The Laws of our Fathers (52 page)

    'Yeah,' he said. 'Old Loopy Lucy Loo says she's gonna truck on with you.'

    'That's what she tells me. She needs to get away. She's been doing this heartbreak thing?' 'That's how it is?' Hobie said.

    'That's how it is,' I answered. 'So if you hear the Mounties are saying "Groovy" instead of "We always get our man," you'll know why.' I wanted badly to amuse him. I wanted him to be what he had always been - my friend. He smiled somewhat. ‘I was kind of hoping you'd have come around to say farewell.'

    'Well, you know how it is, man. I got a few serious problems here. Kind of layin low.'

    'Somebody looking for you?'

    'Could be yes. Sort of hoping no.' I wasn't sure how much I could ask. With his unfaltering ear for language, Hobie had mastered the urban accent that had never been his. His father, I knew, would slap him if he heard him talking like that. That was the point, I guess. Hobie'd taken everything his father had wanted him to care about and put it in another generation's wrapper. Two thousand miles away, removed from the vast penumbra of Gurney's influence, he was going about the business of being a man on his own terms. As was so often the case with Hobie, I found no comfort in any comparisons to myself.

    From far away on the quad, a cheer went up. The strikers were making noise. Hobie, with weary immobility, looked back toward the window, where a black shade was drawn, and made an elderly sound.

    'These kids got Tricky in a tight spot, man. He just gone
have
to stop that war, or else they ain't never gonna go back to school.' Hobie was tickled by the thought.

    'They're doing what they can, Hobie.'

    He lifted a hand. He didn't really care. We waited.

    'We talking ARC?' I asked. 'Is that your problem?'

    He didn't stir, as he mulled answering. ‘I didn't do shit but what you know about, if that's what you're asking. Then again, seems as how that may be enough. Been hearin about a fingerprint on that piece of a can they picked up.'

    'Oh, Hobie. Jesus Christ.' After the first wave of distress, I realized this was what June must have meant.

    ‘I get all this from one of Cleveland's fucked-up comrades. These dudes, you know, could just be blowin my mind. On the other hand' - Hobie actually lifted the gun and put it to his temple - 'sucker might come in handy.' He smiled. 'Or shoot the pig comes through the door for me.' Very briefly, he pointed the pistol in my direction.

    'Let's do a retake on that one.'

    Hobie shrugged. I could be right about that.

    'So what's your bad dream here?' I asked. 'Is Cleveland talking? Is that it?' If Cleveland was strung out, he would be easy to roll. He might even have turned over by now, although the Eddgars claimed that Cleveland's weekend visitors had bucked him up. Hobie denied there was any cause for concern.

    'Cleveland, man - Cleveland's the baddest mother ever shit between two shoes.'

    'So he's not talking?'

    'He ain talkin, less he wants to talk. You know, maybe he said some things. Maybe he's tryin to catch a few fools' attention.' I could hear in the steady drumbeat with which these assurances rolled that Hobie had uttered them often in the last few days. 'See, man, this is just, you know, a little internal struggle. Eldridge and Huey, man - Huey is kind of a strange motherfucker. Can be very abstract about stuff. Very cold. He's gone be comin out any day now. Cleveland was more in with Eldridge and them. Now Huey's saying, you know, like peddling dope and all, that isn't any kind of revolutionary act. You know? And all the fucker's really meanin is that the party didn't get a righteous enough piece.'

    I nodded.

    'So you know, Cleveland, man, he's feelin a distinct lack of solidarity. I mean there're 20,000 people in the streets of New Haven for Bobby and back here nobody can't even be bothered to throw Cleveland's bail. Maybe the brother said something to attract some attention. But that's dialogue, man. Dialectics. This is an ideological debate, you know? Stalin and Lenin.'

    'And which one's going to tell on you, Hobie? Stalin or Lenin?'

    He gave me a sick smile to show he did not enjoy being mocked. He never had.

    'If Cleveland turns, that's your ass, right?'

    'Cleveland ain turnin. Not on no brothers. That's for sure.' I knew he was persuading himself. But even with what he admitted - that Cleveland might give up a few ofays - I could see what worried the Eddgars.

    'You could turn first, Hobe. You know, you didn't do anything. You could explain.'

    'Ain no snitch.' He lowered his voice. He gestured with the gun. 'They-all'd kill my ass anyway.' That was what Bobby was on trial for in New Haven - killing an informer.

