The City When It Rains (14 page)

“How you doing?” Corman asked casually.

“Okay,” Groton replied. One of his large furry eyebrows trembled slightly, then collapsed. “What's new?”

“Nothing much.”

“You drinking anything?”

“Maybe a short one,” Corman said. He walked back to the bar, ordered a beer of his own, then returned to the booth. “Here's to you,” he said, then took a quick sip from the beer and returned the glass to the table. “You hang around this part of town a lot?”

“Enough,” Groton said. “Used to shoot it some.”

“You been shooting a long time,” Corman said.

“Since I was eighteen,” Groton said. He laughed, but edgily, as if at himself.

“Must have seen a lot,” Corman added.

“You writing a book?”

Corman forced a laugh. “Me? No. I'm a shooter. I leave the words to other people.”

Groton wagged his finger at him. “That's your mistake, partner.”

“You think so?”

“I know so,” Groton said. “You know that saying, ‘a picture's worth a thousand words'?”

Corman nodded.

“It's bullshit,” Groton said with a sudden vehemence. “I'll tell you what a picture's worth. It's worth thirty-five bucks a print. A few bucks more for color.” He lifted his glass slightly. “That's what a picture's worth.” He took a quick sip from the glass, then returned it loudly to the table. “I never had a picture up from page five. Front page? Forget it. I'm talking page five.”

Corman could smell the air souring around him. Groton's self-pity was like a musty odor, and the fact that he probably had a few legitimate reasons for it didn't do a thing to relieve it.

“You shoot blood and guts, you're on the front page five, minimum four times a year,” Groton went on irritably. “But you shoot some rich little twit's birthday party at the Met, you're back with the motor pool and the boiler-room jobs.”

Corman cleared his throat softly. “I had a shoot a few days ago,” he said. “A jumper on Forty-seventh Street.”

“East or West?”

“West. Good shots, too, but Pike said no.”

Groton shrugged. “When a spade jumps out a window, that's page eight, column one, no shots. That's the way it's always been. Nothing changes.”

“She wasn't black.”

“Well, these days, even whites end up on the back pages.”

“She had a college degree,” Corman said. “At least that's what I heard.”

Groton leaned back slowly, rubbed his stomach gently, groaned. “Gas,” he explained. “Lately, I get real bad gas.” He curled one of his large red hands into a fist, pounded it softly against his stomach. “I guess I'll have to get off the sauce,” he said quietly, more or less to himself.

“You never worked the news beat, did you, Groton?” Corman asked.

Groton shook his head. “Not me. I got a different gig altogether. Society.” He belched quietly. “But even that beat, it has its secrets.”

“Like what?”

“Well, you got to know how to shoot it.”

Corman cocked his head to the left. If he took over Groton's job, he'd need to know how to play the inside track.

“You got to flatter the rich, that's the secret,” Groton said. He laughed. “That's the only secret there is.”

“How do you do that?”

“Well, I'll tell you this,” Groton said. “You don't concentrate on their fancy clothes and shit.” He shook his head dismissively. “That's what the young turks do, dumb fucks.”

“You don't?”

“Just enough for atmosphere,” Groton told him. “But I'll tell you something about the rich. They don't give a shit about their clothes and their big fancy dining rooms. When it comes to publicity, that's not what matters to them.”

“What does?”

“They want to be flattered all right,” Groton went on. “Who doesn't? But in a certain way. They want the pictures to make them look like there's something to them besides money. They want to believe that. It's important to them. They want everybody to believe that.” He shrugged. “That's why they like to hang out with writers and actors and people like that, and you always need to take pictures of them with that type of people, not just sipping champagne with some leather-skinned old boozer who married a shipping tycoon when Napoleon was a corporal.”

It was the sort of tip Corman thought he could use if he ever found himself standing in a fancy ballroom somewhere, staring blankly at a line of giggling debutantes, his camera bag hanging from his shoulder like a ball and chain.

“You eat good on my beat, too,” Groton added after a moment. “You know, always scarfing something from the hors d'oeuvre tray.”

Corman allowed himself a quick laugh.

Groton turned inward suddenly, as if his mind were taking inventory, recalling, year by year, the motion of his days. “All in all, it's not a bad life,” he said finally, as if in conclusion. Then the conclusion fell apart, and a shadow passed over his face. “But it's strictly back page.” He belched again, took another sip from the glass. “You live in midtown, don't you?”

“Yeah. Couple blocks away.”

“High rent?”

“High enough.”

“You're still lucky to have it,” Groton said. “There aren't many places left in Manhattan a regular working stiff can afford.”

“Yeah, well, I may not be able to afford it much longer.”

Groton scratched his ear. “How long you been living in New York?”

“Long time.”

“Well, I been here for almost fifty years,” Groton said. “But originally, I was from the wide open spaces. Way out west. My father could remember when they still called it Indian Country.”

“Is that right?”

“God's truth.”

Corman said nothing.

Groton turned inward again, remained silent for a moment, then suddenly smiled, almost impishly. “Where never is heard a discouraging word,” he crooned lightly. “And the skies are not cloudy all day.”

Night had fallen over the city by the time Corman finally left the bar, nodding quietly to Groton, who seemed hardly to know that he was going.

Near home, the streets were filled with people who only came out after dark, their eyes still dim and puffy with the long day's idleness. A black woman in a blond wig motioned to a couple of strolling West Point cadets. They eased away from her, laughing nervously. For a time, Corman followed them, taking pictures from behind, concentrating on the proud lift of their shoulders as they made their way down the avenue, carefully glancing away from the windows of porno shops, the mocking eyes of the whores who lined their path. He could feel the tension of their besieged rectitude, but as he continued to photograph them, he felt his sympathy slip away, and with it, his interest, found himself concentrating on other faces, bodies, styles of being, the street's engulfing randomness, until he turned onto 45th Street and made his way home.

