The Memory of Lemon

Praise for

THE CAKE THERAPIST

“Like a master chef, Judith Fertig takes the tale of a gifted baker starting all over in her old Midwestern hometown and layers it together with an intriguing mystery buried deep in the community's Depression-era past.”

—Beatriz Williams,
New York Times
bestselling author of
Along the Infinite Sea

“In a small town where secrets run deep and over generations, Fertig shows friendship, family, and food can bring people together and heal old wounds.”

—Jill Shalvis,
New York Times
bestselling author of
Still the One

“A heartwarming story of community, love, and food so delectable you want it to leap off the page into your mouth.”

—Linda Rodriguez, award-winning poet and author of
Every Hidden Fear

“A dash of complex romance stirs up a cast of characters linked through time by a precious bauble in a delicious setting.”

—Jeanne Ambrose, award-winning writer, cookbook author, and editor of
Taste of Home
magazine

“Wonderful, entertaining . . . A warm, intriguing novel laced with mouthwatering descriptions of cakes!”

—The Huffington Post

“This book is a treat for the senses. And it was heartwarming to see that as Neely helped other people, she was also helping herself.”

—
First for Women

“Not only do I want to meet (and be friends!) with Neely after reading her story; I want to taste every one of her deliciously therapeutic treats. How I wish I knew what flavor she would choose for me!”

—Denise Mickelsen, cooking, baking, and gardening acquisitions editor at Craftsy

“A lovely book that blends the past and present with delicious cake . . . Grab this book with a sweet treat and cozy up for a delightful read.”

—Rainy Day Ramblings

“Fun and sweet and entirely enjoyable . . . A great beach read for this summer. Just make sure you bring some cupcakes along in your cooler.”

—Cherie Reads

“[Fertig] is a talented writer who can titillate one's senses and at the same time create a mystery that unfolds gradually but with enough zip to keep the reader fascinated . . . A great read that should be on every reader's list of summer fiction to enjoy at the beach, mountains, in one's yard in a comfy chair, or just about anywhere, any time! Delightful and highly recommended!”

—The Best Reviews

The Cake Therapist

The Memory of
Lemon

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THE MEMORY OF LEMON

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eBook ISBN: 9780698182745

Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data

Names: Fertig, Judith M., author.

Title: The memory of lemon / Judith Fertig.

Description: Berkley trade paperback edition. | New York : Berkley Books, 2016.

Identifiers: LCCN 2016009052 (print) | LCCN 2016009113 (ebook) | ISBN

9780425277959 (paperback) | ISBN 9780698182745 (epub)

Subjects: LCSH: Bakers—Fiction. | Women cooks—Fiction. | Weddings—Fiction.

| Family secrets—Fiction. | Self-realization in women—Fiction. | BISAC:

FICTION / Contemporary Women. | FICTION / Romance / Contemporary.

Classification: LCC PS3606.E78 M46 2016 (print) | LCC PS3606.E78 (ebook) |

DDC 813/.6—dc23

LC record available at http://lccn.loc.gov/2016009052

PUBLISHING HISTORY

Berkley trade paperback edition / June 2016

Cover art:
Flower Infinity Spiral
by Elovich/Shutterstock.

Cover design by Rita Frangie.

This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents either are the product of the author's imagination or are used fictitiously, and any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, business establishments, events, or locales is entirely coincidental.

LATE MARCH

MILLCREEK VALLEY, OHIO

Neely

Lydia, the twenty-something bride-to-be, sat stony faced on the settee in my front parlor.

This was not the way I wanted to start the week. Since I'd opened my bakery in Millcreek Valley's bridal district in January, I had learned a lot about wooing, in the business sense. When I did wedding cake tastings, I took potential clients away from the cheerful light and beveled glass cases of Rainbow Cake and drew them quietly, seductively into the more intimate setting of my home right next door.

Here, I hoped they would be charmed by the French gray walls, the glint of heavy hotel silver serving pieces, the fire in the late Victorian hearth, and the little cakes, buttercream frostings, and mousses I had made for them.

But this bride was unmoved.

We had tried tiny cakes in chocolate, browned butter yellow, poppy seed, white with a faint hint of almond. We'd sampled blood orange, fleur de sel caramel, pomegranate, dark chocolate, white chocolate, pistachio, raspberry, and countless other frostings and fillings. I'd even offered a lemony cupcake with its surprise-inside blueberry filling—our signature flavor combination for March—but to no avail.

Lydia would take a tiny, polite bite and put each miniature cupcake aside on her plate. The more we tasted, the more the reject pile grew, and the more rigid her posture became.

Lydia's mother had put a substantial deposit down and reserved the date for her daughter's June wedding—she was lucky that I had just had a bride cancel for that exact day. Booking a wedding cake, a wedding anything, only a few months out was iffy. But money talks loudly enough. The only problem was trying to find a time when Lydia's “wedding team” could interview her about the millions of details that went hand in hand with a society wedding.

