The Janus Stone (23 page)

'Have they run aground?' asks Nelson.

Max listens. 'No. I think they're through. That was the sound of the hull hitting the side of the bridge.'

'Will it have damaged the boat?'

'Yes,' says Max sadly.

'Good,' says Nelson, 'then we've got more chance of catching them. Can you get us through the bridge?'

'I'm going to try,' says Max.

For a few seconds the boat is in complete darkness. Ruth sits crouched on the floor wondering what the hell is happening. The noise continues, like a thousand nails scraping along a blackboard. Then, as suddenly as it started, it stops and the light outside the window is grey once more. Ruth stands up and looks around the boat. At the end is Max's bed, neatly made, with Elizabeth's dog on the pillow. Above the bed is a hatch that looks as if it slides open. Ruth tries to think about the geography of the boat. If she gets out of the hatch can she possibly edge around the side of the boat and take Roderick by surprise? It will be dangerous, the fog is thick and Ruth is not exactly agile at the best of times, even if she wasn't four months pregnant. But she has to try.

She climbs onto the bed and tries the catch. To her delight the hatch opens easily, sliding back to create a hole big enough to climb through. Gingerly, she sticks her head out. The air is cold and the mist seems almost solid, as if it will take an effort to cut through it. Come on, Ruth, she tells herself, you can do it. It's only a bit of fog, what harm can it do you? But the grey world outside fills her with dread. And she is afraid, horribly afraid, of the elderly monster at the helm of the boat. She begins to shiver so violently that her teeth chatter and it is only by a massive effort of will that she forces herself to move. You owe it to the baby, she tells herself, you have to get her to safety. This last thought is strong enough to get her foot on the edge of the hatch.

She finds herself standing on the very front of the boat, the prow. Luckily it is flat though it rocks slightly beneath her feet. Can Sir Roderick see her? She doesn't think so. She can hardly see her own hands as they feel for the side of the boat. Thank God there is a handrail. Slowly, quietly, she begins to crawl towards the stern.

They sense rather than see the bridge. A feeling that some large, solid structure is nearby. Then, without warning, they are plunged into darkness. Nelson sees Max's knuckles white on the wheel and hears Cathbad's sharp intake of breath. Then the greyness is around them again.

'Well done,' says Nelson to Max. 'Where are we now?'

'Heading towards Horsey Mere,' says Max.

'And they're here too?'

'They must be right ahead of us.'

It is like voyaging into the afterlife. They have left behind the solid world and entered into a dream state, moving silently between billowing white clouds. There is nothing to anchor them to their surroundings: no landmarks, no sounds, no earth or sky. There is only this slow progress through the endless whiteness, the sound of their own breathing and the lap of the water against the sides of the boat. Nelson, looking at his phone, is not surprised to see that he has no signal. It would have seemed incredible if anything as prosaic as a mobile phone signal could have penetrated this unearthly fog. It is nine o'clock but it could be any time, day or night. There is no moon and no sun, just the grey nothingness all around them.

'It's like crossing the River Kormet into the Land of the Dead,' says Cathbad dreamily.

Max looks round and Nelson sees his eyes gleam through the mist, 'Yes, or the River Styx. Interesting how many mythologies involve river crossings.'

'Spare us the lecture,' says Nelson, who is leaning forward, trying to force the boat onwards through sheer effort of will. 'Can't we go faster than this?'

'No,' says Max. 'We'll be into Candle Dyke soon. I don't want to miss the markers.'

But the dream world gives nothing away.

Sir Roderick appears as if by a particularly malign form of magic. One moment she is moving carefully along the side of the boat, one hand on the rail, whiteness in front and behind, and the next she sees his red face, white hair and wide, surprised eyes. He is standing holding the wheel and Ruth knows that now is her moment. She has the advantage of surprise. Jumping forwards, she launches herself at him.

The wheel slides out of his hands but, for an old man, his reactions are remarkably quick. He throws up an arm and hits Ruth in the face. She stumbles and the knife clatters to the floor. Unmanned, the boat drifts slowly to the left. Ruth scrabbles about frantically for the knife and breathes a sigh of relief when her fingers close around its wooden handle. But when she straightens up she is looking into the barrel of a gun.

CHAPTER 34

At first Ruth assumes that the gun is a fake. There is something polished and old-fashioned about it and, after all, Roderick is an old man, a feeble old windbag who likes to go on trips with the Conservative Association. So, with the gun pointing at her, Ruth says, in a reasonably calm tone, 'Don't be silly. Keep your eye on the boat.'

