The Debutante (10 page)

‘Of what?’

‘It’s not every day a person is introduced to their feet of clay.’

And he looked at me with those smiling eyes of his and I had another sip and suddenly the sun started to shine and my nose stopped running and going home to London didn’t seem like the most hideous disaster that had ever befallen a human being. And when it was time to go, I felt quite woozy and had trouble walking and he let me lean against his arm. Oh, the smell of him! Too moreish — like freshly cut lemons and warm summer rain. And on the boat and the train he was so kind and clever and funny. He never once chided or lectured … And although he calls me ‘Baby’ (which I pretend to be vexed about but secretly adore), he is the only person who treats me like a grown-up woman.

He’s gone back to the Continent now. Apparently he and the Consort can hardly bear to speak to one another, which shows you what good taste he has.

Oh Irene! I know he’s our stepbrother and old enough to be my father but I can’t stop thinking of him. Do you think I’m very depraved? Please don’t tell ANYONE! Why has he never married? Do you know?

Yours, always,
Baby

That day they worked through the house room by room at an exhausting pace. Jack clearly wanted to finish as quickly as possible; his manner turned brisk, almost curt. Every time Cate asked a question or made a comment, he frowned. The more she tried to soften the atmosphere between them, the worse it got, until finally she gave up. It was clear he couldn’t wait to be rid of her.

When they took a break, Cate excused herself and went for a walk into the sheltered Italian rose garden instead of going into the kitchen for lunch. It was still and peaceful; a haven where the minutes felt suspended in amber light. After being indoors for so long the air smelled fresh, of wind and sea, the sun caressing like a warm hand across her shoulders. White roses, plush and fragrant, danced in the breeze, their perfume thick and luxuriant.

Cate wandered over to the sundial, tracing her fingers along the edge.
‘The dawning of morn, the daylight’s sinking, The night’s long hours still find me thinking, Of thee, thee, only thee.’
How romantic and sad.

Sitting on one of the stone benches, she took a deep breath. Despite the lovely surroundings, loneliness pressed like a solid weight against her chest, an unwanted, uninvited companion. It frightened her that she’d managed to alienate Jack; frightened her to be alone, far away from everything she’d grown used to, with a man who clearly found her irritating and inadequate.

She wanted to go home.

But what did the word mean now?

She was brought up in a two-bedroom flat in Highgate with her mother, but that was gone. There was a draughty studio, filled with canvases, above a dry-cleaner’s in New York’s Alphabet City. That wasn’t a home. It wasn’t even a refuge.

Home was something else. It was a sense of herself; a mixture of serenity and hope for who she might become. Cate stared at the great Georgian exterior of Endsleigh. Perhaps that’s why people clung to land, to houses — so that they could enjoy a feeling of permanence and solidity. Yet even Endsleigh, with all its English-heritage glamour, harboured secrets and unresolved questions, cracks through which the true identities of its occupants slipped into elusive darkness.

It reminded her of a piece she’d made at art school; an enormous foldout drawing of a doll’s house in pencil and ink, over six feet tall. At first glance it appeared to be a very traditional, beautiful Victorian structure that, with closer observation, was just slightly wrong. A world that seemed picturesque and charming but was plagued by staircases that led nowhere, rooms with boarded-up windows, doors with no doorknobs. Post piled in a heap, unanswered, blocking the front door; tea things that were never cleared, rotting on china dishes; a hole in the carpet from a stray cigarette; fish floating dead to the surface of the fishbowl — all presided over by stiff, exquisitely dressed dolls, staring blankly into space, passively waiting for someone to determine their next move. Now she had the
eerie feeling of living in an equally unyielding world — only not of her own construction.

That piece had won her an award that year. But it all seemed to belong to another lifetime. How long had it been since she’d produced anything original? Could she even do it any more? Or had her imagination completely atrophied? And yet it came about almost by accident, her new career. There was no long discussion; no real debate or even a period in which she’d gone away to think about it. Like so many of the defining moments of her life, it was little more than a wavering; a yielding to what seemed easiest in that moment.

‘He’s been in the business a long time and is highly respected,’ Paul had told her, scribbling Derek Constantine’s address on the back of an envelope for her. ‘At least he can introduce you to people. You never know.’