Roshonda Taylor, wedding planner to the stars, was gorgeous as usual in her salmon sheath dress that showed off skin the color of her favorite caramel macchiato. Gavin Nichols, gifted interior designer and space planner, sipped his coffee, careful not to spill it on his pristine starched shirt, navy blazer, and khaki pants. If someone had told us back in our blue-collar high school days that as thirty-somethings we would be planning a high-style wedding together, we maybe would have moved our prom from the rickety Fraternal Order of Eagles hall to somewhere more expensive and glamorous. But probably not. We learned early: You have to work with what you've got.

And what we had here was a crisis. Somehow we had to navigate the choppy waters between what the mother wanted and what the bride envisioned.

The bride had been putting us off for weeks. And now this.

As a new business owner, I could not afford to have unhappy high-profile clients. Word of mouth was everything to wealthy mothers and brides.
Who did your flowers? Where did you get those antique lockets for the bridesmaids? Don't use so-and-so.
You never wanted to have your business name fill in the blank for
so-and-so
.

I refilled Lydia's teacup with a chamomile blend and poured more French press coffee for her mother and the other wedding team professionals, who must feel like I looked. My reflection in the silver teapot cast back my auburn hair tied up in a fraying topknot, wide green eyes expanded to extra wide from anxiety, and a now-familiar Claire O'Neil Davis expression—a duck seeming to stay afloat effortlessly while paddling furiously underwater.

I just couldn't get a read on the bride, other than the obvious.

She didn't like my cakes.

This was a first.

I was a pastry chef with tons of haute cuisine experience, and I had enjoyed my fair share of success in New York before bringing my skills and myself back home to Millcreek Valley. Just a few short months later my signature desserts were gracing society functions, private dinners, corporate events, and glamorous galas. My wedding cakes were sought after.

So I wasn't entirely convinced I was the problem here.

I knew that my little sample cakes and the fillings and frostings were delicious, even if Lydia couldn't recognize it.

But I also knew that my abilities in the kitchen were only part
of the secret to my success. It was my other gift, the way I could use my intuition to “read” a client through flavor, that helped me win over the crankiest and most difficult of brides. The ones like Lydia. But something was preventing me from working my usual miracles today.

Every time I tried to turn on my internal flavor Wi-Fi, I got no signal.

This was also a first.

My slightly magical palate was the way I made sense of the world. It revealed an inner state, an emotional core. Sometimes flavor answered the question I didn't know I had. Just like Gran and my dad, I knew flavor was both a way to read people and a way to understand myself.

Should I have left my New York life behind to start again here in Millcreek Valley? A few weeks back, the comfort of sweet cinnamon had reassured me:
Yes,
it whispered.
One step at a time.

Yet it always seemed easier to pick up on someone else's flavorful inner state than on my own.

When I sat with clients and opened my mind to them, a taste usually came through. It might be sweet, sour, salty, or bitter. After a moment, it would blossom into a full flavor. The sweet ripeness of apricot, the sourness of a Key lime, the earthy saltiness of Mexican chocolate, the aromatic bitterness of nutmeg.

In a flash, a feeling would follow the flavor. Joy. Skepticism. Lust for life. Quiet acceptance.

And from that feeling would come a memory, a scene called back to present day. A moment whose real meaning and importance I might never fully know.

And I didn't really need to know everything. I used my gift to
see my clients' stories so I could design desserts—in this case, a wedding cake—to fit each customer like a couture gown, not an off-the-rack dress in desperate need of alterations.

If I got the cake and filling and frosting flavors right, they would resonate with my clients, reaching them in those down-deep places where they would begin to feel that everything really would be all right.

If I got the flavors right.

I couldn't get them right if I didn't get an initial impression. What was the deal with Lydia? Why couldn't I read her?

Usually, by this part of a wedding cake tasting, I'd be casting images of wedding cakes on the smooth plaster walls with my laptop, casually dropping a few celebrity client names from my New York days, and my current clients would be choosing a design.

But we weren't there yet. And I was beginning to fear that we wouldn't get there. I looked over at Lydia again, who sat stiff and silent.

“Sweetheart, what do you think of the lemon with the lavender? For a hot summer night, that might be very refreshing,” Mrs. Stidham asked. Her expensively cut and streaked hair and the whiff of $350 perfume from Jean Patou were at odds with her too-tight, too-short leather skirt and the animal print top. Her French manicured nails were immaculate, if impractically long.

The mother had remarried, I assumed, as Lydia's last name was Ballou.

Lydia moved her plate, piled high with discards, from her lap to the tea table. She crossed her arms in front of her chest. Where her mother was groomed and flashy, Lydia looked like a sixties folk singer. She wore no makeup and her long, curly, mouse brown
hair was parted in the middle. She had on a shapeless lace dress, which hung on her thin frame, and a short-sleeved beige cardigan. Her beautiful, dark blue eyes could probably look soulful when she wasn't being obstinate.

“Mother,” she finally said, “I told you I didn't want cake. I want wedding pie.”

