She disgusted herself. Truly.
Stop being such a ninny, Alexandra!

"Are you feeling
all
right, Alex?" His question was quiet, as to only be heard by her, and when she opened her eyes, she saw the concern in his grey gaze.

She spoke quickly, stringing her words together without pause, "Yes, I'm fine, I'm sorry, I just, I suppose I'm a little overexcited with the
ball
and the anticipation of the evening."

"Oh?" The word was slow and accompanied by a raised eyebrow.

"Yes." She scrambled for an explanation. "
Ella
and Vivi were here
all
afternoon and I think we drank too much tea." She almost groaned aloud.
I drank
too much tea?
The answer sounded inane even to her.

"Too much tea." One side of his mouth twitched up.

She wanted an end to this conversation. "Indeed. I'm feeling rather peaked, actual
l
y. Perhaps we could just stay silent?"

"Certainly."
Was that humor in his voice?

"Excell
ent."

It seemed like a mil
l
ennium for Alex before the dance ended and she was able to step away from him,
all
owing him to walk her the expected distance.

Only he didn't stop halfway around the
ball
room. On the contrary, he escorted
her straight out of the room, toward the doors that had been left open onto the gardens that Worthington House shared with Blackmoor House.

She tugged on her hand, attempting to remove it from his arm. He wouldn't
allow
it. "Where are we going?"

"You were feeling peaked. I thought, perhaps, you might like some fresh air."

"I find that I'm feeling much better. I wouldn't like to catch a
chill
."

"Oh, I don't think there's a chance of that." She detected a hint of humor in his voice again.