The Dark Reunion (10 page)

But when he reached the backyard, there was a shimmer of motion among the black walnut trees. His eyes, sharper than a human’s because they were adapted for hunting, made out the darker shadow leaning against a trunk.

“You took your time getting back.”

“I had to see the others home safe. And I had to eat.”

“Animal blood,” Damon said contemptuously, eyes fixed on a tiny round stain on Stefan’s T-shirt. “Rabbit, from the smell of it. That seems appropriate somehow, doesn’t it?”

“Damon—I’ve given Bonnie and Meredith vervain too.”

“A wise precaution,” Damon said distinctly, and showed his teeth.

A familiar surge of irritation welled up in Stefan. Why did Damon always have to be so difficult? Talking with him was like walking between land mines.

“I’ll be going now,” Damon continued, swinging his jacket over one shoulder. “I’ve got business of my own to take care of.” He tossed a devastating grin over his shoulder. “Don’t wait up.”

“Damon.” Damon half turned, not looking but listening. “The last thing we need is some girl in this town screaming ‘Vampire!’” Stefan said. “Or showing the signs, either. These people have been through it before; they’re not ignorant.”

“I’ll bear that in mind.” It was said ironically, but it was the closest thing to a promise Stefan had ever gotten from his brother in his life.

“And, Damon?”

“Now what?”

“Thank you.”

It was too much. Damon whipped around, his eyes cold and uninviting, a stranger’s eyes.

“Don’t expect anything of me, little brother,” he said dangerously. “Because you’ll be wrong every time. And don’t think you can manipulate me, either. Those three humans may follow you, but I won’t. I’m here for reasons of my own.”

He was gone before Stefan could gather words for a reply. It wouldn’t have mattered anyway. Damon never listened to anything he said. Damon never even called him by name. It was always the scornful “little brother.”

And now Damon was off to prove how unreliable he was, Stefan thought. Wonderful. He’d do something particularly vicious just to show Stefan he was capable of it.

Wearily, Stefan found a tree to lean against and slid down it to look at the night sky. He tried to think about the problem at hand, about what he’d learned tonight. The description Vickie had given of the killer. Tall, blond hair and blue eyes, he thought—that seemed to remind him of someone. Not someone he’d met, but someone he’d heard about …

It was no use. He couldn’t keep his mind on the puzzle. He was tired and lonely and in desperate need of comfort. And the stark truth was
that there was no comfort to be had.

Elena, he thought, you lied to me.

It was the one thing she’d insisted on, the one thing she’d always promised. “Whatever happens, Stefan, I’ll be with you. Tell me you believe that.” And he had answered, helpless in her spell, “Oh, Elena, I believe it. Whatever happens, we’ll be together.”

But she had left him. Not by choice maybe, but what did that matter in the end? She had left him and gone away.

There were times when all he wanted was to follow her.

Think about something else, anything else, he told himself, but it was too late. Once unleashed, the images of Elena swirled around him, too painful to bear, too beautiful to push away.

The first time he’d kissed her. The shock of dizzy sweetness when his mouth met hers. And after that, shock after shock, but at some deeper level. As if she were reaching down to the core of himself, a core he’d almost forgotten.

Frightened, he’d felt his defenses tear away. All his secrets, all his resistance, all the tricks he
used to keep other people at arm’s length. Elena had ripped through them all, exposing his vulnerability.

Exposing his soul.

And in the end, he found that it was what he wanted. He wanted Elena to see him without defenses, without walls. He wanted her to know him for what he was.

Terrifying? Yes. When she’d discovered his secret at last, when she’d found him feeding on that bird, he had cringed in shame. He was sure that she’d turn away from the blood on his mouth in horror. In disgust.

But when he looked into her eyes that night, he saw understanding. Forgiveness. Love.

Her love had healed him.

And that was when he knew they could never be apart.

Other memories surged up and Stefan held on to them, even though the pain tore into him like claws. Sensations. The feel of Elena against him, supple in his arms. The brush of her hair on his cheek, light as a moth’s wing. The curve of her lips, the taste of them. The impossible midnight blue of her eyes.

All lost. All beyond his reach forever.

But Bonnie had reached Elena. Elena’s spirit, her soul, was still somewhere near.

