The Devil's Only Friend (14 page)

I stood behind the others, thinking. How did it know my name? Had Forman or Nobody contacted another Withered before they died? Had Meshara really read my mind and discovered my identity? Or were Nathan’s worst fears true?

Was Brooke communicating with the Withered?

“Obviously it’s a warning,” said Diana. “He said it wasn’t, but how stupid does he think we are?”

“Practically every sentence was a threat,” said Nathan.

“I don’t think it’s that simple,” said Trujillo. “What we perceive as a threat, the man who wrote the letter might perceive in a totally different context.”

Nathan snorted. “What possible context could make comparing us to prey not a threat?”

“The very context presented in the letter,” said Trujillo. “A lion doesn’t eat an antelope because he hates it, or because he wants to scare it, or because he feels superior. A lion
is
superior,
because
he eats antelope.”

“Lions don’t send letters to the antelope’s friends,” said Ostler. “He wanted us to know something, or he wouldn’t have communicated. This is not just a courtesy call from a helpful serial killer.”

“Don’t worry about what he wanted to tell us,” I said. I was still embarrassed by my poor analysis of the body, so I was determined to analyze the letter as well as I possibly could. “We can figure that out later, when he sends us another letter. First we need—”

“How do you know he’s going to send another one?” asked Nathan. “Or do you have some kind of inside knowledge we don’t?” He turned more fully toward me. “Why was your name on the letter?”

I didn’t flinch away from his stare. “I don’t know.”

“How does he know who you are?” Nathan pressed. “Or does he know you personally?”

“Easy, Nathan,” said Diana.

“If I knew who he was I’d tell you,” I said. “I want to find him just as much as you do.”
Almost certainly more,
I thought, but I didn’t say it out loud.

“Why wait for a second letter?” asked Ostler. Her authority cut through Nathan’s accusations, and I started speaking again.

“I’m not saying to abandon analysis completely,” I said. “Dr. Gentry didn’t let me finish. First we can look at the clues we have: not what he’s trying to tell us, but what he’s accidentally telling us without intending to. This letter is like a window into his psyche—what does it tell us about him?”

“He’s obviously very formal,” said Trujillo, diving into the profile immediately. He’d probably been planning the same suggestion, but this time I’d said it first. “He uses elevated language and vocabulary, complicated sentence structure, and an almost … scholarly politeness.”

“Contrast that with the nature of the attack,” I said. “The wounds were vicious—you described them as ‘feral’—but this letter was deliberate and intelligent. He obviously has a plan: he figured out where we are, so he could send us a letter, and he figured out who I am. This is not the kind of man who jumps people in alleys and tears them apart with his teeth.”

“Except obviously he is,” said Diana. “Half of that letter was proof that he’s the killer.”

“And why is it so important for him that we know that?” I asked. “He knew we’d doubt it, and he wanted to make sure we didn’t. Is he bragging? Did he write to us because he needs … what? Recognition? Credit? Fear? Don’t think about what he wants to tell us, think about what he wants for himself. What does this letter get him?” It all came back to the same thing. “What did he do that he didn’t have to do?”

Ostler looked at me grimly. “Dr. Trujillo will figure that out. I know you’ve done this before, but he’s a professional.”

“I can do this,” I said.

“You’ll still be studying them,” said Ostler, “but I want you on Elijah Sexton. You’ll be assisting Diana.”

“I can get more done alone,” I said.

“Elijah went to a grief counseling meeting,” said Diana, ignoring my protest. “We don’t know why. The cops’ surveillance team showed up at the same place, tailing the three mystery Withered, who were apparently tailing Elijah.”

“He’s not a part of their group,” I said again. “If the new Withered are following Elijah in secret, that’s just more proof that they’re not allies.”

“Brooke suggested there might be two factions,” said Nathan. “We think this Gidri is leading one of them, so maybe he’s trying to recruit Elijah to his side?”

“Could be,” said Diana. “If we knew what the two sides wanted we’d have a lot more to go on.”

“Why would a Withered go to a grief counseling meeting?” asked Trujillo. “I can’t get over that—it feels like such abnormal behavior based on what we know of them.”

“The counseling group is my assignment,” said Ostler. “I’ll talk to the police and learn what I can about it; Dr. Gentry, you stay with Brooke.”

