The Diamond Slipper (29 page)

She seemed to be coming alive under his touch; her body filling again with the vital spirit that made her who she was, opening again like a weather-torn bud under the rays of a sudden sun.

Slipping his hands free, he gently circled her neck, his fingers light as featherdown smoothing away the rough marks of Michael’s imprints. He knew that what he was doing was right. Only by vanquishing Michael’s prints upon her body could he heal her. “Are you sure you want this now, sweetheart?” he asked quietly. “It’s so soon after he hurt you. Are you sure you’re ready?”

She could feel her own pulse beating rapidly against his
fingers. His eyes were now dark and unreadable, but they seemed to swallow her whole.

“Please,” she said again. Her voice was a plea, the residue of her pain and fear lingering, but the need in her eyes could not be denied. It was a need not for passion but for tenderness, for the healing touch that would close the wounds of violation.

He moved his hands to cup her face, tracing the curve of her cheekbones, the line of her jaw. He was terrified of hurting her, of making the wrong move, of frightening her. He passed his hands over her in a delicate caress, almost hesitantly brushing his fingertips over her nipples, looking into her eyes for the first sign of dismay, of withdrawal. And when he saw none, he bent his head to kiss her breasts, taking her nipple into his mouth, suckling, grazing, until he felt the crown of her breasts harden under his tongue.

Cordelia’s head fell back against his shoulder, her naked body lying across his lap. She felt herself open and vulnerable, an offering for his eyes, his mouth, his hands, and she yet knew that to feel open and vulnerable here, with Leo, was safe, an essential part of the wonder of loving. Only once had she come close to understanding that wonder, but she knew with every breath she took that at Leo’s hands tonight she was going to understand it fully.

He moved his mouth from her breasts to the hollow of her throat. “I’m so afraid of hurting you. I want to touch you, sweetheart, but I need you to tell me if I may.”

“Please,” she whispered. “Please touch me.” She didn’t seem able to move, her body was as languid as a cat’s in the sun, and yet beneath the surface her blood flowed swift.

Leo’s fingers moved between her parted thighs. Again, he hesitated, expecting her to tighten against him, but she remained open, passive, and yet there was nothing passive about the heat of her body or the swift rise and fall of her breasts or the sudden hardening of the sensitive bud that rose under his dancing touch. He watched her face. Her eyes
were closed tight, but her lips were warm and red, and there was a translucent glow to her cheeks.

“Sweetheart?”

Her eyes opened. She stirred beneath his arousing touch. “I love you, Leo.”

He smiled, moved his damp hand up over her belly, shifted her on his lap so that her head fell into the crook of his arm. He kissed her, this time with a touch of his own urgency, his tongue pressing against the barrier of her lips, asking, not demanding, entrance. Her lips parted immediately and his tongue explored the sweet cavern of her mouth. She moved beneath him now, and her own tongue joined tentatively with his.

It seemed to Cordelia that she had abdicated responsibility for her body. It seemed to know all on its own what to do, how to respond. She was aware of something building deep in her belly, a liquid fullness growing in her loins, and now she turned in his arms to press her nakedness against him.

Leo stood up, lifting her with him. She looked up at him and smiled slowly. “Is it time?”

“Only if you wish it,” he said quietly, holding her against him, searching her expression. She reached up to touch his mouth with her thumb, running the pad across his lips in an unknowingly sensual gesture that was all the answer he needed.

Leo laid her on the bed again, then swiftly stripped off his clothes. Cordelia hadn’t seen a naked man before. She gazed at the lean, powerful frame, the flat belly and narrow hips, the erect shaft jutting from the nest of curly black hair, the long hard thighs. And for an instant her body closed tight, shrinking in upon itself as if in defense against the intrusion of a violent trespasser.

Leo sat on the bed, his hand stroking her belly until he felt her relax again, her body become fluid beneath his touch. He was waiting for a sign and she gave it to him. She reached to touch his erect flesh, her eyes half closed as she
felt him, learned his shape, his texture. Making of his strange flesh something she knew and understood. When she guided him within the moist portal between her thighs, she knew that she wanted this man inside her, making her whole as he joined with her in flesh and in spirit.

He gazed intently down into her eyes, looking into her very soul as he held himself at the very edge of her body. “Tell me how you feel, sweetheart.”

