The Devil Made Me Do It (2 page)

1988

 

The odor of musty bodies and stale beer could be smelled from anywhere in the gymnasium. The music blasted from the speakers, and the crowd of crushed college students swayed to the incessant beat. Bobby Brown was singing about things being his “Prerogative
.
” Young athletic bodies were sweating to the song as though it was the new black anthem.

Deborah was shaking her rump like her clothes were on fire. Her acid-washed designer jeans hugged her hips and her matching shirt rode up with each bounce of her curved body.

Esther cupped her hands around her mouth and called over to Deborah, chanting, “Work that body, work that body! Make sure you don't hurt nobody!”

Deborah acknowledged Esther's call out by throwing her hand over her head and rocking from side to side as she began to prance around Jay, her date for the evening. Her footwork was so flawless, that others dancing watched Deborah on the sly.

Esther laughed out loud and continued to rock the house with her own moves.

While navigating the dance floor, Esther continued to keep her eyes on the door for Sheri and Briggs. She bit her lip and thought about Sheri and the way she always studied so hard and how she constantly worried that she would disappoint her mother. Sheri was an
A
student. How could a person be better than perfect?

Esther smiled when her thoughts shifted to Briggs, and the butterflies started spinning in the pit of her stomach. He was the stuff her dreams were made of. His nose was Roman in appearance and his low cut, waved, fade glistened like black gold. His cleft chin was a perfect fit for her index finger. He was tall, Hershey smooth milk chocolate and “smack yo' mama” handsome. Esther liked his looks, but even more, she loved who he was.

Briggs was ambitious. He had set goals for himself, and he wasn't stopping until they were met. He was a business major and knew he would have his own company one day. She wanted to help people with their problems and was majoring in social work. Many times they sat and talked and dreamed long into the night. It was those times that Esther knew they were meant for each other.

Their biggest issue was Briggs's father. He was a world-renowned televangelist and Briggs thought he walked on water. Esther was glad he loved and respected the man, but she tried to tell him that nobody was perfect and that living up to perfection was an impossible task. He and Sheri always seemed to seek others' satisfaction. Esther called it hoop jumping. And, in Briggs's father's case, the hoops had fire on them. There were times she sat and waited for Briggs, while he jumped hoops. It was a circus act with no safety net in sight.

Esther hoped this wasn't the case tonight since next to homecoming, the new semester icebreaker was the biggest dance of the year.

The song ended, and Esther thanked her dance partner. She never noticed the disappointed look on his face as she walked away to get herself a drink. Esther smiled as she glided up to Deborah who was already in line.

“Girl, you were working the fool out on that floor.” She clowned on Deborah as she tried to imitate her style.

“Honey, you know you can't do me,” Deborah made an intricate dance move.

Esther looked at the sweat pouring down the side of Deborah's beautiful mocha coffee face with its delicate features. This was her girl, her ace in the hole. She handed her a tissue. “No, you're one of a kind.” Esther moved forward and paid her thirty-five cents for a cup of soda.

Deborah grabbed Esther from behind, “Hey, don't look now, but your Romeo just showed up.”

Esther turned and watched Briggs as he strutted into the gymnasium; he was definitely looking good, and she loved his confident swagger. The brother made her molten hot.

“See ya, I hear love calling,” Esther said in a singsong voice as she touched and fingered her hair and swiped lip gloss across her lips.

“Awesome, I'm going to go check on Sheri. You know she can forget it's okay to have fun and not just do schoolwork.”

Esther nodded, already distracted as she sashayed to Briggs with an exaggerated sway to her hips. It was time to play.

 

 

Colgate pearly whites advertised her glowing smile. At twenty years old, she was five foot five and stacked in all the right places. Her asymmetrical haircut was a sign of the times. Her hair was fluid and with a flip of her head, its sheen shimmered in the blinking disco lights. Her luminous, amber complexion was the canvas for her cute turned up nose and wide, generous lips. Over the years, her hated freckles had faded to a memory. She carried a determined air and her dark golden cat eyes broadcasted her every thought.

Briggs watched her approach with an appreciative gaze.

Esther leaned in, placing her hand on his chest. “Hey, I almost thought you weren't going to make it.”

Briggs pressed her hand over his heart. “Me, stand you up and live to tell it? Do I look crazy? I would hear about it forever.” Robust laughter rumbled through his chest.

“Aw, sweetums, we gon' be together forever?” Esther whispered, inhaling his woodsy scent.

Briggs viewed her in the incandescent light, his eyes caressing her. “I'm really feeling you.”

While Anita Baker sang “Good Love,” both sighed contentedly.

“That's my jam. Come on, let a brother get closer.” Briggs pulled Esther into his arms, and she burrowed into him, seeking her niche, her special place. He kissed her hair and took his turn to inhale her sweet fragrance. “When I think about my future, I always see you right there beside me. You're the compass that keeps me on track. You know my father—”

“The very honorable Bishop Stokes,” Esther teased.

“Uh-huh. Anyway, he advises us that it is better to marry than to burn. But, baby, right now, I'm burning for you.”

With Briggs pressed so close to her, Esther felt her determination to stay a virgin until marriage faltering. On the one hand, they were both adults; Briggs was a senior and had recently celebrated his twenty-first birthday. She was a nineteen-year-old sophomore. And, yes, she loved to have a good time, but she was pressing to stay in the will of God. How could someone make a person feel so good, and it be so bad?

Esther accepted Christ as her Savior when she was ten years old. Right now, with Briggs so up close and personal, she needed to stay on her toes. Her problem was she was feeling Briggs, all of him, straight through those same toes. Like her pastor always told her, a person's body could betray them if they didn't put the Holy Spirit in charge.

