The Interpreter (23 page)
Authors: Suki Kim
From the minute Suzy set foot in this dark, desiccated corner, she might have known that it was her parents who drove him here, who called her here, who wanted her to hear everything,
who are now asking her to make judgment on their lives, which, she is finally convinced, could not have been saved.
who are now asking her to make judgment on their lives, which, she is finally convinced, could not have been saved.
The tea is tepid. The barley flakes have sunken to the bottom.
Boricha.
It may be years before she tastes it again. Will she like it still? Will she then recall this room, where a dejected man has finally revealed to her what might have been at the root of her parents’ murder?
Boricha.
It may be years before she tastes it again. Will she like it still? Will she then recall this room, where a dejected man has finally revealed to her what might have been at the root of her parents’ murder?
“But I had nothing to do with your parents’ death,” he says quietly. “That wouldn’t have brought my wife back.”
What about others? He mentioned that there were many with grudges against her parents. None of them could have gone to the police. How could they? Illegal immigrants, the cheapest target before the law. If her parents had stolen this man’s store right under his eyes and driven his wife to suicide, what else had they been capable of? Could her parents have confided to the police as well? Could they have traded information for some sort of protection?
Even Suzy knew that many Korean fruit-and-vegetable stores crumbled in the early nineties. Especially after the Los Angeles riots of ’92, relations between Koreans and blacks were at their worst. Over eight hundred Korean stores were destroyed in South Central. Many were torched in Flatbush and Bedford-Stuyvesant. Back then, it was not unusual to find a circle of picketers outside a Korean market, which inevitably drove a store out of business. It was also around then that the Labor Department began cracking down on Korean markets for breaking minimum-wage laws or hiring illegal immigrants, which Suzy learned later through her interpreting. As one wisecracking lawyer put it, “Everyone feeds off the illegals until they get an urge to scratch.” Yet, from what she recalls, her parents had never suffered from the upheaval. They thrived, in fact, even bought a house during that time. How did they manage when so many others collapsed? The INS alone would not have guaranteed
their lucky fortune. It is possible that the police might have had something to do with it. They could have left her parents alone, in exchange for the names of store owners guilty of breaking labor laws. It would not have taken much. A few names. A few handshakes. And how would the police have reacted when two of their snitches were found dead one morning in their South Bronx store? Would they have rushed to track down the murderer? Or would they have feared the exposure of their involvement? Why had the police been so quick to dismiss her parents’ murder as random?
We didn’t ditch them cold,
Detective Lester told her. Then why so eager now to pin the murder on those ex—KK members? The gang denied the killing. They insisted that her parents were already dead when they got to the store. Who had sent them there? Whose order were they following on that morning of November 1995?
their lucky fortune. It is possible that the police might have had something to do with it. They could have left her parents alone, in exchange for the names of store owners guilty of breaking labor laws. It would not have taken much. A few names. A few handshakes. And how would the police have reacted when two of their snitches were found dead one morning in their South Bronx store? Would they have rushed to track down the murderer? Or would they have feared the exposure of their involvement? Why had the police been so quick to dismiss her parents’ murder as random?
We didn’t ditch them cold,
Detective Lester told her. Then why so eager now to pin the murder on those ex—KK members? The gang denied the killing. They insisted that her parents were already dead when they got to the store. Who had sent them there? Whose order were they following on that morning of November 1995?
“What about Mr. Lee of Grand Concourse? And Mr. Lim? I saw him after the last time I came here. He might’ve been following me. He certainly hated my father. What do you know about them? What did they have to do with any of this?” Suzy is surprised at her relentlessness. Leave the man alone, she thinks. Hasn’t he been through enough?
“I don’t know,” he says curtly. “I’m not like your parents. I don’t squeal on my fellow men.”
Of course not. Not many would side with the INS against their own people. Suzy lowers her eyes, suddenly stumped. It is then that she notices the full ashtray again. A black plastic ashtray, the kind that belongs in a bar rather than a home. She carefully picks it up and empties it in the garbage can underneath the table. Immediately she is struck by the haze of stale ashes, and a pang of disappointment. Nothing, the ashtray reveals nothing. Just a common circular shape. What did she expect?
“Have you heard of a bar called Seven Stars?” The question
comes out abruptly. Useless—the man will tell her nothing more.
comes out abruptly. Useless—the man will tell her nothing more.