She knew he wanted to pull something from her, something more than the responses of her body. He wanted to hear her say how much she wanted this. How much she needed it. That without it, she could never be healed, never be whole again.

“I need you so much. I love you so much,” she replied, her eyes candid, her tongue lightly moistening her suddenly dry lips. “I want you inside me, Leo.”

He drew her legs up onto his shoulders, running his hands down the backs of her thighs, cupping the curve of her buttocks. Then he entered her fully with one long, leisurely, deep movement.

And as she felt him moving within her, Cordelia fell from some great and miraculous height. She tumbled over and over, light as a thread of silk, through a golden ether. Her mouth was dry and she could hear little sobbing cries that on one plane she knew were her own, and when she landed and the liquid rush of her pleasure flowed from her she clung to her lover as he moved again within her, and again, taking his own pleasure now, savoring the glorious tightness of her honeyed sheath, until he withdrew from her and let his own climax cascade over him, his seed spilling warm and wet on her belly and thighs.

She stroked his back as he lay breathless upon her. Her legs had fallen to the bed in an ungainly sprawl, her heart was thudding, her body as limp as a newborn kitten’s.

Finally, Leo rolled sideways, relieving her of his weight. He lay on his back, one hand flung across her belly, the other over his eyes. He waited for the guilt, the sour
remorse, the biting self-contempt, but he felt only a wondrous joy as if he had both given and received a priceless gift.

“I can endure anything if you love me,” Cordelia whispered, stroking his hand as it lay heavily on her belly. “You’ve made me strong again, Leo. You’ve given me back myself.”

He stared upward at the molding on the ceiling, his joy and confidence seeping from him like lifeblood from a wound. If he loved her, how could he endure that she should go back to Michael?

“I will take you away from Michael,” he said. “But I have to plan. If we act in haste, it won’t work. It will be too easy to pursue us, and Michael has every legal right to do as he wishes with a runaway wife. Do you understand, Cordelia?” He sat up, caught her beneath the arms, and drew her up facing him. He cupped her face. “Do you understand what I’m saying?”

Cordelia nodded and smiled trustfully. “Yes. I will wait. And I will endure.” She touched his face. “I swear to you that it won’t be so bad now that I have you to love me. Nothing can touch me now, Leo. Nothing.”

He shook his head almost impatiently. He had less faith than Cordelia in the power of mere emotion as shield and buckler. “You must go back now,” he said heavily. “I will work as fast as I can to get you away, but for now …”

“Yes, I understand.” She smiled, the same vibrant smile he had learned so reluctantly to love. “If only I could find out what happened to Mathilde.” Her smile was wiped clean from her face and she stared in horror. “He couldn’t have had her killed … or … or imprisoned, could he?”

“Of course not,” Leo said with a confidence he didn’t feel. Michael wouldn’t resort to murder, he was certain, but an oubliette in some dark French prison wouldn’t be hard to arrange for an errant servant.

Hurriedly, he threw on his clothes, while Cordelia shrugged into the robe. Her color had returned and the
white velvet now accentuated her radiant beauty instead of drowning her deathly pallor.

“Let me carry you. Your feet will freeze on the floors.” Marble and stone were hard on bare feet, and Cordelia didn’t demur as he swung her easily into his arms. She felt very different this time. Stronger, firmer, more supple, no hint of leaflike frailty.

“I can defeat Michael,” Cordelia said into his ear. “I am stronger than he is. I don’t need to prey upon people in order to feel powerful. I will beat him at his own game, Leo.”

“And what happened the last time you tried that?” he asked dryly. Much as this return of the vital Cordelia delighted him, he was only too painfully aware of the dangers.

“I’ll be careful,” she said after a minute. “I won’t make the mistake of gloating again.”

They turned onto the corridor that housed the von Sachsen apartments, and Leo felt Cordelia tense in his arms. His mouth tightened. The thought of putting her back into that hellhole filled him with revulsion, but he could see no alternative. Not for the immediate future.

As they approached the door a figure emerged from a corner of lingering shadows not yet pierced by the early light.

“Mathilde?” whispered Cordelia, almost in disbelief. Then she was struggling in Leo’s hold. He set her down and she ran barefoot toward the woman who held out her arms to receive her.