Roderick's answer is to fire the gun in the air. The shock of the report, coupled with the acrid smell of gunpowder, almost make Ruth vomit again. Like Roderick, the gun may be antique but it is still deadly.

'There you are, my dear,' says Roderick smugly, 'I'm not just a silly old man with a gun, am I? I know how to shoot. I got my Blue at Cambridge.'

Ruth had heard enough about Cambridge to last her a lifetime. Quite suddenly her fear crystallises into anger and she finds herself shouting back, 'I don't care where the hell you went to university. Just let me get off this bloody boat!'

Roderick's answer is to approach her, still smiling, and place the muzzle of the gun firmly in her stomach.

'Be impertinent again, my dear, and I'll shoot your baby dead.'

There is a silence. The boat continues to drift to the left and, in one corner of her mind, Ruth hopes that it will run aground or hit another bridge or something. But the rest of her mind is concentrated feverishly on the madman who is threatening her life—and the life which she now realised is dearer than her own. She stares into Sir Roderick's filmy eyes. There must be something she can say, something that will divert him, will make him see what he is doing, would make him see her as another human being. But then, she remembers, this is a man who killed his own daughter, in cold blood when he was still a teenager. There is no reason to believe that he has learnt humanity in the intervening years.

They continue to look at each other when, suddenly, as if from miles away, Ruth hears a distinct shout of 'Ruth!'

Sir Roderick is momentarily distracted. As he turns away, Ruth shouts, 'Help!' as loudly as she can. Her voice echoes back to her uselessly, deadened by the fog. Sir Roderick wheels back round to face her and Ruth shoots her hand upwards and knocks the gun from his grasp.

'Bitch!' spits Sir Roderick, attempting to hit her across the face. But Ruth is on her knees looking for the gun. She can't see anything but she knows it is here somewhere. Her fingers touch tarpaulin, polished wood, brass and then, miraculously, the cold muzzle of the gun. She stands up and faces Sir Roderick.

'Keep away from me or I'll shoot.'

Sir Roderick laughs, a genuine guffaw this time, probably born of a lifetime of despising women.

'Shoot! Women can't shoot.'

Ruth pulls the trigger.

It was Nelson who had shouted. He hears the first gunshot and yells wildly into the fog though he has no idea where the sound has come from. Then, suddenly, Cathbad calls, 'Look out!' and the
Lady Annabelle
looms out of the mist, heading straight towards them. The little boat now looks vast, a huge black shadow, silent and menacing.

'Ruth!' shouts Nelson again.

He hears someone shout back but can't make out any words. Then he is almost thrown overboard as Max veers frantically to the left, trying to avoid the larger boat.

'What's he playing at?' Nelson yells at Max, his face wet with spray.

'I don't think there's anyone at the helm,' Max shouts back.

Is Sir Roderick dead then? Is he, even now, fighting desperately with Ruth? He cannot allow himself to think that Ruth might be dead. Ruth and his unnamed, unknown, daughter.

'We're in Candle Dyke now,' says Max, and Nelson is suddenly aware that there is space all around them. Before, although they couldn't see the river bank, they knew it was there but now there is nothingness, just a sense of expanding water and silence. The
Lady Annabelle
has vanished again and, high above, they hear the call of seagulls.

'Where the hell have they gone?' yells Nelson.

Then the second gunshot echoes across the water.

That's it. Ignoring Cathbad's warning shout Nelson jumps straight into the river. He has no idea where he is going, he just knows that he can't stand to wait for one second longer, a useless bystander, hearing sounds of gunfire and doing nothing. Somehow he just has to get nearer. He has to get to Ruth.

The water is freezing and the fog seems to have got into his eyes, blinding him, making him choke and gasp. For a few seconds he knows he is going to drown, then some survival instinct makes him strike out, struggling through the black water, his heavy clothes dragging him down.

Then, suddenly, it is in front of him. The hull of the boat, as huge and unattainable as a skyscraper. Treading water, he yells, 'Ruth!'

He hears Max shouting but his voice seems to come from miles away. Nelson can only think about the obstacle in front of him. He has to get on the boat, he has to save Ruth. God knows what that bastard will have done to her. He beats uselessly against the
Lady Annabelle's
metal sides. He can see a rail about a foot above him but there is nothing to grab hold of. He flails wildly and falls back, going under then rising, spluttering, to the surface. As he does so, something heavy hits the water just a few inches away from him.

It is a body, he is sure. He hears how heavily it falls and he knows, without any doubt, that the body will be dead when it hits the water. For a moment, he feels nothing. His entire body, his entire self, is numb. Even as he swims towards the dark shape in the water, he knows that it is all over. He knows that she is dead.

