The Jalna Saga – Deluxe Edition: All Sixteen Books of the Enduring Classic Series & The Biography of Mazo de la Roche (346 page)

She was, at times, conscious that her headache had not left her. For three days now it had been thudding against the back of her neck. Its thudding mingled with the throbbing of the train. Sometimes she quite forgot it in the feverish activity of her brain. She put up her blind and looked out into the new day. Noticed how white and graceful her hand and arm were. She had not considered her physical being for weeks. She was surprised to see snow lying in the furrows of the fields and feathering the shrubs alongside the track. She saw workmen’s cottages with lighted windows and fowls emerging from their coops. An old grey horse stood in a snowy field, the wind tossing his long grey mane. Soon they passed
through a manufacturing town and she saw a crowd of foreign-looking workmen going toward the factories. The train did not stop there but rushed through, giving her just a glimpse of its black sordidness and the brightness of the rising sun touching nothing but the gilt cross on the church.

While she was at breakfast they crossed the border and here there was more snow, but it was soft snow and was soon wet under the sun. The air was clear and bright, but quick-moving clouds cast their shadows on the fields. She sat in her seat with her things about her while the train sped past Weddell’s, the station nearest Jalna. She saw Wright in the new car waiting for the barrier to be raised so that he might cross the track. The wholesome, kind look of him pleased her. Why, this little village looked like home!

She had secured a porter and was waiting for a taxi when her attention was caught by three men who were getting into a shabby car. Her heart missed a beat, seemed to turn in her breast when she saw that one of them was Renny. His companions were Crowdy and Chase. She took a few hurried steps toward him and called his name. In the chill light faces looked wan. All but Renny’s. More than ever his looked fierce and highly coloured. He took off his hat and came toward her laughing in delighted surprise. She had forgotten how red his hair was, how red his face, how tall and thin and sharp and strong he was.

If he had been angry at her when she left, had brooded on what he thought her bad behaviour toward him, and kept his heart shut against her, he forgot all this when he saw her standing there in the wan light, her face pale with blue shadows beneath the eyes, her hair bright beneath her close-fitting black hat. He noticed at once that she had bought herself a new fur scarf. It set her off wonderfully, he thought.

They stood facing each other, she in tremulous wildness, he in amazed gratification.

“But why,” he demanded, “didn’t you write?”

“I only made up my mind at the last minute.”

“But you could have telegraphed.”

“I couldn’t make up my mind to that.”

“Oh, that mind of yours!” he laughed. “You’re always making it up or not being able to make it up, aren’t you?”

She drew close to him. She asked, in a choking voice— “Are you glad I’ve come?”

“What a question!”

“Oh, if only we could ever be alone! What are those dreadful men doing here with you?”

“We were shipping some horses. I’ve been in town overnight. I must get rid of that taxi for you. What luck that I should be here with the car! Crowdy and Chase must come with us, though. But they live just outside the city. I’ll drop them there.”

The two friends came forward looking rather crestfallen. Chase vouchsafed no more than a stiff bow, but Crowdy soon recovered himself and beamed at her. Somehow her luggage was stowed in the car. She was in the seat beside Renny. She was glad it was the old car—muddy, with ill-fitting curtains, rattling as though this must surely be its last trip. It had been just as it was now when she had first ridden in it, five years ago. In it Renny had first spoken of his passion for her. She recalled his words. They had been few and his tone almost matter-of-fact. It had been at night and it had rained. Neither had had any hope that they could come together. Now it was morning. Rain was beginning to fall. They were together, together, yes, together...

She could not understand herself, yet now she could understand him. She could not understand why it was
that she did not mind the presence of Crowdy and Chase in the car. Yet she could sympathise with his feeling for them. They were real. That was it. They were as real as this raw wind that made the curtains flap. They were as real as Rosamond Trent and Professor and Mrs. Card had become unreal to her. She had changed. She was becoming a new person. It had been the birth pangs of this new self that had torn her.

Renny asked her questions about her life with Miss Archer. He seemed to think that it was the natural and proper thing that she should have made a long stay with her. He did not reproach her with the brusqueness of her letters, with her writing so seldom to him. Her heart turned with joy as she slid her eyes toward him... He reached for the cloth he kept for the purpose and wiped the windshield.