“What about Potash?” asked Nathan. “I’m not going back into that room without an armed guard and a license to kill.”

“She’s a teenage girl,” I said, feeling anger surge up inside of me, but Ostler ignored the comment.

“If all goes well they’ll release Potash in two days,” said Ostler. She picked up the letter. “You have your assignments; go.”

8

Potash got out of the hospital three days later; they gave him a cane, and refused to let him leave unless he used it, but he threw it out the car window almost as soon as we turned the corner. Diana told him to grow up, but she didn’t backtrack to get it.

“I’m fine,” said Potash, who was sitting in the backseat. I had expected him to have an oxygen tank or something, but he was breathing fine on his own; he had a hefty prednisone prescription, but that was it. “I was in there two and a half weeks,” he said. “If they can’t cure me in that time, what are they even doing?”

“You’ll be weak for a bit,” said Diana. “I’ve seen this with injured airmen—they spend a few days in the hospital, they neglect their fitness, and they think they can go right back to full capability the first day.”

“I know what I’m doing,” Potash growled.

“Do your exercises,” said Diana. “Push yourself, but don’t push yourself too far. John, you make sure he doesn’t work himself into a relapse.”

“What makes you think I have any control over him?” I asked. “Let’s send him to your place so you can do it.”

Diana rolled her eyes, keeping her hands on the wheel. “Please stop arguing about this—he’s staying with you, and that’s Ostler’s orders, and that’s final. All his stuff’s at your place anyway.”

“He doesn’t have any stuff,” I said. “Four changes of identical clothes, and some blankets that have been officially ceded to Boy Dog.”

“You went through my stuff?” he asked.

“I was making sure you didn’t have any weapons,” I said.
Which is code for “I was trying to find weapons.”

“Don’t touch my stuff,” said Potash.

“If you lived somewhere else I wouldn’t.”

“John…,” Diana growled.

We fell into an angry silence, and I thought about Elijah instead. How did his powers work? What was he doing? Why was he going to grief counseling, and visiting Merrill Evans, and everything else? What did he do that he didn’t have to do?

He surrounded himself with death and darkness—the night shifts, the mortuary, the grief thing—and I could understand that. He lived the kind of life I’d love: no entanglements, no crowds, just peace and quiet and bodies to take care of. But I knew that I was different from most people, and most people don’t like those things. Why was he so much like me? Is that why I wanted so badly for him not to be hunting us—for him not to be the bad guy? Because I wanted him to be like me?

“Diana,” I said, “why would you surround yourself with death?”

“That’s … kind of a deep question. Are you asking why I became a sniper?”

“No, I mean if you were Elijah. Or maybe, I don’t know. Why did you become a sniper?”

“Don’t pretend like you suddenly want to talk about me,” said Diana. “If you just want to brainstorm that’s fine, you don’t have to get all awkward about it because I misunderstood you.”

“I’m not pretending,” I said. “I just want to know why someone would live like that—is he damaged? Is he scared? Maybe your feelings would help explain his; I’m just grasping at straws.”

“So I’m damaged now?” asked Diana.

“
You
surround yourself with death,” said Potash to me. “Why do
you
do it?”

“That’s different—”

“Why?” he demanded.

I hesitated. “Because I enjoy it.”

“Maybe Elijah does, too,” said Diana. “He ‘remembers’ right? That’s his power? Well, maybe it’s like a memorial thing—he likes the solitude so he can pay his respects to the dead people he ‘remembers.’ You told me that was a big part of the job for you when you worked in your mother’s mortuary.”

“That doesn’t hold together,” I said. “If he liked death for the same reasons I like death, he wouldn’t be at grief counseling.”

“Because you don’t get sad?” asked Diana.

“Because death is quiet,” I said. My heart sped up, like I’d gotten a burst of adrenaline from somewhere, but I was just sitting in the car. “Death doesn’t move, and it doesn’t talk, and it doesn’t … make noise.” I almost said “yell,” but that seemed so on-the-nose, it made me grimace just for thinking it. It wasn’t even the full reason. Marci never yelled at me, and she was dead, too, and that didn’t make me happy at all. My dad never yelled anymore, at least not where I could hear him, and he was still completely alive. The answer wasn’t that easy. I mumbled for a minute, wondering what I’d even been talking about, trying to regain my footing in the conversation. “Grief counseling is a thing you do with people,” I said at last. “They’re alive, and you listen to them talk. I would never do that. He’s not like me.”