Well, I can't help you there,
I wanted to say. My bakery was called Rainbow Cake for a reason.

Roshonda jumped in.

“I think what Lydia is trying to say is that although Neely's—I mean Claire's—cakes are delicious, maybe we've strayed too far from the Appalachian theme we talked about,” Roshonda said, giving me the eye.

Appalachian
. Hmm. Why was I just hearing about this now? When I thought
Appalachian
, the first thing that came to mind was definitely not cake. Roshonda's meaningful look, with a slight tilt of her head toward Mrs. Stidham, told me that this first go-round was what the mother wanted. Traditional wedding cake.

Obviously, Lydia had other ideas.

A bit reluctantly, trying to leave my bruised ego behind, I was warming to the Appalachian idea.

Bourbon and branch water. Dulcimer music. Wildflowers in jelly jars. Biscuits and country ham. That did have a certain charm.

“I know you've talked this over with Roshonda and Gavin, but why don't you tell me about the kind of wedding you want,” I said to Lydia with a smile. “What is your inspiration?”

Lydia sat up straighter, unfolded her arms, and put her hands in her lap. “Some of my happiest memories growing up were the
summer escapes I spent with my grandmother in the hills of northern Kentucky, along the Ohio River,” she said.

Her mother reached over and, with a dramatic gesture, took her daughter's hand. Lydia rolled her eyes, kept her arm stiff, and didn't lean in to her mother.
Awkward
.

“To be fair, Mom tried really hard. She worked two jobs to support us,” Lydia said, looking sideways at her mother and then back at me. “We lived in a tiny apartment above a bar. The neighborhood wasn't safe, so I couldn't go outside if she wasn't at home. Every night, I'd try to go to sleep in spite of the drunks yowling on the sidewalk and the cigarette smoke and beer smell that drifted up through the floorboards.

“At my grandma's in Augusta, it was like paradise. It was quiet and peaceful. Nobody bothered me. I would spend hours in the woods, by the creek, in her garden, in her skiff on the river. And that's what I want to re-create for my wedding: that simple paradise,” Lydia said.

Her mother released Lydia's hand, then fished around in her handbag for a handkerchief.

I gave Lydia those few moments of silence that always prompted more of the story.

“I remember the wonderful feeling I had as soon as we drove out of our crappy neighborhood,” Lydia recalled.

“You would start singing all those silly songs that you made up,” Mrs. Stidham said, twisting the handkerchief in her hands. “If you saw a blackbird, it was a song about a blackbird. If you saw a barge on the river . . .”

“‘Barge in Charge,'” said Lydia, suddenly smiling. “One of my greatest hits.”

“I still can't get that song out of my head,” her mother said.

Lydia turned toward me. “And when we finally arrived at the ferry, I started to feel free again,” she continued.

Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Lydia's mother stiffen. Weddings dredged up all kinds of things. No mother wanted to be reminded that her daughter felt unsafe and unhappy as a child. Mrs. Stidham bit her bottom lip.

“As the ferry went across the river,” Lydia continued, “getting closer to the old buildings along the waterfront, I felt the wind in my hair and the pull of the river under my feet. It was like stepping back in time and going home, if that makes any sense.”

“Vangie, Lydia's grandmother, made any place feel like home,” said Mrs. Stidham. “And she made Lydia feel safe and special, as she did for my brother and me. But as I got older, I saw another side of Augusta. I couldn't go back to that kind of life. Small-minded people knowing your business, judging you. Like most small towns. But I understand it was probably the best part of Lydia's childhood,” she said, tearing up. Mrs. Stidham smoothed out the handkerchief to dab her eyes. “Maybe, sweetheart,” she said, turning toward her daughter, “we could still get that sense of simple paradise if we brought in a lot of trees in big pots to the ballroom at the River Club, like Kate Middleton's family did for her wedding at Westminster Abbey.”

“Mom, I thought we had already agreed that the River Club was out.”

One unconvincing tear managed to escape Mrs. Stidham's false eyelashes—probably real mink or yak hair or something like that—and roll down her cheek.

A fake lime flavor, like you tasted in cheap candies, settled
in my mouth. Unlike the sharp, somewhat aromatic flavor of real lime zest and juice, the fake stuff tasted like chemicals. It was the flavor I recognized as manipulation.
Hmm
.

I took a sip of coffee to banish it.

I studied Mrs. Stidham. I had the feeling that crying in an attractive way usually worked for her.

Lydia seemed unmoved, as I was.

I always Googled my clients before their wedding cake tastings so I was as prepared as possible. I'd found out that Gene Stidham was a self-made man, a guy who had invented a popular playing card game in the 1970s—Duo—that launched his company. He could have sold the rights very profitably to Mattel or Parker Brothers, but instead he had slowly added board games and then video games to his business portfolio. When the popularity of video games started to plateau, his company got into mobile gaming. Duo Gaming had made him a megamillionaire. To his credit, he had become a notable local philanthropist who had a soft spot for children's charities.