The Ghost in the Electric Blue Suit (3 page)

It’s an extraordinary thing. If my mother had dropped the dishes on the floor or they had turned to gaze at each other meaningfully, I could have understood it. But when I said that I was going to Skegness they instantly announced their serious displeasure by not doing anything. Ken was eating his fried breakfast and Mum was at the sink. I’d been back from college for just two days. The fact that they made no movement—made no eye contact either with each other or with me—tipped me off to the fact that I’d just lobbed a grenade.

Ken gazed down at his breakfast, carefully sawing through his bacon and sausage with his knife. His blond eyebrows seemed to bristle over his red, weathered face. Mum rinsed a plate and shook the droplets from the plate as if they had to be counted.

Finally she spoke, but still without turning to face me. “But Ken’s got you good work with him.”

Ken was a builder. He usually had a number of projects going on at different sites. I’d worked for him before, mostly as a ladder monkey and errand boy. It was okay, but unless you like running up and down a ladder and whistling
at passing girls once every four hours it was dull. “I know that, Dad,” I said. Sometimes I called him Ken and sometimes Dad, without particular intention. “But I want to do something different.”

“How much are they paying you?” he asked. “It won’t be much.”

“I haven’t even got a job yet,” I said.

“Why there?” Mother said.

“I’ve got a friend who is working there.” This was a lie.

“I’d got it all set up for you,” said Ken. “It doesn’t make any sense.”

“I’m sorry,” I said.

My mother turned off the running tap and with agonizing delicacy she set the plate on the draining rack, as if it were a fragile and rare piece of china.

THE NEXT DAY at the morning briefing I got to meet some of my fellow Greencoats. One was a rather sad overweight sixty-year-old with a pale face and a rotten wig. The three girl Greencoats were professional dancers in the evening theater, doubling on the entertainments program in the daytime. They were all sweet-natured, leggy, tanned, and beautiful, and seemed as unattainable as the planets in the night sky. The other male Greencoat was absent to no one’s great surprise or concern.

Offered the choice between organizing a whist drive or a kids’ sand-castle competition on the beach, I plumped for the latter. I preferred the idea of outdoor work. I had little desire
for the beer-and-smoke taverns in which I now knew a lot of the activities took place. One of the dancers, Nikki, felt the same, and because her pirouetting colleagues preferred the indoor work, she was the one who showed me the ropes.

Which meant showing me the storeroom where the gunmetal bins of pink rock candy were kept under lock and key. I carried the bin to the beach. It felt ceremonial. Nikki meanwhile took with her an official-looking clipboard and pen.

Down on the beach about thirty tousle-haired kids had assembled. The sea in Skegness ebbs a long way out, exposing miles and miles of light golden sand backed by a dune system. The tide that morning had pulled the sea out and the waves were only a distant murmur, visible through a rippling heat haze. Nikki kicked off her sandals and barefoot she marked out a big square on the hot sand, telling the wide-eyed kids she was timing them and that they had exactly one hour, not a minute more, not a minute less. She told them they could start when she blew her whistle.

From her pocket she pulled a whistle on a string, exactly like the one I’d been given to referee the football game. She looked at me pointedly. “Are we ready?” I guessed we were ready, so I nodded. Nikki produced a short blast on the whistle and the kids set to it.

“What do we do now?” I said, still cradling my tin of rock candy.

“We sit down ont’ sand,” she said. “Then after an hour you give everyone a big smile and a stick of rock candy.”

She rewarded me with a smile of her own. Nikki had jet-black hair and flashing dark eyes and skin like dark honey. I suspected Mediterranean blood but her accent was about as
Mediterranean as the Ilkley Moor. She stripped off her candy-striped blazer and sat back on the golden sand. I did the same. She hitched up her white skirt to let the sun get to her lovely legs. I could see the white cotton of her knickers.

Nikki made a visor with the flat of her hand and looked at me. “Student then, are you?” She made the word roll out on her tongue:
stooooodunt
. Is it possible to fall in love with someone because of their accent? I think so.

“Yes.”

“I’d love to be a student, me.”

“Why don’t you then?”

“Too thick.”

“I’m sure that’s not true.”

