The Screwed-Up Life of Charlie the Second

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Saturday, August 25

Okay, so maybe getting my scrawny ass pushed into the back of a Crystal Lake cop car wasn't the smartest thing I've done, but Dana's party last night—it sucked. She should thank me. The only thing anyone'll remember about the party is me getting busted.

My folks, on the other hand, won't let it go. They say I'm this big embarrassment to them. What else is new? After spending seventeen years listening to them say that I don't “apply myself,” I'm giving up. Not in the good-bye-cruel-world sort of way. I'm not in this huge rush to swipe a Ginsu knife from the kitchen and make Swiss cheese of my intestines. It's just that when you're in a damned-if-you-do, damned-if-you-don't situation, it's best if you don't. It's easier.

Only, my parents don't see it that way. According to them, I need to grow up and try to make something of myself, which means writing this stupid personal essay for my college applications. So I said I'd start my personal essay.

So naturally, Dana Flannigan's not the only person who thinks I'm a jerk. Everyone does. That's why Dana didn't even want me at her end-of-summer-we're-gonna-be-seniors party. It didn't matter to me. The only reason I even went to the thing was because Dana is dating Bink, my best friend since second grade (second grade round two, that is). Bink made me go.

I guess the fact that Bink's always making me do things is how the two of us ended up friends in the first place. He jokes that we wound up being friends 'cuz “all the really cool superheroes have sidekicks.” He says it 'cuz he knows it'll get a rise out of me. I tell people we ended up friends 'cuz we wanted each other's meat. It pisses him off, but it's true—sort of anyway.

During the first week of second grade, I made sure I always sat by him in the school cafeteria during lunch. Even back then, I thought he was cute—cute like I wanted him near me, not cute like I wanted him
in
me. Anyhow, this one day toward the end of the week, Bink opened his lunch bag, pulled out a plastic-wrapped corned beef sandwich on white bread, and stuck a finger in his mouth, pretending like he was going to puke.

“I hate corned beef,” he said, pouting. “What do you have?”

I opened my plastic lunch box and looked inside. “A ham sandwich.”

“I'm not supposed to eat those.”

“Why?” I asked, wondering if he was like this one girl in class the year before who ate something that touched a peanut at some point, and almost died.

“Because I'm Jewish,” Bink said. He looked like a little kid who'd just been told to hug a great-aunt who always wears costume jewelry sharp enough to puncture a lung, tells you how big you're getting, and then drags her chin whiskers across your face as she gives you one of those slobbering kisses that border on intergenerational incest.

“What's Jewish?” I asked.

“It's like being grounded for life for not believing in Jesus. You can't eat ham. You have to wear stupid hats. Every Friday night they force you to go to a place where everyone talks funny. Once a year, you have to wait at the table until some guy named Elijah shows up for dinner. He never does 'cause he's dead, but they don't tell you that at first. The worst part is you don't get Christmas. I don't want to be Jewish.”

“Me neither,” I said, wondering, at the time, if it was something you could catch from a girl or from sitting on a public toilet seat.

I felt bad that Bink didn't get to have Christmas, so I gave him my sandwich. He practically shoved the whole thing in his mouth, telling me between chews that I was his best friend in the whole wide world. Looking back on it now, it wasn't the smartest thing to do, but what did I know? I was, like, eight. And, I didn't know that Mrs. B would fly off the handle when she found out.

I like to imagine the second-grade version of Bink, walking home from school all pissed-like and letting Mrs. B have it. He marches into the house, metal screen door slamming behind him, throws his book bag on the floor, puts his fists on his hips, stares at Mrs. B, who's sitting on the couch watching some TV judge tell a hillbilly he's gotta pay for the cell phone he stole from his truck-stop girlfriend. Mrs. B looks at him and asks, “What's a matter, honey?”

Then Bink gets all high and mighty, and lays into her about how Moses, Methuselah, Maccabaeus, Meir, and Menachem had it wrong.

Bink says to his mom, “You lied to me. There's nothing wrong with ham. In fact, it tastes really good—especially on rye bread with Swiss cheese.”

I can see Mrs. B going into this state of total apoplexy—bulging eyes, trembling lips, jaw practically to the carpet—but none of that seems to bother Bink. He just wants to know what else she lied about—bacon, shrimp, cheeseburgers, shellfish, bacon cheeseburgers, and probably even his foreskin. Okay, so not his foreskin. I'm the only freak who'd bring it up.

I don't know how it really happened, but Mrs. B found out about Bink eating ham, and she actually did blow a gasket. She called the school and, I imagine, demanded that the principal tell her what Nazi sympathizer was feeding her son pork products, why the school was letting some kid single-handedly ruin the Jewish diorama (or whatever she called it), and if West Elementary would teach kids to remember the Holocaust by selling Anne Frank-furters at lunch.

The principal ended up calling my mom, and we had to go into his office for a meeting with Bink and Mrs. B. I got grilled on why I gave Bink the sandwich even after he told me he was Jewish and wasn't supposed to have it.

“'Cuz he doesn't get Christmas.”

