The Left Behind Collection: All 12 Books (266 page)

“I don’t like the sound of ‘give way.’”

“What a wuss! It won’t even bleed. And if I feel it’s too early and it would cause trauma, we’ll put it off.”

“Not unless it would kill me. I mean it, Hannah. I want to be done with this.”

“You don’t want any reason to have to come back and talk to me.”

“It’s not that.”

“No,” she said dismissively, obviously feigning insult. “I can take it. I don’t know any other believers with reasons to come around, but that’s all right. Just leave me here to suffer alone.”

“Get on with it.”

“Shut up and I will. Now think about something else.”

“Can you talk while you work?”

“Oh, sure. I told you I was good.”

“Then tell me your story while you do this.”

“Story’s longer than the procedure, David.”

“Then take your time.”

“Now there! That was a sweet thing to say.”

Hannah Palemoon’s story actually took David’s mind off what she was doing. And she did take her time, pausing between each stitch. She teased him by showing him the first, but his look stopped her.

She had been raised on a Cheyenne reservation in what was now known as the United North American States. “You wouldn’t believe the misconceptions about Native Americans,” she said.

“Never been to the States, even when it was just the United States of America. But I read about it. They called you Indians because of Columbus’s mistake.”

“Exactly. He thinks he’s in the West Indies, so we must be Indians. Now it’s Indian this, Indian that. Indian tribes. Cowboys and Indians. Indian nation. Indian reservation. The Indian problem. American Indians—that was my favorite. And of course, anyone who hadn’t visited the reservation assumed we lived in tepees.”

“That’s what I would have guessed,” David said. “From pictures.”

“The pictures are from the tourist sites. They want to see old Native American culture; we’re happy to show it. Dress in the old garb, dance the old dances, sell ’em anything they want made from colorful beads. They didn’t want to see our real homes.”

“Not tepees, I take it.”

“Just like any other depressed economy. Multifamily units, tiny houses, house trailers. And the tourists didn’t want to know that my dad was a mechanic and my mom worked in the office of a plumbing company. They’d rather believe we were part of a raiding party, drank firewater, or worked in a casino.”

“Your parents really didn’t?”

“My mother liked to play the slots. Dad lost a paycheck one night playing blackjack. Never went back.”

“And you were a vet.”

“Vet’s assistant, that’s all. My uncle, my mother’s brother, was self trained. Didn’t have to be licensed or certified or any of that other stuff, like on the outside. Unless you wanted business from the outside, and he didn’t. And he wasn’t into weird stuff either. Tourists asked if he danced and chanted and brought dead pets back to life. He was a good reader, read everything he could find on patching up animals, because he loved them and there were so many of them.”

“You didn’t want to be a vet?”

“Nope. I read all the books about Clara Barton and Florence Nightingale. Did well in school, especially science, and was encouraged by a teacher to take advantage of opportunities for Native Americans at state universities. Went to Arizona State and never looked back. Cost me more because I wasn’t from Arizona, but I wanted distance between me and the reservation.”

“Why?”

“I wasn’t ashamed or anything. I just thought I had more opportunity outside. And I did.”

“Where did you hear about God?”

“Everywhere. There were Christians on the reservation. We weren’t churchgoers, but we knew a lot who were. That teacher used to talk to me about Jesus. I wasn’t interested. She called it ‘witnessing,’ and that sounded way too weird for me. Then at university. They were everywhere. You could get witnessed to walking to class.”

“Never intrigued you?”

“Not enough to go to any meetings. I was afraid I would wind up in a cult or a multilevel-marketing scheme. The big thing with those kids was getting people to admit they were sinners and that they couldn’t do anything about their sin. Tell you the truth, I never felt like a sinner. Not then.”

“So, wrong approach for you.”

“Not their fault. I
was
a sinner, of course. I was just blind to it.”

“What finally made the difference?”

“When I found out who disappeared in the vanishings, I was mad. Those churchgoers I knew. Christians from university. My high school teacher.”

“So you must have had an inkling.”

