The Last Chronicle of Barset (94 page)

‘I would be left alone.'

‘But what harm has been done you? From what you yourself have told me, I know that Miss Crawley has said the same thing to you that she has said to your father. You can't but admire her for the feeling.'

‘I admire her for everything.'

‘Very well. We don't say anything against that.'

‘And I don't mean to give her up.'

‘Very well again. Let us hope that Mr Crawley will be acquitted, and then all will be right. Your father never goes back from his promise. He is always better than his word. You'll find that if Mr Crawley is acquitted, or if he escapes in any way, your father will only be happy for an excuse to make much of the young lady. You should not be hard on him, Henry. Don't you see that it is his one great desire to keep you near him? The sight of those odious bills nearly broke his heart.'

‘Then why did he threaten me?'

‘Henry, you are obstinate.'

‘I am not obstinate, mother.'

‘Yes, you are. You remember nothing, and you forget nothing. You expect everything to be made smooth for you, and will do nothing
towards making things smooth for anybody else. You ought to promise to give up the sale. If the worst came to the worst, your father would not let you suffer in pocket for yielding to him so much.'

‘If the worst comes to the worst, I wish to take nothing from my father.'

‘You won't put off the sale, then?'

The son paused a moment before he answered his mother, thinking over all the circumstances of his position. ‘I cannot do so as long as I am subject to my father's threat,' he said at last. ‘What took place between my father and Miss Crawley can go for nothing with me. He has told me that his allowance to me is to be withdrawn. Let him tell me that he has reconsidered the matter.'

‘But he has not withdrawn it. The last quarter was paid to your account only the other day. He does not mean to withdraw it.'

‘Let him tell me so; let him tell me that my power of living at Cosby Lodge does not depend on my marriage – that my income will be continued to me whether I marry or no, and I'll arrange matters with the auctioneer tomorrow. You can't suppose that I should prefer to live in France.'

‘Henry, you are too hard on your father.'

‘I think, mother, he has been too hard upon me.'

‘It is you that are to blame now. I tell you plainly that that is my opinion. If evil comes of it, it will be your own fault.'

‘If evil come of it I must bear it.'

‘A son ought to give up something to his father – especially to a father so indulgent as yours.'

But it was of no use. And Mrs Grantly when she went to her bed could only lament in her own mind over what, in discussing the matter afterwards with her sister, she called the cross-grainedness of men. They are as like each other as two peas,' she said, ‘and though each of them wished to be generous, neither of them would condescend to be just.' Early on the following morning there was, no doubt, much said on the subject between the archdeacon and his wife before they met their son at breakfast; but neither at breakfast nor afterwards was there a word said between the father and the son that had the slightest reference to the subject in dispute between them. The
archdeacon made no more speeches in favour of land, nor did he revert to the foxes. He was very civil to his son – too civil by half, as Mrs Grantly continued to say to herself. And then the major drove himself away in his cart, going through Barchester, so that he might see his grandfather. When he wished his father good-bye, the archdeacon shook hands with him, and said something about the chance of rain. Had he not better take the big umbrella? The major thanked him courteously, and said that he did not think it would rain. Then he was gone. ‘Upon his own head be it,' said the archdeacon when his son's step was heard in the passage leading to the backyard. Then Mrs Grantly got up quietly and followed her son. She found him settling himself in his dog-cart, while the servant who was to accompany him was still at the horse's head. She went up close to him, and, standing by the wheel of the gig, whispered a word or two into his ear. ‘If you love me, Henry, you will postpone the sale. Do it for my sake.' There came across his face a look of great pain, but he answered her not a word.

The archdeacon was walking about the room striking one hand open with the other closed, clearly in a tumult of anger, when his wife returned to him. ‘I have done all that I can,' he said – ‘all that I can; more, indeed, than was becoming for me. Upon his own head be it. Upon his own head be it!'

‘What is it that you fear?' she asked.

