MILE 10
“L
ey, hey, hey! You can't just sit there.” Zane swatted Gene off the chair he was about to lounge into. “I prepared a seating chart.”
Gene rolled his eyes and stepped away to the bar where the bartender poured bottomless pitchers of margaritas and daiquiris for the Fast Tracker crowd. Zane may have kept dry, but he was not begrudging anyone else a good time. Liam downed three icy drinks and had begun to flirt with the Brazilian guy tending the bar. He would have preferred a longer happy hour to the dread of a tedious dinner where he didn't even get to choose his own seat. Assigned seating seemed overdone for a Mexican restaurant.
“Don't worry,” Zane whispered. “I have you seated right next to me at the center of the table. Gene will be quarantined to the far endâthat chair right next to the entrance.”
Liam looked at the area in which they would be eating and thought Zane grandiose for referring to it as one long table, as though the group were a big family who had put all the leaves in the dining room set so that service for sixteen could take place around the Danish modern furniture. The restaurant staff had, in fact, pushed together a series of ill-fitting two-person tables to accommodate the oversized party.
“I don't know why Gene has to ruin every event by attending. Just once it would be nice to have an evening free of his ickiness.”
“It's
your
birthday party, Zane. Why did you include him on the guest list?”
“Don't be stupid, Liam. Not inviting him wasn't a choice. Be real, please. Oh! Oh! Oh! Let's try to guess what cheap, inappropriate stunt he's going to pull tonight. That's always fun.”
Liam understood the need for groups of friends to have an enemy within. Human nature and the evils of collusion forced cliques to align against an outsider, someone about whom gossip and bad will could be generated. And it helped to fuel the fire when the outsider was actually an insider. It would be pointless if the pariah were someone whom no one knew, some person foreign to the scene. How could anyone become appropriately invested in a stranger? What would be the fun? By inviting the maligned one in and making sure he is at every event, the clique assures itself a constant arsenal of vinegary anecdote. While Liam knew that a more mature person might not cave to the group pressures, he had to quench his own very real thirst to fit in. And he seemed to be doing just that quite beautifully with the Fast Trackers these days. Every once in a while Liam was, however, saddled by a nagging thoughtâwhat if the winds shifted and he himself blew into the crosshairs of the group's scrutiny and displeasure? He was all too aware of the vagaries of gay men's tastes and predilections. There were no guarantees in these types of petty games.
“Fine.” Zane pushed Liam away coyly. “Don't play the game. See if I care. You go refill your drink. I'm going to do a rotation before telling people to take their seats.”
As he ordered another frozen margarita with salt, Liam noticed Riser sulking on a bar stool, massaging his face between his hands and moaning quietly. While Liam had not yet developed a one-on-one rapport with Riser or Matthew or Ferdinand (the three seemed to travel as a trio), he felt moved to make the effort now that one of his teammates appeared glum.
“Everything good?” Riser lifted his head at the question. Upon closer inspection, Riser appeared more angry or sullen than sad.
“Good? Sure.” He shook his head in disgust as he spoke. Liam had no sense of where this conversation might go. “I'm so completely nauseated with myself. I already ate about half a bowl of guacamole, and we haven't even sat down to dinner yet. I'm going to look like a bloated buffoon dancing tonight.”
“Dancing?” Liam realized that he hadn't responded to the part of the statement that Riser was angling for.
“Yup, anytime we go out in Williamsburg on a weekend night, you can count on a trek over to Sugarland for dancing.”
“But Zane didn't put anything about dancing in the invitation. It only mentioned dinner.”
“You're cute. Here's what will happen. After dinnerâit will be around ten thirty or eleven o'clockâZane will cry that he doesn't want to go home yet. He'll shout that he needs to be around his friends come midnightâor something like that. Then someone will have to suggest the trip to Sugarland, as though it has never been suggested before, as though it isn't suggested every time we go out to eat in Williamsburg. It's like a fucking script.”
