The Loss (Zombie Ocean Book 4) (3 page)

"Bomb in front of the primary," Salle ordered. "Work up an algorithm aligned to the map. We know where the road is, we know the speed of that vehicle, and the primary is leading us right to them."

"Yes, sir. How much ordinance am I authorized to use?"

"All of it," Salle answered, "until the damn van explodes."

More red flowers bloomed on the screen. At the same time on the split screen to the right, the paraplegic began to climb the ladder out of the hallway, its legs trailing uselessly behind it.

"Where's he going?" Joseph asked softly.

A spike of hope lit in Salle's chest. Surely the infection was taking him now. They'd have at least two primaries, halving the time until America was clear.

He climbed out of sight into the cold blue of the thermal image, where his blue dot pulsed motionlessly for a minute. More circles of heat bloomed off to the west, then the paraplegic's body fell down the screen, head first past the ladder like a suicide dive. He hit cement with a crunch that shook the control room harder than the bombs, and somehow his head tore away.

"Ha!" someone in the control room said, in shock. Salle marked who it was unconsciously, while watching the corpse of Cerulean for a long moment. She hoped it would somehow rise, reattach its head and keep moving, but it didn't. Snow fell over it from the hole above and began to smooth out the crevices in its dusky red skin.

The bastard had cut his own head off. Son of a bitch.

She steadied herself. On the thermal image there was no sign of a hit. Everything had gone to shit, but moments like this were her forte. This was why she was commander and Lars Mecklarin was dead.

"I don't care how many missiles or drones we exhaust in the effort," she said coolly, calmly, to the room at large. "That van does not get to Los Angeles to warn them, am I clear?"

"Yes, sir," came the chorus of replies.

Salle looked at her control screen before her. The light for her microphone link to the hallways was flashing still, and she cut it. She wouldn't need that again. This phase of the plan was done.

She turned to Joseph. His face looked as broken as a cracked egg, but the embers of his intellect were still on fire within.

"Joseph, I need you to get the suits ready," she said.

Surprise broke through his uncertainty. "But sir, they're-"

"All of them, Joseph," she said, "and volunteers to fill them. Do you understand?"

He nodded. It didn't matter that the suits were a death sentence. This bunker was a death sentence. They had to get out and she would do anything to achieve that.

"Now," she said.

He turned and left the control room, his steps growing more confident and regular as he went. On the screen before her more red flowers blossomed through the wintry blue, as though it was finally spring.

1. NEW APOCALYPSE

Ten years after the zombie apocalypse changed the world forever, a new kind of apocalypse strikes.

I'm sitting on the pier where I saw Cerulean for the last time two weeks earlier, feeling nothing at all like a mayor. I'm exhausted and emotionally drained. It's after midnight three days after Anna returned, and the waves are lapping on the beach below with that quiet certainty that says with every slap, 'There's not a damn thing you can do'.

Slap, slap, slap.

Such is the rhythm of things.

Anna's gone, Anna's come back, hurrah, but guess what? The infection is a T4 virus embedded in every one of our cells, oh well, no cure, and there are red demons that'll rip your head off whether you're immune or not. Also, Cerulean's gone, taken without a sign, and we haven't made any progress in finding him. Is it any surprise that Anna stared at me in disbelief, in the midst of her welcome home party, and Talia and Vie were weeping again, and what was I doing? What was I, self-appointed Last Mayor of America, doing about it?

Slap, say the waves, slap. It's never enough.

I sigh, lean back against the chipped wooden railing and run my hands through my hair. The air's warm still, though we're hard on the heels of winter. This is California in November, with Christmas around the corner. Talia wants a new bike, which is pretty ridiculous since all we have to do to buy her one is ride to the nearest Yangtze and assemble it, but such is the life of children in the apocalypse. She can't drive herself yet, but I'll teach her soon, and then what will I get her for Christmas?

I rub my temples and look out to sea as if there will be answers, but of course there are not. It's too dark to see much of anything.

Goddamn Cerulean.

"You shouldn't be here alone."

I turn and see my wife, Lara. She looks pretty in denim, with her thick hair tied back in knotted braids. I get annoyed with myself, that me being here has made her come after me, alone, endangering us both and leaving our children in the care of, who, maybe Cynthia?

