Louise looked up from the letter and looked around at the three expectant faces watching hers. She was surprised at how calm she felt. It was more than simply the result of her constant fatigue, or because her nerves were worn down to passive acceptance. No. As she sat and read the letter, she knew Catherine's suggestion was the answer to her anxious prayers. She did not care that the plan was so brave as to be almost foolhardy. This felt
right
.
“Catherine wants to take my own baby and go to the doctor in Halifax. Her father is called there on official business. There will be a military escort and wagons, because they will bring back supplies. Catherine says the doctor is the best in all Acadia. He was trained in ⦔ She looked down at the pages in her hands, the fragile leafs held without any trembling. She stumbled over the unfamiliar “Edinburgh.”
Her mother stood there beside Jacques's chair holding Antoinette, who was quiet for a change. Marie looked first at her husband, then at Henri. When the two men remained silent, she asked, “But how will they convince the English doctor to look at a French baby?”
Louise glanced at her husband and father, and knew instantly that the men had been silent because they had already guessed the answer. “Catherine has offered,” she quietly replied, “to exchange babies with me for the visit.”
Marie's gasp was the only sound in the entire room. Louise waited for someone to object, but when the trio said nothing she went on. “She will tell her father that Elspeth has not been sleeping well and has started to fret, which is true, but she thinks it is merely the beginning of teething. She is certain her father will agree for them to come along. He has often invited her to come on one of his journeys. She refused in the past because she has never had any interest in visiting the distant towns.”
Jacques turned to look at Henri. Louise took the opportunity to study her father. Jacques was not doing well. The afternoon sunlight had turned his eyes into caverns from which only the dimmest light seemed to glow. Jacques asked, “What do you think, Henri?”
“If we do nothing,” Henri replied slowly, “I fear for our daughter'sâ for her life.”
“As do I.” Jacques looked at his hands upon the table. “My own illness has reminded me that death and danger lurk just beyond our immediate vision.”
“Don't talk such nonsense,” Marie scolded.
Jacques looked at his wife, a quiet glance without reproof, yet enough to draw tears to Marie's eyes. Jacques replied, “If we can help Antoinette in this way ⦔
Marie brushed impatiently at her eyes. She nodded and sniffed, “Such an offer, how could we refuse?”
“More than that,” Henri added. “How could we ever repay her?”
Louise glanced down at the pages once more, relief swelling her heart and misting her gaze. Eventually she managed, “Catherine says she and her husband feel as though they are doing it as much for themselves as for us. This gift to us is the only answer they have found to these distressing times.”
Catherine clutched her baby so closely that Elspeth squirmed in protest. Reluctantly Catherine's arms relaxed. It was only for a few days. A few days and she would be back again, hopefully with an improving Antoinette. She shuddered at the thought of having her baby's life threatened by illness. Poor Louise. Her friend had suffered so over the past months. Never knowing from one day to the next if her baby would remain with her, or if there would be a tiny grave dug beyond the orchard.
Catherine lifted a corner of the blanket to take a peek at her daughter, then leaned to press a kiss to the smooth forehead. “I shall miss you,” she whispered. “I will miss you more than you'll ever know. But we must do this. We must. We cannot let Antoinette die.”
Catherine moved on. She was almost to the meadow. She prayed that the other mother would not keep her waiting, yet at the same time she hoped for more time with her own baby girl. Even so, each additional moment would just increase the difficulty of the parting.
Louise was there, pacing back and forth before the fallen log. Her eyes were red rimmed. The tiny bundle in her arms was clutched tightly to her heart.
“I may never see her again,” Louise whispered.
“Nonsense,” Catherine denied, her voice more confident than she felt. “It is only a few days until I will be back, and with Antoinette much improved. You'll see. God would not have planted this idea in Andrew's heart for it to come to naught.”
“She has weakened further in the past few days,” Louise said with trembling lips. “She might not survive the trip.”
“I shall care for her as if she were my own,” Catherine promised.
“How can I ever, ever repay you? To risk taking my baby to an English doctor, to leave your own baby behind.”
“I know that you will care for
her
as if she were
your
own, as well,” Catherine said, but her arms tightened around her now sleeping daughter.
“I will,” nodded Louise. “I will. Butâ”
“No more arguments. We must do this. It is the only way to help Antoinette.”
Louise drew the shreds of her composure about her like a cloak of strength. “Tell me about Elspeth. What does she like for comfort?”
Catherine looked lovingly at the baby that stirred in her arms. “Mostly her father,” she said with a forced smile. “I'm afraid he spoils her some. She delights in having him lean over her crib and tickle her toes or talk silly baby talk.” Her eyes threatened to spill over again, but she forced herself to continue. “She does like being bounced when she is fussyâshe is working on some teeth now. And she likes to chew my finger. Or a bit of cloth wet with cold water. Or the silver ring, like the one I gave you.”
Louise nodded. “I will remember.”
“She also loves to hold a corner of that soft fur Henri made for her. Does Antoinette have one?”
Louise nodded with a wobbly smile.
“And Antoinette?”
