The Day it Rained Forever (28 page)

‘I don't know.'

‘We were so convenient. The man who rented this room last month, he was convenient, he stood out. He made loud jokes about the natives' siestas. He refused to learn even a smattering of Spanish. Let them learn English, by God, and speak like men, he said. And he drank too much and whored too much with this country's women.' He broke off and moved back from the window. He stared at the room.

The furniture, he thought. Where
he
put his dirty shoes upon the sofa, where
he
burnt holes in the carpet with cigarettes; the wet spot on the wall near the bed, God knows what or how he did
that
. The chairs scarred and kicked. It wasn't
his
hotel or his room; it was borrowed, it meant nothing. So this son-of-a-bitch went around the country for the past one hundred years, a travelling commercial, a Chamber of Commerce, and now here we are, enough like him to be his brother and sister, and there they are down there on the night of the Butler's Ball. They don't know, or if they know they won't think of it, that tomorrow they'll be just as poor, just as oppressed as ever, that the whole machine will have shifted only into another gear.

Now the band had stopped playing below; a man had leaped up, shouting, on the bandstand. There was a flash of machetes in the air and the brown gleam of half-naked bodies.

The man on the bandstand faced the hotel and looked up at the dark room where John and Leonora Webb now stood back out of the intermittent flares.

The man shouted.

‘What does he say?' asked Leonora.

John Webb translated: ‘“It is now a free world,” he says.'

The man yelled.

John Webb translated again. ‘He says, “We are
free
!”'

The man lifted himself on his toes and made a motion of breaking manacles. ‘He says, “No one owns us, no one in all the world.”'

The crowd roared and the band began to play, and while it was playing, the man on the bandstand stood glaring up at the room window, with all of the hatred of the universe in his eyes.

During the night there were fights and pummellings and voices lifted, arguments and shots fired. John Webb lay awake and heard the voice of Señor Esposa below, reasoning, talking quietly, firmly. And then the fading away of the tumult, the last rockets in the sky, the last breakings of bottles on the cobbles.

At five in the morning the air was warming into a new day. There was the softest of taps on the bedroom door.

‘It is me, it is Esposa,' said a voice.

John Webb hesitated, half-dressed, numb on his feet from lack of sleep, then opened the door.

‘What a night, what a night!' said Señor Esposa, coming in, shaking his head, laughing gently. ‘Did you hear that noise? Yes? They tried to come up here to your room. I prevented this.'

‘Thank you,' said Leonora, still in bed, turned to the wall.

‘They were all old friends. I made an agreement with them, anyway. They were drunk enough and happy enough so they agreed to wait. I am to make a proposition to you two.' Suddenly he seemed embarrassed. He moved to the window. ‘Everyone is sleeping late. A few are up. A few men. See them there on the far side of the plaza?'

John Webb looked out at the plaza. He saw the brown men talking quietly there about the weather, the world, the sun, this town, and perhaps the wine.

‘
Señor
, have you ever been hungry in your life?'

‘For a day, once.'

‘Only for a day. Have you always had a house to live in and a car to drive?'

‘Until yesterday.'

‘Were you ever without a job?'

‘Never.'

‘Did all of your brothers and sisters live to be twenty-one years old?'

‘All of them.'

‘Even I,' said señor Esposa, ‘even I hate you a little bit now. For I have been without a home. I have been hungry. I have three brothers and one sister buried in that graveyard on the hill beyond the town, all dead of tuberculosis before they were nine years old.'

señor Esposa glanced at the men in the plaza. ‘Now, I am no longer hungry or poor, I have a car, I am alive. But I am one in a thousand. What can
you
say to them out there today?'

‘I'll try to think of something.'

‘Long ago I stopped trying.
señor
, we have always been a minority, we white people. I am Spanish, but I was born here. They tolerate me.'

‘We have never let ourselves think about our being a minority/ said Webb, ‘and now it's hard to get used to the fact.'

‘You have behaved beautifully.'

‘Is that a virtue?'

‘In the bull-ring, yes, in war, yes, in anything like this, most assuredly yes. You do not complain, you do not make excuses. You do not run and make a spectacle of yourself. I think you are both very brave.'