“Never heard of it.”
“And the Korean Killers? The gang that broke up almost ten years ago?”
“Like I said, I’m not like your parents,” he mumbles, avoiding her gaze. Yet, from the way his face tenses for a second, it is obvious that he is holding back something.
“No, of course not, you weren’t shot in cold blood.” She cannot help saying it, although she quickly regrets it, remembering his wife buried in Montauk.
“You think it was me who sent the KK to kill your parents?” he retorts sharply. “I don’t have that kind of money, and even if I had, I’m too old to get involved with a gang.”
So he is aware of the KK’s arrest. Who would have told him? Mr. Lee? Mr. Lim? Someone else? What was it that the mysterious caller had said?
They do not kill your parents … They watch you.
Was there more than one person behind it all? Was there a group of them who had hired the gang? Who are
they
?
they
?
“Is that what you told them? When they came to you?” She is jumping the gun. But there is no other way. Nothing to lose.
“I told them it was a foolish idea,” he says wearily. “I told them they shouldn’t get the gang involved.”
So it is true. There was more than one. Many who’d been wronged by her parents, who might have plotted the murder together.
“Your parents had both the INS and the police behind them. They were basically invincible. Each time someone got deported, someone’s store got shut down, someone’s life savings got stolen, all anyone could do was just look on and hope that it wouldn’t happen to him next. Your parents left them no choice,”
he says, staring vacantly at nowhere particular, as though he has reached the end of his defense. “Except the gang wasn’t supposed to kill …”
he says, staring vacantly at nowhere particular, as though he has reached the end of his defense. “Except the gang wasn’t supposed to kill …”
Maybe they didn’t. Maybe her parents were already dead by the time the KK arrived at the scene, just as the gang claimed.
“That’s as much as I know,” he says, stubbing out the cigarette. “I can’t give you their names. I won’t do that. Besides, I don’t know exactly who was involved. All I know is that some of them got together to come up with ways to stop your parents. The KK must’ve been their only option. You can get the police to question me if you want, but my answer won’t change. The police, the INS—they got all they could out of your parents anyway. They went after so many Korean stores for whatever violation they managed to squeeze from your parents. It’s all politics, white politics. The police will only be glad to wrap up the case now. How perfect that it should be the pack of Korean grocers getting rid of their snitch, who’d gotten past their usefulness! Koreans killing each other, it only proves their theory that immigrants are parasites.” Then he fixes her a long gaze and adds, “Whoever killed your parents were victims. They were desperate, even more desperate than me.”
So the end of the story.
So that’s how her parents came to their end, she tells herself. A bunch of Korean grocers who’d hired the three ex—KK members to threaten her parents, except their plan didn’t go as intended: the shots were fired inadvertently, such shots, such final shots. Except she is feeling no relief.
Nothing remains except for the smoke, thicker than the night. The air is hot, moist, stale. The rain outside, she can hear its knocking. Its relentless knocking. She wants to say something, anything that will ease the pain, for him, for herself. But there are no words. Instead, she glances at the photo once more. The unchanging face of the middle-aged woman who never had
a child, who breathed her last breath somewhere in Montauk, whose cry still fills this room after thirteen years.
a child, who breathed her last breath somewhere in Montauk, whose cry still fills this room after thirteen years.
Suzy finally rises. She is afraid, suddenly terribly afraid of stepping outside.
“Take this,” he says, holding out an umbrella.
His loneliness is permanent, she realizes. That must be why she noticed him over a week ago at McDonald’s. Recognition among the same kind.
Avoiding his gaze, she says hesitantly, “When my sister came to you … how much did she know about our parents?”
He contemplates her for a while before saying, “Your sister—I’d never seen a young woman so haunted by grief.” Then he asks quietly, “Who do you think interpreted for your parents all those times with the INS?”
FIRST IS THE HEAT. The unshakable heat inside her bones. The darkness is there as well. Then the wetness. The soaked sheets. The body curling into itself. The eyes are shut. The mouth is so stiff that she must be dying of thirst. Where’s the water? Is anyone there? Will anyone find her? Will anyone know if she disappears? The last thought frightens her. It is not death that makes her squirm, but a death with no witness, a death with no explanation.
