The Midwife's Moon (6 page)

Giving into his beast completely, he ran.

***

Alex stood at the large, bay windows looking at the silhouette of the mountain in the distance. The blue light encompassed the snowfall on the hills. Blue, black, and surreal. A lot like her life had become. She’d gone from misfit to Lupa in a short period of time, but there had been a cost.

“We’ll find her,” Nolan promised.

“My mother may not be a victim. I hate the betrayal I feel in thinking that, but I can’t help it. She developed a serum to use against us and never warned me. And why? Because Roxy manipulated or forced her to? How many people were done a disservice or worse because my mother didn’t stand up to Roxy sooner? The Lupin pack has a sickness so deep, I don’t know how you’re going to incorporate us into the Wahpawhats.”

“One at a time. And by showing the rest of them that the perpetrators will be punished.”

Alex took comfort in Nolan’s words and allowed herself to lean into his embrace. “My cop,” she said. How lucky could she be having a detective who believed in justice for a mate. Speaking of mates. “Why didn’t you tell me about Lance?”

“Truly, with everything else that’s gone on, I didn’t think about it. I’d only been Ulfric for a short time when he brought me the
aswan.
Not even my father knows the circumstances of how I found her.” He told her briefly how Lance had been when he arrived.

“That’s amazing, and it gives me hope that there are more like him in my pack.”

“It’s our pack now,” he reminded her. “We are one. There is good and bad in all packs.”

“But Roxy cultivated the bad in our pack,” Alex reminded him.

“Yes, she did,” he replied. “Going so far as to plant seeds of hatred and dishonor in my pack while murdering the most innocent of us. We will start cutting that off, beginning with the trial of Joseph. He’ll get his punishment, and others will see it’s not tolerated within my pack. While we’re bringing forth witnesses, we’ll need to pay attention to all pack members that seem to support him or who aren’t surprised by some of the information.”

Despite her happiness in finding a mate and cutting out her own place in the pack with her decisive fight, the hole in her heart from her missing mom threatened to grow and consume her with the coldness.

“I’m here to help, my love,”
Nolan whispered into her mind.
“You’re not alone anymore.”

“I’m holding on to that—with both hands. I can’t wait until we’ve found Roxy, and put this behind us, whatever the outcome. I’ll have answers.”

“I love you no matter what we find or what your mother has done.”

“You’re a sweet talker.”
She turned in her mate’s arms and pressed closer, wanting the physical comfort of his body.
“I love you too. Care to prove it?”
She took a fistful of hair, brought his mouth down on hers, and kissed him.

His hands reached down to her ass and lifted her up.
“Put your legs around my waist,”
he ordered.

Her answer was to wrap herself around him and hold on with arms and legs while he carried her down the hall to their room. She kissed her way down to his neck and sucked on the pulse there. He tossed her down on the bed playfully when she changed her suckling to a bite.

“Hey! You looking for trouble?”

Alex leaned up on her elbows. “Hell no. I found trouble. I’m looking to play with my trouble.”

“Always happy to help my mate.”

Mate.
Such a glorious, scary word all wrapped up into need. She wouldn’t have it any other way. She reached her arms out ready for him to take her out of her mind with pleasure. “Then prove it,” she dared.

Nolan moved fast and held her hands over her head before she could blink. “I plan on it. Over and over.”

He stroked down her cheek and lazily began unbuttoning her blouse one-handed. His lower body kept hers pinned, and she squirmed in anticipation. His deft fingers moved her shirt apart and undid the front clasp of her bra in less than a minute. Her nipples hardened into peaks, and she wanted to beg him to take her, to suck on her breasts until she screamed in ecstasy.

“I intend to,” he answered her thought aloud.

“You’re taking too long,” she said, arching her back to thrust her boobs upwards. “What are you waiting for?” she taunted.

Chapter Five

Yakima, Washington

Lisa struggled to keep her mind on the plain, white dishes, but there was only so many ways to think of a dish with no design. Everything else had been cleaned so spotless, even the rug seemed to shine. Poor Marty and Elizabeth had taken to hovering in their room, the only place which hadn’t seen the backside of her ruthless scrubber and feather duster.