"Mayorhood confers certain privileges," I try, but it gets me nothing but a dimpled frown in her caffe latté face. Even at 3am she's still got my number.

"Bullshit, Amo. Mayorhood's the opposite of privilege. We need you, and it's work only you can do."

I snort weakly as she sidles nearer over the creaking boards. "That's a play to my ego. Flattery will get you bike-assembling duty."

She sits down by my side and takes my hand. "Shut up, you," she mutters, so I do, which is a mercy. We sit there side by side, holding hands and watching the ocean until the sun crests over the edge of the world, like a burning ember raised by the gods.

It helps when she wraps an arm around my shoulders, some slight buffer against the haunting look on Anna's face, when I told her. Until then she'd been so happy and proud, having found her father and circled the world, then the hope just leached away.

I see that leaching in everyone's faces, now. I see it in my children's' eyes whether it's there or not. Hope has kept this discordant group of crazy, killer survivors afloat for this long, and its loss may at any minute tear us apart.

The old doubts rise and for a time I allow them. I'm just a zombie comic artist, not a mayor, who made silly book covers and boring worlds in Deepcraft. I wasn't elected to the position; even my self-nomination was a joke. I'm not worthy and I can't deal with this loss, especially now that the world I've always welcomed with open arms is reaching out and biting down hard. I don't know what to do.

Lara squeezes my arm and that helps too, so I pack the doubts away, like always. She doesn't say anything glib like, "We'll find him," or, "It'll be OK," and I'm grateful for that. We both know Cerulean's gone, and whoever's taken him is probably not giving him back.

"What can I do?" Anna asked me, after her sad welcome party in the lobby had wound down, when it was just the two of us in my office in the back of the Theater. "I see what's happening now; more security, pill-boxes on rooftops, patrols, so what can I do?"

Her lost hope had faded into rage, burning off her hot and raw. I had to channel it but I had nothing solid to offer, only my own answering frustration.

"We've searched everywhere," I told her. "We've scoured LA for twenty blocks square but there's no sign of him. We're planning wider forays but we can't overstretch ourselves. We've got to keep the core safe."

Anna nodded. She didn't say that it was my fault or take her anger out on me, as she would have once. Instead her eyes were sharp brown orbs that shone with new wisdom, making her strong in ways she hadn't been before.

She was a woman now, no longer a child.

"It's Julio," she said, looking me right in the eyes. "You know that, Amo. I know it."

I shook my head wearily. I'd expected it. "Julio's dead."

"Julio was shot, but we never found his body or his car. He hated Cerulean with a passion. He's got him now and we have to find him."

"Even if it is him," I said, "it doesn't help us. You're right, for five years we never found him, so how would we now? He could be anywhere in America. We can't afford to ignore other possibilities."

"What possibilities?"

I sighed, too weary to face them even then. "There could be another community of survivors out there. They may have a different idea of what survival is. If they were hunting us, trying to poach from us, it makes sense they'd take Cerulean first."

Her eyes flashed dangerously. "He wasn't weak."

I rested my hand on her arm. "I didn't say that. But I have to be practical, Anna. I can't send out mass patrols because we need our strength right here. We don't know what we're up against."

Anna took a deep breath, turning her anger inward like she was charging up a battery. I could feel the flywheel start to spin with the momentum of her rage, storing it up.

"So what can I do?" she asked again.

I squeezed her arm. "Help protect us. Join the patrols. We're casting a wider net day by day. If he's near we'll find him. That's all we can do for now. We'll go wider gradually."

She took a breath. I expected she might sag as the slow, hopeless reality struck home, but she didn't. She held the breath and it only filled her up more, and I began to see something of what she'd truly become: a woman who'd traveled around the world to find her father, who'd faced down a red demon and survived, who'd found her way home from darkest Mongolia and stumbled into this.

"It's really good to see you again, Anna," I said. I got up and gave her a hug, squeezing as much for my benefit as for hers. She hardly squeezed back.

On the beach Lara and I watch the stars cycle overhead, talking in low tones.