“What do you study?”

“English literature.”

“Lots of books.”
Boooooks
.

“I’ll say.”

“That’s just it. I can’t read a book to save my life. Can’t settle to it. Too thick.”

I tried to tell her that she wasn’t thick. I explained that only fifty percent of any population anywhere read books, regardless of their occupation. It doesn’t matter if you’re a doctor or a lawyer or a factory worker, I told her, only half of them will read books. But in my earnestness I’d lost her attention already. Her eyes fluttered half closed and she gazed out to sea. She was away on some flight of imagination, or other life path, or dancing in a world with no books, only theater lights. She lay back on the sand, folded her hands behind her head, and closed her eyes.

After a while I got up: I had to do something to fight
the temptation to look at Nikki’s white cotton underwear. I don’t like sand. I’ve never much liked the gritty feel of it between my fingers and toes, but I knew I should just get on with it. So I moved among the sand castles, making encouraging noises. I praised the good efforts, and where I saw the kids were struggling I got down on my hands and knees and helped them along a bit. With the very little ones I asked their names, and when they told me I pretended to mishear, saying “Fish-and-Chips?,” and they would say their name louder, and I would say, “Oh I thought you said Fish-and-Chips. Well my name is David.”

You do that and kids turn their heads back and forth, trying to puzzle you out. Is he funny? Is he silly? Maybe he’s both.

I looked up from this game and saw a man and a boy standing by the water’s edge. They were some way off and the sun was right behind them so I couldn’t make out their faces, though I knew they were both staring at me intently. The man wore a blue suit and a tie.

There was something wrong. The man’s suit was wholly inappropriate for the beach in such hot weather. I could tell the little boy was aching to come and join the sand-castle fun. Then the boy lifted his hand and gently waggled his fingers, waving at me. I felt a shiver of loneliness for them.

I figured that the man and the boy were not staying at the holiday resort and were therefore not permitted to join in the organized program. But I thought what the hell, so I beckoned the boy and his father to come and join us. What did it matter if the boy sat at the edge and joined in? They showed no sign of coming over so I smiled and beckoned them again.
I couldn’t tell for sure but I thought the man was carrying a rope looped over his shoulder. Then I felt a sharp tug at my sleeve, and a little girl with white-blond ringlets and a freckled face said, quite indignantly, “My name isn’t Fish-and-Chips.”

“Oh, so what is it?”

“Sally Laws.”

“Sausage Legs?”

“No! Sally Laws!”

Sally Laws wanted me to look at her sand castle, so I forgot about the little boy and the man in the blue suit. When I looked up they were already moving away. I felt sad for them so I stood up to go after them, but some sudden jolt, some squeeze in my gut prevented me. Instead I watched them go.

After a while I went back and sat down next to Nikki. I thought she’d fallen asleep, but with her eyes still closed she said, “You’re good at working the parents.”

“The
parents
?”

“They love it, that. When you pay attention to their kids.”

I looked hard at her. She kept her eyes closed now, but she must have been watching me as I’d made a circuit of the sand castles. I guess I was a bit shocked at her cynicism. I just wanted to make sure these children were having a nice time. I hadn’t done it to impress the parents. Then I remembered that Nikki was a professional dancer and entertainment was her trade. It was show biz. We were being paid to be nice. Like Abdul-Shazam in the café, serenading the punters. You were paid to smile.

The hot sun climbed a little in the sky and when the end of the hour was reached, Nikki gave an impressive blast on
her whistle. The children were beautifully behaved, sitting in stiff attention as Nikki and I judged the results together. We awarded first, second, and third prize positions and, like a scribe in the temples of Egypt, Nikki with great ceremony wrote down the names of the winners on her clipboard. They were to be awarded prizes at a theater gala event on the final day of their holiday. Meanwhile I saw to it that every child who had taken part got a stick of rock candy.

We were then left with a free hour before lunch at the canteen. Once again we resorted to a coffee bar to fill the gap, but this time the one with sky-blue parasols alongside the swimming pool. On the way there, scurrying by in her white cleaning overalls, was the woman who, along with her husband, had shared a table with me only the day before.