“An inkling? I knew. People were saying God did this, and I believed them. And I hated him for it. I thought about those people and how sincere and devout they were, how they cared enough for me to tell me something that made me think they were strange. I didn’t want any part of a God who would remove them and leave me here. I wanted a hero, someone to believe in, but not him. Then I saw all the news about Carpathia. The Bible talks about how so many will be deceived? I was at the top of the list. Bought the whole package. Found out he needed medical people, hopped the next plane to New York. Wasn’t so sure about moving on to this beautiful, godforsaken desert, but I was still loyal then.

“I started getting squirrelly about Carpathia when he started sounding like a politician, trying to put everything in the best light. He never seemed genuinely remorseful about all the chaos and the loss. I didn’t agree with him when he said all this proved that God couldn’t have been behind the disappearances, because why would a loving God do that? I believed God
had
done it, and it proved he wasn’t so loving after all.”

Hannah finished her stitch-removal work, stripped off and discarded her rubber gloves, washed and dried her hands, and pulled on another pair of gloves. She sat on a stool next to David. “Still have the staples, but we can both use a break.”

“Somebody had to lead you to God. I’m dying to know where you met another believer here.”

“Didn’t know there was one till I saw your mark plain as day as you lay there on the ground. I tried wiping it off, then almost danced when I realized what it was. I couldn’t see mine and had never seen another, just read about it.”

“Where?”

“Remember when we were told that Tsion Ben-Judah’s Web site was contraband?”

“’Course.”

“That was all I needed to hear. I was there. It was all Greek to me until he predicted the earthquake. First, it happened. Second, my whole reservation was swallowed up. Lost everybody. Mom, Dad, two little brothers, extended family. I’ll bet we were one of the only places in the world that had no survivors. Zero.”

“Wow.”

“You can imagine how I felt. Grief-stricken. Alone. Angry. Amazed that the weird guy on the Net got it right.”

“Can’t imagine that convincing you, though. Seems you would have been madder than ever at God.”

“In a way, I was. But I really began to see the light about Nicolae. You were here then, right? You heard the rumors.”

David nodded.

“People said he bullied his way onto a chopper on the roof of the old headquarters building—which I have no problem with. I probably would have done the same. Self-preservation instinct and all that. But no calls for help. No orders for more rescue craft. People hanging on the struts of his chopper, screaming, pleading for their lives. He orders the pilot off the roof. Probably couldn’t have saved anybody anyway, the way the thing went down. But you’ve got to try, don’t you? Isn’t
that
true leadership?

“Then he was phony again. The remorse didn’t ring true. I just started doing my job and forgetting my idealism, but I couldn’t tear myself away from the Ben-Judah site. Then millions and millions joined in, and so many of them became believers. I read about the mark of the sealed believer, and I was envious. I wasn’t sure I wanted in yet, but I wanted to be part of some family.

“But you know what got to me about Tsion? Listen to me, calling a man like that by his first name. But that’s just it. He’s clearly one of the most brilliant scholars ever born. But he had a way of putting the cookies on the lower shelf for people like me. I understood what he was saying. He made it plain and clear. And he was transparent. He lost his whole family in a worse way than I did.

“He was so loving! You could sense it, feel it right through the computer. He prayed for people, ministered to them the way the best doctors do.”

“And that was what finally persuaded you?”

“Actually, no. I believed he was sincere, and I came to believe he was right. But all of a sudden I went scientific on him. I was going to take this slow, not rush into anything, study it carefully. Well, he starts predicting these plagues, and here they come. Didn’t take me long after that. People suffered. These were real. And he knew they were coming.”

“Did you ever see yourself as a sinner?”

She stood and found the small wire cutters.

“Uh-oh,” David said.

“Just relax. Listen to the nice lady’s story.” She gently pressed her fingers on each side of the staple and eased the cutting edge of the clippers in. With both hands she forced the handles together, and the staple broke with a snap.

David jumped.

“You still with us?” she said.

“Didn’t feel a thing. Just scared me.”

“Story of my life.” She snapped the other while continuing. “Tsion warned us—you know this; surely you’re part of the readership.”

David nodded. “I’ve spoken to him by phone.”

“You have
no
t
!”