The hotel manager sat down, slowly, helplessly.

‘I've come to offer you the chance to settle down,' he said.

‘We wanted to move on, if possible.'

The Manager shrugged. ‘Your car is stolen, I can do nothing to get it back. You cannot leave town. Remain then and accept my offer of a position in my hotel.'

‘You don't think there is any way for us to travel?'

‘It might be twenty days,
señor
, or twenty years. You cannot exist without money, food, lodging. Consider my hotel and the work I can give you.'

The Manager arose and walked unhappily to the door and stood by the chair, touching Webb's coat which was draped over it.

‘What's the job?' asked Webb.

‘In the kitchen,' said the Manager, and looked away.

John Webb sat on the bed and said nothing. His wife did not move.

Señor Esposa said. ‘It is the best I can do. What more can you ask of me? Last night, those others down in the plaza wanted both of you. Did you see the machetes? I bargained with them. You were lucky. I told them you would be employed in my hotel for the next twenty years, that you were my employees and deserve my protection!'

‘You said
that
!'

‘
Señor, señor
, be thankful! Consider! Where will you go? The jungle? You will be dead in two hours from the snakes. Then can you walk five hundred miles to a capital which will not welcome you? No – you must face the reality.' señor Esposa opened the door. ‘I offer you an honest job and you will be paid the standard wages of two pesos a day, plus meals. Would you rather be with me, or out in the plaza at noon with our friends? Consider.'

The door was shut. señor Esposa was gone.

Webb stood looking at the door for a long while.

Then he walked to the chair and fumbled with the holster under the draped white shirt. The holster was empty. He held it in his hands and blinked at its emptiness and looked again at the door through which Señor Esposa had just passed. He went over and sat down on the bed beside his wife. He stretched out beside her and took her in his arms and kissed her, and they lay there, watching the room get brighter with the new day.

At eleven o'clock in the morning, with the great doors on the windows of their room flung back, they began to dress. There were soap, towels, shaving equipment, even perfume in the bathroom, provided by Mr Esposa.

John Webb shaved and dressed carefully.

At eleven-thirty he turned on the small radio near their bed. You could usually get New York or Cleveland, or Houston on such a radio. But the air was silent. John Webb turned the radio off.

‘There's nothing to go back to – nothing to go back for-nothing.'

His wife sat on a chair near the door, looking at the wall.

‘We could stay here and work,' he said.

She stirred at last. ‘No. We couldn't do that, not really. Could we?'

‘No, I guess not.'

‘There's no way we could do that. We're being consistent, anyway; spoiled, but consistent.'

He thought a moment. ‘We could make for the jungle.'

‘I don't think we can move from the hotel without being seen. We don't want to try to escape and be caught. It would be far worse that way.'

He nodded.

They both sat a moment.

‘It might not be too bad, working here,' he said.

‘What would we be living for? Everyone's dead – your father, mine, your mother, mine, your brothers, mine, all our friends, everything gone, everything we understood.'

He nodded.

‘Or if we took the job, one day soon one of the men would touch me and you'd go after him, you know you would. Or someone would do something to you, and
I'd
do something.'

He nodded again.

They sat for fifteen minutes, talking quietly. Then, at last, he picked up the telephone and ticked the cradle with his finger.

‘
Bueno
,' said a voice on the other end.

‘señor Esposa?'

‘
Si
.'

‘Señor Esposa,' he paused and licked his lips, ‘tell your friends we will be leaving the hotel at noon.'

The phone did not immediately reply. Then with a sigh, señor Esposa said, ‘As you wish. You are sure – ?'

The phone was silent for a full minute. Then it was picked up again and the Manager said quietly, ‘My friends say they will be waiting for you on the far side of the plaza.'

‘We will meet them there,' said John Webb.

‘And
señor –
'

‘Yes.'

‘Do not hate me, do not hate us.'

‘I don't hate anybody.'

‘It is a bad world,
señor
. None of us know how we got here or what we are doing. These men don't know what they are mad at, except they are mad. Forgive them and do not hate them.'

‘I don't hate them or you.'