“Hello!” I called cheerily.

She dealt me the quickest of smiles I’d ever seen. She compressed her lips and seemed to scuttle on by even faster.

“Friendly,” I said to Nikki, after the woman was out of earshot.

“I heard about that,” Nikki said, donning a pair of sunglasses. With her raven hair radiating an almost blue halo in the sun I thought she looked impossibly glamorous. Like a movie star. “Didn’t you sit at their table in the canteen?”

“News travels fast.”

“You were lucky.”

“Oh?”

We got coffees and took them to a table by the pool. She stirred a packet of sugar into her cup and as she spoke I noticed that she had a babyish fang-shaped canine either
side of her front teeth. No, they didn’t make her look like a vampire. They made her look girlish, cute, kissable. “Last time someone tried to sit down at his table he grabbed their soup and flung it across the room, followed by their dinner, followed by their tray. He shouted, ‘This is my fucking table and no one sits at my fucking table unless I fucking ask them to fucking sit at my fucking table.’ Not for the first time, either.”

“They don’t fire him?”

“Easier to let sleeping dogs lie.”

There was a huge splash as someone belly-flopped into the deep end. She told me that the man’s name was Colin and that his wife was called Terri. Nikki said Colin wouldn’t allow Terri to talk with anyone. I made some remark about her being very pretty.

“Well don’t let Colin catch you even so much as glancing in her direction.”

“I won’t,” I said. “I never look at women I fancy.”

“So how would they know you fancy them?”

“I just don’t let them see me looking.”

“What?” Nikki took off her sunglasses and stared at me hard. “You’re a strange boy.”

“Well, yes.”

THAT NIGHT THROUGH the thin plasterboard walls I heard someone snoring heartily on one side and someone grinding their teeth on the other side. From across the corridor
came the sound of athletic coital grunting, even though I’d been told that we were not allowed to “entertain” people in our rooms. Whoever was in there was getting a good entertainment. In the fitful snatches of sleep I did get, I dreamed unpleasant dreams. I woke in the night feeling that I should wash the sand off my hands.

So I was awake on my second full day at six in the morning. I got dressed in my whites and went for a walk along the beach. The sun was already up and throbbing as I crunched the pebbles underfoot. I got breakfast in the staff canteen as soon as it opened, and since it was still way too early, I went into the theater with a paperback book in my pocket, planning to relax on one of the plush velvet seats while waiting for the others to roll in for work.

I went round the back of the theater, through the stage door. It was a place where smokers went outside for a tab between stage calls, and it led into the wings. You could squeeze between the scenery boards—theater people call them “flats”—on the stage and from there get down into the auditorium. But before I went into the wings I stopped dead.

I stopped because I heard a songbird.

It was a woman singing from the stage. Her voice was soaring in the empty auditorium above an audience of empty seats. I recognized the piece. It was an old Dusty Springfield number and it seemed to me this voice could even outshine ol’ Dusters. No, it wasn’t my cup of tea—I was listening to the Velvet Underground and Jimi Hendrix boldly going where no music had gone before—but I knew a good voice when I heard one. It filled the theater, swooped and fell and
rose again, a thrilling ghost; it nestled in every crevice and put a light between the shadows. I crept nearer, expecting to see one of the variety acts, someone I was yet to meet.

The singer was moving across the stage with a mop and bucket. She wore white overalls. It was Terri.

I stayed hidden between the painted flats, not wanting to announce myself because I thought if I did she might stop. Then again, so absorbed was she in her singing that I was sure even if I’d wandered onto the stage she wouldn’t have even noticed me.

I heard the swinging doors open from the front of house. A voice that could only belong to Colin shouted, “You finished that yet?”

The song stopped. “Nearly done, darlin’.”

“Get a move on. I wanna be out of here before those fuckers come.”

Her bucket clanked and I heard a few more swishes of the mop before she crossed the stage and took the steps down to the auditorium. Only when I let go a big sigh did I realize I’d been holding my breath. From the shadows I watched her sway up the aisle carrying the heavy bucket. She disappeared through the swinging doors. I moved onto the stage and peered out at the rows of dark seats, thinking about the voice I’d just heard.