“Baby, you feel good to me too. Can't we just enjoy this song?” Esther kissed and blew into Briggs's ear. She loved his kisses, but was the taste of his kiss greater than her commitment to her virginity?
Lord, I'm so weak.

Briggs guided her into the shadows of the gymnasium and slanted her head to the left before he gently sucked on her lower lip, then kissed her fully on the mouth. Both moaned, and Esther took as much as she gave.
Jesus, I'm a Rehab.
She opened her eyes and looked into Briggs's brown ones. His questioned if she would take the next step with him. Her hands sweated, and her pulse raced.
A little help, please, Lord
. She hoped Deborah would return soon with Sheri. She needed some divine intervention. Her resolve to do what she was taught, versus what she felt, was fading fast.

 

 

Deborah approached the front door to their dorm room with her key out. “Sheri better not be bent over some book when I get in here,” she said in exasperation
.
She couldn't believe she had to leave the party to rouse her from schoolwork. Her key easily turned, but she was annoyed when the door wouldn't budge.

What the heck?
Deborah banged on the door, “Sheri . . . Sheri, open up. Hey, quit playing.” She continued to shove against the door as it inched open. “Finally,” she maneuvered her body sideways and slipped through the sliver of space.

The room was pitch-black. She reached for the light switch, and her heart plummeted. “Nooooo . . .” The sight before her was a macabre scene from a Hitchcock movie. Sheri, a broken doll caricature, hung from the living-room light fixture.

Deborah raced forward grasping Sheri's legs fighting to untangle her from the clothesline noose. She was too short, and the noose too difficult to reach while she struggled to support Sheri's body.

Tears streamed down her face, and her eyes burned as she leaped on the desk and pulled at the once harmless all-purpose rope Sheri had made into an instrument of death. She swung her body into the rope to get momentum, pulling with everything she had, when Sheri, the light fixture, and the ceiling plaster, crashed to the floor. Plaster particles covered her hair and clung to her eyelids as she sobbed in terror.

“Please, God.” she kneeled beside Sheri's pale, waxy body and shook her. Cold, dark eyes stared vacantly, while she desperately searched for a pulse. In mindless panic, she flew blindly into the hallway. “Help, help, somebody, please, please!”

Several students peered from their dorm rooms and ran into the hallway along with Ms. Renee, the dorm counselor. Her cherub face filled with concern as she intercepted a hysterical Deborah.

“Deborah, what's wrong?” she gripped Deborah's trembling shoulder to slow her down.

“It's Sheri, she's not breathing,” Deborah tugged at Ms. Renee's arm wildly. “Hurry.”

They ran the short distance down the hall. When they entered the room, Ms. Renee staggered at the scene. “Oh no . . . please, not this.” Eyes shining with tears, she rolled Sheri over, lifted the noose from around her neck, and initiated CPR. Feeling no pulse she cried, “Call 911.”

Deborah stooped beside Ms. Renee and shakily dialed the three simple numbers, twice, before she got it right. “H-h-help us. My friend isn't breathing, you . . . have . . . to . . . come . . . now.” She hiccupped the words through her sobs. “Yes, that's our location, the dorms, building 1002. Please, hurry.”

While Ms. Renee continued using CPR, she stroked Sheri's cold, stiff hand and cringed at its unfamiliar texture. She opened her mouth and a seven-year-old Deborah spoke, “You've got to save her, Ms. Renee. Please don't let her die.”

Ms. Renee didn't answer but continued to press on Sheri's chest and breathe into her mouth and nose. Soon, sirens could be heard in the background. Needing to feel useful, Deborah sprinted to the courtyard to rush the paramedics into the building. “Move. Dang, what's wrong with y'all?” She pushed through the drunken party crowd that rubbernecked while blocking the courtyard and hallway.

She met the paramedics and expedited their way to her room. When they reached Sheri, they spoke in hushed tones gathering data from Ms. Renee as they worked in synchronized rhythm to save her. Their expert calm and methodical movements helped Deborah's panic subside.
They'll save her.

They lifted Sheri onto the gurney, and she followed closely with hound dog determination as they rolled the stretcher through the throng of students. At the entrance to the ambulance, Ms. Renee informed Deborah that only she could legally ride inside.

Deborah held on to the ambulance door. “What? Nah, that's not fair. Please, let me come.”

“I'm sorry, you can meet us there, and, I promise, I'll be waiting for you.” She pried Deborah's fingers loose, then hugged her.

Deborah backed away, running with a Flo-Jo pace, headed to the gymnasium. She had to get Esther. They both needed to be with Sheri. Her life depended on it.

Deborah entered the sauna like room and combed through the congested bodies swaying to a slow jam. Friends called out to her, and she ignored every salutation. Finally, she saw Esther and Briggs in the back of the gym. Esther's arms circled Briggs's waist, and they swayed in a harmonized pendulum motion like the grandfather clock in her great-grandma's living room. They were mesmerized, whispering in each other's ears.

Deborah's advance never faltered as she reared back her head and gave a Detroit, hood-piercing scream. “Esther!”

The entire room turned as the sound screeched through the air. Esther jumped away from Briggs in alarm. Her eyes glued to her grief stricken friend.

Deborah, with tears streaming down her face and plaster dust still covering her cheeks, poured out her anguish. “It's bad, real bad. Sheri tried to kill herself.” She wiped at her tears, gasping for air. “Ms. Renee . . . then . . . the men came . . . in the ambulance.” Deborah's hands chopped the air in an agitated manner. “Oh, help . . . me . . . come, come. We have to . . . go.” Deborah pulled on Esther's arm, spun around, and ran with Esther right on her heels.

Esther, heart racing, yelled back at Briggs, “I'll call you.”

Briggs's face was crestfallen as he stopped abruptly from running to accompany them. His body stooped as he watched them move away. Esther and Deborah only looked forward.