She’d rung him as soon as she’d got off the plane. Still jet-lagged, she’d stumbled along the Upper East Side clutching the envelope in one hand and her portfolio in the other, eager to be on time and make a good impression.

Derek’s shop was tiny but, like everything about his aesthetic sense, fastidiously and ruthlessly defined. She’d never seen anything quite like it, even in London. It had a lush decadence about it. Here it was permanently evening, forever bathed in dim lighting that mimicked candlelight, softening edges, smoothing out flaws. The walls were lined with black silk taffeta; the air was
scented with cedar candles imported from Paris; the bare wooden floorboards were polished till they shone. He had only a few pieces, but they were exquisite, once-in-a-lifetime acquisitions. He made his reputation on being able to provide antiquities of singular quality and rarity. A lone ebony Empire chair was displayed in the window, lit by a rose spot from above. Passers-by stopped in their tracks, arrested by the beauty and symmetry of it; the shocking good taste of displaying it on its own. Derek had an eye for Empire pieces. With their over-the-top opulence and narcissistically soothing classical proportions, they best seemed to fit the personality of his particular clientele.

His
pièce de résistance
was a large, round eighteenth-century convex mirror. Its elaborate gilt frame was fashioned with intricate golden sparrows and twining ivy leaves, shining luminously against the shimmering inky wall. Derek said that there wasn’t a week when someone didn’t make an offer on it, but he would never sell. He’d dragged it with him all the way from London and practically had to prise it from another dealer, who’d badly miscalculated its value. And it made a statement.

It couldn’t have been ten minutes into their first meeting when he suggested it to her.

‘Can you fake?’

‘I’m sorry?’

‘Can you fake, darling? Let me see your portfolio.’

She showed it to him.

Frowning, he leafed through. ‘I’ve got clients who would pay handsomely for some original art. Of a more traditional vein.’

‘That’s not my forte. But I’ve got some ideas about a large abstract series based on a modern-day version of
The Three Graces
…’

The expression on his face stopped her mid-flow. ‘Do you want to rent a broom cupboard in a flat-share in Brooklyn for the rest of your life?’

‘Alphabet City.’

‘Whatever.’

‘No, not at all. But I thought that if I could just get a body of new work together …’

Again, he shook his head. ‘To start with you get a name, a client base. As a first-class reproduction painter. Then, very gradually, you begin to paint your own subject matter. See, you’ll be coming from a much stronger place. And I, my dear, am happy to help you. I know plenty of people who can’t even hang their collections because the insurance is so expensive. And some who are too ashamed to admit that they’ve already sold their most precious pieces. Children’s educations have to be paid for in cold hard cash, after all.’ He smiled at her. ‘Let me help you. Let me guide you.’

‘I’m … I’m just not sure …’

‘Would you rather make money painting or waitressing?’

‘Painting. Of course.’

He looked at her. ‘Well, you wouldn’t know it by the
way you’re going on. Do you know how many art students flood into New York every year, each of them thinking that they can take this city by storm? It’s not as easy as it looks. You need an in. You need help. You need’ — he smiled slowly, leaning back in his chair — ‘me.’

‘I am grateful, Derek.’

‘Ava Rottling has just bought the most amazing penthouse overlooking the park. And guess what? She wants a fantastic
trompe l’oeil
in the entrance hall. Of course she doesn’t know that yet. But she will, when I’m done talking to her.’

‘A
trompe l’oeil?’

‘Yes. Plenty of fat pink cherubs bouncing around on fluffy white clouds. And a nubile Venus eyeing a sleeping Mars, preferably in a state of undress.’

The horror in her voice was unmistakable. ‘You mean Romantic?’

‘Yes, Romantic. And expensive, my child. Very expensive.’

‘I don’t know …’

His eyes narrowed. ‘You don’t have to do it if you don’t want to. But I could easily tell her that I know just the right artist, a specialist from London, who’ll be able to do the work. In fact, there’s only one person I would trust with such an important commission. Ava does a great deal of entertaining. Your work would be seen by everyone.’