The lake was trembling in the wind. The waves were a light, translucent green. They buffeted each other like rowdies, knocking the caps of foam from each other’s heads.

Gulls swooped and sank to the waves and rose again, whimpering. When the car was stopped for Crowdy and Chase to alight she heard the gulls’whimpering.

Chase bowed and backed away from the kerb, but Crowdy drew close to her. He extended his left hand and, on its palm, with the forefinger of the right, made cabalistic signs. His shrewd little eyes indicated Renny. He said:

“You have a fine husband, Mrs. Whiteoak. None better. Thoroughbred.”

Alayne put out her hand to shake his. They gazed steadfastly into each other’s eyes, she and the horse dealer. She could picture the hideous houses on hideous suburban streets into which he and Chase would disappear.

As they drove on again Renny’s face wore a pleased smile at her magnanimity toward his friends. She found that her
headache had quite gone, but it, combined with a sleepless night, had left her unutterably tired. She let her weight rest against Renny’s shoulder and relaxed as she had not relaxed for months. Renny talked on and on about the horses they had been shipping that morning.

The heavy branches of the evergreens along the drive seemed to have extended since she had last seen them. They swept the windows of the car, drenching them. After the house on the Hudson this old red brick one looked long and rambling. There was a covering of wet snow on the steps of the porch and on the snow footprints of dogs. He carried her things on to the porch. She asked suddenly:

“Were you surprised?”

“A little. Not much. I was expecting you any day.” But there was a shyness in his eyes. After a quick glance at her he opened the door and they went into the hall.

It was empty save for old Ben curled up before the stove. He rose, stretched, and came toward her wagging his bobbed ail. If they had had differences he had forgotten them. Now was her time to show that she too could be generous. As he raised himself, with his paws against her side, she put her arms about him as she had never done to a dog before.

Nicholas had been reading in the sitting-room. He came out, pulling off his spectacles as he came. He kissed her and exclaimed:

“My dear Alayne, how glad I am to see you! But you could not have got my letter. It was only posted yesterday I had been intending to write you for a fortnight, but you know how bad I am at writing letters.” He scrutinised her from under his shaggy brows, trying to pierce the wherefore of her coming. He had never untangled the wherefore of her going.

Ernest came, kissed her, and led her into the sitting-room. “But, dear Alayne, how pale and cold and tired you look! We must have some wine and a biscuit for you. I will get it myself.” He hastened to the dining room.

“Thank God,” rumbled Nicholas in an undertone, “that you’re come! Otherwise, I don’t know when we should have been rid of the Vaughans. Their tenants are gone but here they stick, just because it’s so comfortable. And we have missed you dreadfully for yourself, my dear!”

As she was sipping her wine Meg came in leaning on Renny’s arm. In the hall he had pressed her arm authoritatively: “Meggie, be nice to Alayne or I won’t love you!”

She had delayed their entry long enough to say— “Nice to Alayne! As though I had ever been anything else! Surely Alayne will be nice to me when she sees my weak state.”

Alayne rose and looked into Meg’s flushed face. “Oh, Meggie,” she said. “How nice that you are able to be about again! But I see that you are very weak.”

Meg advanced and kissed her. “Yes, indeed I am! If only I had your strength! To be able to eat anything, at any time, as you do! I have no appetite. You have no idea what I’ve been through.” Renny lowered her into a chair beside Alayne and stood looking down at them with old Adeline’s very grin of delight in their reunion.

Meg laid her soft white hand on Alayne’s knee. “When we are alone I must tell you all about it. But I am afraid you will be upset when you hear that I have your room.”

“Not at all,” Alayne assured her, though she would have given almost anything to have had her own bed to lie down in. “I will take Finch’s room while you are here. You must not hurry away because of my coming.”

Nicholas glared at her. “The ceiling in Finch’s room leaks badly,” he said. “It has been leaking for a long time. I’m afraid you won’t be comfortable there.” He added testily turning toward Renny—“I don’t like to see the place going to rack and ruin.”

