Authors: Doug Merlino
The years that Damian and Will attend the school are difficult ones for the few African-American kids enrolled there; though the school has started to recruit more black students, many of them simply drop out after a while. One black classmate tells Damian, “I just can't do it.” One day, when Damian passes a classmate in the hall, he tries to make a friendly joke about the kid being on the computer all the time. The kid responds by muttering “nigger” under his breath. Damian tries to look past the race difference, but the money gap is persistent. Damian and a few other African-American students begin to steal cash from wallets left in the locker room during sports practices. “We had lookouts and everything, we had it all set up,” he says. “That's how we were eating during the week, because there's no free lunch at Seattle Prep. I guess that we felt that their parents had money, so it's not a big deal.” Though his performance at school has its ups and downs, his momâalways aware of the limitations she feels due to her own lack of educationâsteadily encourages him to stick it out. Damian makes it to graduation.
Eric Hampton's fortunes begin to change at Lakeside during his freshman year, when Randy Finley helps to recruit a white kid, another point guard, to the school. The kid plays a textbook game of crisp passes and pretty jump shots. Unlike the laconic Eric, he is vocal, running around the court to pump his teammates up. Lakeside's varsity basketball coach leaves Eric on the freshman team and moves the other kid up to the junior varsity squad, signaling that Eric will be the backup for the next four years.
Football is what finally does it. Junior year, the varsity coach has Eric split time at safety with a kid who is nowhere near as good as he is. Eric figures it's a case of a rich white kid getting preferential treatment, and it gnaws at him. “I lost my confidence,” Eric says. “I felt I was treated better at Lakeside than some of the other black students because I was an athlete. That's what everybody knew me as. That's why everybody liked me.” After the season he drops out of Lakeside and enrolls at a public school in the South End. He plays basketball his senior year, but he never gets back to the level he'd been at a few years earlier.
After graduation, Eric attends the University of Washington for a few quarters but makes a mistake when he drops a class and falls below the minimum number of credits the university requires to maintain financial aid. He loses his aid package but doesn't want to tell his dad about it. As Eric tries to sort out what to do next, Randy Finley reappears and helps him and Damian get scholarships to play for a community college about thirty minutes up the freeway from Seattle. They commute together every day in Damian's mom's Hyundai. Neither of them is happy with the situation, playing basketball way out the middle of nowhere. Eric soon decides it isn't for him and quits the team. He gets a job driving a shuttle van in Seattle and eventually reenrolls at the University of Washington. Though Eric had showed as much promise as anyone on our team when we were in the eighth grade, his sports career never really blossomed. After he returns to the University of Washington, he focuses on his studies and starts to get on with his life.
Damian doesn't last long at community college, either. One day in the locker room before basketball practice, a white teammate accuses him of using the phone in his apartment to make long-distance calls. Damian tells him he didn't do itâhe had no reason to be calling anyoneâbut the guy keeps on him. Damian snaps. He leaves the locker room, hurries out to the parking lot, and grabs a baseball bat from the trunk of his car. When he returns, the guy sees him and bends over to protect himself. Damian, who is a broad-shouldered, athletic, and powerful man, slams the bat into his back once and then feels the rage dissipate. “After I hit him, I was like, âDamn, what am I doing?' ” he says. Before things can get any worse, their teammates jump in and break it up. Damian gets kicked off the team.
The outburst hints at underlying pressures Damian is feeling. But showing a remarkable ability for pulling opportunity out of what could be disaster, Damian discovers that the academic program he followed at Seattle Prep, a Catholic school, has gained him automatic admission to Seattle University, a Jesuit school on the western edge of the Central Area. Damian enrolls, walks on to the basketball team, becomes the starting shooting guard, and lands a scholarship. He plays for two seasons, but his life, which for several years has bridged a gulf between South Seattle and his attendance at elite schools, begins to unravel. When his grades fall below the eligibility level, the basketball coach cuts him loose. Damian is barely hanging on. Without a drastic change of direction, he's heading toward flunking out.