He nodded.

“Don’t nod with loose staples in your head. And if you lie to me again, I’ll twist ’em for you.”

“I’m not lying.”

“I know you’re not. That’s what makes me
so
jealous.”

“You know you’re going to get to meet him someday.”

“Better bring a mop and bucket. You can just squeegee me off the floor and pour me down the drain.”

“Me too.”

“But you know him already! You’re best buds.”

“Just by phone.”

She mimicked him. “Just by phone. Blah, blah, blah. Yeah, we talk. He calls once in a while. ‘How ya doin’, Dave? Just finished my message.’”

David had to laugh and quickly realized it was the first time since . . .

“Anyway,” she continued, pulling the ends of one staple neatly from his scalp. “See? Good timing, good technique. Uh-oh, do I see brain oozing there? Nope. Must be empty.”

David shook his head. “The story, Hannah.”

“Oh, yeah. Tsion promises us that if we start reading the Bible, it’ll be like a mirror to us and we might not like what we see. Remember that?”

“
Do
I?”

The other staple came out just as easily. She made a show of presenting it to him, and he waved it away. “I didn’t have a Bible and you don’t exactly see them lying around here anywhere. But Tsion had that site where you could call up the whole Bible in your language. Well, not Cherokee, but you know. So I’m reading the Bible on the Net in the wee hours.”

“And couldn’t get enough of it?”

“Um, no. I did it wrong. I didn’t read his little guide on where to start and what to look for. I just started in at the beginning and I loved all those stories in Genesis, but when I got into Exodus, and then—what’s the next one?”

“Leviticus.”

“Yeah. Ugh! I’m wondering, where’s the mirror? I don’t like what I’m seeing, all right, but it’s no mirror. Finally, I go into his site where you can ask questions. Only a million people a day do that. I didn’t expect him to answer personally, of course, and he didn’t. Probably was on the phone with his pal Dave. But somebody pointed me to that guide place. I start with John and then Romans and then Matthew. Talk about desperate for more and seeing yourself! My besetting sin, the way Tsion described it, was pride. I was my own god. Captain of my own destiny. I got to that
Romans Road
thing, taking you down the path of being born in sin, separated from God, his gift is eternal life . . . man, I was there. Stayed up all night and didn’t even feel the effects working a full shift the next day. Wanted to tell everybody, but wanted to stay alive too.”

Hannah doused David’s head with disinfectant and dabbed it dry with a clean towel. “I’m going to cover you with Betadyne now, friend, so you don’t look like a skunk with a lateral stripe. You’ll still look funny, but not from so far away. And we’d better get out of here before they send in a search party.”

“Just a minute.”

“Hmm?” She was dabbing at his head again.

“Just wanted to thank you. I needed to hear that. Those stories never get old.”

“Thanks, David. Can you imagine how long I’ve wanted to tell someone that? Oh, and one more thing.”

“Yeah?”

“Say hey to Tsion for me?”

“You don’t either,” Buck said.

“I do too!” Zeke said. “C’mere, look.”

Buck followed Zeke to his room, turning to give Rayford and Chloe a do-you-believe-this? look. Sure enough, just as Zeke had claimed, hanging in his closet were four soiled, wrinkled GC uniforms. “Where in the world?”

“After that horsemen deal,” Zeke said, “remember?” Buck nodded. “Dead GC all over the place. Dad cruised me around in the middle of the night, trying to stay ahead of the recovery teams. I didn’t like yankin’ clothes off dead bodies, but Dad and me both thought they were gifts from God. I got their IDs and everything, but you can’t use the same name as goes with the uniform.”

“I can’t?”

Zeke sighed. “These guys turned up missin’. Unless somebody identified their naked bodies, they’re listed as AWOL or unaccounted for. You show up with their name, rank, and serial number, who do you think they’re gonna pin the murder on? Or the swipin’ of the uni?”

“I get it.”

“Yeah, huh?”

“So, what do you do, put a new name patch on? Make a new ID?”

“Yeah, only I mix and match. Well, here, first see if this one fits. It’s the biggest I got.”

“I can see already it’s going to be short.”