"Anna's gone to UCLA," she tells me. "Running tests on the T4 virus. She dragged Jake and Salman with her, and from the sound of it they haven't slept yet. Ravi wasn't happy, but, well…"

She tails off and the waves slap on the beach below. The old Anna would be out on them now, trying to race the guilt and frustration away on a catamaran. She'd been cruel to Cerulean for years, but I always thought they'd get a chance to work it out.

"Come to bed," Lara says. "You've done all you can for tonight. You can still get a few hours sleep before roll call, and be there when the kids come charging in."

She smiles. She's an excellent mother and wife, a leader in New LA, but I couldn't sleep now if I tried. I need to see Anna again, though I don't know what I'll say. I need to come up with a plan to eat into this frustration and find my friend. I need to-

Slap, say the waves. Slap, slap, steady as a pulse.

"At least come back to the theater, follow your own rules. We can do some PowerPoint if you like."

This earns a grin. Lara knows I'm a sucker for a good slide presentation. There's something intoxicating about the hum of the generators and the glow of the screen, in putting order onto a simple, manageable world.

"Fine," I say, and let her pull me to my feet.

Then the walkie at my hip sounds off, and our first taste of this new apocalypse hits.

* * *

They're in the lobby of the Chinese Theater when we arrive, sprawled on whatever lobby chairs, sofas and makeshift beds Ravi, Farin, Christina and Macy could find. We revved past their beaten and soot-blackened white panel van on the race in, only a few minutes after it pulled in. We parked by the glass doors and flew into the lobby's orange gas lit interior.

"Holy shit," I breathe, as I stop at the edge of the lobby to survey an influx of survivors like something from an old world refugee camp. There must be over twenty of them sprawled around the red carpet, wrapped in blankets despite the humidity, all skeletal, pale, shuddering and wide-eyed.

They look like zombies.

"Amo!" one of them calls, as his huge dark eyes settle on me. He looks like an apocalypse horror book cover, with torn shirt and jeans covered in rusty brown stains, black pupils that seem to fill up his eye sockets, a ragged gray beard and wispy white hair despite the impression he can't be more than 30 years old, gray skin that looks like graveyard mold and a yearning in his voice that strikes an instant chord of fear in my chest. "Are you Amo?"

My mouth is dry. My heart hammers like a pneumatic drill as I take these people in. Several have filthy bandages wrapped around their eyes, others have wounds in their chests, their thighs, weeping with yellow pus. They stink; the smell of their diseased, rotten bodies rises like a fog and fills the lobby. Someone's been sick off to the side; I expect one of our people. I feel my own gorge rising and swallow it back hard.

"Holy shit," Lara whispers by my side.

The guy who called my name is on his feet, just barely, though Ravi is trying to guide him onto a sofa. Ravi looks scared to actually touch him, like he might get infected, and I can't blame him.

These people are broken and dying, like they've just stepped out of a concentration camp. Here someone is wheezing, someone else is coughing with a grossly wet hack, here Farin is handing out water bottles which she has to double back on to unscrew the caps of. Christina is feeding reheated mac and cheese to a row of three near-cadavers. Their brittle lips slurp the food down like starving worms.

It's a lot to take in. Seconds pass.

Then I spread my arms. I lock the horror down inside and plaster a smile to my face, stride over and gently hug the zombie-like man who wants to speak to me.

"God, Amo, I don't believe it," he says, and starts to cry. Up close he smells like death, worse than any zombie I've seen. His back feels like the grille on a car radiator, row after row of painfully wasted bones sticking through a thin layer of skin. His face is nearly a peanut of dehydration, so fragile, every curve of the bones in his face sharply outlined.

"Welcome home," I tell him. It's a line I've used numerous times, but never like this, and it rings curiously hollow. "We've got hot dogs, we've got soda pop, we've got popcorn."

"Amo," he mumbles against my shoulder through the tears. "Help us, please."

I lower him to the sofa beside an older dark-haired woman, just as thin, who is staring up at me with big, fear-widened eyes. She's wearing a new black jacket over a torn black evening gown of some kind. I glimpse red marks and bruising on her bare white thighs. "Is it really you?" she asks in a dry and raspy voice.