The Regret Series Complete Collection Box Set: Lost to You, Take This Regret, and if Forever Comes
Authors: A. L. Jackson
The Regret
Series
A.L. Jackson
Copyright © 2014 A.L. Jackson
All rights reserved. Except as permitted under the U.S. Copyright Act of 1976, no part of this publication may be reproduced, distributed, or transmitted in any form or by any means, or stored in a database or retrieval system, without prior permission of the publisher.
A.L. Jackson
First A. L. Jackson ebook edition, April 2014
The characters and events in this book are fictitious. Names, characters, places, and plots are a product of the author’s imagination. Any similarity to real persons, living or dead, is coincidental and not intended by the author.
ISBN: 978-1-938404-77-1
Lost to You
A.L. Jackson
Copyright © 2013 A.L. Jackson
All rights reserved. Except as permitted under the U.S. Copyright Act of 1976, no part of this publication may be reproduced, distributed, or transmitted in any form or by any means, or stored in a database or retrieval system, without prior permission of the publisher.
Sapphire Star Publishing
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First Sapphire Star Publishing trade paperback edition, February 2013
The characters and events in this book are fictitious. Names, characters, places, and plots are a product of the author’s imagination. Any similarity to real persons, living or dead, is coincidental and not intended by the author.
ISBN: 978-1-938404-61-0
Cover Image: Regina Wamba
Dedication
To my reader friends ~ for every message, every note, and every tag.
Each one means so much to me.
Praise
“AL Jackson is one of the most talented authors I've ever read. Her words have a way of reaching deep into your heart and not letting go … I can't recommend this highly enough!! With all my heart, I love this story.”
~Aestas, Aestas Book Blog
“I am head over heels in love with Christian Davison!”
~Stacy Bailey Darnell, Literary Mania Reviews
“This was such a heartwarming, well written and descriptive novella that I felt that I was actually a part of this story experiencing every feeling that Christian is feeling towards Elizabeth and vice versa. Ms. Jackson has easily become one of my favorite authors of all time!”
~Christine, Shh Mom’s Reading Book Blog
“If I could give this more than 5 stars I would … How does A.L. Jackson do it? I'm blown away by her writing. My chest felt like I was restricting the air from flowing the whole time! This was a bittersweet read for me and I hated to see it end.” ~Taryn, My Secret Romance
“I just smile when I think about this book. I loved it so and so will you.
Find out how it all began!! You won't be disappointed!”
~The Book Enthusiast
“I’m constantly in awe of AL’s writing. She has such a beautiful and eloquent way of making you feel every emotion and thought going through her characters heads… Honestly the whole thing is FANTASTIC. I loved it.” ~Angelique McKeon, Angie’s Dreamy Reads
Acknowledgements
Chad, I could never write a book without thanking you for all the patience and love you give me. They say an author’s life is lonely, but I know that can only be more so for their spouse. Thank you for the time you sacrifice so I can live my dream. I love you.
To Devyn, for attempting to distract me from every word of
Lost to You
I wrote. You make me laugh and thank God for this life.
Katie, thank you for all the words of encouragement and the permanent shoulder to cry on. I could never do any of this without you. I love you.
To my sprinting BBs, Molly McAdams, Kristen Proby, and Rebecca Shae, for challenging me to get this done. You have made writing this book so much fun.
And of course, I have to mention my little men, Eli and Braydon. I love you both so incredibly much.
Chapter One
Christian
She sat across from me, this beautiful girl who had to be both the cutest and sexiest thing I’d ever seen. A rich tenor rang in her words, this modest kind of confidence that sucked me in, while her cheeks seemed to continually light with a gentle flush when she said anything that embarrassed her in the slightest way. A sublime contradiction, self-assured and shy.
How ironic it was her. But really, I shouldn’t have been all that surprised. I always knew what I wanted the moment it saw it.
Shifting against the hard wood of the chair, I leaned forward and struggled to pay attention to the words she spoke as I stared, mesmerized by that perfect mouth. One elbow was propped on the table, her head tilted to the side as she supported it with her fingertips. Sun-streaked waves of dark blonde hair fell down around one side of her heart-shaped face as she thumbed through the thick textbook resting on the table between us. Concentration edged her brow, her pouty lips pulling into a thin line whenever she became engrossed in something she read.
I’d shared two short emails with her last night, and we arranged to meet at this little café during the time we both had a break in our classes. Of course, at that time, I had no idea who my American Government study partner would turn out to be. The little description she had given I’d scribbled on the note that was now crumpled in my front pocket. Elizabeth Ayers, long, blonde hair. At the bottom, I’d jotted her cell phone number.
Yeah, I’d be holding on to that.