“Those counseling sessions are where people talk about the dead,” said Diana. “They remember their loved ones. Maybe for Elijah it’s something more—maybe he
needs
to remember, in order to survive. It’s all about what they lack, right? So he needs other people’s memories because he doesn’t have his own. Maybe counseling helps keep those memories … fresh, or whatever.”

“Except he’s only done it the one time,” I said. “We’ve been watching him for weeks, and he’s only gone there once.” And then there was the answer, just staring me in the face. “He’s not remembering the dead,” I said. “He’s remembering the living.”

“That’s not grief counseling,” said Diana. “That’d be some other therapy group.”

“That’s not what I mean.”

“Nobody goes out of their way to remember the living,” said Potash. “Not unless they’re lost, like with the MIA memorial. The rest of the time we just remember the dead.”

“We remember the dead because we’re alive,” I said. “Maybe for dead people it’s the other way around.” I felt my eyes grow hot as I spoke, threatening tears, but I gritted my teeth and blinked them away. “And that’s who Elijah spends all his time with: dead people.”

There was silence in the car for a moment, and then Diana began to nod. “Dead people from this community.”

“Who else was at that grief session?” asked Potash.

“Exactly,” I said. “If Elijah is absorbing the memories of the recently dead, those grief counseling sessions would be full of people he knows—or thinks he knows. He might be there to meet one in person, which is why he only started going recently. He’s meeting someone related to a very recent death.”

“I’m driving,” said Diana, “one of you call Ostler.”

“I’m already dialing,” said Potash. We waited a moment, then heard him speak. “This is Potash. Do you have the notes from the police about that grief meeting?” Pause. “Read me the list of everyone who attended that night. Hang on a second, I’m writing them down. Delaney Anderson. Rose Chapman. Jude Feldman. Jared Garrett. Susan Roman. Is that all?” Pause. “We’re just following up a lead. I’ll call you if it goes anywhere.”

I already had the mortuary number tapped in and ready to go. I hit send and waited while it rang.

“Good afternoon,” said a woman’s voice, “and thank you for calling Cochran Mortuary. How may I help you?”

“I need to talk to Mr. Cochran,” I said. Like most mortuaries, this was a family business. We’d talked to Rudolfo Cochran before, in our official capacity as FBI; he knew we were investigating something, but he didn’t know it was an employee. He’d promised not to tell anyone, thinking it was a matter of high security, and I hoped he’d kept that promise—if Elijah got word that we were investigating him at all, and especially if he knew we were this close, he might run. We didn’t want to lose him. A minute later the call transferred to another line, and rang a few more times before Cochran picked it up.

“This is Rudolfo Cochran speaking.”

“This is John Cleaver from the FBI, we spoke last week.”

“Yes,” he said, “you were the young man?”

“Yes. We have some follow-up questions if you don’t mind, and I remind you that this is of the utmost secrecy.” Potash handed me his list, scrawled on the back of one of his hospital release forms. I read the names in order. “Have you had any business lately with a Delaney Anderson?”

“Let me pull up my records,” he said. I heard a few mouse clicks through the phone, and some tapping of keys on a keyboard. “Delaney?”

“Correct.”

“Nothing,” he said.

“How about Jude Feldman?”

More keyboard clicks. “We have a Feldman in our system from two years ago, but it’s not Jude.”

That might mean something. “How about Rose Chapman?”

Click click click.
I heard a soft musical beep as the search command was sent, and then Cochran gave a small “Oh.” His voice grew more distant as he read the data. “Yes, we did a funeral about six weeks ago for a William Chapman, and Rose is on file as his wife. All the sales transactions were conducted through her.”

I felt a surge of excitement.
I was right.
“Can you give me her contact information?” He read it off and I copied it down, and then, just to be thorough, I had him search for the last two names on the list as well. There was another almost match, from nearly ten years earlier, but that was it. I thanked him and hung up. “He was there to see Rose Chapman,” I told the others. “He has her husband’s memories.” I gave Diana the address, and she changed course immediately. I did a search on my phone, finding a massive list of Rose Chapmans, and slowly narrowed it down to the one in Fort Bruce. I found her Facebook page and swore when I saw it.