As a defense, it didn't fly. It just led to some boring let's-find-exciting-new-ways-to-celebrate-our-differences discussion that made both Mom and Mrs. B happy, especially when the principal made the two of us promise to be friends and swear that we would only eat the lunches that were packed for us. The part about us being friends held. The second part didn't. Bink still takes my ham sandwiches whenever he gets the chance.

 

When Bink pulled into my driveway last night about two hours late, I wasn't in any hurry to leave. I had actually hoped he'd forgotten me.

Fat chance. Bink nailed the horn of his rusted-out, bumper-attached-with-baling-wire Volvo and I peeled my skinny butt off of the couch, slammed through the screen door, and slumped shotgun next to him.

“How was your summer?” Bink asked. He reeked of his dad's knockoff cologne—“
If you like Polo, you'll love Lacrosse.
” Most people don't expect Neil Binkmeyer to be much of a talker. Hell, at first glance Bink looks like a jockstrap with a pulse. He's one of those guys who's like a puppy that hasn't grown into its body yet.

We hadn't talked much lately. He'd been too busy with football practice, carpooling his kid sisters, and, of course, Dana. It's weird, 'cuz there was a time when we were really close. My mom and Mrs. B were always saying if you wanted to find one of us, look for the other one. Sure, we'd argue about whether the Star Trek
Enterprise
could take out the
Death Star.
(Ummm, no…Prime Directive, anyone?) But at least we were talking. But this last year, it's been different. Mom says it's my fault. She says I'm jealous that Bink's spending more time with Dana than he is with me. So, she's right. What if I am jealous? Bink gets to go off and spend all his time with his girlfriend and my dating life's about as active as a comatose eighty year old on a respirator. Might as well pull the plug.

“My summer was pretty lame,” I said. “I spent most of it beating off and playing
Grand Theft Auto
.” I pretended like I was lying, but I really wasn't. I adjusted my seat so my knees wouldn't knock out my Adam's apple. Bink slipped the car into reverse and backed out.

“Actually, things suck,” I continued. “There's this new rich kid on the soccer team. His dad got him on the team without a tryout. No one knows if he's any good. Then there's First. He spent the summer telling me how I was wasting my life, how I should get a job, try to make something of myself…you know, his whole, pull-yourself-up-by-your-bootstraps, no-son-of-mine-is-going-to-sit-around-all-summer-eating-Ho-Hos-drinking-grape-Nehi-and-watching-reruns-of-bad-sixties-TV-shows routine. What are bootstraps anyhow?”

“Your dad's an ass.” Bink rolled his eyes. We both grinned. His tongue was stained little-girl pink from the gum he always chews. I turned the radio down—the tuner was permanently stuck on WAIT, Crystal Lake's Home of Easy Listening—and watched Bink as he drove to Dana's house in Turnberry, the rich side of town.

He looked different—more college junior than high school senior. He'd bulked up a lot and he had a farmer's tan that almost hid the freckles on his arms and face. A few strands of glowing copper chest hair poked from the Velvet Underground T-shirt he wore under a loud-ass Hawaiian shirt. Christ, I should've known Dana's party was gonna be some kind of Don-Ho-Goes-Freaky-Tiki-Last-Days-of-Pompeii theme. I didn't care. I was with Bink. It was hard to think of him as the same guy I'd grown up with…kiddie birthday parties, fishing for minnows in the creek near his house, and catching lightning bugs until it was dark enough for games of kick-the-can. You aren't supposed to want to do it with someone who's practically your brother, right?

 

Part Two of the College Essay I Won't Be Writing 'Cuz It's Way Too Embarrassing:

“How was your summer?” I asked Bink.

“Crazy. Mom had me drag my sisters to swimming lessons, ballet classes, and to a bunch of other crap. My dad hounded me to retake the SATs for a better score. Football practice has been hell. The only cool thing was Dana went on the pill. Damn, Charlie, if she'd made me wait any longer, I swear I would've died.”

“So?” I said, reaching into my pocket and pretending like my jeans'd been riding up. I adjusted my dick.

“It's weird. Doing it, I mean.” Bink's voice cracked. He mopped a few beads of sweat from above his lip onto his forearm. “She says she likes it, but I don't know. I think I'm too fast. She hasn't said anything to me, but I think she told her friends. I'll walk past them and they'll huddle together and giggle, you know?”

He was being stupid so I laughed.

“Screw you, homo. What do you know about pussy?”

“Just that you're acting like one.”

At first, Bink wasn't totally cool with me being into guys. Even now, when we both go to the john to piss, he'll use a stall. If I space out for too long, he'll sometimes think I'm checking him out and he'll jab me in the arm and tell me to knock it off. Bink's parents were cool from the start, though. They were the ones who insisted I stay with them when First kicked me out last summer after he found my jack-off stash under my mattress. That's not exactly fair. I was the one who left. I couldn't take it. And it wasn't 'cuz First went into some kind of you're-dead-to-me, no-son-of-mine rages that ended where, warmed only by my own bitter tears, I stood on our front porch, shaking my fist at First and vowing that I would never go straight or hungry again. No, I left 'cuz First went silent—the cold, vacuum of space kind—and that's what freaked the hell out of me.