Liam nodded as Riser dug deeper into the diatribe. For some reason, Liam placed his hand against Riser's cheek and caressed it gently, in a way that was meant to be comforting. Riser pulled away quickly.
“I'm not a charity case. I'm just fat,” he retorted.
“You look fantastic. You're incredibly lean.” Liam was not mollifying Riser. In fact, Riser probably had less body fat than Liam.
Riser pulled the tight sweater he wore up a few inches to reveal his concave stomach.
“See, these rolls just drip off my sides.”
“That's just because you're sitting. That happens to everyone.”
“Sure, you'll see later at the club just how much fat everyone has dripping off their six-packs. I appreciate the sentiment, but you don't know what you're talking about. You'll see for yourself soon enough.”
“I think that the boys will be buzzing around you like bees to the hive, my friend.” Liam smiled as broadly as possible and made sure that he looked Riser right in the eye as he spoke. Riser attempted a grin of recognition back and then excused himself, trotting over to the restroom.
While Liam understood that runners had an often single-minded focus on enhanced performance and the never-ending quest for “perfection,” he sometimes wanted to shake some sense and perspective into his new group of friends and let them know that they might not want to miss the forest for the trees. After all, sometimes, it can be really fun to just enjoy the guacamole and still have dinner and even take your shirt off on the dark dance floor. Sometimes just going on a run and not clocking the time can be a boatload of fun. Liam sensed a deep sadness in Riser and hoped that he would come back from the bathroom and enjoy his good friends and a good meal.
Just then Zane pulled everyone from the bar to the dining table. He sat each person individually according to the cards he had propped up on the place settings. As he had intimated, Zane placed Liam directly to his left, with the rest of the guests situated in proximity to Zane based on his taste, or distaste, for them. Gary dined to the right of Zane, and Ben was directly across from the birthday boy, flanked by Mitch and Riser. Some non-club members were strewn about, including a heavily tattooed black man who trained Zane at his gym on Astor Place, as well as the Laotian woman who ministered to his massage needs twice per month. Gene huddled for warmth by the restaurant door that kept brushing in gusts of winter.
Liam found himself eating around the heavy lip of melted cheese that oozed from his burrito. He touched the area of his abdomen between his waist and his navel and it felt soft and untoned; he needed a good tempo run to jump-start his metabolism. Never one to shy away from the spotlight when shirts started to fly off, Liam knew that if they did go dancing, he would want to have as empty and taut a stomach as possible.
“Looks like we have another light eater on our hands,” Gary said through a series of boyish giggles. He quickly lifted his icy margarita glass. “I'm with you, Liam. Save the calories for the liquids!”
“You'd lose more weight if you cut out the alcohol.” Marvin had craned his head and projected his voice loudly enough so that everyone could hear the wisdom he meted out from his perch next to Gene. “Not only is that concoction riddled with calories, but it also slows your metabolism.”
“Well, Liam and I don't need to lose weight.” Gary winked at Liam, and they clinked glasses in an alliance against Marvin's attempts to kill their buzz.
“The clocks don't lie,” Marvin said, waving his hand directly at Gary and Liam. “Look at those guys who came in ahead of Liam in the five-mile points race. I can tell you for certain that they were almost all thinner than he is. I'm not talking twenty pounds, but if Liam dropped four or five pounds, he'd be a much greater asset to the team.”
“No one named you coach, Marvin,” Zane spoke emphatically, looking at Liam instead of the subject of his censure. “When that happens, you can put us all on diets. But for now let's enjoy my birthday.”
“Liam, next time you go for a jog, carry a five-pound weight with you and let me know if it slows you down.” With a snicker, Marvin returned to his chair and shared what appeared to be a final rejoinder with Gene, who then patted him on the back.
While Liam appreciated the intensity of elite runnersâthat discipline that hollowed their cheekbones and drew every millimeter of fat from their sunken belliesâhe also loved the fact that he got attention for his biceps and chest. He never considered the gym a mecca and only lifted three or four times a week, for tone more than bulk, and did not want to give that up to run faster. Had it been any other Fast Tracker at the table, with the exception of Zane, and Liam would have swung back with a reminder that his five-mile time had been faster.