***

Max has been desperately following in the electric boat. He sees Nelson reach the
Lady Annabelle
and try to get a handhold on her side. Max swings the smaller boat round, attempting to get alongside. Next to him, Cathbad is silent for once. He had shouted 'Harry!' when Nelson went overboard. Once, Max had thought that Cathbad loved Ruth. Now he isn't so sure.

The
Lady Annabelle
is still coming towards them and Max has to act quickly to save his boat from being rammed. He can see Nelson bobbing in the water and then he hears a splintering crash and sees a body falling.

'Oh no,' Cathbad whispers.

'Hold tight,' says Max. He swings the electric boat round almost at a right angle and somehow he is beside Nelson, who is supporting the body in a lifeguard's hold, barely keeping his head above water.

'Hang on, Nelson,' Max shouts, 'I'm here.'

With Cathbad's help, he hauls the body into the boat. It is frighteningly heavy; a dead weight. Then Cathbad helps Nelson in; he is shivering and crying, he seems to have completely taken leave of his senses.

Max is bending over the body. He looks up and suddenly the mist clears, revealing a full moon like a baleful eye.

'It's not her,' he says gently.

CHAPTER 35

It is June the twenty-first, the longest day. In the evening Max is holding a party at the Roman site to celebrate both the summer solstice and the end of the dig. Cathbad will be there, complete with dowsing rod, mistletoe crown and oak staff. Ruth is also invited, along with most of the staff from the archaeology department. But Nelson, though invited, is instead on his way to Sussex to visit Father Patrick Hennessey.

He is not quite sure why. Over the phone, he told Hennessey that he wanted to 'clear up some loose ends' but, in truth, all the loose ends in the case of Bernadette McKinley have been well and truly laid to rest. Two weeks ago, Father Hennessey himself conducted the funeral service for the little girl who died over fifty years ago, at the hands of her father.

Bernadette's mother was not at the funeral. When Judy turned up at the convent, on the morning after her interview with Sister Immaculata, she was told that the nun had died in the night. 'Did she see a priest?' Father Hennessey asked urgently when he was told. Yes, Judy said, Father Connor was with her at the end and administered the last rites. Judy knows, and Nelson knows too, the importance of this. Sister Immaculata may have confessed to Judy but this is not the confession that would matter most.

Although neither parent could be present, the little dusty church was not quite empty for the short ceremony. Nelson was there, as were Clough and the newly promoted Detective Sergeant Judy Johnson. Ruth, Max and Cathbad also attended, the latter dressed quite conservatively in a black shirt and jeans. Irish Ted and Trace were also there, Trace wiping her eyes on the sleeve of her lacy purple top.

Edward and Marion Spens sat in the front row, staring straight in front of them. 'After all,' said Edward afterwards, rather unsteadily, to Nelson, 'she was my half-sister. It just seems unbelievable that...' His voice trailed off. Nelson sympathised with the unspoken words. Almost unbelievable that Edward's father turned out to be a murderer who killed a child while in his teens and attempted murder again as a seventy-year-old? Almost unbelievable that the crime lay buried for over half a century, while the killer's son planned to dig up the land for profit? Almost unbelievable that, on the same site, a children's home would provide a refuge for hundreds of children and yet two would run away, one dying soon afterwards? All of it is unbelievable, yet all of it is only too true. Nelson grasped Edward Spens' hand briefly then walked away through the tombstones. There was nothing else left to say.

At the church gate he stopped and spoke to Trace, who was still mopping her eyes.

'I've just been speaking to your uncle.'

She looked up at him. 'How did you know?'

'It wasn't difficult,' said Nelson though, in truth, the connection escaped him for a long time, even after he saw the names on Judy's family tree. Charlotte Spens, children Tracy and Luke. Though, of course, Trace's surname isn't Spens, which made it less obvious. Still, her presence explained why Sir Roderick was able to know so much about what went on both at the Swaffham dig and at Woolmarket Road.

Trace looked shell shocked, much as her uncle had done. 'I can't believe that Grandad ... Mum quarrelled with Uncle Edward, you see, so we didn't really see the rest of the family. But I'd always liked Grandad. He always seemed such a sweet old thing. We used to talk about history, about the Romans. It was something we had in common.'

'Let's hope it's the only thing,' said Nelson soberly, turning away to talk to Ruth.

Ruth had looked pale and tired but otherwise in good enough health. Her pregnancy was now obvious, even in the unflatteringly baggy black suit.

'Are you OK?' he asked.

'Fine,' she smiled rather shakily. 'I'm glad we had this funeral. It feels right.'

'Yes,' Nelson agreed, 'it feels right.'