‘Thank you, thank you.' Perhaps the man on the far end of the telephone wire was crying. There was no way to tell. There were great lapses in his talking, in his breathing. After a while he said, ‘We don't know why we do anything. Men hit each other for no reason except they are unhappy. Remember that. I am your friend. I would help you if I could. But I cannot. It would be me against the town. Good-bye,
señor
.' He hung up.

John Webb sat in the chair with his hands on the silent phone. It was a moment before he glanced up. It was a moment before his eyes focused on an object immediately before him. When he saw it clearly, he still did not move, but sat regarding it, until a look of immensely tired irony appeared on his mouth. ‘Look here,' he said at last.

Leonora followed his motion, his pointing.

They both sat looking at his cigarette which, neglected on the rim of the table while he telephoned, had burnt down so that now it had charred a black hole in the clean surface of the wood.

It was noon, with the sun directly over them, pinning their shadows under them as they started down the steps of the Hotel Esposa. Behind them, the birds fluted in their bamboo cages, and water ran in a little fountain bath. They were as neat as they could get, their faces and hands washed, their nails clean, their shoes polished.

Across the plaza two hundred yards away stood a small group of men, in the shade of a store front overhang. Some of the men were natives from the jungle area, with machetes gleaming at their sides. They were all facing the plaza.

John Webb looked at them for a long while. That isn't everyone, he thought, that isn't the whole country. That's only the surface. That's only the thin skin over the flesh. It's not the body at all. Just the shell of an egg. Remember the crowds back home, the mobs, the riots? Always the same, there or here. A few mad faces up front, and the quiet ones far back, not taking part, letting things go, not wanting to be in it. The majority not moving. And so the few, the handful, take over and move for them.

His eyes did not blink. If we could break through that shell, God knows it's thin! he thought, if we could talk our way through that mob and get to the quiet people beyond…. Can I do it? Can I say the right things? Can I keep my voice down?

He fumbled in his pockets and brought out a rumpled cigarette package and some matches.

I can try, he thought. How would the old man in the Ford have done it? I'll try to do it his way. When we get across the plaza, I'll start talking, I'll whisper if necessary. And if we move slowly through the mob, we might just possibly find our way to the other people and we'll be on high ground and we'll be safe.

Leonora moved beside him. She was so fresh, so well groomed in spite of everything, so new in all this oldness, so startling, that his mind flinched and jerked. He found himself staring at her as if she'd betrayed him by her salt-whiteness, her wonderfully brushed hair and her cleanly manicured nails and her bright-red mouth.

Standing on the bottom step, Webb lit a cigarette, took two or three long drags on it, tossed it down, stepped on it, kicked the flattened butt into the street, and said, ‘Here we go.'

They stepped down and started around the far side of the plaza, past the few shops that were still open. They walked quietly.

‘Perhaps they'll be decent to us.'

‘We can hope so.'

They passed a photographic shop.

‘It's another day. Anything can happen. I believe that. No – I don't really believe it. I'm only talking. I've got to talk or I wouldn't be able to walk,' she said.

They passed a candy shop.

‘Keep talking, then.'

‘I'm afraid,' she said. ‘This can't be happening to us! Are we the last ones in the world?'

‘Maybe next to the last.'

They approached an open-air
carnecería
.

God! he thought. How the horizons narrowed, how they came in. A year ago there weren't four directions, there were a million for us. Yesterday they got down to four; we could go to Juatala, Porto Bello, San Juan Clementas, or Brioconbria. We were satisfied to have our car. Then when we couldn't get gas, we were satisfied to have our clothes, then when they took our clothes, we were satisfied to have a place to sleep. Each pleasure they took away left us with one other creature comfort to hold on to. Did you see how we let go of one thing and clutched another so quickly? I guess that's human. So they took away everything. There's nothing left. Except us. It all boils down to just you and me walking along here, and thinking too goddamn much for my own good. And what counts in the end is whether they can take you away from me or me away from you, Lee, and I don't think they can do that. They've got everything else and I don't blame them. But they can't really do anything else to us now. When you strip all the clothes away and the doodads, you have two human beings who were either happy or unhappy together, and we have no complaints.