In
Power at Play
, a book based on interviews with men who had competed in organized sports, sociologist Michael Messner examines what boys get from athletics and how they feel when their careers in competitive team sports end. The book is based on Messner's interviews with white, black, and Latino athletes from a range of income levels. He finds a lot of similarities among the men: They report that as boys they got into sports with the encouragement of older men, such as brothers and uncles, but generally used athletics to forge emotional connections with their dads; many of them say that sports were the only area where their fathers entered their lives with enthusiasm, and playing and being good at sports became a way to keep the bond that had been made when they were little boys.
Across the board, boys who were very involved with sports tended to be shy and socially uncomfortable. The men tell Messner that sports offered them a way to connect, that their teams became “family,” places where they could find acceptance. “The most important thing was being out there with the rest of the guysâbeing friends,” one man says. The clearly defined rules and structure of athletics allowed the boys to form attachments with others, but within boundaries that let them retain a bit of distance and separation. Boys who could play sports well found they got attention for it, which drove them harder to excel. Wearing the uniform and being out on the field, where people would watch and talk about them, felt good. But even though the main competition was against other teams, there was always rivalry among teammates to be the bestâthe men noted that if another teammate beat them out for playing time, the coach would bench them and they'd lose the attention they had worked to gain.
A stark divergence emerges among the men when the time comes to leave organized sports. Messner finds that the men from poor and working-class families tend to describe their sports experiences in the context of the communities in which they livedâlacking equipment at home, they often had grown up playing in public parks, so were known as athletes. That identity gave them a “cloak” to avoid other problems. As long as a kid was identified as a basketball or football player, gangs and other forms of trouble gave him a pass.
The middle-class boys in the study realized much sooner than the poorer ones that their sports careers were going to end. In response, they began to shift their interests to other pursuits. Sports for them was a way to “bolster” their identities, not the main part of their lives. When the time came, they transitioned into other options, such as college and careers. Poor and working-class boys did not. Commenting on the men in his interview study, Messner writes, “A few athletes from lower-class backgrounds ⦠do manage to take advantage of the opportunities afforded them through athletic scholarships and get a college degree that moves them into a profession. The majority of athletes from lower-class backgrounds, however, end up with a difficult, sometimes traumatic period of disengagement, which is commonly characterized by identity crises, interpersonal problems and financial instability.”
While every player on our team reacts differently to the end of his time in organized sports, Messner's conclusions fit us pretty well. The transition, overall, is much smoother for the players from Lakeside.
Sean goes to college in Washington, D.C., at Georgetown, which is known for the bruising basketball teams under its famous black coach, John Thompson. Even though he's grown to about six-foot-eight, there's no way Sean is going to make the team. “I wasn't fast enough, wasn't strong enough, wasn't good enough. Couldn't shoot, couldn't jump,” he says with a laugh. He redirects his energy toward politics, interning first for a congressman from the suburbs of Seattle and later for Republican senator Bob Dole of Kansas. “It was kind of turn you loose and open letters and write mail to constituents and do little research projects here and there,” Sean says. “Internships are unglamorous and sort of tedious, but I loved it.”
After he gains admission to Lakeside in tenth grade, Dino plays on the basketball team but begins to develop other interests. In the summer, he works downtown at his family's diner. After their shifts end, he and his dad head down to a racetrack south of Seattle, where Dino finds an interest in handicapping the horses and figuring out which one has the edge. At Lakeside he discovers the
Economist
magazine and begins to learn about the global financial system. He scours the stock charts in the newspaper, thinking about how he can handicap individual companies. “I really got excited about understanding different businesses and what makes this world go, what makes the economy go,” he says.
Chris Dickinson, already tall and muscular when he joined our team in eighth grade, becomes a star football and basketball player at Lakeside. He enrolls at Princeton, where he joins the football team, playing tight end. During his sophomore season he suffers a string of injuries, including a torn hamstring and several ankle sprains. He also decides to take the next year off and come back to Seattle to think things over.