Tonight is Joseph’s pack trial.

Still struggling with her own morality regarding the difference between pack law and human law, this one added another element. Personal vengeance. What he’d done to her didn’t deserve death, did it? Then she would remember the women not in her care anymore, or the sad faces of the families, and no longer be sure of what she believed.

The complicated rules of living in a pack were there to protect them from slaughter and bigotry by those not affected. They couldn’t go to regular doctors, and most of their kind died if caged for long periods of time. Jail was a death sentenced prolonged—even more torturous and inhumane than a quick kill by the pack leader in a fight. Back and forth her mind went.

She grabbed a plate out of the sink to rinse it under the warm water, but she’d pulled it too fast, and the soapy glass flew through her fingers and crashed into the wall behind her. Quick footsteps headed down the hall toward her direction, and she wanted to yell at them to go away. She didn’t because they had no way of knowing she had just been clumsy and wasn’t hurt, so she bit down on the urge to yell.

Still, she worked to hold back the growl threatening to come out. Gingerly picking up the shards of white, glittering glass, she put the big pieces in a cardboard box from her trip to the store and the smaller ones directly into the kitchen garbage.

“Lisa,” Elizabeth said carefully. “Are you all right?”

Just peachy-keeno. I’ve been so grumpy the pregnant lady is walking on eggshells around me. Damn it.
Disgusted with herself and her preoccupation for her one time lover and his fate, she shook her head.
“I’m fine,” Lisa replied. “I dropped a plate because I moved too fast with wet fingers.”

“Honey, can you go in the other room?” Elizabeth asked Marty who kissed her on the cheek and complied, but not before giving Lisa a worried look.

“I’m sorry if I frightened you,” Lisa said.

“I’m fine. I’m worried about you,” Elizabeth said in her frank way Lisa was starting to get used to. “You’ve been scurrying around here all day, punishing your poor, lovely house for something I’m sure it didn’t do,” she added with a touch of humor.

Lisa appreciated it and gave Elizabeth a wry smile. “I guess so,” she admitted.

“You want to talk about it? I know you haven’t known me long, but you are saving us, protecting us, and caring for our baby. The way I figure it, that makes you family.”

Lisa sat back on her heels and slipped on the water which had dripped on the floor, landing on her backside with a grimace. “I don’t know what to say,” she managed after a second.

Looking suspiciously as if she was trying not to laugh, Elizabeth responded, “If you’re not hurt from your fall, just say what’s troubling you.”

“That’s just it. I think what’s troubling me the most is that Joseph’s fate no longer seems so bad. I used to have a hard time with pack law. I knew I had come to see the logic in it, humans being what they are, but it still disturbed me. Today, I realized my mind was going through the motions of the argument, but there was no heat involved.”

“Why? Is Joseph of particular concern to you? Or is it learning of the ways of the pack? It took me a long time to get used to having to follow the rules of two cultures,” Elizabeth said.

Finished picking up the glass, Lisa stood up and resisted the urge to rub her bum where she’d landed. Instead, she shrugged her answer to Elizabeth and carried the cardboard box and the bag with the glass out to the alley to her garbage can. Always on alert, even at home, she automatically scanned the area as she’d been taught to do during her Elite Guard training. In the process, she froze, her hackles raised.

The shadows had moved.

She listened intently and watched the area for five minutes. Stray pieces of garbage lay about on the ground, giving the alley an abandoned feel. The darkness pulsated, and her heart rate shot up. But whatever it had been no longer stayed in the shadows where she’d thought. Telling herself to quit jumping at the slightest provocation, she quickly put the metal lid on the can that she’d held like a shield.

When she came back in, Elizabeth remained there, leaning against the counter. Elizabeth had grown up as Lisa had, with parents and family who didn’t live by the pack. Except she’d had the added problem of turning into a wolf at inopportune times.

Maybe she could explain. “Come on,” Lisa said. “Let’s at least get you comfortable.”