Before her are the rolling hills. Each one appears so smooth that she wants to reach out and brush her fingers across its surface. She imagines plunging her body between the folds. She thinks if only she could get there she wouldn’t come back. She keeps wiggling her arms and feet. But the hills are far away, and she cannot reach them. Her body seems to be stuck to a gigantic futon, mixed in sticky breath. She tries to open her eyes, but the weight is impossible, as though a giant thumb is pressing on her
eyelids. It is unclear how long she’s been lying here. Hours, even days.
eyelids. It is unclear how long she’s been lying here. Hours, even days.
Between the hills emerges a face. An exquisite face behind a chunk of hair. The eyes seem familiar, such sad eyes, they bring tears to her own. The lips are painted in red, so opulent that it hurts to look at them. The fingers between the strands are painfully delicate; she wants to gather them in her palms and kiss each fingertip. Such a luminous face that there must be night surrounding it.
What remains is the heat that will not let go. What remains is the girl who will not lie still. The girl who remembers nothing.
Four rings.
The phone’s been ringing all night.
On the wooden floor, next to the futon, are several banana peels and an empty bottle of water. Someone must have carried her up the stairs. Someone must have found the key in her coat pocket. Someone must have laid her feverish body on the futon. Someone must have put the hot towel on her forehead and watched her fall asleep before slipping out the door. Bananas and water. Enough to keep her afloat for days. Bananas; she has no recollection of chewing through their yellow meat.
Who was it?
Damian?
Grace?
It’s been days, she is sure of it. A flood of sunlight poured in through the cracks between the blinds, only to slide away several hours later. A clock radio clanged with the familiar 1010-WINS chime. Doors have slammed at consistent intervals, as though the neighbors leave for work at the same time only to return exactly eight hours later. Cats meowed just around midnight, serenading the moon. Even in her deepest exhaustion, she was
surprised that such things signaled the passing of time with an astounding accuracy.
surprised that such things signaled the passing of time with an astounding accuracy.
But the heat is insufferable.
Now comes another face. The same black hair. The same heartbreaking eyes. The same pursed lips, across which a finger makes a cross to say hush. Now two where there was one. Two identical faces floating parallel. It is not clear which one was first. Upon a closer look, they no longer seem identical. A slight incongruence, although it is impossible to pinpoint what. She thinks she recognizes the one on the left. She is almost certain that one of them is her own, but which? She keeps turning from one to the other. What could be more terrifying than failing to identify one’s own face?
White is the color of sadness.
A premonition.
A creepy joke.
Each dried-up bulb is her mother watching.
Dead inside.
Like fucking a ghost, Michael grunted after their first night.
The phone startles her again. The exactly four rings, beckoning her from the world outside. Michael is there. So is Damian. Detective Lester. Kim Yong Su. All those Korean immigrants whom her parents had betrayed, who gathered together one morning to plot their murder. The only way they can get to her now is by dialing the seven-digit number. Instead of whispering her name, instead of kissing her face so gently, they must dial the number first. They must keep on dialing to catch her. She is no longer nineteen. She’s learned a trick or two. She’s buried herself between the hills from which the faces look on a girl drowning. No one will find her here. A perfect hideout.
But wait, there’s someone else. Who’s over there by the lighthouse, reading a book? What’s she reading? The one book in the world to ward off the dead? Suzy runs up to her to break the
news. Look, she’s about to say. Look what I’ve found out, look what I know now. Look who killed Mom and Dad!
news. Look, she’s about to say. Look what I’ve found out, look what I know now. Look who killed Mom and Dad!
When Suzy opens her eyes, her breath catches at the stillness of the room. The radiator has been banging through the night, steaming in excess. Outside is the creeping blue, the first shade of dawn. She can feel her stomach pulling at her with shocking emptiness, the sort of hunger so raw that it has nothing to do with food. She does not bother switching the light on when she stands before the kitchen sink. Turning the faucet, she puts her hands under the running water. She stands still for a minute or two as her fingers get cold. She lowers her face to drink from the tap before reaching for the glass on the shelf. Just then, as she is turning, the glass slips from her grip. Shards bounce off in all directions, over her bare legs. It is then that she becomes aware of the wrenching noise coming from her throat. All air has been choked out of her. Neither the heat nor the hunger, but an uncontrollable sob from the inside. She crumbles onto the floor, burying her face in her hands, lowering her forehead onto her drawn-up knees. It’s been years since she cried last. It’s been so long that she cannot seem to stop at all.
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