    I could have chided Hobie, pointed out what a mess he'd made for himself, but today it would have been hypocritical. If I told him what I was doing with the Eddgars, there'd be no end to the names he'd call me. We'd both been overcome by something that still seemed to me to have started out so right. It was like a party where the good times - the music, the dancing, the girls, the excitement - had unaccountably led to disaster. I felt sorry for us both.

    'For your information, the Eddgars seem to have a plan for Cleveland's bail. So maybe you can holster your weapon. He should be on the street soon.'

    'The Eddgars,' said Hobie. 'Fuck. Ain nothing come free with them.'

    'But you'll be okay then, right?'

    He moved his shoulders in the same inconclusive way he'd done a number of times already. He didn't really know. It might be better. A moment passed.

    'Are you scared?' I asked him.

    He considered that, the sorrowful brown eyes dead still on me. The Panthers didn't know fear.

    'This here, man, is Vietnam. It's like a bad trip wide awake, and you ain't got that little edge to hold to, tellin yourself that it's bound to wear off. I haven't slept but an hour, two hours in two days. The wrong dude comes through that door? "These are the days of our lives, bubba." '

    'So get the hell out of here. Put on your PF Flyers and jump higher and run faster than anybody else. Come to Canada. How about that? Hope and Crosby do another road movie?'

    A familiar whimsy shot through his face, then wore away. He shook his head no, decisively.

    'I'm cool here. Bros be lookin out for me.'

    When I left, he roused himself and, after an instant of deliberation in which he pretended to be staggering around, raised his arms and returned my embrace. He kept the pistol in his hand for the instant we were connected. When I turned for the door, he spoke a few words to me in French, one of his typically stylish gestures, although he knew it was a language I didn't speak. I caught the words
'mon ami.'
I was sure it was a movie line, but I couldn't recall the picture.

    When I got back to the Campus Travel Motel, Eddgar was there. I had taken the key, and when I came in I had an odd sense I was intruding on some intimacy, although there was nothing lewd about the pose in which I found June and him. They were seated on the facing sides of the twin beds, their heads drawn close. Clearly they'd been whispering, defeating some unknown surveillant, controlling the random element. As I entered, Eddgar's face shot around, the intense blue eyes riveted, as always, by anger and suspicion.

    'My Lord, Seth. We've been sitting here hoping like hell, just hoping they didn't run into you.' 'Who's that?'

    Eddgar looked at June. From the thick smell of her cigarettes and the butts in the ashtray I could see they had been talking quite some time - probably as long as I'd been gone.

    'Apparently we've had visitors at the apartment building, asking questions,' she said.

    What kind of questions? I asked.

    'I didn't see them,' Eddgar said. 'Michael talked to them. I spoke to him over the phone. He said they were asking about you: How long since you were last seen? Who was with you then? Any signs of struggle, unusual sounds last night?'

    'Bullshit,' I said.

    'I wish it were,' said Eddgar.

    'What did he tell them?'

    'Nothing,' said Eddgar. 'He didn't know anything. He was on his way to look over his lab, so he didn't have time. You know how hard it is to get a word out of him normally. But it's damn clear to me they thought you'd been kidnapped.'

    'God. Who? Who was it?'

    'Michael said they showed him credentials.' Eddgar looked briefly to June, before me. 'It was the FBI,' he said.

    

    

    
Sonny

    Often, there are evenings out, unavoidable occasions. On these nights, I race home to fetch Nikki from aftercare, feed her, and, with luck, get her in her pjs. Then Marta Stern's live-in nanny, Everarda, an effervescent Nicaraguan immigrant, takes over. She has been filling in for me for years now, when Marta has no plans herself. Early to bed, Everarda prefers to stay over in the small first-floor guest room behind the kitchen, walking the three blocks back to Maria's at dawn. It's a wonderful arrangement for me. Nikki loves Everarda and her accent, which she imitates with uncanny accuracy, even, in her most pettish moments, to the woman's face. Everarda pays no mind. She is one of those women who knows that the real purpose of the world, unaffected by couturier dresses, rap albums, or political payoffs in the men's room of the Club Delancey, is the nurturance of children, and that in that critical field, no one exceeds her wisdom. She calls Nikki

    'Nina' and moves her through her evening routine as smoothly as if my daughter were a puppet on strings.