“There, baby, there, baby,” Mathilde crooned, stroking her hair, her back. Her eyes, sharp and bright and shrewd, looked over her nursling’s head at the viscount. She seemed to read everything she needed to know in his face, because she nodded and a grim little smile touched her mouth.

“What did he do to you, Mathilde?” Cordelia straightened, pushing her hair out of her eyes, her retreat into babyhood passed. “Did he hurt you?”

“Bless you, no, dearie,” Mathilde said briskly. “But he’s
turned me off without a character, without a sou, just the clothes on my back. But never you fret, Cordelia, he’ll not keep me from you.”

“But what will you do? Where will you go? I can give you money, of course, but—”

“There’s plenty of places for a body to lie quiet in this palace,” Mathilde told her. “The place is a small city, with staircases and nooks and crannies everywhere. I’ll be around, dearie. I’ll be watching you even if you don’t often see me.” She didn’t say that the prince had given her a choice of leaving quietly, or of being arrested on a charge of theft and spending the rest of her natural life in the Bastille, her nursling lost to her forever. The threat still hung over her if the prince ever laid eyes on her again.

She didn’t say this, but Cordelia made a good guess. She looked at Leo, a question in her eyes.

“I’ll take care of Mathilde,” he said, turning to the elderly woman. “Cordelia will need you until I can get her away from her husband. I’ll hide you and we’ll contrive somehow that you should see her often.”

Mathilde looked shrewdly at Cordelia, then again at the viscount. Then she nodded, but this time with brisk satisfaction. “Well, that’s as it should be,” she said obliquely. “I always knew it had to be. The little one will only love once. Just like her mother.”

She drew Cordelia to her again and kissed her. “I’ll get you something that will give you some respite from that brute of a husband, don’t you worry now.”

“What kind of thing?” Cordelia was immediately curious. Mathilde was as devious as she was clever, and she knew many strange arts. If she were pitted against Michael, Cordelia would put her money on her nurse anytime.

“Never you mind.”

“Listen to me, Cordelia.” Leo spoke urgently. He didn’t have Cordelia’s faith in Mathilde’s ability to draw Michael’s teeth, and even if he did have, the woman was offering no
immediate solution. “You must promise me that you won’t provoke him again.”

“I can’t let him think he’s beaten me,” she said fiercely.

“Swallow your pride for a while. Just until I can contrive something.” He tipped her chin, forcing her to look up at him.

“I’ll be very careful,” she conceded.

“Not good enough! Do you love me?”

“You know that I do.”

“And you have put this hideous situation in my hands. Haven’t you?”

“Yes, but—”

“Therefore you will do as I tell you. I cannot help you if you don’t do as I say. Is that clear, Cordelia?”

She hesitated, wanting to agree but knowing that her spirit would not allow her to give Michael even the illusion of victory. Then footsteps sounded from along the corridor behind them. Heels taptapping on the marble. Voices came closer. One of them belonged to a courtier acquaintance of Michael’s. Cordelia had vanished like a white wraith through the door to their apartment and Mathilde had melted into the shadows, before Leo could move.

Leo swore under his breath. She had not promised. Didn’t she understand that she had laid upon him the heaviest burdens a man could bear—her trust and her love? He had carried those burdens for Elvira too, but he had dropped them. He would not fail Cordelia in the same way. But dear God in heaven, how was he to protect her when she deliberately courted danger?

Cordelia closed the door to the salon. Monsieur Brion stood in the kitchen doorway, his expression startled as he stared at the barefoot princess in her chamber robe. Cordelia looked across the room and met his gaze steadily. She knew he and all the servants knew what went on at night behind her bedchamber door. Just as she knew how Michael misused them when it pleased him. Now, with her clear-eyed gaze, she offered the majordomo an alliance.

Monsieur Brion bowed. “Good morning, madame.” Casually, he adjusted an ornament on a side table before saying, “His highness has not yet rung for his coffee.”

Cordelia smiled. “Thank you. You may send Elsie to wake me with my chocolate in ten minutes.”

Monsieur Brion bowed again, and Cordelia went into her own room. She threw off the chamber robe and climbed into bed. The sheets were cold. She pulled up the coverlet and smiled to herself. She would not break.
Now
she would not break. She had the love of her life. She knew what love was. And knowledge was power. The knowledge of love would protect her.