The Lost Apostles (10 page)

Chapter 13

These she-apostles are old souls in new flesh. I am haunted by them.

—Dixie Lou Jackson, note in a computer file

Dressed in a camel-colored burnoose given to her by Malia, Dixie Lou stood on the crest of an immense sand dune. It occurred to her that she probably looked like any other Arab traveler from a distance. This was the hottest part of the afternoon, warmer than expected according to the village Arabs, and the North African heat baked into her black skin. The dry heat felt good to her, and she imagined that her ancient grandmothers must have felt this as well, for they had once lived in this part of the world, and on much hotter days than this.

That morning Malia had also given her the hard copy of an encrypted e-mail, along with a microcylinder copy. The message had been sent through her because of the coded e-mails that Dixie Lou had dispatched to various UWW bases from the village. Dixie Lou didn’t like the fact that someone else was receiving her replies, and she would need to straighten that out right away.

The message, decoded by Deborah Marvel, had been bad news, but not a total surprise. The UWW base in Tunisia, which had been Dixie Lou’s destination when she escaped from Monte Konos—and which had not responded to her messages—had been destroyed in another BOI attack.

It meant that she and her companions were stranded in the desert for the time being, but she had just thought of a way to turn the situation to her advantage.

Following the publication of the
Holy Women’s Bible
over the Internet, she had become incredibly famous . . . literally, overnight. Suddenly the worldwide web was full of stories about her, most of them outright conjecture. No one seemed to know where she was, or much about her. Though public opinion tilted eighty percent against her she was pleased that millions of people at least knew who she was, and she felt certain that the tide would shift in her favor as more people actually read the new holy book.

In the bright sunlight it became clear to her what she needed to do next. When her brain should have been overheated, when she should have been crawling for the cool shelter of shade, she surprised herself by thinking very clearly now, and coming up with a marvelous new plan.

Her time in the desert would become the stuff of legend, she told herself; comparisons would be drawn between her and the forty days Jesus spent in the wilderness.

She just required a little more help from modern technology to get the message out. . . .

* * *

Unseen by his mother, Alex Jackson eluded the guards and followed her out on the hot sands. Concealing himself behind a dune where he could watch her, he tightened his fingers around a combat knife, stolen when one of the young guards had left a weapons cabinet unlocked on the VTOL plane.

It would be so easy to kill her. He imagined what it would be like to do that, and envisioned her bleeding to death on the sand. The thought of matricide disturbed him and gave him great pause, but he could not set it aside. She was as close to pure evil as he could imagine.

Sunlight glinted off the blade. His fingers tightened on the handle. He wanted to leap at her and stab her to death, but could not bring himself to do it.

* * *

That evening . . .

Dixie Lou heard a rush of wind-blasted sand ripple the fabric of the dining tent in which she stood. For the moment, the structure held together. She thought back to another windy night, long ago, when she’d gotten a small amount of vengeance against her drunken, incestuous father and uncle by smashing their expensive watches while they slept through a storm—watches they had stolen in a burglary.

In a blind rage, she’d also splashed acid on the clothing in their closets, ruining them. In all, it was not nearly equivalent to what they’d done to her, and they had no idea how lucky they were that she didn’t murder them in their sleep or disfigure them. The only reason she hadn’t done more was because she would have been the prime suspect; too many people knew how much she loathed them, and why. She had run away from home shortly afterward, taking all the money in her father’s wallet, and had never seen her family again.

While Dixie Lou was engrossed in these memories, Deborah Marvel entered the dining tent and re-secured the door flaps. In the light of the lanterns, her blonde hair was wild from the wind, and she said, “We haven’t had a good talk for awhile, not the way we used to.”

“I’m juggling a lot, too much to discuss. This isn’t a good time.”

“Maybe if you tried to share your troubles. I just thought you might like my advice, or—”

“Go!” Dixie Lou waved her hand dismissively.