He was about to say more when Clough bore down on them, suggesting a visit to a nearby pub. 'It's the proper thing to do after a funeral. Ask any Irishman.' In the background, Irish Ted was nodding vigorously.

'I'd better get back to work,' said Ruth. 'Goodbye, Nelson.'

And she had leaned over and kissed him on the cheek. It was their first physical contact since their child had been conceived.

When the police boarded the
Lady Annabelle
that night in early June, they had found Ruth sitting huddled on the deck, holding the gun. 'I killed him,' she kept saying, 'I killed him.' Nelson, had he been there, would have told her to keep this thought to herself. But Nelson was, at the time, sitting in an ambulance wrapped in a silver foil blanket and babbling about his daughters. The reinforcements, two police cars and an ambulance, had arrived almost as soon as Max pulled Sir Roderick's dead body out of the water. The
Lady Annabelle
had drifted harmlessly onto the river bank. The policemen, local boys, boarded the boat easily, leaving their squad car parked in the reeds, its lights flashing eerily in the mist.

Ruth was convinced that she had killed Sir Roderick Spens. After all, didn't she pull the trigger and see him fall, arms flailing helplessly, through the wooden railing of the boat? But the post-mortem (performed by an indecently cheery Chris Stevenson) showed that there were no bullet wounds on Sir Roderick's body. Cause of death was a blow to the head, probably sustained when he fell. The bullet was later found, wedged into one of the
Lady Annabelle
's bench seats. Ruth was relieved but the verdict does not alter her fundamental belief that she was the cause of the old man's death. She had wanted to kill him. Isn't intent to kill the same as murder?

This is something that Nelson could discuss with Father Patrick Hennessey. He knows, as he joins the traffic edging over the Dartford Bridge, that his visit is about more than police business. The Woolmarket Street case is closed. Whitcliffe is, if not happy, at least satisfied that none of the details have made it to the press (though the local papers did report the death of Sir Roderick Spens in a boating accident). Edward Spens is going ahead with the building development. 'Life must go on,' he said sententiously to Nelson, as if Nelson might be about to dispute the fact. He plans to call the apartment block 'Bernadette House'.

But Nelson knows, in his heart, that nothing is over. They may know who killed Bernadette, they may know what happened to Elizabeth Black (forensics have uncovered the bones buried in the school playground—Father Hennessey will have another funeral to conduct) but the feelings stirred up by the deaths of these little girls (Annabelle Spens too) are not so easily buried. Fathers and daughters, this is the phrase that keeps running through Nelson's head. He will shortly be the father of three daughters. This is the thought that now keeps him awake at night, the thought that has sent him speeding down the motorway towards the retired Catholic priest.

Confession? He hasn't said the word aloud to himself but when he greets Father Hennessey and the older man suggests a walk in the secluded part of the garden, he knows that this is what he has come for. Once a Catholic ... he smiles grimly to himself. Father Damian would be proud of him.

At first they discuss the Woolmarket Street case.

'Have you any idea why Sir Roderick Spens did this terrible thing?' asks Father Hennessey.

'Edward Spens found his diaries,' says Nelson, following the priest down a path overgrown with lavender and lemon balm. 'He kept a diary from when he was a child. It's all there, the murder and everything. Weirdest thing you ever read. Like a cross between Adrian Mole and Jack the Ripper.'

'He must have been a very troubled soul.'

'Troubled? Yes.' Nelson gives a bark of humourless laughter. 'But he managed to go through life without anyone suspecting. I mean, Edward Spens knew his father was odd. That was why he lived with them, to keep him out of trouble. But he never suspected that he was a murderer.'

'And yet it came to light in the end,' murmurs Hennessey. 'Evil can't stay hidden for ever.'

They have reached a sunken garden, out of sight of the house. They sit on a low bench, still warm from the sun. In front of them is a fountain, a mere trickle of water descending from the mouth of a stone fish. The dappled light overhead turns the spray into a hazy rainbow, yellow, green and blue.

Father Hennessey turns to face Nelson. 'Why did you want to see me, my son?'

Nelson takes a deep breath. 'I wanted to ask your advice.'

Hennessey inclines his head but says nothing. The silence trick. Nelson recognises it but that doesn't stop him from falling into the trap and singing like a bird.

'I'm a married man, Father. I love my wife and I love our two daughters.' He pauses. Those terrible few hours when he thought his daughters were in danger have impressed on him just how much he does love them. He would do anything for them, even (at Michelle's insistence) invite Laura's boyfriend for Sunday lunch.