“She has been far too ill to express preferences.” Louise's hand lifted to stroke the fevered cheek with the back of her fingers. “Do you know, I still have not seen her smile.”
Catherine could not imagine Louise's pain. No smiles. Why, Elspeth had been blessing their home with smiles and coos for months.
“She will soon be smiling,” Catherine assured her. “You'll see.”
Louise wiped at tears again. “We must hurry,” she said, but with no indication of releasing her baby.
“Yes,” agreed Catherine. “If we are found out ⦔ But she would not say it. Would not even think it. They must not be discovered. For the sake of Antoinette. Catherine took a shaky breath and said, “We must pray.”
Louise looked up. “Of course. We must pray.”
They knelt together in the softness of the meadow grasses, each holding close the treasure they cherished the most. Each aware of their need of a God far greater, far more powerful, far wiser, far more in control of a world raging about them than either of them could ever be.
As they knelt, their trembling voices lifted in prayer, asking that God be with each of them in their hour of personal need. To be with their babies, each entrusted to the other. To be with the men whose lives they shared. Good men. Strong menâbut men at the mercy of their times. To be with their countrymen, French and English alike, trembling on the brink of disaster.
When they arose, their faces shone with a fresh sense of strength. Of assurance. God had met with them. They felt His presence. Whatever lay before them, they felt confident that He would see them through.
Reluctantly, they each placed a final kiss upon the brow of their own baby, then tucked each precious girl in the other's blanket. Catherine turned away with a lump in her throat, hoping to muffle her sobs until out of hearing of her friend.
“OhâI almost forgot,” said Louise fumbling in her pocket. “The vicar asks your husband to remember what he said when they met, something about the Good Samaritan. And Henri has written you and Andrew a letter.”
Catherine accepted the single sheet, hardly able to see through the tears in her eyes.
It was written in a crude, childlike scrawl. Catherine needed to study it to make out the French words. It was plain that Henri did not spend much of his time writing.
Louise, looking over Catherine's shoulder, traced her finger along the letter's final line and read aloud, “When the world is not as God would have it, it is a double blessing to have friends such as you.”
Catherine swallowed over the lump in her throat. Andrew, too, would be touched by the message. “Thank him from us both,” she whispered.
Louise nodded. Without further word the two exchanged a onearm embrace, careful of the two babies cradled between them.
Catherine could not resist reaching out a hand to Antoinette's blanket, the one which now covered her Elspeth. “Take care of my baby,” she pleaded. “Take care of my Elspeth.”
Then she turned and almost ran down the path leading from the meadow.
Louise stood transfixed, her eyes on Catherine's retreating figure. It was beyond her to understand such sacrificial devotion. She shifted Elspeth in her arms and was rewarded with a sleepy smile as the baby stirred.
“I will,” she whispered. “With my very life if need be. I promise.”
She lifted her eyes to see Catherine's form swallowed up by the tall dark pines. “And you ⦠I know that you will care for my Antoinette. You would not have offered this if you would not.”
Weeping, she turned toward her own trail home. She felt a tug as a small hand reached up to grasp the ribbons of her bonnet. Her tearful eyes turned to the baby she held. So healthy. So plump. So content in her arms. If only she could see her own Antoinette looking so. It would be a miracle, an answer to her most earnest prayers. “You are beautiful,” she whispered to the child. “No wonder your mama loves you. I love you too. Almost as though you were my own.” Elspeth answered with a cooing smile.
Due to leave at six in the morning, Catherine gladly would have left earlier. She had not slept well. Her heart was heavy with longing for her child. Antoinette did not ease the longing, even as Catherine held her close and tried to coax her to nurse. The baby just whimpered and turned away. Catherine endured added discomfort. Elspeth had always nursed so hungrily.
Andrew's sleep was also disturbed by the whimpering baby. She seemed too weak to cry lustily, but her mewing was enough to leave them both restless and wakeful.
What if she truly cannot survive the trip?
Catherine found herself thinking. She had promised Louise. Had she made that promise foolishly? The baby was so weak. So sickly. Watching the frail little one filled Catherine with deep concern.
Let's be going
, she wanted to call into the early dawn.
We have no time to waste. The baby needs help now
.
The two-wheeled conveyance carrying her father arrived promptly at six, as Catherine knew it would, along with two other carts and an armed troop.
Catherine clung to Andrew, wishing with all her heart that he was going with her. But when he put in his request to the general to make the journey, he had been turned down point-blank.
Andrew lifted her chin and looked into her eyes. “It will be all right,” he whispered. “Just keep the blankets close about her face.”
“But what if Fatherâ?”
“He won't. You know what little interest he has shown in our child. Besides, he will be much too busy minding the team. And once you arrive in Halifax, his hours will be spent with his duties.”
“But what if she ⦔ Catherine could not say the word, but she knew Andrew understood.
“You mustn't even think of that,” he said softly. “In just a few days you will have her safely in the doctor's care.”
“And if the doctor isn't able to help?”
“He is said to be the best there is, as good as anyone in London. He must have something to help her.”