“As you wish.” Deborah’s blue eyes were open wide in a combination of emotions. Fear, to be certain, but some anger and resentment as well, barely suppressed. She hurried away, leaving Dixie Lou to her own ruminations. Since the release of the
Holy Women’s Bible
, the Chairwoman was beginning to feel increasingly confident and untouchable. Already people were speaking of her in the same breath with Amy Angkor-Billings, and soon Amy would be no more than an afterthought, or a footnote. History would credit Dixie Lou Jackson with leading the women of the world out of the wilderness imposed upon them by men.

Half an hour later, Dixie Lou walked out on the moonlit desert. The cool air had grown suddenly still, and the silvery moon was like a cold, low-powered light bulb illuminating the sandscape, imparting a dim, pallid glow. She shivered.

Dixie Lou Jackson had a great deal of optimism about her future, but she still had numerous concerns as well, layers of worry that continued to weigh her down. She harbored secrets that could destroy her if the wrong people learned about them and used them against her.

In her most private thoughts she had worked out details of how to explain the killing of the Monte Konos guard, should Alex or Lori ever tell anyone about it. Dixie Lou would say she’d received a tip that the guard, Linda Cutler, was a BOI agent—and when she confronted her the response had been violent. Dixie Lou had been forced to kill her in self-defense, though she would have preferred to keep her alive to find out what she knew. Yes, she told herself, with a little effort she could make it all sound plausible, asserting that the two young witnesses had arrived too late to see the guard’s aggressive behavior.

Reaching a rock outcropping, Dixie Lou scrambled to a higher level, where she stood and gazed down on the flickering nighttime glow of the Arab village. She heard voices drifting in the still air, and then made out the hulking shapes of camels approaching the settlement, and the shouts of men. The caravan was returning.

From the cimmerian recesses of her mind, a troublesome matter bobbed to the surface: how to control the leakage of information about the fake twelfth she-apostle. She counted the number of people who actually knew the truth about the make-believe Martha of Galilee. All were council members, numbering ten because of the six left on Monte Konos to die. Of the remaining councilwomen, any one of them could have told someone else, despite the oaths of confidentiality taken when they accepted their positions.

The moon illuminated the desert, casting the craggy, lifelike shadows of rock escarpments across the dunes. A night wind picked up, and she shivered.

If too many people know a secret
, she thought,
it is no longer a secret.

She bent over and scooped up some sand, which she let drain from her hand slowly, like time falling in an hourglass. Seconds ticked by, and presently another perspective became apparent to her. The remaining council members were in on this with her, because they had authorized the creation of the last she-apostle, to complete the holy book before powerful men got wind of it and suppressed it. Dixie Lou had
not
made the decision alone.

She had been trying to convince herself that the missing helicopter must have crashed, killing everyone aboard including the pesky teenager, four of the she-apostles, and the councilwomen Wendy Zepeda and Fujiko Harui. In addition, it made sense to her that the seven other missing she-apostles must have simply walked off into the desert, where they had died as well.

Taking inventory of the events surrounding her, Dixie Lou placed herself in a historical context. In the early years following the crucifixion of Jesus Christ, devout Christians and Jews had been chased into hiding by Romans, Sadducee priests, and other enemies. In addition, Christians argued with each other—with those claiming to be orthodox accusing others (such as the Gnostics) of being heretics.

In order to protect their precious but forbidden manuscripts, the Gnostics and other beleaguered men and women created copies of their sacred gospels and hid them wherever they could, often sealed in pottery jars. The gospels of Gnostics found near Nag Hammadi and at Alexandria—both in Egypt—were prime examples, and she knew there were others, a vast quantity of material that had been omitted from the
Bible
. Dixie Lou, like her council members, knew this very well. Amy Angkor-Billings had spoken often of the troubling history, referring to it as “herstory.”

It was like ancient times now. Dixie Lou and her council had taken the necessary steps in order to keep the eleven authentic she-apostle gospels from being stolen and relegated to the forgotten burial grounds of history. In the vast scheme of things a falsified twelfth gospel was inconsequential, and easily justified. She had been considering putting the remaining councilmembers to death for what they knew, but she leaned toward letting them rise or fall with her.