'I love my wife,' he repeats, 'but a few months ago I ... slept with someone else. I'm not making excuses, I knew it was wrong, but it was at a very difficult time ... for me and for the other woman. We just came together, didn't think about the consequences. But now she's pregnant. She's expecting my baby, a girl. And I don't know what to do.'

Nelson stares at the fountain, the water falling endlessly into the stone bowl. Father Hennessey's voice is calm.

'You say you love your wife. Do you love this other woman?'

Nelson is silent for a moment and then he says, 'I don't know. I care about her. I care about her and the baby. I want to look after her.' He laughs, rather harshly. 'My wife does too. That's the weirdest thing. She knows this woman and wants to help her. With the baby and everything. My wife wants to befriend the woman who's having my baby. You couldn't make it up.'

'Love is always a force for good,' says Hennessey gently. 'Your love for your wife and daughters, for this woman and her unborn baby. Even your wife's kindness towards her. These are all good things.'

Nelson turns towards him, his eyes are wet. 'How can it be good? If my wife finds out, our marriage will be over.'

'Are you sure about that?'

'You think I should tell her then?'

'I can't give you advice,' says Hennessey, 'although I know that's what you want. I can only tell you that a baby is always a blessing, love is always a blessing. You care about these people, you will find a way.'

Nelson nods. He stares ahead, watching the light play on the water. He hardly notices when Father Hennessey puts his hand gently on his head and murmurs a blessing before walking away, back to the house.

Evening and Max's party is in full swing. The lonely hill, where once the Roman occupiers had huddled together against the cold Norfolk wind, is now full of people. Someone has set up speakers by one of the trenches and Leah's uncle has brought barrels of beer and cider from the pub. Irish Ted and Trace are dancing amongst the mounds of soil and stones. Ruth sees Clough, wearing a Manchester United shirt, cut in and dance with Trace, showing surprisingly good hip action. If Clough has come, why isn't Nelson here?

Ruth wanders away. She feels tired and wishes there was somewhere to sit down. Another five months of this! At least the baby seems to have suffered no adverse effects from that terrible night on the
Lady Annabelle.
Ruth has had a checkup and another scan and the baby was fine, dancing happily in the grey clouds of Ruth's womb. 'A large baby,' the technician had said. Typical. Nelson gets her pregnant with a giant baby and then buggers off. She will definitely insist that she supports Arsenal.

Ruth herself has recovered rather more slowly. She still can't shake the idea that she killed Roderick Spens. In her dreams, she sees herself pulling the trigger and Roderick's face disintegrating in a horrific shower of blood and bone. The actual events, with Roderick falling almost in slow motion, the wooden rail splintering and the long wait before the body hit the water, seem less real than the nightmare. She didn't kill him but she wanted to. And this, she knows, is the reality. She knows that she would have killed a man to save herself and to save her baby.

'Ruth!' She looks up to see Max approaching. So far he has been circulating, showing the ability to schmooze required of any successful archaeologist (one reason, perhaps, why Ruth will never reach the top in the profession). He has chatted heartily with Phil, hand in hand with a glowing Shona (the deadline of the final examiners' meeting is still a month away), grasped the hands of all the volunteers and spent an intense fifteen minutes with the local press. He will go far, there's no doubt about it.

Ruth has been happy to watch Max from a distance. The last thing she wants is to talk to the press—or to Phil. Her own relationship with Max, the bond she feels with him, has been strengthened by Max's appearance on that fateful night. It was Max who turned up in the police car to tell Ruth that he, Cathbad and Nelson had been following her in an electric boat. He told her about Nelson's kamikaze dive into the water. 'When he thought you were hurt, he just went crazy.' They had looked at each other and Ruth knew that Max knew that Nelson was the father of her baby. Neither of them said anything though. Max held Ruth's hand all the way to the hospital.

Now he is smiling. The dig has been successful. He will be going back to Sussex to write up the results. Even the
Lady Annabelle
has been saved and Edward has offered him the use of the boat whenever he wants. Somehow he doesn't think Ruth will be joining him on board.

'It's a great party,' says Ruth.

'You know what party animals archaeologists are.'

Ruth looks over to where two earnest women are discussing Roman pottery, and smiles.

'Let me know when the hard drugs start circulating.'

'I've got something to show you,' says Max.

Ruth looks at him warily. She feels that she has had enough surprises to last her a lifetime. But Max is smiling and the party is going on all round them. Surely the underworld is far away.

Max takes her hand and leads her to his car. The front window is slightly open and on the back seat is a large black dog. When the dog sees them it goes mad with delight, wagging its entire back end. It is a slim, slinky animal with a whiskery, smiling face. Ruth finds herself smiling back.