Renny went and began to poke the fire as he always did when repairs were mentioned.

Wragge appeared at Alayne’s side, with the decanter on a tray “May I give you some more of the sherry ma’am?” he asked.

“Yes, a little.” She watched him as he poured the wine with his air of mingled humility and impudence.

He said—“It’s a great pleasure to see you ’ome again, ma’am. I hope you don’t mind me saying so.”

Wakefield was in the doorway. He did not come forward, but stood looking gravely at her. She held out her hand. She noticed that he had grown since she had last seen him.

“Wake, aren’t you coming to kiss me?”

He advanced then and touched her cheek with his lips.

Renny said—“I haven’t seen him as fit in a long while as he is just now”

Maurice, Pheasant, and Piers came in, followed by the two little ones, who clambered at once to Alayne’s lap and the arm of her chair. There they were, all together in one room, as they liked to be, in the heat of intimacy, all barriers down. Once more in their midst, Alayne saw them as a crowded group in a picture, high-coloured, vigorous, resistant to change... On the centre table stood a vase filled with dahlias. There were as many as the vase could hold. Bronze, rust-coloured, orange, and scarlet; they were like the Whiteoaks, she thought, in their bold yet crowded commingling.

Meg saw her looking at the flowers. “Aren’t they lovely?” she asked. “Do you know, I have never been without flowers since my illness.” She drew Patience from Alayne’s knee. “You must not stroke Auntie Alayne’s fur, Baby. Stand up nicely and let her hear you say your pretty new piece. Stand beside her, Mooey.”

She placed the infants side by side, facing Alayne.

Without hesitation Patience grasped Mooey’s hand and recited:

“Step out, baby cousin,
Show your feet so small;
Never fear
While Patty’s near,
Lest you have a fall.”

Mooey pulled away his hand. “Oh hell,” he said, “I’m not f’ightened!”

At last she was up in Finch’s room. She was back under the roof of Jalna. The roof leaked into the basin by the foot of the bed. There was a smell of wet plaster, Finch’s things were about...

Renny came running up the stairs. He came in. He looked about. “You will be quite cosy here,” he said.

She came to him. “Renny,” she said with an effort, “I am so sorry about your dog. It was cruel that it should have been killed unnecessarily.”

For a second there was a look of shrinking in his eyes. Then he exclaimed:

“You should see how Cora’s colt is developing! It is growing into the most charming filly you ever saw.”

“And Cora... Is she well?”

“Fit as can be! She has a heart of gold, that mare!”

F
INCH
was striding along a wet, winding road in the direction of his aunt’s house. He had been walking all morning and he was tired, but he moved with the excited energy that possessed him when he walked, in opposition to the enervation he felt when indoors. He carried the stick to which he had become accustomed at the time of his strained ankle, swinging it and sometimes poking at things in the hedge with it. It had been a period of extraordinary gales and floods. Every now and again he came upon a fallen tree or a group of men removing one from the road across which it had been blown. A brimming stream hurried along the ditch, twisting and turning among the grasses and gurgling happily. Where the sky was not covered by smoke-coloured clouds, it showed a brilliant and tranquil blue as of springtime, though it was December. The hedges were a rich brown, against which the glossy clumps of holly stood out, with here and there a holly tree rising in berried brightness. Gusts of wind flapped against his face, wet and scentless, except when he passed a rick from which a man was cutting trusses of hay. Then the sweet smell of the hay came to him like an exhalation of summer. Above a ploughed
field lapwings were flying in wide circles, uttering their cries that ranged from tender plaintiveness to a wild moaning.

He found one dead by the side of the road. It must have flown against the telegraph wires. He picked it up. It was still warm. The sheen on the dark green of its back was not dulled, but its long crest was moist and limp. He turned it over, letting it lie on his palms, showing its breast plump as a pigeon’s, its white throat, and cinnamon under-tail feathers. Not again would it fly across the fields uttering that cry which moves the heart of the lonely walker. Its fellows cared nothing as they ran along the wind, now dark above the reddish loam, now, as they turned broadside, exposing their white underparts. If he had not come along, there would have been no one to notice its death.