‘I fear nothing. But if he chooses to sell his things at Cosby Lodge he must abide the consequences. They shall not be replaced with my money.'

‘What will it matter if he does sell them?'

‘Matter! Do you think there is a single person in the county who will not know that his doing so is a sign that he has quarrelled with me?'

‘But he has not quarrelled with you.'

‘I can tell you, then, that in that case I shall have quarrelled with him! I have not been a hard father, but there are some things which a man cannot bear. Of course you will take his part.'

‘I am taking no part. I only want to see peace between you.'

‘Peace! – yes; peace indeed. I am to yield in everything. I am to be
nobody. Look here – as sure as ever an auctioneer's hammer is raised at Cosby Lodge, I will alter the settlement of the property. Every acre shall belong to Charles. There is my word for it.' The poor woman had nothing more to say – nothing more to say at that moment. She thought that at the present conjuncture her husband was less in the wrong than her son, but she could not tell him so lest she should strengthen him in his wrath.

Henry Grantly found his grandfather in bed, with Posy seated on the bed beside him. ‘My father told me that you were not quite well, and I thought that I would look in,' said the major.

‘Thank you, my dear – it is very good of you. There is not much the matter with me, but I am not quite so strong as I was once.' And the old man smiled as he held his grandson's hand.

‘And how is cousin Posy?' said the major.

‘Posy is quite well – isn't she, my darling?' said the old man.

‘Grandpa doesn't go to the cathedral now,' said Posy; ‘so I come in to talk to him. Don't I, grandpa?'

‘And to play cat's-cradle – only we have not had any cat's-cradle this morning – have we, Posy?'

‘Mrs Baxter told me not to play this morning, because it's cold for grandpa to sit up in bed,' said Posy.

When the major had been there about twenty minutes he was preparing to take his leave – but Mr Harding, bidding Posy to go out of the room, told his grandson that he had a word to say to him. ‘I don't like to interfere, Henry,' he said, ‘but I am afraid that things are not quite smooth at Plumstead.'

‘There is nothing wrong between me and my mother,' said the major.

‘God forbid that there should be; but, my dear boy, don't let there by anything wrong between you and your father. He is a good man, and the time will come when you will be proud of his memory.'

‘I am proud of him now.'

‘Then be gentle with him – and submit yourself. I am an old man now – very fast going away from all those I love here. But I am happy in leaving my children because they have ever been gentle to me and kind. If I am permitted to remember them whither I am going, my
thoughts of them will all be pleasant. Should it not be much to them that they have made my death-bed happy?'

The major could not but tell himself that Mr Harding had been a man easy to please, easy to satisfy, and, in that respect, very different from his father. But of course he said nothing of this. ‘I will do my best,' he replied.

‘Do, my boy. Honour thy father – that thy days may be long in the land.'
²

It seemed to the major as he drove away from Barchester that everybody was against him; and yet he was sure that he himself was right. He could not give up Grace Crawley; and unless he were to do so he could not live at Cosby Lodge.

One morning, while Lily Dale was staying with Mrs Thorne in London, there was brought up to her room, as she was dressing for dinner, a letter which the postman had just left for her. The address was written with a feminine hand, and Lily was at once aware that she did not know the writing. The angles were very acute, and the lines were very straight, and the vowels looked to be cruel and false, with their sharp points and their open eyes. Lily at once knew that it was the performance of a woman who had been taught to write at school, and not at home, and she became prejudiced against the writer before she opened the letter. When she opened the letter and read it, her feelings towards the writer were not of a kindly nature. It was as follows:–

‘A lady presents her compliments to Miss L. D. and earnestly implores Miss L. D. to give her an answer to the following question. Is Miss L. D. engaged to marry Mr J. E.? The lady in question pledges herself not to interfere with Miss L. D. in any way, should the answer
be in the affirmative. The lady earnestly requests that a reply to this question may be sent to M. D., Post-office, 455 Edgware Road. In order that L. D. may not doubt that M. D. has an interest in J. E., M. D. encloses the last note she received from him before he started for the Continent.' Then there was a scrap, which Lily well knew to be in the handwriting of John Eames, and the scrap was as follows:– ‘Dearest M. – Punctually at 8.30. Ever and always your unalterable J. E.' Lily, as she read this, did not comprehend that John's note to M. D. had been in itself a joke.

