The Complete Morgaine (138 page)

The riders gathered again in a place near the road, and Chei leaned on the saddle of the big roan, weary, and feeling the weight of the mail on his shoulders, in a dizziness in which his very body seemed diminished, the light dimmed, the voices about him become strange, calling him ‘my lord' and speaking to him with courtesies. The
qhal
who served him were not confused. Certainly a few of the humans with him measured the difference in his stature and saw his apparent youth and thought treasonous thoughts, but had they lifted daggers against him, there were enough of his own folk about him to protect him, and there was the captain of Skarrin's warders, who was bound, under present and ironical circumstance, to protect him.

They were a few more than twoscore—of all that company that had left Morund-keep, of the levies; and ten—those men of Skarrin's who had joined them at Tejhos-gate. The rest were dead or scattered or wounded too severely to continue; and it had needed at least half a score men to leave in charge of the wounded, but he had left six and bidden them stay camped where they were for fear the hillmen might hit them on the way back to Morund. That was how desperate things had become.

This open sky is madness
, Chei thought. The open blue above them, the land laid open to any witness, shivered through his nerves as if he lay naked to his enemies, though he remembered fighting in such land before, in times that humans had come deep within the plains. Something deep as instinct pulled him in two directions, and feared nameless things.

Most of all, the one he would have turned to for advice was not there, and whenever he turned and looked about him he missed that face, which shifted and changed from silver-haired to red to palest gold like some reflection in troubled water: Pyverrn. Jestryn. Bron. The void ached in him, in a place where the voices could not reach, a point at which all memory found anchor.
Qhiverin-Gault-Chei, all alone among the men who followed him, longed for a familiar haven, even if the nature of it confounded itself between stone walls and the closeness of forest—

But his enemy, the enemy which lay hidden somewhere in this place, did not shift like sun on water: of him, of her, of the man he was and the man who pursued, he could not think clearly at all: it was like trying to look at the sun itself, a glare in which no shape was distinguishable.

“The troops from Mante are coming south to meet us,” he told his followers, as he paced the red horse along the roadside, where they formed up. “The captain affirms that. We will have reinforcements. And we will not close with our enemy, now we know what we face.” The red horse shifted under him and he curbed it, riding it back and forth past his listeners, silver-haired and dark,
qhal
and human. “But there are other ways. Those of you who have been loyal to me—I will reward after this. Count on it. Those of you who are human I will gift with land. Do you hear me? For those of you who follow me, I will give you the holdings of every man who fled. I will have it known how I pay loyalty—and deserters. We will settle this business, we will settle it on our terms, and give Mante's troops the leavings. Our enemies have gone into the land, that is what they have done; but they do not know their way—and we do. I want this pair.
I want them.
Need I say how much?”

 • • • 

“I have found a place,” Vanye said, when they found each other after scouting afoot up and down the area, the gray horse and the white left in hiding the other side of the hill.

“Good,” Morgaine said, wiping her brow, “because there is nothing in the other direction.”

It was a place they rode to then, where the rains had washed beneath a sandstone cap, and where still a little water ran in a sandy bed, folded on either side by hills and closed round by thorn and a scattered few trees.

And no better place to hide indeed had they found.

It was cold rations and not so much as fire to boil water, but it was rest; it was respite from the pace they had set, and it was a chance for the horses to recover their strength, if it meant walking afield and bringing grass to them to keep them hidden.

So he did, and curried them both till their coats shone, did a bit of work with Siptah's left hind shoe, and afterward lay in the sun and slept, while Morgaine worked at the horses' trail-worn gear. Then it was turn about while she slept, and after that a leisurely supper of cold sausage and cheese and waybread.

It was the last of the cordial they shared, the last sweet taste of arrhendur honey.

They watched the sun go down over the hill in a film of cloud and silken
colors, and they sat a while under a golden twilight, leaned shoulder against shoulder and watched the horses drink from the rill and eat the forage he had gotten for them in places he did not think cutting would be evident.

He was content. Morgaine leaned back against the hill and smiled at him in her turn, one of her rare, kindly smiles. The quiet, and the brief, fond glance of her eyes set his heart to racing as if they were both be-spelled. Twilight touched her slanted cheekbones, touched her gray eyes and silver hair and the edges of the mail of her over-sleeves, the black leather, the buckles of her armor, and—like a watchful familiar, the dragon-sword lying beside her against a stone. Its ruby eyes winked red and wicked.

I am here
, it said.
I never sleep.

But it was familiar to him too. Like Morgaine—her silences, the little shifts of her expression which he could read or thought he read—as now he read something in her level, continual stare which had the silence of the night about it, and the dying light dancing in gray,
qhalur
eyes and a face every line of which he knew in his sweetest and most terrible dreams.

“How long,” she said at last, “does thee think to camp here?”

He frowned as he found himself suddenly back in an argument he had thought he had just won. “
Liyo
, do not think of it. Do not think of when.
Stay camped
, do nothing. Do not move or stir: let the enemy do that, that is my counsel in the matter.”

“Until winter sets in?” A frown leapt to her eyes. “It—”

“A few days, for Heaven's own sake. A few days. Five. I do not know.”

He had not wanted debate with her. He found his muscles gone tense, his breathing quickened; and she dejectedly flung a pebble into the little rill that ran at their feet.

Fret and fret, she would; she could not stay still, could not delay, could not rest, as if no other thought would stay in her head.

“We cannot wait here for the snows.”

“God in Heaven,
listen
to me. Let them move. Let us find out what they will do. That is the purpose of this.”

“In the meanwhile—”

“God help us. Tomorrow—tomorrow I will scout out and around.”

“
We
will,” she said.

