The Law of Becoming: 4 (The Novels of the Jaran) (24 page)

Hyacinth rose as well. “No. Now let me say this, because I’m the only other person here who’s gone through what Diana is going through, and I care about her very much. Hell, I even like you. Portia deserves better than you two fighting all the time.”

The mention of Portia stopped Anatoly. He looked for her. She had found little Evdokia, and the two girls were giggling at something Ilyana Arkhanov was telling them. The two boys had lost themselves in the crowd, but Ilyana herself inevitably stood out: She had her father’s beauty as well as a precociously self-possessed manner. Born into the Arkhanov line, she would have been a fine candidate for etsana of the Arkhanov tribe, had her mother stayed with her family, as she should have.

“Diana is stuck with you, Anatoly.”

The comment jerked Anatoly out of his wandering thoughts. “Diana is my wife!”

“By jaran law. I don’t recall that she has taken any steps under Earth laws to marry you, except for the child-license certificate, and that’s simply a legal agreement. I notice she no longer wears the scar of marriage.”

Stung, Anatoly defended himself. “We agreed that because of her work it had to be covered up. It isn’t really gone. That had nothing to do with our marriage.”

“Except that she can’t leave you because she’s all you have here, and she knows it. I felt the same way about Yevgeni for a long time. But he wasn’t too proud to change. You are.”

Drilled in a harsh school of manners, Anatoly only barely stopped himself from slugging Hyacinth right there in front of everyone. But Hyacinth was a Singer, and Singers were allowed to say whatever they wanted to, even to a prince of the jaran. Even to a prince who was not a prince in these lands. Gods, he knew in his heart that Hyacinth was right. But he felt helpless to do anything about it. He had no family, no tribe, to give him stature, and wars, as Diana constantly pointed out, were old-fashioned here.

“Nor did I ask Yevgeni, obviously, to take the kind of risk you demanded of Diana, that she have a child, which we all knew would endanger her life because of the incompatibilities.”

“It was her choice as well!”

“She had that child for you.”

“She loves Portia! She’s a fine mother to our daughter! You know it’s true.”

“It’s nice to hear you defending her, for once.” Hyacinth smiled slightly, if sadly.

Anatoly suddenly realized why he didn’t want to like Hyacinth. It wasn’t truly that Hyacinth was a lover of men, although that was bad enough. It was that he felt sorry for Anatoly. That was worse than any insult. “I offered my services to the Duke years ago,” he said finally, roughly, “for the—”

“Yes, for
that
.” They never used the word “rebellion.”

“His councilors sent a message to tell me that I must wait. So I have waited. I have tried to learn about this place, even though half of it seems to be shadows and air. What else is there for me to do?”

“We are going into Chapalii space now. Finally. We’ll have unprecedented access to their—well, to their lands.”

“To zayinu lands.”

“Maybe this is what Charles Soerensen has been telling you to wait for.”

During his seven years on Earth, Anatoly had found a dark corner of himself that he had not known existed. He hated it and feared it in equal measure, but it had grown steadily. What if Duke Charles had told him to wait not because he had a jahar for Anatoly to lead at some distant point, but because he had no use at all for an exiled jaran prince? At first, certainly, Anatoly had thought that Bakhtiian’s army could sweep as easily across Earth as across Rhui, since no one here seemed versed in the ways of war and no one carried weapons and there were no fortresses except as museums. He knew better now. “I—” he began, and stopped. He could not bring himself to say it aloud.
I’ve mounted a horse that’s too wild and too strong for me to ride.
Bad enough that they all pitied him covertly. He could not stand it if they did it openly.

“We live longer. You know that. So we take longer to make decisions and to take action, because we have the luxury of taking time. We don’t even know how long the Chapalii live. They seem to be even more leisurely than we are. It doesn’t mean you aren’t wanted—”

“I didn’t say I thought I wasn’t wanted! Of course I—” Anatoly broke off and lapsed into silence.

“—it means,” Hyacinth went on, “a lot of things. Your people fell in love with the vision of destiny, and it’s like a great engine turning at high speed. It’s huge, and it’s visible, and it has immense weight and force. We don’t work that way anymore. The Machine Age is over. And right now, especially, we can’t. We have to work in insubstantial ways. We have to work under the surface.”