Developing important plans of action provided Dixie Lou with some measure of control over the intertwined problems that pummeled her. But an unresolved—and perhaps
irresolvable
—matter remained, potentially the biggest and most dangerous of all. This one was explosive.

The trouble was, she didn’t know exactly what it was herself, couldn’t get a handle on it, a clear view of it, other than a terrible sense of fear and foreboding, and a suspicion that it had something to do with Lori Vale and the strange vision the two of them had shared of a bright form hovering over Lori, and a baby crying.

Is Lori truly dead?

Doubts assailed her.

And something lurked in the most inaccessible archives of her mind, something to do with a knife, and stabbing sleeping forms to death. If she could only remember the details, she might formulate a sensible plan.

But the information seemed to be too deep in her consciousness to retrieve. It was bubbling down there in a cauldron, like lava about to erupt and inundate her.

* * *

Several hours passed, and across the world it was early evening. Vice Minister Styx Tertullian sat alone in a room, staring at the blurry shapes dancing in front of a VR-TV screen. There were no lights on, just the unfocused glow of the machine. He felt depressed. This entertainment room for the Bureau had been set up for executives to use on their breaks, but he was the only one in the entire building now, except for security personnel roaming the corridors. Everyone else had gone home.

A remote control had been built into an armrest of his chair. He pressed buttons, but got only more of the same. Everyone in the world wanted to know about the mysterious women who produced the stunning
Holy Women’s Bible
. The introduction to the book referred to reincarnated she-apostles, perhaps the strangest claim in the long history of world religion. It sounded more like creatures in a horror movie than reality. But millions of gullible people wanted to see these she-apostles in the flesh. The introduction was signed by Dixie Lou Jackson, Chairwoman of United Women of the World, the UWW. The public was clamoring to find out who she was.

News stories on Jackson were sketchy, and no one had yet stepped forth publicly to talk about her past. That was about to change, because Tertullian knew something about her from Bureau intelligence reports. He knew she’d been a prostitute, and so had at least one of the “she-apostles” featured in the
Holy Women’s Bible
—Mary Magdalene, in her original lifetime. He even came up with a phrase to counter the disinformation that the UWW was producing: “She-apostles—the figments of a whore’s imagination.”

Feeling his pulse race in anticipation, Tertullian glanced at his watch, then switched to the program he’d been waiting to see, the Tony Drew Show. It was a panel discussion featuring two participants, a mustachioed older man with a bald pate and a blonde young woman. The smooth-faced interviewer, Drew, sat in between them.

To Tertullian’s surprise, the program was already in progress. He glanced at his watch again. It showed the top of the hour, but must be running slow. Removing the timepiece, he tossed it toward a wastebasket across the room and hit it dead center, giving him only the smallest measure of satisfaction.

The older man was talking, his tone condescending and pedantic, like a tired school teacher. Beneath him a caption read:

Ronald Friese-Greene

State Department Official

“It’s obvious to anyone with half a brain,” he said, “that the Unholy Women’s Bible is a complete fabrication. Why, some of the—”

“
Holy
, not
Un
holy!” the woman interjected. A caption beneath her indicated:

Villial Luciano

University Professor

“But Madame, there is only one
Holy Bible
.”

“And only one
Holy Women’s Bible
.”

The moderator said, “I must inform you, Miss Luciano, that we’re getting thousands of responses on the worldwide net, and it’s only running twenty percent in favor of the
Holy Women’s Bible
. Most of the world believes it’s a fraud, and that the UWW is a crackpot organization.”

She bristled. “First of all, it is
Ms
. Luciano. Secondly, how many responses are you talking about?”

“Uh, three hundred twenty-four thousand.”

“How interesting, and what, pray tell, is the population of the world?”

“Seven billion, maybe eight. I’m not sure.”

With a toss of her long blonde hair she said, “Your tiny sample is meaningless.”