“You can stay in—”

“We can gain a few leagues north. That is all. If the next camp is not so comfortable, then the one after—”

He rested his brow against his joined hands. “Aye.”

“Vanye, I take your advice—we go slowly. We let the horses build back their strength. But we dare not be further from that gate than we can reach—whatever the lord in Mante decides to do.”

“Let him! Whatever he will do, let him! He will come after us. He will try us. He will not bolt.”

“We are risking everything on that. Thee knows.”

“Why?” he asked. “Tell me why this lord should leave his people?”

“It is possible that they are
not
his people.”

He had thought that he had the shape of things, in this strange war that stretched from land to land, with curving horizons and stars too few or too many and moons that came and went. He tried to make a wise answer to that, so she should not think all her teaching wasted.

“You mean that he might be a human man, in
qhalur
shape.”

“It is the name,” she said.

“Skarrin?” It had no
qhalur
sound. But there were
qhal
who had uncommon names.

“It is a name in a very old language. I do not know where he should have heard it. Perhaps it is all chance. Languages have coincidence. But this, on a
qhal
—this name: there are among the gate worlds, a kind older than the
qhal
. And such of them as survive—are very dangerous.”

“What are you saying—older than the
qhal
? Who is older?”

“Older than the calamity the
qhal
know. Did I ever say it had only happened but the once?”

He said nothing. He scarcely understood the first calamity, how the
qhal
had made the gates and made time flow amiss, till Heaven set matters straight again, or as straight as matters could be, where gates remained live and potent, pouring their magics
(their power
, Morgaine insisted,
do not be superstitious)
into worlds where
qhal
survived.

“Thee does not understand.”

He shook his head ruefully. “No.”

“I do not know,” she said. “Only the name troubles me. A name and not a name. In that language Skarrin means an outsider. A foreigner.”

The dark was gathering. The first stars were out. He crossed himself against the omen, whatever it should mean.

“My father,” Morgaine said, “was one such.”

He looked at her as if some chasm had opened at his feet, and all of it dark. She had named comrades from before his time—from before he or his father before him was ever born.

Of kin she had never spoken. She might have risen out of the elements, out of moonbeams, out of the tales of his people.

I am not qhal
, she had said time and again. And at one time:
I am halfling.

“Are you saying this Skarrin—then—is kin of yours?”

“None, that I know.”

“Who
was
your father?”

“An enemy.” She cast another pebble into the darkening water, and did not look at him. “In a land before yours. He is dead. Let it rest.”

He would not have trod on that ground for any urging.

“He was
qhal
, to your way of thinking,” Morgaine said. “Give it peace. It has no significance here. Anjhurin was his name. You have heard it. Now forget ever you heard it. This Skarrin is no one I know, but my name might warn him, changed as it is.”

He took in his breath and let it go again, stripping a bit of grass in his fingers, looking only at that. And
for
a long time neither of them spoke.

He shrugged. “I will scout out tomorrow,” he said, to have the peace back, to ease her mind, however he could. “When I go for forage. There might be something over the hills.”

“Aye,” she said, and shifted round to lean her shoulder against his back. He sighed at the relief that gave the center of his back, against the armor-weight. “But two of us would—”

“I. Do we need start every bird and rabbit 'twixt us and Mante?” He felt a sense of impending calamity, such that his breath came in with a shiver, and he let it go again. “I will go.”

“Afoot?”

“No. I can ride the stream-course. There will be no difficulty.” He sighed against her weight on his shoulders, and looked at the sky in which the stars had begun to appear. “We should rest,” he said sullenly.

“Is thee angry?”

He drew in his breath, and shifted about to face her.
Aye
, he was about to say. But the sober, gentle look she gave him was rare enough he hesitated to offend it.

She was always and always the same, always devil-driven, always restless, incapable even of reason.

And she had brought them through, always, somehow—was always beforehand, always quicker than her enemies expected, and not
where
they expected.

She might drive a sane man mad.

“Vanye?” she asked.

“What more?”
he said shortly.

She was silent then, and sat back with a wounded look that shot through him and muddled all the anger he could muster.

It was not, not, Heaven knew, the face she turned to the world. Only to him. Only to him, in all the world.

He got to his feet and snatched up a wildflower at his other side, knelt and solemnly offered the poor thing to her, all closed up for the night as it was. Bruised, it had a strong grass smell, the smell of spring lilies, that reminded him suddenly of rides on a brown pony, of—Heaven knew—his boyhood.

Her eyes sought up to his. Her mouth curved at the edges, and solemnly she took it, her fingers brushing his hand. “Is this all thee offers?”

“Aye,” he said, off his balance in his foolishness: she always had the better of him with words—was not, he suddenly thought, taking it for a jest; or was; he did not know, suddenly; it was like everything between them. He gestured desperately beyond his shoulder. “Or,” he said briskly, deliberately perverse, “I might find others, if I walked along the stream there. I might bring you a handful.”

Her eyes lightened, went solemn then, and slowly she rose up to her knees and put her arms about his neck, whereat the world went giddy as the smell of flowers.

“Do it tomorrow,” she said, a long moment later; and gently she began the buckles of his armor, that she had helped him with a hundred times to different purpose.

Changeling
slipped from its place and fell with a rattle as they made themselves a nest there of their cloaks and blankets. She reached out and laid the dragon sword down beside them, the hilt toward her hand, and loosed his hair from the ivory pin.

So he laid his own sword, close by the other side. They never quite forgot. There had been too many ambushes, that they could ever quite forget.

 • • • 

It was up and prepare to move at sunrise, in the dewy chill and the damp; and Vanye shut his eyes, wrapped in his blanket, leaning his back against Morgaine's knee and letting her comb and braid his hair this morning, carefully and at leisure, which a lady might do for her man. He sighed in that quiet, and that contentment.