Of anyone, he should be able to summon it. He had Power at his command. And he had more right than anyone to seek her.

He knew how it was done. Shut your eyes. Picture the person you want to draw near. That was easy. He could see Elena, feel her, smell her. Then call them, let your longing reach out into the emptiness. Open yourself and let your need be felt.

Easier still. He didn’t give a damn about the danger. He gathered all his yearning, all his pain, and sent it out searching like a prayer.

And felt … nothing.

Only void and his own loneliness. Only silence.

His Power wasn’t the same as Bonnie’s. He couldn’t reach the one thing he loved most, the one thing that mattered to him.

He had never felt so alone in his life.

“You want
what
?” Bonnie said.

“Some sort of records about the history of
Fell’s Church. Particularly about the founders,” Stefan said. They were all sitting in Meredith’s car, which was parked a discreet distance behind Vickie’s house. It was dusk of the next day and they had just returned from Sue’s funeral—all but Stefan.

“This has something to do with Sue, doesn’t it?” Meredith’s dark eyes, always so level and intelligent, probed Stefan’s. “You think you’ve solved the mystery.”

“Possibly,” he admitted. He had spent the day thinking. He’d put the pain of last night behind him, and once again he was in control. Although he could not reach Elena, he could justify her faith in him—he could do what she wanted done. And there was a comfort in work, in concentration. In keeping all emotion away. He added, “I have an idea about what might have happened, but it’s a long shot and I don’t want to talk about it until I’m sure.”

“Why?” demanded Bonnie. Such a contrast to Meredith, Stefan thought. Hair as red as fire and a spirit to go with it. That delicate heart-shaped face and fair, translucent skin were deceptive, though. Bonnie was smart and
resourceful—even if she was only beginning to find that out herself.

“Because if I’m wrong, an innocent person might get hurt. Look, at this point it’s just an idea. But I promise if I find any evidence tonight to back it up, I’ll tell you all about it.”

“You could talk with Mrs. Grimesby,” Meredith suggested. “She’s the town librarian, and she knows a lot about the founding of Fell’s Church.”

“Or there’s always Honoria,” Bonnie said. “I mean, she
was
one of the founders.”

Stefan looked at her quickly. “I thought Honoria Fell had stopped communicating with you,” he said carefully.

“I don’t mean talk to
her.
She’s gone,
pfft
, kaput,” Bonnie said disgustedly. “I mean her journal. It’s right there in the library with Elena’s; Mrs. Grimesby has them on display near the circulation desk.”

Stefan was surprised. He didn’t entirely like the idea of Elena’s journal on display. But Honoria’s records might be exactly what he was looking for. Honoria had not just been a wise woman; she had been well versed in the
supernatural. A witch.

“The library’s closed by now, though,” Meredith said.

“That’s even better,” said Stefan. “No one will know what information we’re interested in. Two of us can go down there and break in, and the other two can stay here. Meredith, if you’ll come with me—”

“I’d like to stay here, if you don’t mind,” she said. “I’m tired,” she added in explanation, seeing his expression. “And this way I can get my watch over with and get home earlier. Why don’t you and Matt go and Bonnie and I stay here?”

Stefan was still looking at her. “Okay,” he said slowly. “Fine. If it’s all right with Matt.” Matt shrugged. “That’s it, then. It might take us a couple of hours or more. You two stay in the car with the doors locked. You should be safe enough that way.” If he was rig ht in his suspicions, there wouldn’t be any more attacks for a while—a few days at least. Bonnie and Meredith
should
be safe. But he couldn’t help wonder what was behind Meredith’s suggestion. Not simple tiredness, he was sure.

“By the way, where’s Damon?” Bonnie asked
as he and Matt started to leave.

Stefan felt his stomach muscles tighten. “I don’t know.” He had been waiting for someone to ask that. He hadn’t seen his brother since last night, and he had no idea what Damon might be doing.

“He’ll show up eventually,” he said, and closed the door on Meredith’s, “That’s what I’m afraid of.”

He and Matt walked to the library in silence, keeping to the shadows, skirting areas of light. He couldn’t afford to be seen. Stefan had come back to help Fell’s Church, but he felt sure Fell’s Church didn’t want his help. He was a stranger again, an intruder here. They would hurt him if they caught him.