She led the way to the living room, sat in her favorite chair, and picked up her crochet project. When becoming a werewolf, she’d nearly given up her crafts, but they’d become her lifeline for dealing with being different. Now she hid behind the project, putting up a small barrier because she was about to break down a larger one—her past. She fumbled with the hook, nearly dropping her yarn. The silence stretched as she prepared to tell her painful story, and she appreciated Elizabeth’s discretion in waiting to speak.

“It’s a long story, not particularly ugly, but sad. You still want to hear it? At least, the short version?” she asked her new friend.

“Only if you’re ready to tell it,” Elizabeth said softly. “I sense personal pain.”

Marty, who’d put an arm around his wife when she sat on the couch next to him, gave her a squeeze, and Lisa felt the crunch of her heart. They had what she’d dreamed of having with Joseph, once upon a time. The brittle core of ice where her heart used to be froze another degree. For her, it would never be a reality.

Lisa closed her eyes to try to figure out where the beginning of the story really was. “I met Joseph at a zombie conference in Seattle. This was before it was quite the thing it is now, but still large enough for goers to be somewhat anonymous.”

“We’ve gone to a few of those conferences,” Marty said. “They’re a good way to meet people, and have a good time.”

Lisa looked at him in surprise. “I kind of figured, well,” she stumbled, “I thought he was just trolling. Hadn’t considered how many of the weres would be interested in going. Seems like you’re your own supernatural presence in reality. Why would you want to go to conferences where people acted like vampires, and zombie killers, and—” Their faces were impassive, but a glimmer of an idea had taken root.

Elizabeth took pity on her confused silence. “It’s a good way to find out who’s really against the supernatural and want to kill them or are only playing pretend because it’s in vogue.”

“And vampires, zombies?” Lisa asked.

“Did you not know all legends have a grain of truth in them?” Elizabeth asked instead of answering her directly. “You’ll need to speak to your Ulfric. There must be a reason he hasn’t brought it to your attention.”

Frustration gnawed at her but not because of the Ulfric’s reticence. No, she’d closed her eyes. She had been unable to deal with her own heartbreak and hadn’t fully assimilated into the pack. Always, she reserved a piece of herself back, held onto her human world she’d so willingly given up.

“It isn’t the Ulfric’s doing but my own,” Lisa replied sadly. “And it explains so much. Anyway, this dashing man ran into me, and I dropped all of my lovely paraphernalia. The crush of people kept tromping on them as I tried to get to them first. The thing is, he picked them up with me, profusely apologizing the whole time. So nice, and he was muscular and taller than most of the men I was acquainted with. I stood and stared at him when we’d finished gathering my things. I was in my last year of schooling for midwifery. I’d already passed my nurses exams. Yet I stood there, like a teenager with her first crush.”

“Weres can have that effect on humans,” Marty said. “There’s something in our makeup that draws them like moths to a flame, and it tends to manifest sexually. Oooph,” he replied looking at his wife who had cracked him in the ribs with her elbow. “What was that for?”

“You’d best not be knowing anything about the sexual manifestations of human girls and werewolves!” Elizabeth teased—mostly.

“By the time I figured it out, I’d met you, and it was too late. Ow,” he cried out indignantly. “Now what did I do?”

“I’ll give you
too late
if you don’t keep it in your pants,” Elizabeth said but winked. “Let’s let Lisa get back to her story.”

Lisa smiled at their banter, and a piece of her heart began to unthaw—a small barely perceptible warming, but it was there. She lowered her crochet work. They didn’t know it, but they’d released her from some of her built up guilt and self-derision. Being naïve and inexperienced in the ways of men, she’d studied the signs and watched out for players and their vibes. She’d prided herself at being able to protect her heart and body from sleazy seducers. Then she’d gone and let one turn her into a supernatural being. Not trusting herself or men ever since, she’d been very lonely and full of shame.

“He walked around with me the rest of the day, helping me carry things, buying me a drink, basically being a really sweet guy.”

“And you fell in love at first sight,” Elizabeth stated.

“I guess it was kind of predictable now that I look back at it. I’ve tried not to these many years. It’s painful to realize how naïve I’d been when I thought myself to be sophisticated and mature. We dated, one thing led to another, and we became lovers. Eventually, he told me about himself and what he was.”

“And you weren’t repulsed?” Elizabeth asked in mild surprise.