Once in his apartment, he made dinner, sat with Lucy at the small table, and chatted about her day, the usual round of fourth-grade gossip. He listened quietly but found he could hardly remember what she was saying. It was as if she were already disappearing from his life, dissolving into those tiny dots Seurat had used to portray the parks and beaches of his own dissolving age.

“Maybe we should go to a museum again sometime,” he said after a moment.

“Okay,” Lucy said.

“An art museum.”

“I thought you liked pictures better.”

“I like paintings too,” Corman said.

“Okay, we could do that,” Lucy said. She took a large bite from the hot dog Corman had made for her and munched it energetically. “I like paintings.”

Corman wondered if perhaps Lexie would have been more inclined to leave Lucy with him had he been a painter. At least he would have had a little studio somewhere, and she could have gotten the idea that Lucy was being introduced to art, something Lexie would value in a way she could never value the part of life Lucy had come to know by being with him, the streets, the sharp edge of the city, its fierce irony and darkly battered charm.

He thought of the woman, then of the only witness to her fall, the man Lang had interviewed and the lookout had called Simpson. “I have to go out tonight,” he said. “Something I'm working on.”

“Okay,” Lucy replied lightly. “I have lots of homework.”

“I won't be gone long,” he assured her.

She didn't seem to hear him. Instead she got up and headed for her room, her fingers already digging for one of the small pencils he was perpetually finding among the tangle of grotesquely knotted clothes he sorted for the wash.

“I'll try to be back before you go to bed,” he called after her, but she'd already disappeared into her room.

* * *

The building had once had a buzzer system, but it had fallen into disrepair. The front door was slightly ajar, and just inside, the tenants had written their names and apartment numbers across the faded plaster walls. Simpson's name was the third one on the list. His apartment number was 1–C. Before going to it, Corman took a few shots of the names. In a book, the picture would suggest their expendability, tell the world how little they mattered. In the right position, it would add a flavorful detail to the woman's fall, leave no room for doubt as to just how far it was.

Simpson opened his door unexpectedly wide and nodded crisply. “You're the photographer?” he asked matter-of-factly.

“Yes.”

“Archie said a photographer was working the neighborhood.”

“I talked to him this afternoon,” Corman said. He kept his eyes on the man in the doorway, noted the sharpness of his features, the predatory glint in his eyes. In a picture he would come off vaguely menacing, a man you wouldn't want to meet on any terms but your own. “I took some pictures of the store,” he added.

“Yeah, he told me,” Simpson said. “He said you were doing some kind of book. What about?”

“The woman who fell,” Corman said.

“Jumped,” Simpson said.

“Yeah, jumped.”

Simpson folded his arms over his chest and rooted his feet in place. “So, tell me about this book.”

“It's mostly pictures.”

“You done something like it before?”

“No, this would be my first one,” Corman said, “and I was hoping that …”

Simpson pressed an open hand toward him. “Whoah, now, slow down,” he said. “I got to know a few things.”

“Like what?”

“Well, you saw some money, didn't you?”

“For the book? No.”

“But you will see some, right?”

“I may.”

Simpson smiled cleverly. “Don't start fucking with me. I'm not some goddamned streetfreak.”

“I didn't say …”

“You want a piece of me, I got a right to have a piece of you,” Simpson said firmly. “The action. Know what I mean?”

“I don't think there's going to be …”

Simpson laughed. “You're bullshitting me again.”

Corman shook his head.

“Yes, you are,” Simpson told him confidently. “Playing me for a fool.”

“I was just interested in …”

“Something for nothing,” Simpson interrupted. “Well, you can forget it.” He started to close the door. “I got to talk to the cops, but I don't have to do nothing for you without there's something in it for me.”

“But I don't have anything to give you,” Corman said.

Simpson smiled mockingly and closed the door. “Works the same from me to you, dickhead,” he said.

CHAPTER
FOURTEEN

C
ORMAN DRESSED
quickly the next morning. He could still see Simpson's door closing in his face, blocking another route to Sarah Rosen and the book Julian wanted out of her. Hastily, he considered his other options, his frantic pace sweeping out to Lucy, rushing her through her morning routine so hurriedly that by the time they reached her school she was tired and irritable.

“May I play at Maria's after school?” Lucy asked as they neared the school gate.

“I guess.”

She smiled brightly. “Don't forget to pick me up there,” she said, then lunged away from him, sprinting up the stairs, as if in dread of his good-bye kiss.

Corman shook his head helplessly, then walked east to the offices of the
News
on 42nd Street.

As he made his way toward the building's perpetually turning revolving doors, Corman remembered the morning Lazar had brought him over to introduce him to Pike and get him started in the business. They had paused at the doors and Lazar had nodded toward the river, showing him where Nathan Hale had declared his regret at having only one life to give for his country, a line which made him famous, Lazar had said with a slim, ironic smile, despite the fact that he'd simply lifted it from an old English play.

Corman did not pause now as he hustled into the building and went directly to the elevators. Once on the fourth floor, he glanced toward Pike's office and saw him pacing back and forth behind its Plexiglas windows. For a moment he hesitated, standing silently as the elevator doors closed behind him, almost afraid to move. It was as if each step he took now was somehow irretrievable, marked with fatal falls.