Lily Dale had heard of anonymous letters before, but had never received one, or even seen one. Now that she had one in her hand, it seemed to her that there could be nothing more abominable than the writing of such a letter. She let it drop from her as though the receiving, and opening, and reading it had been a stain to her. As it lay on the ground at her feet, she trod upon it.

Of what sort could a woman be who wrote such a letter as that? Answer it! Of course she would not answer it. It never occurred to her for a moment that it could become her to answer it. Had she been at home or with her mother, she would have called her mother to her, and Mrs Dale would have taken it from the ground, and have read it, and then destroyed it. As it was, she must pick it up herself. She did so, and declared to herself that there should be an end to it. It might be right that somebody should see it, and therefore she would show it to Emily Dunstable. After that it should be destroyed.

Of course the letter could have no effect upon her. So she told herself. But it did have a very strong effect, and probably the exact effect which the writer had intended that it should have. J. E. was, of course, John Eames. There was no doubt about that. What a fool the writer must have been to talk of L. D. in the letter, when the outside cover was plainly addressed to Miss Lilian Dale! But there are some people for whom the pretended mystery of initial letters has a charm, and who love the darkness of anonymous letters. As Lily thought of this, she stamped on the letter again. Who was the M. D. to whom she was required to send an answer – with whom John Eames corresponded in the most affectionate terms? She had resolved not even to ask herself a question about M. D., and yet she could not
divert her mind from the inquiry. It was, at any rate, a fact that there must be some woman designated by the letters – some woman who had, at any rate, chosen to call herself M. D. And John Eames had called her M. There must, at any rate, be such a woman. This female, be she who she might, had thought it worth her while to make this inquiry about John Eames, and had manifestly learned something of Lily's own history. And the woman had pledged herself not to interfere with John Eames, if L. D. would only condescend to say that she was engaged to him! As Lily thought of the proposition, she trod upon the letter for the third time. Then she picked it up, and having no place of custody under lock and key ready to her hand she put it in her pocket.

At night, before she went to bed, she showed the letter to Emily Dunstable. ‘Is it not surprising that any woman could bring herself to write such a letter?' said Lily.

But Miss Dunstable hardly saw it in the same light. ‘If anybody were to write me such a letter about Bernard,' she said, ‘I should show it to him as a good joke.'

‘That would be very different. You and Bernard, of course, understand each other.'

‘And so will you and Mr Eames – some day, I hope.'

‘Never more than we do now, dear. The thing that annoys me is that such a woman as that should have even heard my name at all.'

‘As long as people have got ears and tongues, people will hear other people's names.'

Lily paused a moment, and then spoke again, asking another question. ‘I suppose this woman does know him? She must know him, because he has written to her.'

‘She knows something about him, no doubt, and has some reason for wishing that you should quarrel with him. If I were you, I should take care not to gratify her. As for Mr Eames's note, it is a joke.'

‘It is nothing to me,' said Lily.

‘I suppose,' continued Emily, ‘that most gentlemen become acquainted with some people that they would not wish all their friends to know that they knew. They go about so much more than we do, and meet people of all sorts.'

‘No gentleman should become intimately acquainted with a woman who could write such a letter as that,' said Lily. And as she spoke she remembered a certain episode to John Eames's early life, which had reached her from a source which she had not doubted, and which had given her pain and offended her. She had believed that John Eames had in that case behaved very cruelly to a young woman, and had thought that her offence had come simply from that feeling. ‘But of course it is nothing to me,' she said. ‘Mr Eames can choose his friends as he likes. I only wish that my name might not be mentioned to them.'