“You understand about the way your world is like the breath of Father Wind, all air and ghosts.”

Hyacinth chuckled. “What other way should it be? No, I’m not laughing at you. I think I see what you mean. Listen. Talk to Gwyn Jones.”

“Why Gwyn Jones?”

“Because he is… oh, I guess I could say he is the dyan of the new jahar that’s forming. A scouting jahar.”

At once, Anatoly bridled. “I was a dyan—”

“In Bakhtiian’s army. Were you born a dyan?”

“No! I earned the right just as any soldier must.”

“Mother of Gods, Sakhalin, you’re not stupid. I’ve seen you use the net. You speak our language very well, and I’ve heard you working at the Chapalii language, which most of us are too damned intimidated to even try to grasp. So earn the right here, as well. That’s what I’ve been trying to say all along. You want them to come to you and give it to you because of who you are. But you wouldn’t have expected that from Bakhtiian, or at least you say you wouldn’t have.”

Anatoly flared. “One thing Bakhtiian learned from my cousin Yaroslav: that a boy must earn his saber and a soldier earn his command.”

“Then I’ve made my point.”

Fuming, Anatoly found Diana in the crowd—now she was talking with the good-looking man who built the lights for the plays—and he was filled with an immense irritation that she seemed so interested in the other man. It was bad manners for a woman to flirt openly with another man when her husband was around to see. Portia, still giggling, sidled up to her mother, and Diana hoisted her up without even looking at her and continued talking, her face so animated, so bright.

Anatoly looked away. The sight of them together pained him too much. At that moment, more than anything, he wanted to ask Hyacinth: How do I make my wife love me again? But he could not.

Ilyana wondered if she could throw herself out an air lock, up here in space, on a transfer station whose knobbly docks were like blunt fingers from which the webs that connected the vast reaches of space together were woven and sent into the heavens. It just wasn’t fair. She had said g’bye to Kori at Victoria Station and then hid her tears on the long ride to Nairobi Port by pressing her face up against the glass and staring out the window at the sea until her father had grown tired of entertaining Evdokia and Anton and left them in her care while he went forward to the salon car. But Kori’s Uncle Gus had taken her aside right before they’d left and told her that he was also negotiating for a tour into Chapalii space; that if he managed it, he’d bring Kori with him. Ilyana clung to that faint hope.

Darling Portia ran over to giggle with Evdokia and then wiggled away to go to her mother. Ilyana glanced quickly around the room but did not see Portia’s father anywhere.

“Yana! My dear girl. You’ve grown again. How nice to see you.” Dejhuti and Seshat, Yomi and Joseph, Oriana, Phillippe, and Ginny all came up to greet her, and Phillippe, as usual, tugged on her braid. She would have kicked him, but that would have been childish. Owen was so engrossed in his conversation with a man Ilyana vaguely recognized but could not place that he only acknowledged Vasil with a sketchy wave of the hand without giving him any attention at all. But Vasil insinuated himself into the conversation anyway. He was like those kids who always have to be where the center of attention is.

By now overexcited, Evdokia was beginning to run in circles, so Ilyana led her back to their mother and sat down with her. Nipper stood guard over Karolla, who had yet to regain her strength even though the baby was now three months old. Nor had she begun her courses again, and because of the child’s blemish, Karolla could not name the infant until she had offered the blood of her body to Grandmother Night, so that She might forgive the blemish on the body and allow the child to live.

Karolla gave her daughter a tired smile and let Evdokia crawl up onto her lap. “It’s a pity about them,” she said.

“About who?” asked Ilyana suspiciously. She hated it when her mother gossiped.

“That they haven’t had another child yet.
Porzhia
is a sweet girl, and they ought to have had another one by now.” She clicked her tongue disapprovingly. “It’s no wonder they argue so much.”

Ilyana caught sight of Anatoly Sakhalin on the other side of the room. Like a good soldier, he stood alert and on guard, surveying the crowd for danger. He
was
really old, almost as old as her mother, but still…the boys her own age were just so uninteresting. Most of them didn’t even know how to ride a horse. They hadn’t commanded a jahar. They hadn’t captured a king. She bit at her lower lip and looked around to see that her mother was eyeing her speculatively. At once, Ilyana clasped her hands in her lap and fixed her gaze on her knuckles.