A groan of apparent dread slipped through her lips and the sound almost caused me to release one of my own. “Have you looked through this syllabus?” She glanced up, then back at the small stapled pack of papers laid out between us. “There’s going to be a ton of memorization. I’m pretty sure this is going to be a pretty difficult class,” she said seriously, completely focused on the information she was devouring as her eyes roved over the page. “You have no idea how happy I was to find that sign-up sheet for a study partner. I don’t know about you, but I can’t afford to get a bad grade in this class.”
She scribbled something in her notebook, licked her lips, rambled mostly to herself.
And I just stared.
Fifteen minutes ago, before I’d walked through the door of the café and seen her, I’d been all wrapped up in this grade, too. I’d been just as worried about who my partner would be, figuring it’d be my luck to get paired with some loser who would take advantage of my time and my hard work. I’d have dealt with it, too, sucked it up and worked my ass off because I had no other choice. There was no way in hell I’d give my dad another reason to ride me because I had a grade slipping below his approval.
But no, I’d walked through the door and it was her, and since then, I’d had a really hard time focusing on anything but
the fluid lilt of her voice and the amber warmth of her soft brown eyes.
Shock had frozen me in the doorway when I entered and was met with the face of the same girl I hadn’t been able to shake from my mind since the first day of our American Government class last week. When the class was dismissed, I gathered my things and stood to leave. Looking up to make my way down the aisle of steps, I glimpsed just the side of her face when she cast a furtive glance behind her as she headed out the door. My breath had caught. Since then that face had slipped in and out of my mind, creeping into my thoughts, making recurrent appearances in my dreams.
My reaction to her had been just as strong when I walked through the door today.
Girls didn’t do this me. And she’d managed it twice. Sitting across from her now, I knew I had to have her. Even if it was only once.
Pausing, she looked up at me, her eyes narrowed in what appeared both humor and mild agitation. “Christian, did you hear anything I said?” she asked, her gaze wandering my face for an answer. “Please tell me you’re not going to make me do all this work myself.”
I attempted to shake off the visceral reaction that had my body itching to take what I instinctively knew would be mine. “Of course I heard you. Class is going to be a ton of work. I’m good with that.” I grinned at her. “And no, I’m not going to make you do all the work.” I nudged her foot under the table with mine, flashing the same smile I’d learned years ago was the surest way to get what I wanted. And what I wanted right then was her. “What kind of guy do you think I am?”
Heat rose to her cheeks. I could almost feel her warmth radiating across my face in confused waves, this sweet shyness
that seemed to be lacking from every other girl I’d run across since I came to this city. Lacking in every girl I’d come into contact with in the last four years, really. I could feel the attraction that mingled with it, though it was flanked by a strong current of self-preservation.
“I haven’t figured that out yet,” she said as she straightened and pitched her head to the side as she slowly tapped the backside of her pen on her notepad, studying me for intent.
Her steady gaze locked on me, as if she contemplated who or what I was, while mine was unruly, my eyes wandering on their own accord. They traveled the curved line of her jaw, down her neck, to the expanse of perfect skin exposed above the V of her T-shirt. Could anyone blame me that I wanted to bury my face there? I wondered how long it’d be before she let me.
When I brought my attention back up, her expression had shifted and she sat back, a knowing smirk settling on her face, though it seemed to be hiding something deeper in the warmth of her honey eyes. It looked like disappointment.
An unfamiliar feeling curled in my stomach.
Guilt.
I looked away, down at my hands clenched together on the table in front of me.
Everything about her swam with innocence, but her eyes were too sharp to speak of naivety. She knew exactly what I was thinking as my gaze caressed the soft slope of her neck. Most girls would be crawling all over me by now, but Elizabeth looked like maybe she’d just decided she didn’t want anything to do with me.
Swallowing, I tried to reel myself in.
I was fucking this all up, and I had no idea why I cared. But I did. I mean, I didn’t want a relationship or anything, but I
wanted…something. The expression on Elizabeth’s face told me she’d already decided what that was.
Yeah. Definitely fucking this up.
She went back to flipping through the pages, meticulous as she mapped out our study plan for the semester. She asked me several questions about my strengths, my schedule, when and where I preferred to have our study sessions. Even though she was so obviously worried about her grade, there was no doubt in my mind she was going to ace this class.
“Where are you from, Elizabeth?” The words were abrupt, and I shifted in my seat, leaning farther across the small table with my elbows digging into the wood, edging her direction. Honey kissed every inch of her—her hair, her eyes, her skin—and I knew she couldn’t be from around here.
“Uh…San Diego,” she said almost absently, absorbed in the words she wrote, before she surprised me by stopping and looking up at me with a wistful smile. “I lived there my whole life. This is the first time I’ve been out of California. I still can’t believe I’m in New York City. It’s crazy.” With a small, contented shake of her head, she bit at her lip and picked up where she’d left off, the fluid sweep of her hand across the paper as she planned.