    With her overnight bag, Everarda comes in, shaking off the snow, which has just begun falling and lies thick on the false-fur collar of her coat. She is full of gossip. Marta, pregnant with her third baby, is varicose and swollen, and put out with her husband, Solomon, a management consultant. 'Solomon, he gone all de time? She war yellin, you know? He god to come home. He gib her kisses. He send her flowers. He just smile.' Everarda smiles too at Solomon's patience. He is a thin dark man. His family are expats, Jews from Cuba who arrived there in the seventeenth century. He's as dark as someone Maltese or Sri Lankan, a person bred of the blood of many nations.

    Tonight's event is a retirement dinner for Cyrus Ringler, former Chief Justice of the Supreme Court, for whom I clerked for a couple of years right after law school. Law clerks spend their first year or two as lawyers, an intensely formative period, at a judge's side, seeing first-hand how the flesh of real life hangs on the raw bones of law-school learning. Much as racehorses are always identified by sire and dam, clerks are forever known by their judges, and it is perhaps my proudest heritage in the law to be a 'Ringler clerk.'

    Accordingly, I must go tonight. I drive faster than I should through the pelting snow to the Center City, parking in the indoor lot at the Hotel Gresham. 1 walk across the street to the Parker, where Justice Ringler is being saluted by the City of Hope. It's the end of cocktails, just as the five hundred lawyers and pols and judges are moving to their seats, making their last efforts to work the room. I hold a number of conversations at bay, so I can get close enough to the elevated dais to make sure Cy Ringler sees me - he blows a kiss and waves. From his color, I can tell he's already a little drunk, enjoying his last hurrah. A former Kindle County PA, the Justice, as I will forever call him to his face, is one of those redoubtable men of the law who gathered respect as he rose by refusing to break the rules for political purpose. He was not inflexible or unrealistic; but he always knew the outer limits. Even so, he was a fabulous compromiser around the court. He hated dissents, felt they diminished the authority of decisions, and loved to find procedural gimmicks allowing divisive issues to be passed back to the lower courts. Marjoe, who's had cancer twice in the last five years, is beside him, wasted-looking, but bearing up. She must fly a hairdresser in from the corn belt. Where else could she even find somebody to do her hair like that, tightly curled and flattened down around her ears like a bonnet?

    Oddly, in this environment, surrounded by most of the Tri-Cities legal notables, I feel more than anywhere else the extraordinary attention Nile Eddgar's trial has generated. My neighbors in U. Park are too circumspect to speak to me about my job, and it has been no task, given my schedule, to avoid the papers and the news. I've caught sight of headlines now and then, but it's only tonight I fully sense how closely the case is being watched. Everyone passes a word about it. 'Ooh, you got a hot one,' Manny Escobedo, another of the Supreme Court Justices, tells me. Cal Taft, a bar president, remarks, ‘I don't have to ask what you've been doing, do I?' I glow with the neon of celebrity. The judges all quietly inquire how the bastard cornered me into a bench trial. I smile and keep my answers nondescript, which, in the strange ballet of accepted mannerisms at work here, is taken as a perfect response.

    Seated at a table of former Ringler clerks and their spouses, I endure the usual struggle getting a vegetarian meal. The waiters in their cutaways look at me as if I'm a heathen. Who wouldn't want that baked chicken, rigid as a hockey puck? I have asked to sit next to Milan Dornich, who was my co-clerk for a year. When I split with Charlie, Mike Dornich was one of those guys who came to my mind; mild, angular, witty. With Malta one night, watching Nikki play with Clara, Malta's older daughter, I confessed these thoughts. Marta was alarmed. 'Jesus, Sonny,' she whispered, 'he's gay.' I realized instantly she was right, and felt amazed by myself, the way we forever see others through the lens

    of our own needs. Always happy for one another's company, Mike and I whisper together, conspiring over the absurdity of the event. The $200 I spent for two tickets, one of them unused, is a mild extravagance. Many lawyers from our era have rounded the bend into plum law-firm partnerships. Daniella Grizzi, my immediate predecessor in Ringler's chambers, makes millions every year in her P.I. practice and is listed as a $10,000 patron of the event. Only Mike Dornich, now second in command at the State Appellate Defenders, and I remain in the public sector, the poor mice at a banquet of fat rats.