That year, he takes an internship with the Seattle SuperSonics basketball team, helping with game operations, doing things like making sure the cheerleaders have their pom-poms. “It was an utter waste of time other than helping me understand what I didn't want to do,” Chris says. He also begins to seriously rethink the role of athletics and competition in his life. He joins a conversation group for young men called “Heart of the Athlete,” founded by a former Olympic track-and-field competitor. “His whole idea was to think about athletics not as an end in itself but a way to investigate together, in the context of athletics, about what it means to be a man,” Chris says. “It was about talking about your family and you and your insecurities, it wasn't really about sports.” Through that group, Chris meets a man who teaches courses on Native American spiritualityâevery few weeks, he leads groups into the woods, where they perform sweat-lodge rituals, tie prayer beads, and do vision cries. Chris begins to participate in the retreats. “I think I was just searching on a lot of different levels,” he says.
When Chris returns to Princeton the next year, he rejoins the football team. In a big preseason scrimmage, he drops a pass. Normally, he would beat himself up about it. It surprises him when he finds that he just doesn't care. He quits the team the next day. “I just realized I just didn't like it,” he says. “To spend five hours a day doing something that you don't even like when you have so much opportunity to engage in other things seemed foolish.”
For Maitland, there has always been a gulf between his enjoyment of basketball and his dad's passion for it. “I think it's ridiculous the way you have to focus on playing basketball in high school. I had to play fall league, had to play summer league,” he says. “At the time, I didn't like doing all of that stuff, but I wasn't really going to complain about it either.” When Maitland is in tenth grade, Randy moves the family to France for a year to live in a town in the Alps. When they return, Randy gets in a feudâthe exact basis of the argument is still unclearâwith Lakeside's head basketball coach. The next year, Maitland leaves Lakeside to go to a smaller private school, where the pressure athletically and academically is not so intense. After graduation, Maitland heads to college. Now that he's in charge of his own life, he is finished with organized sports.
Randy Finley, in the meantime, also goes through several changes. After almost twenty years, he sells his theaters in 1986 and finds himself out of the movie business. The following year, he wins the antitrust case he'd filed against several other theater chains that charged them with colluding to secure the rights to lucrative first-run movies. He walks away with a $900,000 settlement.
After helping Damian, Willie Jr., JT, and another kid, named Anthony Simmons, get into private schools, Finley starts to get calls from other African-American parents. “It was one of the biggest shocks of my life,” Finley says. “I kept getting approached by parents who said, âMr. Finley, we know you helped these kids. I've got a kid. Can you help mine?' ”
With so many people asking for his assistance, Finley feels compelled to do something. “I took this on,” he says. “I didn't just want to be a rich guy. I had several million dollars at that point. I didn't want to just sit on it and live a life of luxury.” Over the next few years he helps seventeen African-American kidsâboys and girls, athletes and nonathletesâget into private schools. This makes a big difference in the life of Willie McClain Sr.âhe observes Randy Finley in action and essentially learns how to work the system himself. In time, McClain will get his younger sons into private schools, and even coach the basketball team at one of Seattle's most exclusive prep schools.
Randy Finley, in the meantime, begins to realize the enormity of what he has taken on. The toll of driving around and lobbying private school administrators as well as dealing with the suspicions of people in the Central Area who ask why he is taking the good basketball players out of Garfield, adds up. Beyond that, many of the kids he helps get into private schools have severe struggles once they are there. Finley, who had been a poor student himself, had thought that some tutoring would be enough, but he discovers that many of the kids have little foundation for the academic and social challenges posed by private schools. Keeping track of the kids is an all-consuming job. “I remember screwing around with Damian, chasing a fifteen-year-old kid,” he says. “I didn't want to do it full time.” In 1990, Finley buys a small winery outside of Bellingham, near the Canadian border, and throws his energies into running it. Over time, the kids he's helped get into private schools stop calling. He sometimes makes the two-hour drive down to attend Seattle University basketball games, hoping to see Damian, but never finds him. “I always looked,” he says.