Fat cherubs. Fluffy clouds. Great, she thought. Everyone would see my derivative Venus; my copy of crap classical bullshit.

‘Pretty soon you could charge what you like. But of course if the subject matter is beneath you …’ he stared at her, unblinking, ‘I believe they’re hiring at the Chicago Rib Shack.’

‘I’ve never painted a
trompe l’oeil,’
she pointed out.

He reached for the phone. ‘How hard can it be? Foreshorten, foreshorten, foreshorten! She’s blind as a bat anyway. I’ll put in a meeting for tomorrow afternoon.’ He started to dial.

She’d thought he might let her work in his shop — not redesign her career.

‘Remember,’ he continued, ‘you’re just off the plane. Your portfolio hasn’t arrived yet. You’re doing this as a favour to me, understand? And whatever you do, tell her that you absolutely don’t have time in your schedule. I want you to turn it down flat. Politely, charmingly, but firmly. Allow me to negotiate the whole thing. Rich people are like babies, they only want things they can’t have.’

She sighed.

At least she would be painting. And being paid. Perhaps Derek was right. Maybe she didn’t have anything new to say artistically. Certainly around him she felt uncouth and adolescent. She’d felt talented in London. Here she felt pedestrian; banal.

Perhaps it was best if she did what he suggested.

Now she had that feeling again, of standing once more at a hidden turning point in her life.

Only what were the choices? Why were they so difficult to see?

There was the crunch of footsteps in gravel. She looked up. Jack was standing on the path, hand across his eyes, wincing in the bright sunlight.

‘Don’t you want anything to eat?’

‘No thanks.’ She shook her head. ‘Not right now.’

‘OK.’ He jammed his hands into his pockets. ‘I was just … you know, checking.’

‘Thanks.’

He stood awkwardly for a minute, tracing an uneven circle in the stones with the toe of his shoe. ‘You’ll never guess what it was.’

‘What?’

‘Lunch.’

‘Oh.’ She smiled. ‘Chicken.’

He seemed genuinely impressed. ‘How did you know that?’

She leaned back on her palms. ‘My psychic powers are world-famous, Mr Coates.’

‘Really?’ He took a step forward. ‘Tell me then, Ms Albion, what am I thinking now?’

The garden was sheltered, private. Even the wind came gently there, broken by the high walls.

She tilted her head to one side. ‘I wouldn’t want to intrude upon your private thoughts.’

‘We Olympian slabs of marble have nothing to hide.’

‘Certain?’

‘Positive.’ He crossed his arms across his chest. ‘Do your worst.’

‘All right.’ She stood, turning round to face him, full on. ‘Prepare to be amazed.’

A cloud passed in front of the sun, and the sky dimmed, like a hand held in front of a lamp.

At first they were guarded, then smiling, self-conscious; on the verge of laughter. But the longer Cate looked at Jack, the more his features relaxed. She’d never looked at anyone so openly or for so long outside of an art studio. There she’d been hidden behind her easel; a voyeur without danger of detection. But she soon forgot herself, concentrating instead on the dark fringe of his lashes, the gentle creases round his eyes, the black arch of his brow — gradually his expression unfolded, opening, revealing.

And while she stared at him, he stared at her. At the pale green centre of her eyes, flecked with gold; at her fierce concentration. She had the bald unblinking eye of an artist, a capacity to observe dispassionately, through the layers of colour and form to the substance, the feeling underneath. And he felt himself unravelling, unable to protect himself against the boldness of her attention.

Jack’s eyes deepened. Beyond the intelligence and sureness Cate caught a glimpse of something else, a sadness, fiercely defended. And then, slowly, behind even that, a thin shard of fear. Cold and precise, it sliced across the navy core of his iris like a splinter of broken glass.

She recognized it. It too pierced the fragile surface of her consciousness. She felt the same sharp metallic taste fill her mouth as it seeped through, bleeding into her. Suddenly she was aware of the enormous effort involved in avoiding it, hiding it; how vulnerable this moment made them. And instinctively, she reached forward, placing her hand lightly on his chest, over his heart, as if to protect it.

Confused by her sudden tenderness, he stiffened slightly. ‘Is this part of your method?’