The library lock was easy to pick, just a simple spring mechanism. And the journals were right where Bonnie had said they would be.

Stefan forced his hand away from Elena’s journal. Inside was the record of Elena’s last days, in her own handwriting. If he started thinking about that now …

He concentrated on the leather-bound book beside it. The faded ink on the yellowing pages
was hard to read, but after a few minutes his eyes got accustomed to the dense, intricate writing with its elaborate curlicues.

It was the story of Honoria Fell and her husband, who with the Smallwoods and a few other families had come to this place when it was still virgin wilderness. They had faced not only the dangers of isolation and hunger but of native wildlife. Honoria told the story of their battle to survive simply and clearly, without sentimentality.

And in those pages Stefan found what he was looking for.

With a prickling at the back of his neck, he reread the entry carefully. At last he leaned back and shut his eyes.

He’d been right. There was no longer any doubt in his mind. And that meant he must also be right about what was going on in Fell’s Church now. For an instant, bright sickness washed over him, and an anger that made him want to rip and tear and hurt something. Sue. Pretty Sue who had been Elena’s friend had died for … that. A blood ritual, an obscene initiation. It made him want to
kill.

But then the rage faded, replaced by a fierce determination to stop what was happening and set things right.

I promise you, he whispered to Elena in his own mind. I
will
stop it somehow. No matter what.

He looked up to find Matt looking at him.

Elena’s journal was in Matt’s hand, closing itself over his thumb. Just then Matt’s eyes looked as dark a blue as Elena’s. Too dark, full of turmoil and grief and something like bitterness.

“You found it,” Matt said. “And it’s bad.”

“Yes.”

“It would be.” Matt pushed Elena’s journal back into the case and stood. There was a ring almost of satisfaction in his voice. Like somebody who’s just proved a point.

“I could have saved you the trouble of coming here.” Matt surveyed the darkened library, jingling change in his pocket. A casual observer might have thought he was relaxed, but his voice betrayed him. It was raw with strain. “You just think of the worst thing you can imagine and that’s always the truth,” he said.

“Matt…” Sudden concern stabbed at Stefan. He’d been too preoccupied since coming back to Fell’s Church to look at Matt properly. Now he realized that he’d been unforgivably stupid. Something was terribly wrong. Matt’s whole body was rigid with tension lying just under the surface. And Stefan could sense the anguish, the desperation in his mind.

“Matt, what is it?” he said quietly. He got up and crossed to the other boy. “Is it something I did?”

“I’m fine.”

“You’re shaking.” It was true. Fine tremors were running through the taut muscles.

“I said I’m fine!” Matt swung away from him, shoulders hunched defensively. “Anyway, what could
you
have done to upset me? Besides taking my girl and getting her killed, I mean?”

This stab was different, it was somewhere around Stefan’s heart and it went straight through. Like the blade that had killed him once upon a time. He tried to breathe around it, not trusting himself to speak.

“I’m sorry.” Matt’s voice was leaden, and when Stefan looked, he saw that the tense
shoulders had slumped. “That was a lousy thing to say.”

“It was the truth.” Stefan waited a moment and then added, levelly, “But it’s not the whole problem, is it?”

Matt didn’t answer. He stared at the floor, pushing something invisible with the side of one shoe. Just when Stefan was about to give up, he turned with a question of his own.

“What’s the world really like?”

“What’s … what?”

“The world. You’ve seen a lot of it, Stefan. You’ve got four or five centuries on the rest of us, right? So what’s the deal? I mean, is it basically the kind of place worth saving or is it essentially a pile of crap?”

Stefan shut his eyes. “Oh.”

“And what about people, huh, Stefan? The human race. Are we the disease or just a symptom? I mean, you take somebody like—like Elena.” Matt’s voice shook briefly, but he went on. “Elena died to keep the town safe for girls like Sue. And now Sue’s dead. And it’s all happening again. It’s never over. We can’t win. So what does that tell you?”

“Matt.”

“What I’m really asking is, what’s the point? Is there some cosmic joke I’m not getting? Or is the whole thing just one big freaking mistake? Do you understand what I’m trying to say here?”

“I understand, Matt.” Stefan sat down and ran his hands through his hair. “If you’ll shut up a minute, I’ll try to answer you.”