“If you had completed your woman’s passage,” said Karolla suddenly, “you could name the baby in my stead.”

Ilyana felt her ears burn. She said nothing.

“A prince of the Sakhalin would be an appropriate choice for a girl’s first lover,” continued her mother relentlessly. Ilyana would have clapped her hands over her ears, but it wouldn’t have done any good. “You are sixteen years old, Yana, and you began your courses two years ago. It’s past time for your
tsadokhis
night. When I was your age—”

“You had four ankle bracelets to show you’d had four lovers. You were married just before you turned seventeen. I know. I know. You’ve told me all this before.”

“You will show me the respect I am due, child!”

Ilyana could not stand it anymore. She leapt up and hurried off into the crowd, knowing Karolla would not follow.

She promptly careened into a man.

“I beg your pardon,” she gasped, preparing to bolt.

Her victim chuckled. “If only I had that much energy. You’re Ilyana Arkhanov, aren’t you?”

Stuck, Ilyana slanted a glance up at him. He was the man Owen had been talking to. He had a pleasant face and an open expression, and like all adults, he looked old. Not old like dying-old, because she knew that here on Earth most people lived for a long long time without ever looking like Elders, but so old that Ilyana couldn’t quite imagine that she herself would ever be
that
old. But he looked approachable. “Yes,” she agreed. “I’m sorry, I don’t remember you.”

“No reason you should. I won’t embarrass you by telling you how young you were and how much you’ve grown since I saw you last.” He grinned, and, tentatively, Ilyana grinned back. “I’m David ben Unbutu, by the way. Pleased to meet you.”

“Pleased to meet you,” Ilyana echoed. “Do you know M. Zerentous? Are you one of the new actors?”

“I know Ginny better than Owen, and no, I’m not an actor. I’m—well, it looks as if I’ll be traveling with you. I’ve done that before, when the company went to Rhui.”

“Oh,” said Ilyana, enlightened. “I think I sort of maybe remember you. Didn’t you—aren’t you the one who painted the portraits of Tess Soerensen and Bakhtiian, in Jeds? I used to come watch you paint.”

Now he really smiled, so that it creased his face with warmth. “You knocked over the easel once while Tess was doing a sitting.”

Ilyana giggled. “Only because I tripped. I didn’t mean to, and it ruined the painting, but then you said you had barely started and it didn’t matter.”

“In fact, when I started over, I realized that I’d had the wrong image in my mind, so really I should thank you for it. It’s as if you knocked my preconceived notions to the ground and made me rethink them.”

Ilyana smiled and tried to think of something to say.

“If you don’t mind my asking,” he went on, “why
did
your father come back to the repertory company? I’m surprised he walked away from the string of successes he’s been having.”

“Uh,” said Ilyana, tensing, “I dunno.”

“Well, never mind,” said M. Unbutu quickly. “No doubt the artistic rewards are greater. Have you heard that we’re going straight to Duke Naroshi’s palace? It’s said that it was designed by his sister. In Chapalii culture, she’s evidently a renowned architect.” He hesitated.

“No one knows much about Chapalii architecture,” Ilyana said into the silence, enthusiastic now. “I did my last year’s depth survey on it, but there wasn’t much—” Another scrap of memory swam into sight. “
You
compiled one of the files I used as a reference, didn’t you?”

His eyes widened, and she saw she had surprised him. “It’s a hobby of mine, yes. I know which program you mean. It doesn’t get a lot of use-tags. Most people only pick and choose and browse through the upper layers. As I recall, I only got fifty complete downloads of that file all last year.”

“Well! One of them was me!”

“I’m
not
going to fall into the trap of asking you how old you are,” he said with a laugh. “What interested you in Chapalii architecture? The architecture, or the Chapalii?”

“Oh. I like buildings and stuff. I dunno why. It’s just sort of, the way they’re built, and then to look at them and I just like them, and I really like to do the unbuilding programs in nesh. That’s my depth survey for this year, an unbuilding project on ancient temple complexes.” She stopped, hearing how stupid she sounded.

“Have you picked any particular complexes?”

“Well, uh, I thought maybe Karnak.”

This time when he smiled, he looked more like a child planning mischief than a responsible adult. “How about the Imperial Palace?”

“The one in… uh…” Ilyana felt an urgent and discomforting need to impress him. “…Beijing?”