When Gary pulled out his laptop at the diner after the last race, Liam's jaw dropped to learn that he had managed to finish the run with a 5:30 mile. He clocked 29:30, breaking 6-minute pace for entry into what Zane referred to as the “high-five club.” Only a few members of the team had ever managed to race at sub-6-minute pace and the only others to have achieved that feat at the last 5-miler were Marvin and Zane. Both had beaten Liam handily. Marvin had clocked 28:25, which was astounding for a forty-one-year-old, and Zane placed first for the team with a 27:55. It was a tight race for the fourth and fifth Fast Tracker spots, with Gene coming through fourth in 30:18 and Riser crossing the line in 30:21. Ferdinand, Mitch, Ben, and Matthew followed in 30:29, 31:09, 31:20, and 32:06, respectively. Every runner had come close to his personal best, but Zane still failed to edge out the tenth-place runner from the Urban Bobcats, and so the Fast Trackers team had not only failed to best the Bobcats, it had failed to even make them sweat. A pep talk ensued at the next track workout, with Fabio insisting that the team had only scratched the surface of its potential. By May, those who stuck to the program would be lopping off minutes from their five-mile time. Nothing but the boundaries of their imagination and their spirit could contain them.
“Don't pay any attention to him,” Zane whispered into Liam's ear as he began to open his presents. “You have more natural speed than Marvinâno matter what the scale says.”
“I want to beat him.” The words surprised Liam as he heard them trail from his mouth. The internecine competition with Fast Trackers had turned him off at workouts. But he smarted over Marvin's smug tone.
“Are you willing to do anything it takes to beat him?” Zane asked, barely suppressing a Cheshire grin.
Liam nodded, curious to hear what was coming next. The question had been asked with a gravity of tone, making Liam imagine the handing over of a firstborn son or the sacrifice of his most favored possessions.
“Good.” Zane paused for effect. “You will be my protégé. I can slice your race times down. I believe that if you believe in yourself, you can take him.”
“Okay.”
“So you promise to do whatever I say?”
“Yes. Okay.”
“It's a deal. I'll call you tomorrow. I have to finish opening the gifts. Otherwise, the crowd gets bored!”
After unveiling seven different combinations of running shorts and tank tops and three different gift certificates to athletic stores throughout the city, Zane cleared all the presents off the table and tearfully thanked those who had taken the time to shop for him.
“It's all over.” Zane sighed. “Nothing left to open, but I can't bear to see the night end. You all can't let me go home yet!”
It was as though a script
had
been prepared, and now the audience waited for someone who had forgotten a line. Finally, Mitch piped up that given that it was still only eleven o'clock on a weekend night, they should all go dancing at Sugarland. The suggestion came out so innocently that Liam almost doubted that Mitch had witnessed this scene play out a dozen times prior.
A small line greeted the pack of Fast Trackers as they approached the outside of the club on Ninth Street. The man monitoring the door glanced in a wide, swooping
S
over the group and waved everyone inside without saying a word. An orange-haired man in a striped polo shirt and his mousy female companion shot an accusatory look at each and every Fast Tracker who waltzed by them and through the club's velvet rope.
Liam had never been inside Sugarland. As the gay scene crept across the river into Brooklyn's Williamsburg in recent years, Liam still preferred to frequent the East Village hot spots along the corridor of Avenue A between Houston Street and Fourteenth Street that housed Detox and The Phoenix and Eastern Bloc. But this gritty wonderland where the club owners blasted patrons with classics from Madonna along with the best remixes of songs by Lady Gaga and eighties gems like the soundtrack to
The Breakfast Club
had flown under his radar. The interior of Sugarland matched the desolation and grime of the street outside, with the main bar recalling the seediness of Times Square's heyday. A few hundred meters from the club's entrance, music blared and two or three groups of two or three people danced halfheartedly.